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fluffiness...maybe I'll give it to you in this chapter or a few chapters
later..but of course I will put a lot of fluff later!!! AND YOU PEOPLE WHO
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============== Chapter Twelve==============
"InuYasha!" Kikyo said calmly walking gracefully over to InuYasha....
InuYasha was lying on the ground wounded.
"Kikyo?!" he cried in surprise, "you're the one who saved me?"
Kikyo calmly nodded and sat down, putting InuYasha' s head to rest on her lap.
"InuYasha, my dear InuYasha" she whispered.
InuYasha just stared up at her in surprise. He was too busy looking at Kikyo that he did not see Kagome running away towards the hut.
~She came back. Of course she would. OH! Why did I have to see them together AGAIN?! Oh, stupid Kikyo!~ Kagome raised to the well where she would be transported back into her time.
~Damn.....if I leave this place, I'll never be able to come back again! I have no more Shikon jewels left with me....But I can't stay. I can't bear to see InuYasha with another person. Naraku was right, I can be happy for InuYasha, but never truly happy myself. Kikyo and InuYasha are probably fated to be together. Who am I to think I can change it. It'll be better if I leave....~ Kagome thought. ~No....I DON"T want to leave him!!! I can't! Just one more day....then I'll leave. I'll be on my best behavior so everyone will remember the best of me..~
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"Kikyo" InuYasha murmured, still resting on Kikyo's lap. Sango, Shippo had gone to help Miroku search for the child a while before.
"Are you feeling a little bit more better?" Kikyo calmly asked.
"Yah...." InuYasha looked around to see Sango, Miroku, and Shippo running towards them.
"InuYasha! InuYasha!" Shippo cried seeing InuYasha badly wounded.
Miroku halted, "Kikyo-sama..."
Kikyo gently laid InuYasha back down and gracefully stood back up.
"Where's Kagome?" InuYasha asked in shock.
"I...I thought she was with you.." Sango replied.
Kikyo's face darkened. ~Kagome......bitch~
InuYasha felt his heart race. ~What if...she's hurt somewhere out there? !~
InuYasha sighed inrelief to see Kagome.
Kagome came running.
"Sorry guys...I, um, had to go check something out" Kagome said from the top of her head.
"Were you worried InuYasha?" She asked, trying to act herself.
"Feh, why would I worry bout you.....but of course I did worry about you..." InuYasha said using his sword for support as he stood up.
Kagome felt her heart warm. ~He worried about me....~
"Cuz if you died, Miroku, Sango, and Shippo here would beat the day light out of me. They'd say 'InuYasha did it' " InuYasha said in a mocking voice.
Kagome's face darkened, ~it would have been perfect if he had just ended with his first sentence~
"Humph."
InuYasha turned to see Kikyo walking away. ~Shit, I forgot about Kikyo!~
"Kikyo!" InuYasha cried.
Silence.
~What if she's mad and never comes back to me? What if she hates me again?~
"KIKYO!!!!!!"
Each time InuYasha cried her name, a part of Kagome's heart ripped out.
"Come on" Kagome said, grabbing Miroku and Sango's arm with Shippo jumping onto Miroku's shoulder, "Let's leave this sad dog here to sulk himself away. I really can't stand to hear anymore" Kagome said bitterly pulling them away. They all glanced at her in wonder.
She stopped and looked down at the ground in shock, and slightly looked behind her to see InuYasha slouching over his sword in pain and muttering Kikyo's name.
She squeezed her eyes shut. ~Am I turning into such a horrible girl? Just because Inuyasha loves Kiikyo and not me......No! I will not act like this! Just because of jealousy, I will not give in to what Naraku would want~
"InuYasha, let's go back to the hut and fix your wound. The next time Kikyo comes to see you, she'd probably like ta see you well and alive" Kagome said warmly grabbing a hold of InuYasha's arm and helping him walk.
~ Kagome....your moods are so strange. They change so quickly. You can never get boring, your full of suprises.... But no matter what you always come back to my side, you never have once abandoned me.....~ InuYasha thought, glancing over at Kagome.
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InuYasha lay on a mat after Kagome and Sango treated his wounds.
~Deep in my heart.....for some reason, I feel as if I am ignoring something important...ignoring an important truth that doesn't seem to be coming to mind. And the truth.....seems to scare me, even if I don't know what it is. Why, whenever I try to figure it out, does Kagome come to mind? ~ InuYasha thought.
