Heya!! I'm back and ready to write! School is letting me relax a bit, by
reducing the piles of homework. So thanks to that and a few free hours, I'm
back to my hobby!
Disclaimer: I don't own the song "Runaway" by Linkin Park. It's the best song in the word though! And......as you probably already guessed by my previous 4 chapters, I don't own CCS either....life sucks sometimes.....
Chapter 5: Runaway
Even though Li and I were sitting at the same booth, there was great distance between us. Unlike this morning, he no longer looked happy. He no longer wanted me in his arms. My held back tears were beginning to shine through. Covering my face with my hand and turning away, I finally spoke," April fool's everyone! This has been a joke....and none of today was real....." I had no idea how much pain saying that would bring, until just then.
~ Graffiti decorations ~
~ under a sky of dust ~
~ A constant wave of tension ~
~ On top of broken trust ~
~ the lessons that you taught me ~
~ I learned were never true ~
Why had I been so trusting? From the beginning my subconscious was telling me this would happen, that I would get hurt. So why did I ignore it? Slowly lifting my tear - stained eyes up at Li, endless questions poured into my head. From where things were now, it looked like he was hurting as much as I was....but was he really?
~ Now I find myself in question.... ~
~ [They point the finger at me again] ~
~ Guilty by association.... ~
~ [You point the finger at me again] ~
My eyes shifted to Meilin. Right after the words left my lips into this dense atmosphere, her face lit up. Grinning, she slid into the booth beside Li, throwing her arms around his neck.
" I knew it! I knew this was a joke! You and Sakura are only friends, right? Nothing else can come from that. Whew, you guys sure had me fooled!" She said, smiling at his darkened expression.
Was she right? Was friendship all I could ever have with Li?
~ I wanna run away ~
~ Never say goodbye ~
~ I wanna know the truth ~
~ Instead of wondering why ~
~ I wanna know the answers ~
~ No more lies ~
~ I wanna shut the door ~
~ and open up my mind ~
UGH! This was so pointless! This happened as I thought it would: as soon as Meilin heard the truth she was all over him again! Why did I even bother? This April fool's joke was more on me than anyone else anyway.
Eriol's concerned tone of voice broke into my thoughts.
"Sakura? Are you all right?"
A sob escaped my lips.
"What's wrong?" He asked, looking into my eyes. I instantly looked away.
What was wrong?!?! Wasn't it obvious enough already? Sometime during this whole stupid day I came to a resolution: I had deep feelings for Li. There! That was simple. Couldn't he see that? Could Li see that?
~ Paper bags and angry voices ~
~ under a sky of dust ~
~ another wave of tension ~
~ has more than filled me up ~
~ All my talk of taking action ~
~ these words were never true ~
~ Now I find myself in question.... ~
~ [They point the finger at me again] ~
~ Guilty by association.... ~
~ [You point the finger at me again] ~
"I need to go." I said, my voice hoarse and hurting now. I slid out of the booth and wiped away my tears with my sleeve. Yet more took their place. This was hopeless. Looking back at my friends and him, I sighed. So here it was, my worst fear. Just this morning I didn't want to leave the comfort of Li's arms in the booth, and now I'm running from it. Li's first kiss flashed before my eyes.
~ I wanna run away ~
~ Never say goodbye ~
~ I wanna know the truth ~
~ Instead of wondering why ~
~ I wanna know the answers ~
~ No more lies ~
~ I wanna shut the door ~
~ and open up my mind ~
Glancing back, I walked outside. The cold air hit me like a piece of glass, shattering in my face. My tears seemed to freeze on my face. With flocks of my hair snapping around my face, I mindlessly walked toward the park.
~ I'm gonna run away ~
~ and never say goodbye... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ I'm gonna run away ~
~ and never wonder why... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ I'm gonna run away ~
~ and open up my mind... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ Mind... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ Mind... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ Mind... ~
Today began as a happy day; it ended as a disaster. Somewhere in the middle of that simple analogy, I found serene happiness. Being held in Li's arms....feeling his soft lips on mine......never had I thought I would feel this was toward him. Yet now that this happened, I feel as if I felt this way towards him for a long time, only now I realized it. Too bad though, now it's too late. But like they say, it's better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all.
~ I wanna run away ~
~ Never say goodbye ~
~ I wanna know the truth ~
~ Instead of wondering why ~
~ I wanna know the answers ~
~ No more lies ~
~ I wanna shut the door ~
~ and open up my mind ~
So this was the end then......I sure imagined it to be different last night. I thought Li and I would still be together, at least only for today. I'd be in his strong, comforting arms, looking into his beautiful eyes. Yet all I had was cold chills running up my spine and my teary eyes were looking at the shady night sky instead of his warm eyes.
Something then flew out of the nearby tree, sending leaves flying down on the ground. A bird chipped in the woods. Pulling my jacket tighter around me, I kept walking.
I knew I was running away from Li now. I could have stayed and told him the truth. If my feelings for him are real, why was I running from them? Why was I fleeing like this? No answers returned.
"Why? Why am I running? Why can't I just face my feelings?" I cried out to the starry sky. Another bird chirped in return.
