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correction: Sango's pet's name is Kilala not Kirara
===========Chapter Fifteen============
"Kagome!" InuYasha called as he entered the hut. The hut only echoed his voice. The room was completely empty of Kagome's belonging. He looked around again more desperately, "Kagome!"
~No.....she's left......forever~
InuYasha tightly held the Jewel shard that hung on the necklace Kagome gave him.
~She can't come back...I have both the necklace and the jar that contains the Jewel Shards...And I can't force her to come back..She doesn't want to come back...And she'll be in danger if she comes back....~
"Kagome!!!!"
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"InuYasha...", Kagome sighed as she fell back on her bad. The sun shone brightly into her room. She saw something glittering under the far corner of her desk.
"Eh?", Kagome got off her bed and crawled under her desk to see what it was.
"Huh...it's a Jewel shard?! But....but....how can this....oh..."
*****Flashback*****
Kagome was fast asleep in her bed when the wind strongly blew into her room, knocking the small jar that contained the jewel shards smashing to the ground.
*Yawn* "I forgot to close that window again" Kagome muttered sleepily as she took another jar from her desk, and closed the window. She sat on the ground and felt for the shards. *Yawn * "So tired"
Kagome felt around the floor where the glass jar had shattered. "I think that's all" she muttered as she dusted the glass bits off her hands into the garbage.
"I don't feel anymore Jewel Shards....so tired", Kagome put the jar on top of her table and went back to bed.
*****End of Flashback*****
~I must have missed this one....~ Kagome thought, looking down at the small shard fragment ~This means...that I'm able to return to the Feudal era....NO~ Kagome thought as she shook her head. ~I can't go back...again...I can't bare to see InuYasha and Kikyo together..I just can't. And anyway, I'll be interfering between Kikyo and InuYasha. Kikyo clearly doesn't want me around. Kagome BAKA, don't you want InuYasha to be happy? By going.....i'm just hurting myself, trying to change the truth......that InuYasha will never love me, even a little as he does Kikyo....~
Kagome sighed and held the Jewel fragment tightly in her hands, "but I have to return this somehow...."
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Sango, Miroku, Kilala and Shippo returned in the afternoon from their outing.
"I hope Kagome is feeling better..." Sango sighed.
"Don't worry, she will be" Miroku replied.
"Kagome, Kagome, Kagome, poor, poor Kagome" Shippo said with a sad sigh.
They all halted when they entered the hut. Then Kaede entered the hut from her days work on the field and also halted behind them.
They scanned the room to see InuYasha leaning against the wall, and staring down at the shikon jewel that hung on a necklace.
"K..Kagome's yellow bag..." Shippo said, "IS GONE!!!"
"Baka!!!" Sango yelled, not at InuYasha, but at Miroku. "If we had come when I said we should, she would never have left!!! Baka, Baka, Baka!!!!!"
Miroku continued to stare at InuYasha. "InuYasha....how did you get that necklace. Was it not in Kagome's possession?"
"InuYasha, don't tell me you stole it from her?" Kaede asked.
"Keh, shutup Kaede-baba you old hag. Why would I do that. She jus gave it to me and said she wanted to leave" InuYasha murmured. (-baba means old grandma in a rude way, n I'm not sure how its supposed to be spelled)
"You stupid - two-timing - dog!!" Miroku said hitting InuYasha on the head with his staff.
"Stop that you asshole!" InuYasha growled moving away. "Why the hell do I end up as the fuckin bad guy! You guys never....Keh, whatever"
"You just always have to leave Kagome all alone when Kikyo shows up, don't you?!" Shippo asked angrily.
InuYasha's face darkened, "N how did you know that happened today?!!!!"
"Yikes!", Shippo ran behind Sango.
Miroku sighed, "you're also doing this to protect her, aren't you?"
InuYasha jumped back, "Wh-why the hell would you say that?!"
"You wouldn't let your jewel detector go so easily without a good reason" Miroku said.
"The way you try to protect her, again proves that you are the stupidest of stupids" Kaede said.
