LJ the Sixth Year
Chapter 4: Prelude to a mope
Hello loyal fans and new readers! Welcome to chapter 4 of Lily and James: The Sixth Year!! I am deeply sorry for the appalling lack of updates and promise to get better at it! Thanks to all those who take the time to review, I appreciate it! Lots of Love to all writers and readers alike Love-ends-with-hope
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"Lily, Lily. Come on, time to get up. We're gonna miss lunch. " Sirius gently tried to wake Lily up.
"Don't care, lunch." Lily mumbled into Sirius's chest, tuning on her side away from him.
"Come on, Lil. I'm a growing boy; I can not go all day without food. We already missed
breakfast, now we're going to miss lunch! Come on, up and at 'em!"
"You go. I stay here." Lily said, already drifting back to sleep, as she snuggled further
into the blankets.
"Lils, come on, I'm sure Kris misses you."
"Oh my God! I forgot about Kris! She had already gone down to breakfast! I haven't
seen her all morning." She leapt out of the bed and raced for the door.
"See ya later, Sirius."
"Lily, wait!" Sirius called. Lily continued to the door, ignoring him. "You're wearing my
clothes," he finished quietly to himself, watching as the door swung shut behind her.
"Kris, Kris. I'm so sorry." Lily said, gasping for breath as she ran into the Great Hall. "I
forgot about breakfast, and I fell asleep, and now here I am," she finished lamely,
noticing the look her best friend, Kristen O'Brian, was giving her.
"Umm, Lil. Have you seen yourself?"
"No. What's wrong? Is my hair a mess?" She reached up and self consciously smoothed
her hair down.
"Lily, you're wearing Sirius Black's clothes!"
"Oh well, they're comfy." Lily said, shrugging, ignoring the 'thank-God- looks-can't -kill'
looks she was receiving from most of the female population.
"Alright, whatever."
The two girls sat down, Kristen talking excitedly about everything Lily had missed that morning.
"And oh my God, Devon and Laurie came down for breakfast together, like holding
hands. God, I want to kill her! Then, Tyler and Shawn got in a huge fight, apparently
over the last piece of bacon, and they both had to go to the hospital wing. Then Simon
came in and yelled at Krystal for flirting with other guys, and I think they broke up. It's
kinda sad, cause they've been together since 4th year, but she doesn't deserve him, and
he finally figured that out. Then, let's see, what else happened?"
"Whoa, Kris. Slow down a bit, I only caught about half that. It sounded like Devon and
Tyler got in a fight over Shawn, and Simon yelled at Krystal for flirting with Laurie!" Lily
said, watching with amusement, as her best friend paused to take a breath.
The girls sat giggling and talking over they're lunch, sentences colliding midair. As Lily
was pouring her second glass of pumpkin juice, a shadow fell over her. She looked up,
and staring straight back at her were James Potter's gorgeous hazel eyes.
"Lily, I." James began, unusually nervous. What was it about this girl that made him
stutter and babble like an idiot?
"Save it, Potter," Lily hissed as she stood up and brushed past him roughly, on her way
out of the Great Hall. James looked down at Kristen.
"What are you waiting for, you ass? Go after her!"
He nodded at her quickly, and then ran off after Lily. He caught up with her at the
bottom the main staircase, grabbing her by the hand, spinning her around to face him.
"Lily, wait. Please give me a second chance."
"Let go of me, now!"
"No. Lily, I need you to listen to me. I need you to forgive me. Not that I think I deserve
it." He added hastily, seeing the mutinous look on Lily's face. "But you need to
understand something. I.I.I."
"Complete sentences would be appreciated." Lily said harshly.
"I am completely, head over heels, in love with you. It took me a long time to figure it
out, but I did it, in the end, I figured it out. I don't know when it happened, and I don't
know why. But I do know, when I look at you, when I see you smile, when I hear you
laugh, I feel that I could stay in that moment forever. The dimple in your left cheek
when you smile, the sparkle in your eyes when you laugh, they way you tuck your hair
behind your ears when your nervous. You are so amazing, and I'm not sure you realize
this, but you are. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness; and I defiantly don't deserve
you. But please, one chance, it's all I'm asking for." James looked at her, cautious, yet
hopeful.
"I.I can't." Lily's voice was soft. Did she really say she couldn't? She looked down, and
realized that he still held her hand in his. It just felt so right, like that's right where she
was meant to be at that moment and that scared her more than anything else ever had.
"I'm sorry, James. I just, I can't." She bit her lip, looking at him for a moment, pulled
her hand away gently and ran. James watched her go, her every foot step causing him
more pain. Why was it that the only girl he wanted was the one girl he couldn't have?
He sat down on the bottom step of the staircase, and just stared at nothing, his
thoughts a million miles away. Fifteen minutes later, when Sirius and Remus came
looking for James, they found him, still staring at nothing, tears silently coursing down his face.
'James? What happened?' Remus sat down next to his friend. Sirius laughed
humorlessly, recalling him saying those exact words to Lily. Lily.
'It was Lily, right?'
'I told her.' James answered, looking up. His voice was hoarse and hollow, his eyes
shining with the remainder of his tears.