"InuYasha, are you feeling better?" Kagome asked as she came over with a bowl of Ramon. "Here you go, eat up"
"Yah, whatever"
"You should say thank you"
"Feh, demons don't need to say there please n thank you' s"
"Suit yourself" Kagome sighed, "but I'm sure Kikyo would like you to have manners"
"What the hell is up with you?! All you've been mentioning ever since you saw me with Kikyo was, ' Kikyo would like this, Kikyo would like that, Kikyo won't like that, Kikyo would get mad at you for that, Kikyo this, Kikyo that' " InuYasha said mocking Kagome' s voice.
"Sorry" Kagome replied dryly. ~I wish I could scream at him, but I need him to get a good impression of me. Maybe if I act as much as I can to Kikyo, he may care for me and remember me just a LITTLE after I'm gone~ Kagome thought.
"Eh?" InuYasha looked at Kagome in a slight surprise. ~her face is so....calm, even after I teased her. She would always snap back at me~
"What the hell is wrong with you. You friggin sick?" He asked touching her forehead. "Feh, by now you'd have been screaming shit at me. You really are sick, ain't ya?"
Kagome's lips slightly twitched.
"Think what you wish. I have no wish to argue with a wounded person" Kagome replied calmly.
InuYasha stared at her with a strange expression. ~EH.....she's scary with that friggin composed face....she's not being herself~
"SERIOUSLY! What's wrong with you?!" InuYasha asked loudly.
"No need to shout InuYasha, I am not a mile away from you, and I can hear perfectly well" she calmly replied.
"That face....that look....." he muttered, ~That's Kikyo look....her calm, controlled look.....~ InuYasha looked away.
~Whenever I remind him of Kikyo he always looks away! It worked!~ Kagome thought.
"I'm going to return back to Sango in the other room. Rest well InuYasha" Kagome said as she gracefully stood up and left.
She stood outside of the room leaning against the wall. ~Whew! Man, it takes a lot of energy out to be Kikyo for a few friggin minutes! AND ANNOYING! Man, I had a bunch of disses stored up in my mind to yell at him! What a waste!~
~Holy shit....It feels as if I was just with Kikyo a few minuets ago....in a way. What happened to Kagome?! If she keeps that up, I swear I'm gunu get so friggin annoyed! ~ InuYasha thought.
InuYasha slammed his fist onto the ground. ~Whenever I think of Kikyo, Kagome appears as well in my mind and makes me so damn confused at something. But what the hell is it that im getting confused with?!~
*Later on that day...
Sango and Miroku were out for a walk. Shippo went out for a ride on Kirara, leaving Kagome and InuYasha alone.
InuYasha lay on the ground tapping his fingers on the floor. Kagome trying to study, her lips twitching in annoyance.
~She's been acting Kikyo-ish for the whole day~ InuYasha thought in annoyance.
"Baka, baka, baka" he muttered angrily.
*InuYasha's fingers tapping on ground*
"INUYASHA!!!!!!!! STOP TAPPING YOUR DAMN FINGERS IT'S SO FRIGGIN ANNOYING YOU FRIGGIN BAKA!!!!!" Kagome yelled, letting out all her annoyance from the whole day of holding it in. Kagome sighed in replief.
"Oh, now you're acting yourself" he said in triumph, hiding his happiness. ~Kagome's back~
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Kagome and InuYasha sat outside under a big, green tree.
"Kagome..." He said.
"Yah?" "Why were you acting so weird before?"
Kagome looked down at her hand, "no reason....didn't 't you like it better then myself from before?"
"Kagome...."
"I just wanted to act like someone you wouldn't forget. Me, you never REALLY seemed to care for....well you did...maybe you cared for me because I was your Shikon detector....but sometimes you really act as if I mean nothing to you. So I thought that if I could just act a BIT like Kikyo, you may remember me!"
Silence....
"Your....you're really leaving...?" he asked in a whisper.
"Of course I am...."
He turned towards her and held her hands,
"Kagome....." he said quietly looking straight into her eyes.