"Keh, whatever" InuYasha muttered as he walked to the door of the hut. "You guys don't know shit of why I had to let Kagome go" he muttered and left outside.
Everyone stood frozen.
~He would never let an insult go that easily~ Kaede thought.
~I think I was being too tough on him...we judged him too easily..~ Miroku thought.
~Maybe we don't know anything about the reason Kagome left...InuYasha looked....so sad~
All of them seemed to have understood their mistake except Kilala and Shippo.
Kilala - "Meaow...Meaow"
"InuYasha is a baka, baka, baka. I detest InuYasha. I bet he forced Kagome to leave and took the Jewel Shards...." Shippo hissed.
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"Kagome...." InuYasha murmured as he looked down the well. "I hope...this was for the best...."
InuYasha sat and leaned against the well. "She's gone forever....and we separated on such bad terms!"
Kagome standing there and sadly watching him, with him holding the wounded Kikyo warmly in his arms flashed through his mind.
InuYasha painfully sighed and looked down the well.
Memories of Kagome flashed through his mind. He closed his eyes, remembering the time when he held Kagome in his arms. "Kagome.."
~Why the hell am I sulking like this....i can go see her right now. All I have to do is jump into that damn well....~ InuYasha shook the thought out of his mind. ~When did I start to care for her this much....~ InuYasha stood and looked down the well. ~I wonder what she's doing right now.....~
"Keh" InuYasha sadly smiled, remembering the times they fought over such little things. And, remembering the time when she would stay by his side in trouble. "She never would leave me..."
InuYasha sighed loudly and sat back down against the well, trying to forget about Kagome.
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Kagome arrived home from school, she hadn't been able to concentrate for the whole time in class or when she was with her friends. All she could think about was InuYasha.
Kagome sat and ate her dinner, her face dark with sadness. The dinner table was silent. Her mother, brother and grandfather continued to sneak glances at her.
Kagome went straight to her room after dinner and taking a bath. The day was getting darker by the day.
Kagome sat at the edge of her bed. A tear ran down her cheeks, she fell back into bed and pressed her face into the pillow and wept, her crying muffled by the pillow.
~InuYasha....Why does love hurt so much~ Kagome painfully thought.
*****Flashback*****
"I'm letting you go InuYasha.....I WILL NOT FORCE YOU TO CHOSE ME! I love you InuYasha...but...." Kikyo cried.
"Kikyo...I chose you....I'm sorry...I just...Kikyo..." InuYasha looked at Kikyo
Kikyo looked up, her eyes blurry from tears. "InuYasha...!" she cried as she flung herself in front of him as an arrow hit her.
"Kikyo!....you saved me" InuYasha said, holding Kikyo in his arms.
"I knew I wouldn't die...since I am already dead. But it would be better to stand the pain of being hurt then you..."Kikyo said weakly.
*****End of Flashback*****
Kagome tightly closed her eyes. "InuYasha....why do I have to love you so much....baka, Im such a BAKA!!! I knew he had chosen from the beginning...~
Kagome's mother looked at her daughter and sadly shook her head and quietly shut the door.
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He looked at her, she lay lifeless on the ground with blood all over her. Kagome was dead. InuYasha looked down at his hands to see blood....her blood. He tried to wash the blood off, but it wouldn't. "KAGOME!!!". He looked at himself in the river that had turned red from her blood. His eyes were red and evil. "I'm a full youkai...I killed.....Kagome"
InuYasha woke up by feeling rain drops falling on him. He felt himself sweating all over. Helooked down at his hands, shaking a little from the dream. ~It was just a dream...I'm NEVER bringing her back here....never~
InuYasha stood up and saw that he had fallen asleep beside the well. He headed towards Kaede's hut. As he was walking in the pouring rain, he saw a blurry figure sitting on the hill. Through the rain it looked like Kagome.
~Kagome!!~ InuYasha thought as he ran towards the figure, his heart pounding. He reached the figure,
"Kikyo?"
"I saw you asleep there, I was worried for you, so I decided to wait until you woke. Now that you are awake, I must leave back to my village. There are wounded people there waiting for me" Kikyo said as she kissed InuYasha on the cheeks and left.
