Chapter 14
Grissom leaned against the tree in the back garden and looked down at the grass. The breeze blew some of the desert dust past him and he coughed and rubbed his chest. Looking at his hand, he stilled his hand and held it over his heart. He was reminded every day about what he did. He would forget for a while, but he would still have moments when he couldn't stop the images flying through his head.
'It was him wasn't it?' 'Sara, please. I can help.'
'What can you do Griss?'
'I can say something, we can talk to Brass, please.'
'There's nothing anyone can do. He won't stop. The bruises fade and he doesn't do it often only when he wants.'
'Oh God Sara. How could he? I won't let him do anything to you again.' 'I promise.'
He failed then. He couldn't protect her. She wouldn't let him. She loved Jake even when he hurt her. How could she love someone like that? He must have really pushed her away before she met Jake, for her to not trust him.
'It's been happening ever since Kate was born. He was fine before, but not anymore. I don't know but I think he's using Kate to get back at me.' 'The other day at the lab, he wouldn't let me hold her. I didn't know what to do.'
'I'm here now, I'll help you through this.'
She told him that when they were sat on his couch in his apartment. He'd just pulled Jake from beating her again and took them. He took them to his place and was willing to keep them safe, but she didn't let him do that, not for long.
'I'm hurting you.'
'No, you'd never hurt me.'
'I've fallen in love with you.' 'Both of you.'
He told her and she stayed, for a little while. He went to her house and got her and Kate's things, but when he got back from work the next night, he found her on his bed. He'd just been attacked by Jake and he was arrested for assault.
'It won't always be over you know?'
'I know, but as long as I have you.' 'You have what you've always wanted now Gil.'
'She won't be mine Sara.'
'She's always been yours.' 'You've been more of a father than Jake ever has.'
Was that really true? How would she know if he was more of a father figure to Kate back then? She was never allowed to let Kate anywhere near him. Was it Jake who forced her to keep Kate from him or was it her?
'When Kate was born and I saw her for the first time.' 'All I could think was that she looked so much like her mother, so beautiful.'
'You make it hard for me not to have these feelings for you, you know that don't you?'
'I've loved you for so long it hurts too much to see you in any kind of pain.'
And that was the truth. He'd never stopped loving her from the very first moment he saw her, he was just too afraid to do anything about it. He thought it would go away, but over the years, it only got stronger and it hurt when he saw her with others. It was always a reminder that she never really had any feelings towards him.
'Why is he here?'
'He's taking his daughter to the park.'
Grissom knew she meant it. He couldn't fight it. Jake was Kate's father.
He still is.
Grissom leaned against the tree in the back garden and looked down at the grass. The breeze blew some of the desert dust past him and he coughed and rubbed his chest. Looking at his hand, he stilled his hand and held it over his heart. He was reminded every day about what he did. He would forget for a while, but he would still have moments when he couldn't stop the images flying through his head.
'It was him wasn't it?' 'Sara, please. I can help.'
'What can you do Griss?'
'I can say something, we can talk to Brass, please.'
'There's nothing anyone can do. He won't stop. The bruises fade and he doesn't do it often only when he wants.'
'Oh God Sara. How could he? I won't let him do anything to you again.' 'I promise.'
He failed then. He couldn't protect her. She wouldn't let him. She loved Jake even when he hurt her. How could she love someone like that? He must have really pushed her away before she met Jake, for her to not trust him.
'It's been happening ever since Kate was born. He was fine before, but not anymore. I don't know but I think he's using Kate to get back at me.' 'The other day at the lab, he wouldn't let me hold her. I didn't know what to do.'
'I'm here now, I'll help you through this.'
She told him that when they were sat on his couch in his apartment. He'd just pulled Jake from beating her again and took them. He took them to his place and was willing to keep them safe, but she didn't let him do that, not for long.
'I'm hurting you.'
'No, you'd never hurt me.'
'I've fallen in love with you.' 'Both of you.'
He told her and she stayed, for a little while. He went to her house and got her and Kate's things, but when he got back from work the next night, he found her on his bed. He'd just been attacked by Jake and he was arrested for assault.
'It won't always be over you know?'
'I know, but as long as I have you.' 'You have what you've always wanted now Gil.'
'She won't be mine Sara.'
'She's always been yours.' 'You've been more of a father than Jake ever has.'
Was that really true? How would she know if he was more of a father figure to Kate back then? She was never allowed to let Kate anywhere near him. Was it Jake who forced her to keep Kate from him or was it her?
'When Kate was born and I saw her for the first time.' 'All I could think was that she looked so much like her mother, so beautiful.'
'You make it hard for me not to have these feelings for you, you know that don't you?'
'I've loved you for so long it hurts too much to see you in any kind of pain.'
And that was the truth. He'd never stopped loving her from the very first moment he saw her, he was just too afraid to do anything about it. He thought it would go away, but over the years, it only got stronger and it hurt when he saw her with others. It was always a reminder that she never really had any feelings towards him.
'Why is he here?'
'He's taking his daughter to the park.'
Grissom knew she meant it. He couldn't fight it. Jake was Kate's father.
He still is.