~He's looking straight at me..he never looked at me this way....~
Kagome could feel InuYasha' s warm hands holding hers. ~My heart is beating so fast again~
Kagome looked away,
"Do you see Kikyo when you look at me? Will you forget me...or for how long will you remember me for? " she asked quietly, "If you want I can leave today"
"K...Kagome" he said, as he held her in his arms tightly, "When I look at you, I only see you. And I like you as you are, just as you like me as I am, a half-youkai. Don't go Kagome...I know it's not fair of me to ask you this but...."
~When you're with me, I feel...more strong, cared for and...different~ She moved away, tears slightly visible in her eyes. ~I want InuYasha happy....I can't, I must not be selfish. InuYasha will only truly be happy if he is with Kikyo. And Kikyo wont be happy if I stay. Me being here will interfere between their relationship...~
"I'd like to stay....i wish I could stay forever, but..... I want you to be happy InuYasha, but with me here, you wont be happy. Kikyo doesn't like me..and if she is unhappy, you will be unhappy. I'll be interfering in your relationship. I'll be putting your only chance for happiness in danger. I don't want that, that's why I must leave soon" she whispered, straining not to cry.
He still held her hands. He looked down at the hands he was holding...
~ I can't chose both Kikyo and Kagome....but if I chose Kagome, Kikyo would get mad and leave my side which would be putting herself into danger....if I chose Kikyo....then kagome would leave...forever~
"I CAN"T chose between you and Kikyo, Kagome!!!" InuYasha said emotionally.
"InuYasha...you have already chosen. You've chosen Kikyo"
"Kagome, I can't leave Kikyo, she will be in danger of Naraku with her unstable life...Kagome, you have to understand...."
"No need to explain, InuYasha. You had chosen Kikyo since the first time I met you. I only realized how true it was true when I saw you and her together....It really doesn't matter" Kagome said unsteadily, and gave him a sad smile, "You have already chosen..."
"I...but...Kagome, isn't there a way where I could chose both you and Kikyo?" he asked desperately.
"No, InuYasha.Chosing Kikyo is best. Stick to it" she said, she stood and walked away with her head down.
InuYasha looked down and clenched his fist.
"Dammit...Kagome" InuYasha said under his breath.
~I wish I could ask of you to stay...but it wouldn't be fair. You've gone through enough trouble finding the jewels. Enough trouble from me who is always the cause of your emotional pain. I'd be asking too much for you to stay. And I have no choice, but to pick Kikyo. I owe her my life....my love..~
============== Chapter Twelve==============
"InuYasha!" Kikyo said calmly walking gracefully over to InuYasha....
InuYasha was lying on the ground wounded.
"Kikyo?!" he cried in surprise, "you're the one who saved me?"
Kikyo calmly nodded and sat down, putting InuYasha' s head to rest on her lap.
"InuYasha, my dear InuYasha" she whispered.
InuYasha just stared up at her in surprise. He was too busy looking at Kikyo that he did not see Kagome running away towards the hut.
~She came back. Of course she would. OH! Why did I have to see them together AGAIN?! Oh, stupid Kikyo!~ Kagome raised to the well where she would be transported back into her time.
~Damn.....if I leave this place, I'll never be able to come back again! I have no more Shikon jewels left with me....But I can't stay. I can't bear to see InuYasha with another person. Naraku was right, I can be happy for InuYasha, but never truly happy myself. Kikyo and InuYasha are probably fated to be together. Who am I to think I can change it. It'll be better if I leave....~ Kagome thought. ~No....I DON"T want to leave him!!! I can't! Just one more day....then I'll leave. I'll be on my best behavior so everyone will remember the best of me..~
*********************
"Kikyo" InuYasha murmured, still resting on Kikyo's lap. Sango, Shippo had gone to help Miroku search for the child a while before.
"Are you feeling a little bit more better?" Kikyo calmly asked.
"Yah...." InuYasha looked around to see Sango, Miroku, and Shippo running towards them.
"InuYasha! InuYasha!" Shippo cried seeing InuYasha badly wounded.
Miroku halted, "Kikyo-sama..."
Kikyo gently laid InuYasha back down and gracefully stood back up.
"Where's Kagome?" InuYasha asked in shock.
"I...I thought she was with you.." Sango replied.
Kikyo's face darkened. ~Kagome......bitch~
InuYasha felt his heart race. ~What if...she's hurt somewhere out there? !~
InuYasha sighed inrelief to see Kagome.
Kagome came running.
"Sorry guys...I, um, had to go check something out" Kagome said from the top of her head.