"Kagome...Kikyo...." InuYasha whispered as he watched her leave. His heart felt strongly disappointed. But then realized that Kikyo had kissed him freely..And also felt as if his heart would rip out from the dissapointment of the figure not being Kagome.
He walked back into the hut all soaked. Everyone stared at him.
"He looks so depressed" Sango said.
"He's been out all day near that well, I saw him" Shippo whispered.
"This is what he chose, by choosing Kikyo, he chose to lose Kagome" Miroku said.
InuYasha heard what Miroku had said.
He sat and leaned against the wall.
"This is what he chose, by choosing Kikyo, he chose to lose Kagome", Miroku's voice continued to echo in his mind.
~So....this is what I chose. To never see Kagome again..in order to be with Kikyo.....this is all friggin unfair to me
"Poor Kagome" InuYasha heard Miroku say, "if she had loved him, she must have loved him a lot to let him go to Kikyo"
"Keh", InuYasha stood and left the room. ~Kagome doesn't love me...~
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"Damn it...she's gone..." Kikyo muttered stabding in the rain and looking at the well. "I need her to get my soul back"
"You will" said a cold voice behind her. Kikyo turned around to see Naraku.
"What do you mean by that?" Kikyo calmly asked.
"I know something that no one knows. She has a wound caused by me, so when she found a Shikon Jewel missing from someplace that she was supposed to return, I sensed it. She still has a Shikon Jewel left. She will come back to return it...."
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A week had passed. Kagome continued to go visit the well, unsure whether to go back to the Feudal era for the last time and return the Shard. But, later, on the second thought, she chickened out.
~I cant bare to see InuYasha' s face again. He will make me want to stay.....and my heart will once again be broken...no, my heart can't break anymore. It is already shattered to pieces.....~
Her mother observed her day by day, seeing her go to the well, then leaving it with sadness.
She saw her daughter look at the Shikon shard. ~What's going on? But whatever it is, it must have to do with InuYasha. Kagome must have finally realized that she was in love with him....I must make her go back to the Feudal era. I cannot bear to see her sulk like this forever. She must deal with it, and fix it~
Late that night, Kagome's mother went up to Kagome's room to see her lying on her bed looking sad.
"Kagome" her mother whispered.
Kagome shot out of bed, "Oh it's you"
" I want to talk to you" her mother said, sitting next to Kagome.
"Yah...."
"You should go back to InuYasha's time...you must fix whatever problem is going on between the two of you"
"It is not something I can fix"
"The if you intend to stay away forever.....you must return the shard back" she said seriously.
"I......can't bear to see him"
"Why do you need to see him? Just look for one of your other friends and give it to them"
Kagome looked away, "Oh....."
~And then I'd never see him again...is it worse to have a shattered heart and be in pain from seeing him with Kikyo day by day, or the pain of never being able to see him......~ Kagome thought.
Kagome's mom quietly left the room. ~She needs time to decide....I hope she will make the right decision~
************************ Sango and Miroku watched InuYasha from a distance. InuYasha sat on a tree branch leaning against the bark and watching the stars shining above in the silky night sky.
"He must care for her, Miroku" Sango said quietly.
"I know....."
"Kagome loves him....doesn't she? From the way she looks at him sometimes...loves written all over her face"
"Of course she loves him, now that I think of it...."
"Why does love have to be this painful? I had once believed it would bring joy....but seeing Kagome, and from my own experience which isn't as bad as Kagome's, it hurts"
Miroku's face darkened. "You love someone....I....in love like Kagome is with InuYasha?"
~Yes, in a way.....with you...~ Sango thought.
"Huh?". Sango turned and looked at Miroku. ~Why does he look so...strange all of a sudden~
~Why does Sango loving someone else bother me like this...~ Miroku thought.
~Why do I love a pervert......just like Kagome who loves someone who loves another. Why did love match us up with people who are so opposite from the person we wished to fall in love with.....~
"Love is strange......" Miroku said.
"Huh?"