'Told her what?' Sirius asked slowly, knowing, and dreading, the answer.
'I told her that I.That I love her.'
'You didn't. Well, what did she say?'
'She said "I can't".' James answered, considering it an accomplishment that he was able
to repeat her answer with falling completely apart.
'She can't what?' Sirius asked, not understanding how his two friends just couldn't make
it work, even though the whole school knew they belonged together.
'I dunno. She ran away before I could ask her, all she said was 'I'm sorry. I just can't''
He put his head into his hands, not looking at his friends, as he began to lose control of
his voice. Fresh tears began to pour down his face, and a quiet sobbing was heard by
Sirius and Remus. Sirius leaned over, and pulled James up. The two friends looked into
each others eyes, and Sirius instantly pulled his best friend into an embrace, comforting
him silently, just as he had done with Lily. At that moment, Kristen came out of the
Great Hall, saw Sirius and James and asked 'Which way did she go?' James merely
pointed in the direction Lily had fled towards, not trusting his voice at all. Kristen
nodded, gently touching James's hand as she passed him.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~~*~~*~*~~*~*~* Lily lay face down on her bed, still in Sirius's clothes, on top of the covers, exactly where
she had been for the last half an hour. She wasn't at all surprised when she heard the
door open and shut quietly, nor when she heard Kristen's voice call out 'Lily?'
'Oh, God, Kris.' She answered, sitting up. 'It's all wrong.'
'I know, honey, I know. It's going to be ok.' Kristen soothed, unsure as to just what was
all wrong.
'No, Kris. It's not going to be ok. It never will be. I'm in love with someone who I
couldn't possibly be with. How is that going to be ok?' Lily was becoming slightly
hysterical, and Kristen could tell by her voice that she had been sobbing.
'Well, I just left a sobbing James, and here I find you in the same state. For the love of
God, would someone tell me what's going on here?!' Kristen's voice was louder than she
had intended, but in her frustration, she didn't bother to apologize.
'He said he loves me.' Lily said softly, once more lying down, not looking at Kristen,
missing the almost comical look of shock on her face.
'He loves you! He LOVES you!!...Wait, if he loves you, why the hell are you both sobbing
your little hearts out?'
'I said that he said he loves me, I didn't say he actually did. It's all part of his I'm-
going-to-prove-to-the-world-that-I-can-get-any-girl-I-want game. And I don't play
games. Besides, how could someone like that love someone like me?'
'What do you mean?'
'I mean, why would someone that damn adorable, someone that funny, cute, charming,
smart, kind, attractive, witty, gorgeous..love some like me?'
'And just what is someone like you?'
Hello loyal fans and new readers! Welcome to chapter 4 of Lily and James: The Sixth Year!! I am deeply sorry for the appalling lack of updates and promise to get better at it! Thanks to all those who take the time to review, I appreciate it! Lots of Love to all writers and readers alike Love-ends-with-hope
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"Lily, Lily. Come on, time to get up. We're gonna miss lunch. " Sirius gently tried to wake Lily up.
"Don't care, lunch." Lily mumbled into Sirius's chest, tuning on her side away from him.
"Come on, Lil. I'm a growing boy; I can not go all day without food. We already missed
breakfast, now we're going to miss lunch! Come on, up and at 'em!"
"You go. I stay here." Lily said, already drifting back to sleep, as she snuggled further
into the blankets.
"Lils, come on, I'm sure Kris misses you."
"Oh my God! I forgot about Kris! She had already gone down to breakfast! I haven't
seen her all morning." She leapt out of the bed and raced for the door.
"See ya later, Sirius."
"Lily, wait!" Sirius called. Lily continued to the door, ignoring him. "You're wearing my
clothes," he finished quietly to himself, watching as the door swung shut behind her.
"Kris, Kris. I'm so sorry." Lily said, gasping for breath as she ran into the Great Hall. "I
forgot about breakfast, and I fell asleep, and now here I am," she finished lamely,
noticing the look her best friend, Kristen O'Brian, was giving her.
"Umm, Lil. Have you seen yourself?"
"No. What's wrong? Is my hair a mess?" She reached up and self consciously smoothed
her hair down.
"Lily, you're wearing Sirius Black's clothes!"
"Oh well, they're comfy." Lily said, shrugging, ignoring the 'thank-God- looks-can't -kill'
looks she was receiving from most of the female population.
"Alright, whatever."
The two girls sat down, Kristen talking excitedly about everything Lily had missed that morning.
"And oh my God, Devon and Laurie came down for breakfast together, like holding
hands. God, I want to kill her! Then, Tyler and Shawn got in a huge fight, apparently
over the last piece of bacon, and they both had to go to the hospital wing. Then Simon
came in and yelled at Krystal for flirting with other guys, and I think they broke up. It's
kinda sad, cause they've been together since 4th year, but she doesn't deserve him, and
he finally figured that out. Then, let's see, what else happened?"
"Whoa, Kris. Slow down a bit, I only caught about half that. It sounded like Devon and
Tyler got in a fight over Shawn, and Simon yelled at Krystal for flirting with Laurie!" Lily
said, watching with amusement, as her best friend paused to take a breath.