"Were you worried InuYasha?" She asked, trying to act herself.
"Feh, why would I worry bout you.....but of course I did worry about you..." InuYasha said using his sword for support as he stood up.
Kagome felt her heart warm. ~He worried about me....~
"Cuz if you died, Miroku, Sango, and Shippo here would beat the day light out of me. They'd say 'InuYasha did it' " InuYasha said in a mocking voice.
Kagome's face darkened, ~it would have been perfect if he had just ended with his first sentence~
"Humph."
InuYasha turned to see Kikyo walking away. ~Shit, I forgot about Kikyo!~
"Kikyo!" InuYasha cried.
Silence.
~What if she's mad and never comes back to me? What if she hates me again?~
"KIKYO!!!!!!"
Each time InuYasha cried her name, a part of Kagome's heart ripped out.
"Come on" Kagome said, grabbing Miroku and Sango's arm with Shippo jumping onto Miroku's shoulder, "Let's leave this sad dog here to sulk himself away. I really can't stand to hear anymore" Kagome said bitterly pulling them away. They all glanced at her in wonder.
She stopped and looked down at the ground in shock, and slightly looked behind her to see InuYasha slouching over his sword in pain and muttering Kikyo's name.
She squeezed her eyes shut. ~Am I turning into such a horrible girl? Just because Inuyasha loves Kiikyo and not me......No! I will not act like this! Just because of jealousy, I will not give in to what Naraku would want~
"InuYasha, let's go back to the hut and fix your wound. The next time Kikyo comes to see you, she'd probably like ta see you well and alive" Kagome said warmly grabbing a hold of InuYasha's arm and helping him walk.
~ Kagome....your moods are so strange. They change so quickly. You can never get boring, your full of suprises.... But no matter what you always come back to my side, you never have once abandoned me.....~ InuYasha thought, glancing over at Kagome.
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InuYasha lay on a mat after Kagome and Sango treated his wounds.
~Deep in my heart.....for some reason, I feel as if I am ignoring something important...ignoring an important truth that doesn't seem to be coming to mind. And the truth.....seems to scare me, even if I don't know what it is. Why, whenever I try to figure it out, does Kagome come to mind? ~ InuYasha thought.
"InuYasha, are you feeling better?" Kagome asked as she came over with a bowl of Ramon. "Here you go, eat up"
"Yah, whatever"
"You should say thank you"
"Feh, demons don't need to say there please n thank you' s"
"Suit yourself" Kagome sighed, "but I'm sure Kikyo would like you to have manners"
"What the hell is up with you?! All you've been mentioning ever since you saw me with Kikyo was, ' Kikyo would like this, Kikyo would like that, Kikyo won't like that, Kikyo would get mad at you for that, Kikyo this, Kikyo that' " InuYasha said mocking Kagome' s voice.
"Sorry" Kagome replied dryly. ~I wish I could scream at him, but I need him to get a good impression of me. Maybe if I act as much as I can to Kikyo, he may care for me and remember me just a LITTLE after I'm gone~ Kagome thought.
"Eh?" InuYasha looked at Kagome in a slight surprise. ~her face is so....calm, even after I teased her. She would always snap back at me~
"What the hell is wrong with you. You friggin sick?" He asked touching her forehead. "Feh, by now you'd have been screaming shit at me. You really are sick, ain't ya?"
Kagome's lips slightly twitched.
"Think what you wish. I have no wish to argue with a wounded person" Kagome replied calmly.
InuYasha stared at her with a strange expression. ~EH.....she's scary with that friggin composed face....she's not being herself~
"SERIOUSLY! What's wrong with you?!" InuYasha asked loudly.
"No need to shout InuYasha, I am not a mile away from you, and I can hear perfectly well" she calmly replied.
"That face....that look....." he muttered, ~That's Kikyo look....her calm, controlled look.....~ InuYasha looked away.
~Whenever I remind him of Kikyo he always looks away! It worked!~ Kagome thought.
"I'm going to return back to Sango in the other room. Rest well InuYasha" Kagome said as she gracefully stood up and left.
She stood outside of the room leaning against the wall. ~Whew! Man, it takes a lot of energy out to be Kikyo for a few friggin minutes! AND ANNOYING! Man, I had a bunch of disses stored up in my mind to yell at him! What a waste!~
~Holy shit....It feels as if I was just with Kikyo a few minuets ago....in a way. What happened to Kagome?! If she keeps that up, I swear I'm gunu get so friggin annoyed! ~ InuYasha thought.