"When you fall in love with the person you least expect to fall in love with" Miroku said, looking down at the grass.
~He must know this truth from experience...~ Sanog sadly thought.
"How could you know, you don't know the truth. You're probably in love with every pretty lady that passes you by" Sango said bitterly.
Miroku held her hands.
Sango gasped a little.
"That's not true..." Miroku said and looked at her, giving her a little sad smile. "I can't help my nature over how I act to ladies......but when it comes to loving someone. Its is completely different"
Sango looked away to hide her blush. She looked back at Miroku a few minutes later and pulled her hands out of his grasp.
"Miroku-sama...we must do something about Kagome and InuYasha...we can't just.....leave them as they are...." Sango begged.
Miroku looked at her seriously and nodded.
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InuYasha sat on the branch of a tree and looked out at the night sky. He held the Shikon shard that was once in Kagome's possession, he could feel apart of her, the Shikon that hung on the necklace brought so many memories of her.
~The thought of you is driving me crazy. I feel so bad for letting you go....~
"Kagome....baka...." InuYasha pulled the necklace bitterly off his neck, breaking the chain. He held it tightly and tried to through it away, but he couldn't let go.
"With this shard, it brought so much pain to me....it ripped me and Kikyo away.....and it brought Kagome....and its once again torn up my heart....but I don't regret it.....I'd rather live with a torn heart with the memories of Kagome than not having known her at all....For once, this damn shard has done me some good I guess..."
~Kagome......why did you have to become so important to me.....you make all my feelings so confused now....my heart aches when I think of you...you're driving me DAMN MAD!!!!!!!!!! I....can't think straight any longer~
InuYasha leaned back and closed his eyes, letting out a heavy sigh.
~You wanted to stay here, didn't you......Kagome. To stay here with Sango and them......who you care for so much.....but you left....because of me, so that I'd be happy with Kikyo.....and I made you leave because I was scared that I might hurt you by my full youkai form.....~ he sadly looked up at the sky,
~Kagome......i don't understand you. You do so much for us.....me, but you don't ask for anything back......~
~I wish I could care for Kikyo alone....but I can't....Kikyo....~ InuYasha thought guiltily, ~sorry....~
Kikyo moving in front of him, the arrow that was meant to pierce him, piercing into her flesh... flashed through his mind. The look of pain Kikyo had gave him made his heart bleed.
*****Flashback*****
"I'm letting you go InuYasha.....I WILL NOT FORCE YOU TO CHOSE ME! I love you InuYasha...but...." Kikyo cried.
"Kikyo...I chose you....I'm sorry...I just...Kikyo..." InuYasha looked at Kikyo
Kikyo looked up, her eyes blurry from tears. "InuYasha...!" she cried as she flung herself in front of him as an arrow hit her.
"Kikyo!!!!!!!...you saved me" InuYasha said, holding Kikyo in his arms.
"I knew I wouldn't die...since I am already dead. But it would be better to stand the pain of being hurt then you..."Kikyo said weakly.
*****End of Flashback*****
InuYasha felt his eyes moist, and he gripped his hands tightly into a fist.
"KIKYO" he said painfully, "You didn't have to do that...."
~You're so weak, that arrow could have killed you..... I CAN'T bear to loose you again! And.... I already owe you my life.... I don't want to owe you anymore things....~
"Kikyo......I swear, I'll kill Naraku for you...."
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Kagome looked down at the well. ~I'd have to go there sooner or later....~
She held the Shikon jewel tightly in her hands and jumped in the well.
Kagome reached the Feudal era. She looked around to see if Sango, Miroku....any of her other friends except InuYasha could be seen.
~They're probably in the hut...~Kagome thought as she headed that way.
She peeked into the hut and saw Miroku and InuYasha sitting together and talking of something.
~I wonder....what they're talking about....they look so serious. Huh? I heard my name....~
"WHY can't you bring Kagome BACK?!" Kagome heard Miroku ask angrily.
InuYasha looked away.