The girls sat giggling and talking over they're lunch, sentences colliding midair. As Lily
was pouring her second glass of pumpkin juice, a shadow fell over her. She looked up,
and staring straight back at her were James Potter's gorgeous hazel eyes.
"Lily, I." James began, unusually nervous. What was it about this girl that made him
stutter and babble like an idiot?
"Save it, Potter," Lily hissed as she stood up and brushed past him roughly, on her way
out of the Great Hall. James looked down at Kristen.
"What are you waiting for, you ass? Go after her!"
He nodded at her quickly, and then ran off after Lily. He caught up with her at the
bottom the main staircase, grabbing her by the hand, spinning her around to face him.
"Lily, wait. Please give me a second chance."
"Let go of me, now!"
"No. Lily, I need you to listen to me. I need you to forgive me. Not that I think I deserve
it." He added hastily, seeing the mutinous look on Lily's face. "But you need to
understand something. I.I.I."
"Complete sentences would be appreciated." Lily said harshly.
"I am completely, head over heels, in love with you. It took me a long time to figure it
out, but I did it, in the end, I figured it out. I don't know when it happened, and I don't
know why. But I do know, when I look at you, when I see you smile, when I hear you
laugh, I feel that I could stay in that moment forever. The dimple in your left cheek
when you smile, the sparkle in your eyes when you laugh, they way you tuck your hair
behind your ears when your nervous. You are so amazing, and I'm not sure you realize
this, but you are. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness; and I defiantly don't deserve
you. But please, one chance, it's all I'm asking for." James looked at her, cautious, yet
hopeful.
"I.I can't." Lily's voice was soft. Did she really say she couldn't? She looked down, and
realized that he still held her hand in his. It just felt so right, like that's right where she
was meant to be at that moment and that scared her more than anything else ever had.
"I'm sorry, James. I just, I can't." She bit her lip, looking at him for a moment, pulled
her hand away gently and ran. James watched her go, her every foot step causing him
more pain. Why was it that the only girl he wanted was the one girl he couldn't have?
He sat down on the bottom step of the staircase, and just stared at nothing, his
thoughts a million miles away. Fifteen minutes later, when Sirius and Remus came
looking for James, they found him, still staring at nothing, tears silently coursing down his face.
'James? What happened?' Remus sat down next to his friend. Sirius laughed
humorlessly, recalling him saying those exact words to Lily. Lily.
'It was Lily, right?'
'I told her.' James answered, looking up. His voice was hoarse and hollow, his eyes
shining with the remainder of his tears.
'Told her what?' Sirius asked slowly, knowing, and dreading, the answer.
'I told her that I.That I love her.'
'You didn't. Well, what did she say?'
'She said "I can't".' James answered, considering it an accomplishment that he was able
to repeat her answer with falling completely apart.
'She can't what?' Sirius asked, not understanding how his two friends just couldn't make
it work, even though the whole school knew they belonged together.
'I dunno. She ran away before I could ask her, all she said was 'I'm sorry. I just can't''
He put his head into his hands, not looking at his friends, as he began to lose control of
his voice. Fresh tears began to pour down his face, and a quiet sobbing was heard by
Sirius and Remus. Sirius leaned over, and pulled James up. The two friends looked into
each others eyes, and Sirius instantly pulled his best friend into an embrace, comforting
him silently, just as he had done with Lily. At that moment, Kristen came out of the
Great Hall, saw Sirius and James and asked 'Which way did she go?' James merely
pointed in the direction Lily had fled towards, not trusting his voice at all. Kristen
nodded, gently touching James's hand as she passed him.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~~*~~*~*~~*~*~* Lily lay face down on her bed, still in Sirius's clothes, on top of the covers, exactly where
she had been for the last half an hour. She wasn't at all surprised when she heard the
door open and shut quietly, nor when she heard Kristen's voice call out 'Lily?'
'Oh, God, Kris.' She answered, sitting up. 'It's all wrong.'
'I know, honey, I know. It's going to be ok.' Kristen soothed, unsure as to just what was
all wrong.
'No, Kris. It's not going to be ok. It never will be. I'm in love with someone who I
couldn't possibly be with. How is that going to be ok?' Lily was becoming slightly
hysterical, and Kristen could tell by her voice that she had been sobbing.
'Well, I just left a sobbing James, and here I find you in the same state. For the love of
God, would someone tell me what's going on here?!' Kristen's voice was louder than she
had intended, but in her frustration, she didn't bother to apologize.
'He said he loves me.' Lily said softly, once more lying down, not looking at Kristen,
missing the almost comical look of shock on her face.
'He loves you! He LOVES you!!...Wait, if he loves you, why the hell are you both sobbing
your little hearts out?'
'I said that he said he loves me, I didn't say he actually did. It's all part of his I'm-
going-to-prove-to-the-world-that-I-can-get-any-girl-I-want game. And I don't play
games. Besides, how could someone like that love someone like me?'
'What do you mean?'
'I mean, why would someone that damn adorable, someone that funny, cute, charming,
smart, kind, attractive, witty, gorgeous..love some like me?'
'And just what is someone like you?'