Chapter 12
'You think you can be a better father figure than I can, but. maybe your right.'
'Maybe you can, but you'll never have the chance. Sara doesn't want you so why should my kid?'
'I use to think you two had a thing, but when she came back to me each time, I knew she didn't feel anything for you, but the last time it was different.'
'This best friend shit was a cover up all the time.'
'No.' 'Friends.'
Moving toward Sara and Kate, Jake pointed the gun at Sara's head. 'Really, so. you won't mind if I kill her?'
'No don't please.'
She saw his eyes when he was being taunted by Jake. She could see the fear in his eyes as he tried to pull Jake away from them and get his attention focused on anything but her and Kate. Remembering every detail made it worse for her to tell Kate. What was she thinking? How could she tell Kate about Jake, when he was willing to kill her when she was only a baby?
When they were at home, Jake would be nice one minute and then Kate would cry and he would get angry. It was a time bomb marriage. Sara would come home late and he would get angry. The paperboy dropped the paper on the sprinklers and he would get angry and the only people he would take it out on was Kate and Sara. He would neglect Kate completely, but then he would use her to get Sara to do things. He used his own daughter to get things he wanted.
What kind of father was that? Kate was stuck in the middle and Sara brought her into this world to that kind of life with visions of Jake venting his anger on something other than her bruised body. He was happy when Sara told him she was pregnant. But she could not and would not forget how Kate was conceived. She tried to push the thought from her mind, but he was the reminder every time she saw him.
Grissom was the only one who saw through the façade and tried to help, but she didn't let him and she saw the hurt in his eyes each time. She'd never told him what Jake did, she knew he would figure it out with just one look at her. She knew he tried so hard to help, but she turned him away every time. The last time was not the last and she let Grissom help, but left him to go straight back to Jake.
If he knew how hard it was to stay away from someone you loved, he would know that she couldn't not give Jake all the chances he deserved. He was her husband and she was his wife. She had to try and make things right, but his behaviour only got worse. She was afraid that every time Jake picked Kate up, that he was going to hurt her, but he never did. He never laid one finger on Kate. He ignored her, shouted at her, but never injured her physically.
Sara knew that deep down, he loved Kate and if she tried to give him chances, he would forgive her for whatever she did wrong to make him so angry. Then Grissom pulled her away and the fighting stopped. She'd gotten so use to the noise, the shouting, the bruises, but when she was in his home. It was quiet and peaceful. His home was so warm, it was full of Grissom and it made her feel safe, but scared at the same time. She knew then, that she loved him more than a friend, but she couldn't let Jake see that.
How could she love two men and want to try and rebuild her marriage with the abusive husband? It tore at her every time she saw Grissom with Kate and how much love he gave to them both without him even asking for anything in return.
'You think you can be a better father figure than I can, but. maybe your right.'
'Maybe you can, but you'll never have the chance. Sara doesn't want you so why should my kid?'
'I use to think you two had a thing, but when she came back to me each time, I knew she didn't feel anything for you, but the last time it was different.'
'This best friend shit was a cover up all the time.'
'No.' 'Friends.'
Moving toward Sara and Kate, Jake pointed the gun at Sara's head. 'Really, so. you won't mind if I kill her?'
'No don't please.'
She saw his eyes when he was being taunted by Jake. She could see the fear in his eyes as he tried to pull Jake away from them and get his attention focused on anything but her and Kate. Remembering every detail made it worse for her to tell Kate. What was she thinking? How could she tell Kate about Jake, when he was willing to kill her when she was only a baby?
When they were at home, Jake would be nice one minute and then Kate would cry and he would get angry. It was a time bomb marriage. Sara would come home late and he would get angry. The paperboy dropped the paper on the sprinklers and he would get angry and the only people he would take it out on was Kate and Sara. He would neglect Kate completely, but then he would use her to get Sara to do things. He used his own daughter to get things he wanted.
What kind of father was that? Kate was stuck in the middle and Sara brought her into this world to that kind of life with visions of Jake venting his anger on something other than her bruised body. He was happy when Sara told him she was pregnant. But she could not and would not forget how Kate was conceived. She tried to push the thought from her mind, but he was the reminder every time she saw him.
Grissom was the only one who saw through the façade and tried to help, but she didn't let him and she saw the hurt in his eyes each time. She'd never told him what Jake did, she knew he would figure it out with just one look at her. She knew he tried so hard to help, but she turned him away every time. The last time was not the last and she let Grissom help, but left him to go straight back to Jake.
If he knew how hard it was to stay away from someone you loved, he would know that she couldn't not give Jake all the chances he deserved. He was her husband and she was his wife. She had to try and make things right, but his behaviour only got worse. She was afraid that every time Jake picked Kate up, that he was going to hurt her, but he never did. He never laid one finger on Kate. He ignored her, shouted at her, but never injured her physically.
Sara knew that deep down, he loved Kate and if she tried to give him chances, he would forgive her for whatever she did wrong to make him so angry. Then Grissom pulled her away and the fighting stopped. She'd gotten so use to the noise, the shouting, the bruises, but when she was in his home. It was quiet and peaceful. His home was so warm, it was full of Grissom and it made her feel safe, but scared at the same time. She knew then, that she loved him more than a friend, but she couldn't let Jake see that.
How could she love two men and want to try and rebuild her marriage with the abusive husband? It tore at her every time she saw Grissom with Kate and how much love he gave to them both without him even asking for anything in return.