"Because, I chose Kikyo, if Kagome being here means that I'll lose Kikyo....then she can't stay......."
correction: Sango's pet's name is Kilala not Kirara
===========Chapter Fifteen============
"Kagome!" InuYasha called as he entered the hut. The hut only echoed his voice. The room was completely empty of Kagome's belonging. He looked around again more desperately, "Kagome!"
~No.....she's left......forever~
InuYasha tightly held the Jewel shard that hung on the necklace Kagome gave him.
~She can't come back...I have both the necklace and the jar that contains the Jewel Shards...And I can't force her to come back..She doesn't want to come back...And she'll be in danger if she comes back....~
"Kagome!!!!"
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"InuYasha...", Kagome sighed as she fell back on her bad. The sun shone brightly into her room. She saw something glittering under the far corner of her desk.
"Eh?", Kagome got off her bed and crawled under her desk to see what it was.
"Huh...it's a Jewel shard?! But....but....how can this....oh..."
*****Flashback*****
Kagome was fast asleep in her bed when the wind strongly blew into her room, knocking the small jar that contained the jewel shards smashing to the ground.
*Yawn* "I forgot to close that window again" Kagome muttered sleepily as she took another jar from her desk, and closed the window. She sat on the ground and felt for the shards. *Yawn * "So tired"
Kagome felt around the floor where the glass jar had shattered. "I think that's all" she muttered as she dusted the glass bits off her hands into the garbage.
"I don't feel anymore Jewel Shards....so tired", Kagome put the jar on top of her table and went back to bed.
*****End of Flashback*****
~I must have missed this one....~ Kagome thought, looking down at the small shard fragment ~This means...that I'm able to return to the Feudal era....NO~ Kagome thought as she shook her head. ~I can't go back...again...I can't bare to see InuYasha and Kikyo together..I just can't. And anyway, I'll be interfering between Kikyo and InuYasha. Kikyo clearly doesn't want me around. Kagome BAKA, don't you want InuYasha to be happy? By going.....i'm just hurting myself, trying to change the truth......that InuYasha will never love me, even a little as he does Kikyo....~
Kagome sighed and held the Jewel fragment tightly in her hands, "but I have to return this somehow...."
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Sango, Miroku, Kilala and Shippo returned in the afternoon from their outing.
"I hope Kagome is feeling better..." Sango sighed.
"Don't worry, she will be" Miroku replied.
"Kagome, Kagome, Kagome, poor, poor Kagome" Shippo said with a sad sigh.
They all halted when they entered the hut. Then Kaede entered the hut from her days work on the field and also halted behind them.
They scanned the room to see InuYasha leaning against the wall, and staring down at the shikon jewel that hung on a necklace.
"K..Kagome's yellow bag..." Shippo said, "IS GONE!!!"
"Baka!!!" Sango yelled, not at InuYasha, but at Miroku. "If we had come when I said we should, she would never have left!!! Baka, Baka, Baka!!!!!"
Miroku continued to stare at InuYasha. "InuYasha....how did you get that necklace. Was it not in Kagome's possession?"
"InuYasha, don't tell me you stole it from her?" Kaede asked.
"Keh, shutup Kaede-baba you old hag. Why would I do that. She jus gave it to me and said she wanted to leave" InuYasha murmured. (-baba means old grandma in a rude way, n I'm not sure how its supposed to be spelled)
"You stupid - two-timing - dog!!" Miroku said hitting InuYasha on the head with his staff.
"Stop that you asshole!" InuYasha growled moving away. "Why the hell do I end up as the fuckin bad guy! You guys never....Keh, whatever"
"You just always have to leave Kagome all alone when Kikyo shows up, don't you?!" Shippo asked angrily.
InuYasha's face darkened, "N how did you know that happened today?!!!!"
"Yikes!", Shippo ran behind Sango.
Miroku sighed, "you're also doing this to protect her, aren't you?"
InuYasha jumped back, "Wh-why the hell would you say that?!"
"You wouldn't let your jewel detector go so easily without a good reason" Miroku said.
"The way you try to protect her, again proves that you are the stupidest of stupids" Kaede said.
