Chapter 13
Grissom dropped Kate at Shannon's on his way home. He needed to talk to Sara and find out what she's actually planning on doing. He couldn't hold it in anymore. He needed to know. He walked into the house and waited for Sara to get home. They had taken separate cars the past few days and they both arrived home at different times.
This time Grissom stayed up and waited. He was standing in the living room with his back to the door. He was looking at the photos on the shelf. Many of them were of him and Sara and other were of him, Sara and Kate. A few were of the whole team from when Kate was a baby and others were taken from over the years.
Grissom jumped when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He spun around and came face to face with Sara. She looked down at the floor when she saw the shocked look in his eyes. He closed his eyes and shook his head slightly. "I'm sorry. I didn't hear the door." He explained and scratched his left ear. "Must of faded out for a minute."
She nodded and looked up. "Did you check your aid? You might need it changing."
He shook his head and pulled the hearing aid off. "I'll ring Ross later." He checked it quickly and put it back on. Sara turned to leave the living room, when Grissom reached out and grasped her hand. "Sara."
She turned back and looked at him. "I was just going to get changed." She smiled slightly and wondered towards the bedroom.
Grissom followed her and sat on the bed. "Kate came to the lab earlier."
Sara turned from the dresser. "She did?"
He nodded and sat back against the headboard. "She's worried about us."
Sara pulled out a shirt and sat on the bed, her back was to him as she spoke. "She said the same thing when I took her to school."
Grissom stared at her back and placed his hand on the bed behind her. He wanted to touch her, but he didn't know if she wanted him to. "She asked me if I was leaving."
"What did you tell her?" Sara turned her head slightly when he didn't answer.
Feeling the hurt in his chest, Grissom turned away from her. "You want me to leave don't you?" He whispered to the floor as he looked down at his clasped hands.
Sara looked over her shoulder quickly at his words and stood. She walked around the bed and knelt bedside him. "I never want you to leave. I'd never let you leave." She pressed, raising her hand to touch his, but he pulled away.
"What if she can't look at me Sara? She will hate me." His voice was strained as he pushed the words out. "I can't forget what happened. I would give my life for you both, but I can't live with her hating me for what I did. I try so hard to make you happy-"
"You don't need to try." She said strongly. "You've never had to try. I'm happy with my life-"
Grissom nodded stiffly as he stood. "But you were happy then too."
Sara stared at the bed where he was sitting as she nodded. "I was.on some level."
"And I took that from you. I know why you never let me help you Sara. You never wanted me from the beginning. I should never have interfered with your life." He opened the bedroom door and left Sara kneeling on the floor.
Grissom dropped Kate at Shannon's on his way home. He needed to talk to Sara and find out what she's actually planning on doing. He couldn't hold it in anymore. He needed to know. He walked into the house and waited for Sara to get home. They had taken separate cars the past few days and they both arrived home at different times.
This time Grissom stayed up and waited. He was standing in the living room with his back to the door. He was looking at the photos on the shelf. Many of them were of him and Sara and other were of him, Sara and Kate. A few were of the whole team from when Kate was a baby and others were taken from over the years.
Grissom jumped when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He spun around and came face to face with Sara. She looked down at the floor when she saw the shocked look in his eyes. He closed his eyes and shook his head slightly. "I'm sorry. I didn't hear the door." He explained and scratched his left ear. "Must of faded out for a minute."
She nodded and looked up. "Did you check your aid? You might need it changing."
He shook his head and pulled the hearing aid off. "I'll ring Ross later." He checked it quickly and put it back on. Sara turned to leave the living room, when Grissom reached out and grasped her hand. "Sara."
She turned back and looked at him. "I was just going to get changed." She smiled slightly and wondered towards the bedroom.
Grissom followed her and sat on the bed. "Kate came to the lab earlier."
Sara turned from the dresser. "She did?"
He nodded and sat back against the headboard. "She's worried about us."
Sara pulled out a shirt and sat on the bed, her back was to him as she spoke. "She said the same thing when I took her to school."
Grissom stared at her back and placed his hand on the bed behind her. He wanted to touch her, but he didn't know if she wanted him to. "She asked me if I was leaving."
"What did you tell her?" Sara turned her head slightly when he didn't answer.
Feeling the hurt in his chest, Grissom turned away from her. "You want me to leave don't you?" He whispered to the floor as he looked down at his clasped hands.
Sara looked over her shoulder quickly at his words and stood. She walked around the bed and knelt bedside him. "I never want you to leave. I'd never let you leave." She pressed, raising her hand to touch his, but he pulled away.
"What if she can't look at me Sara? She will hate me." His voice was strained as he pushed the words out. "I can't forget what happened. I would give my life for you both, but I can't live with her hating me for what I did. I try so hard to make you happy-"
"You don't need to try." She said strongly. "You've never had to try. I'm happy with my life-"
Grissom nodded stiffly as he stood. "But you were happy then too."
Sara stared at the bed where he was sitting as she nodded. "I was.on some level."
"And I took that from you. I know why you never let me help you Sara. You never wanted me from the beginning. I should never have interfered with your life." He opened the bedroom door and left Sara kneeling on the floor.