InuYasha slammed his fist onto the ground. ~Whenever I think of Kikyo, Kagome appears as well in my mind and makes me so damn confused at something. But what the hell is it that im getting confused with?!~
*Later on that day...
Sango and Miroku were out for a walk. Shippo went out for a ride on Kirara, leaving Kagome and InuYasha alone.
InuYasha lay on the ground tapping his fingers on the floor. Kagome trying to study, her lips twitching in annoyance.
~She's been acting Kikyo-ish for the whole day~ InuYasha thought in annoyance.
"Baka, baka, baka" he muttered angrily.
*InuYasha's fingers tapping on ground*
"INUYASHA!!!!!!!! STOP TAPPING YOUR DAMN FINGERS IT'S SO FRIGGIN ANNOYING YOU FRIGGIN BAKA!!!!!" Kagome yelled, letting out all her annoyance from the whole day of holding it in. Kagome sighed in replief.
"Oh, now you're acting yourself" he said in triumph, hiding his happiness. ~Kagome's back~
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Kagome and InuYasha sat outside under a big, green tree.
"Kagome..." He said.
"Yah?" "Why were you acting so weird before?"
Kagome looked down at her hand, "no reason....didn't 't you like it better then myself from before?"
"Kagome...."
"I just wanted to act like someone you wouldn't forget. Me, you never REALLY seemed to care for....well you did...maybe you cared for me because I was your Shikon detector....but sometimes you really act as if I mean nothing to you. So I thought that if I could just act a BIT like Kikyo, you may remember me!"
Silence....
"Your....you're really leaving...?" he asked in a whisper.
"Of course I am...."
He turned towards her and held her hands,
"Kagome....." he said quietly looking straight into her eyes.
~He's looking straight at me..he never looked at me this way....~
Kagome could feel InuYasha' s warm hands holding hers. ~My heart is beating so fast again~
Kagome looked away,
"Do you see Kikyo when you look at me? Will you forget me...or for how long will you remember me for? " she asked quietly, "If you want I can leave today"
"K...Kagome" he said, as he held her in his arms tightly, "When I look at you, I only see you. And I like you as you are, just as you like me as I am, a half-youkai. Don't go Kagome...I know it's not fair of me to ask you this but...."
~When you're with me, I feel...more strong, cared for and...different~ She moved away, tears slightly visible in her eyes. ~I want InuYasha happy....I can't, I must not be selfish. InuYasha will only truly be happy if he is with Kikyo. And Kikyo wont be happy if I stay. Me being here will interfere between their relationship...~
"I'd like to stay....i wish I could stay forever, but..... I want you to be happy InuYasha, but with me here, you wont be happy. Kikyo doesn't like me..and if she is unhappy, you will be unhappy. I'll be interfering in your relationship. I'll be putting your only chance for happiness in danger. I don't want that, that's why I must leave soon" she whispered, straining not to cry.
He still held her hands. He looked down at the hands he was holding...
~ I can't chose both Kikyo and Kagome....but if I chose Kagome, Kikyo would get mad and leave my side which would be putting herself into danger....if I chose Kikyo....then kagome would leave...forever~
"I CAN"T chose between you and Kikyo, Kagome!!!" InuYasha said emotionally.
"InuYasha...you have already chosen. You've chosen Kikyo"
"Kagome, I can't leave Kikyo, she will be in danger of Naraku with her unstable life...Kagome, you have to understand...."
"No need to explain, InuYasha. You had chosen Kikyo since the first time I met you. I only realized how true it was true when I saw you and her together....It really doesn't matter" Kagome said unsteadily, and gave him a sad smile, "You have already chosen..."
"I...but...Kagome, isn't there a way where I could chose both you and Kikyo?" he asked desperately.
"No, InuYasha.Chosing Kikyo is best. Stick to it" she said, she stood and walked away with her head down.
InuYasha looked down and clenched his fist.
"Dammit...Kagome" InuYasha said under his breath.
~I wish I could ask of you to stay...but it wouldn't be fair. You've gone through enough trouble finding the jewels. Enough trouble from me who is always the cause of your emotional pain. I'd be asking too much for you to stay. And I have no choice, but to pick Kikyo. I owe her my life....my love..~