"Keh, whatever" InuYasha muttered as he walked to the door of the hut. "You guys don't know shit of why I had to let Kagome go" he muttered and left outside.
Everyone stood frozen.
~He would never let an insult go that easily~ Kaede thought.
~I think I was being too tough on him...we judged him too easily..~ Miroku thought.
~Maybe we don't know anything about the reason Kagome left...InuYasha looked....so sad~
All of them seemed to have understood their mistake except Kilala and Shippo.
Kilala - "Meaow...Meaow"
"InuYasha is a baka, baka, baka. I detest InuYasha. I bet he forced Kagome to leave and took the Jewel Shards...." Shippo hissed.
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"Kagome...." InuYasha murmured as he looked down the well. "I hope...this was for the best...."
InuYasha sat and leaned against the well. "She's gone forever....and we separated on such bad terms!"
Kagome standing there and sadly watching him, with him holding the wounded Kikyo warmly in his arms flashed through his mind.
InuYasha painfully sighed and looked down the well.
Memories of Kagome flashed through his mind. He closed his eyes, remembering the time when he held Kagome in his arms. "Kagome.."
~Why the hell am I sulking like this....i can go see her right now. All I have to do is jump into that damn well....~ InuYasha shook the thought out of his mind. ~When did I start to care for her this much....~ InuYasha stood and looked down the well. ~I wonder what she's doing right now.....~
"Keh" InuYasha sadly smiled, remembering the times they fought over such little things. And, remembering the time when she would stay by his side in trouble. "She never would leave me..."
InuYasha sighed loudly and sat back down against the well, trying to forget about Kagome.
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Kagome arrived home from school, she hadn't been able to concentrate for the whole time in class or when she was with her friends. All she could think about was InuYasha.
Kagome sat and ate her dinner, her face dark with sadness. The dinner table was silent. Her mother, brother and grandfather continued to sneak glances at her.
Kagome went straight to her room after dinner and taking a bath. The day was getting darker by the day.
Kagome sat at the edge of her bed. A tear ran down her cheeks, she fell back into bed and pressed her face into the pillow and wept, her crying muffled by the pillow.
~InuYasha....Why does love hurt so much~ Kagome painfully thought.
*****Flashback*****
"I'm letting you go InuYasha.....I WILL NOT FORCE YOU TO CHOSE ME! I love you InuYasha...but...." Kikyo cried.
"Kikyo...I chose you....I'm sorry...I just...Kikyo..." InuYasha looked at Kikyo
Kikyo looked up, her eyes blurry from tears. "InuYasha...!" she cried as she flung herself in front of him as an arrow hit her.
"Kikyo!....you saved me" InuYasha said, holding Kikyo in his arms.
"I knew I wouldn't die...since I am already dead. But it would be better to stand the pain of being hurt then you..."Kikyo said weakly.
*****End of Flashback*****
Kagome tightly closed her eyes. "InuYasha....why do I have to love you so much....baka, Im such a BAKA!!! I knew he had chosen from the beginning...~
Kagome's mother looked at her daughter and sadly shook her head and quietly shut the door.
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He looked at her, she lay lifeless on the ground with blood all over her. Kagome was dead. InuYasha looked down at his hands to see blood....her blood. He tried to wash the blood off, but it wouldn't. "KAGOME!!!". He looked at himself in the river that had turned red from her blood. His eyes were red and evil. "I'm a full youkai...I killed.....Kagome"
InuYasha woke up by feeling rain drops falling on him. He felt himself sweating all over. Helooked down at his hands, shaking a little from the dream. ~It was just a dream...I'm NEVER bringing her back here....never~
InuYasha stood up and saw that he had fallen asleep beside the well. He headed towards Kaede's hut. As he was walking in the pouring rain, he saw a blurry figure sitting on the hill. Through the rain it looked like Kagome.
~Kagome!!~ InuYasha thought as he ran towards the figure, his heart pounding. He reached the figure,
"Kikyo?"
"I saw you asleep there, I was worried for you, so I decided to wait until you woke. Now that you are awake, I must leave back to my village. There are wounded people there waiting for me" Kikyo said as she kissed InuYasha on the cheeks and left.
"Kagome...Kikyo...." InuYasha whispered as he watched her leave. His heart felt strongly disappointed. But then realized that Kikyo had kissed him freely..And also felt as if his heart would rip out from the dissapointment of the figure not being Kagome.
He walked back into the hut all soaked. Everyone stared at him.
"He looks so depressed" Sango said.
"He's been out all day near that well, I saw him" Shippo whispered.
"This is what he chose, by choosing Kikyo, he chose to lose Kagome" Miroku said.
InuYasha heard what Miroku had said.
He sat and leaned against the wall.
"This is what he chose, by choosing Kikyo, he chose to lose Kagome", Miroku's voice continued to echo in his mind.
~So....this is what I chose. To never see Kagome again..in order to be with Kikyo.....this is all friggin unfair to me
"Poor Kagome" InuYasha heard Miroku say, "if she had loved him, she must have loved him a lot to let him go to Kikyo"
"Keh", InuYasha stood and left the room. ~Kagome doesn't love me...~
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"Damn it...she's gone..." Kikyo muttered stabding in the rain and looking at the well. "I need her to get my soul back"
"You will" said a cold voice behind her. Kikyo turned around to see Naraku.
"What do you mean by that?" Kikyo calmly asked.
"I know something that no one knows. She has a wound caused by me, so when she found a Shikon Jewel missing from someplace that she was supposed to return, I sensed it. She still has a Shikon Jewel left. She will come back to return it...."
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A week had passed. Kagome continued to go visit the well, unsure whether to go back to the Feudal era for the last time and return the Shard. But, later, on the second thought, she chickened out.
~I cant bare to see InuYasha' s face again. He will make me want to stay.....and my heart will once again be broken...no, my heart can't break anymore. It is already shattered to pieces.....~
Her mother observed her day by day, seeing her go to the well, then leaving it with sadness.
She saw her daughter look at the Shikon shard. ~What's going on? But whatever it is, it must have to do with InuYasha. Kagome must have finally realized that she was in love with him....I must make her go back to the Feudal era. I cannot bear to see her sulk like this forever. She must deal with it, and fix it~
Late that night, Kagome's mother went up to Kagome's room to see her lying on her bed looking sad.
"Kagome" her mother whispered.
Kagome shot out of bed, "Oh it's you"
" I want to talk to you" her mother said, sitting next to Kagome.
"Yah...."
"You should go back to InuYasha's time...you must fix whatever problem is going on between the two of you"
"It is not something I can fix"
"The if you intend to stay away forever.....you must return the shard back" she said seriously.
"I......can't bear to see him"
"Why do you need to see him? Just look for one of your other friends and give it to them"
Kagome looked away, "Oh....."
~And then I'd never see him again...is it worse to have a shattered heart and be in pain from seeing him with Kikyo day by day, or the pain of never being able to see him......~ Kagome thought.
Kagome's mom quietly left the room. ~She needs time to decide....I hope she will make the right decision~
************************ Sango and Miroku watched InuYasha from a distance. InuYasha sat on a tree branch leaning against the bark and watching the stars shining above in the silky night sky.
"He must care for her, Miroku" Sango said quietly.
"I know....."
"Kagome loves him....doesn't she? From the way she looks at him sometimes...loves written all over her face"
"Of course she loves him, now that I think of it...."
"Why does love have to be this painful? I had once believed it would bring joy....but seeing Kagome, and from my own experience which isn't as bad as Kagome's, it hurts"
Miroku's face darkened. "You love someone....I....in love like Kagome is with InuYasha?"
~Yes, in a way.....with you...~ Sango thought.
"Huh?". Sango turned and looked at Miroku. ~Why does he look so...strange all of a sudden~
~Why does Sango loving someone else bother me like this...~ Miroku thought.
~Why do I love a pervert......just like Kagome who loves someone who loves another. Why did love match us up with people who are so opposite from the person we wished to fall in love with.....~
"Love is strange......" Miroku said.
"Huh?"
"When you fall in love with the person you least expect to fall in love with" Miroku said, looking down at the grass.
~He must know this truth from experience...~ Sanog sadly thought.
"How could you know, you don't know the truth. You're probably in love with every pretty lady that passes you by" Sango said bitterly.
Miroku held her hands.
Sango gasped a little.
"That's not true..." Miroku said and looked at her, giving her a little sad smile. "I can't help my nature over how I act to ladies......but when it comes to loving someone. Its is completely different"
Sango looked away to hide her blush. She looked back at Miroku a few minutes later and pulled her hands out of his grasp.
"Miroku-sama...we must do something about Kagome and InuYasha...we can't just.....leave them as they are...." Sango begged.
Miroku looked at her seriously and nodded.
***********************
InuYasha sat on the branch of a tree and looked out at the night sky. He held the Shikon shard that was once in Kagome's possession, he could feel apart of her, the Shikon that hung on the necklace brought so many memories of her.
~The thought of you is driving me crazy. I feel so bad for letting you go....~
"Kagome....baka...." InuYasha pulled the necklace bitterly off his neck, breaking the chain. He held it tightly and tried to through it away, but he couldn't let go.
"With this shard, it brought so much pain to me....it ripped me and Kikyo away.....and it brought Kagome....and its once again torn up my heart....but I don't regret it.....I'd rather live with a torn heart with the memories of Kagome than not having known her at all....For once, this damn shard has done me some good I guess..."
~Kagome......why did you have to become so important to me.....you make all my feelings so confused now....my heart aches when I think of you...you're driving me DAMN MAD!!!!!!!!!! I....can't think straight any longer~
InuYasha leaned back and closed his eyes, letting out a heavy sigh.
~You wanted to stay here, didn't you......Kagome. To stay here with Sango and them......who you care for so much.....but you left....because of me, so that I'd be happy with Kikyo.....and I made you leave because I was scared that I might hurt you by my full youkai form.....~ he sadly looked up at the sky,
~Kagome......i don't understand you. You do so much for us.....me, but you don't ask for anything back......~
~I wish I could care for Kikyo alone....but I can't....Kikyo....~ InuYasha thought guiltily, ~sorry....~
Kikyo moving in front of him, the arrow that was meant to pierce him, piercing into her flesh... flashed through his mind. The look of pain Kikyo had gave him made his heart bleed.
*****Flashback*****
"I'm letting you go InuYasha.....I WILL NOT FORCE YOU TO CHOSE ME! I love you InuYasha...but...." Kikyo cried.
"Kikyo...I chose you....I'm sorry...I just...Kikyo..." InuYasha looked at Kikyo
Kikyo looked up, her eyes blurry from tears. "InuYasha...!" she cried as she flung herself in front of him as an arrow hit her.
"Kikyo!!!!!!!...you saved me" InuYasha said, holding Kikyo in his arms.
"I knew I wouldn't die...since I am already dead. But it would be better to stand the pain of being hurt then you..."Kikyo said weakly.
*****End of Flashback*****
InuYasha felt his eyes moist, and he gripped his hands tightly into a fist.
"KIKYO" he said painfully, "You didn't have to do that...."
~You're so weak, that arrow could have killed you..... I CAN'T bear to loose you again! And.... I already owe you my life.... I don't want to owe you anymore things....~
"Kikyo......I swear, I'll kill Naraku for you...."
************************
Kagome looked down at the well. ~I'd have to go there sooner or later....~
She held the Shikon jewel tightly in her hands and jumped in the well.
Kagome reached the Feudal era. She looked around to see if Sango, Miroku....any of her other friends except InuYasha could be seen.
~They're probably in the hut...~Kagome thought as she headed that way.
She peeked into the hut and saw Miroku and InuYasha sitting together and talking of something.
~I wonder....what they're talking about....they look so serious. Huh? I heard my name....~
"WHY can't you bring Kagome BACK?!" Kagome heard Miroku ask angrily.
InuYasha looked away.
"Because, I chose Kikyo, if Kagome being here means that I'll lose Kikyo....then she can't stay......."