"I was hoping you could answer that."
I quickly turned on my heel, only to come face to face with Li. He was standing a few feet away from me, his hands in the pockets of his jeans.
[A/N -
There, another chapter done. This one wasn't as progressing as the others, but I hope you still liked it. I appreciate all reviews, so keep them coming! I love hearing from you guys! That' what I live for. (Well, not really, but you get my point. =^_^= )
~Angel~
Disclaimer: I don't own the song "Runaway" by Linkin Park. It's the best song in the word though! And......as you probably already guessed by my previous 4 chapters, I don't own CCS either....life sucks sometimes.....
Chapter 5: Runaway
Even though Li and I were sitting at the same booth, there was great distance between us. Unlike this morning, he no longer looked happy. He no longer wanted me in his arms. My held back tears were beginning to shine through. Covering my face with my hand and turning away, I finally spoke," April fool's everyone! This has been a joke....and none of today was real....." I had no idea how much pain saying that would bring, until just then.
~ Graffiti decorations ~
~ under a sky of dust ~
~ A constant wave of tension ~
~ On top of broken trust ~
~ the lessons that you taught me ~
~ I learned were never true ~
Why had I been so trusting? From the beginning my subconscious was telling me this would happen, that I would get hurt. So why did I ignore it? Slowly lifting my tear - stained eyes up at Li, endless questions poured into my head. From where things were now, it looked like he was hurting as much as I was....but was he really?
~ Now I find myself in question.... ~
~ [They point the finger at me again] ~
~ Guilty by association.... ~
~ [You point the finger at me again] ~
My eyes shifted to Meilin. Right after the words left my lips into this dense atmosphere, her face lit up. Grinning, she slid into the booth beside Li, throwing her arms around his neck.
" I knew it! I knew this was a joke! You and Sakura are only friends, right? Nothing else can come from that. Whew, you guys sure had me fooled!" She said, smiling at his darkened expression.
Was she right? Was friendship all I could ever have with Li?
~ I wanna run away ~
~ Never say goodbye ~
~ I wanna know the truth ~
~ Instead of wondering why ~
~ I wanna know the answers ~
~ No more lies ~
~ I wanna shut the door ~
~ and open up my mind ~
UGH! This was so pointless! This happened as I thought it would: as soon as Meilin heard the truth she was all over him again! Why did I even bother? This April fool's joke was more on me than anyone else anyway.
Eriol's concerned tone of voice broke into my thoughts.
"Sakura? Are you all right?"
A sob escaped my lips.
"What's wrong?" He asked, looking into my eyes. I instantly looked away.
What was wrong?!?! Wasn't it obvious enough already? Sometime during this whole stupid day I came to a resolution: I had deep feelings for Li. There! That was simple. Couldn't he see that? Could Li see that?
~ Paper bags and angry voices ~
~ under a sky of dust ~
~ another wave of tension ~
~ has more than filled me up ~
~ All my talk of taking action ~
~ these words were never true ~
~ Now I find myself in question.... ~
~ [They point the finger at me again] ~
~ Guilty by association.... ~
~ [You point the finger at me again] ~
"I need to go." I said, my voice hoarse and hurting now. I slid out of the booth and wiped away my tears with my sleeve. Yet more took their place. This was hopeless. Looking back at my friends and him, I sighed. So here it was, my worst fear. Just this morning I didn't want to leave the comfort of Li's arms in the booth, and now I'm running from it. Li's first kiss flashed before my eyes.
~ I wanna run away ~
~ Never say goodbye ~
~ I wanna know the truth ~
~ Instead of wondering why ~
~ I wanna know the answers ~
~ No more lies ~
~ I wanna shut the door ~
~ and open up my mind ~
Glancing back, I walked outside. The cold air hit me like a piece of glass, shattering in my face. My tears seemed to freeze on my face. With flocks of my hair snapping around my face, I mindlessly walked toward the park.
~ I'm gonna run away ~
~ and never say goodbye... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ I'm gonna run away ~
~ and never wonder why... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ I'm gonna run away ~
~ and open up my mind... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ Mind... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ Mind... ~
~ [Gonna runaway, Gonna runaway] ~
~ Mind... ~
Today began as a happy day; it ended as a disaster. Somewhere in the middle of that simple analogy, I found serene happiness. Being held in Li's arms....feeling his soft lips on mine......never had I thought I would feel this was toward him. Yet now that this happened, I feel as if I felt this way towards him for a long time, only now I realized it. Too bad though, now it's too late. But like they say, it's better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all.
~ I wanna run away ~
~ Never say goodbye ~
~ I wanna know the truth ~
~ Instead of wondering why ~
~ I wanna know the answers ~
~ No more lies ~
~ I wanna shut the door ~
~ and open up my mind ~
So this was the end then......I sure imagined it to be different last night. I thought Li and I would still be together, at least only for today. I'd be in his strong, comforting arms, looking into his beautiful eyes. Yet all I had was cold chills running up my spine and my teary eyes were looking at the shady night sky instead of his warm eyes.
Something then flew out of the nearby tree, sending leaves flying down on the ground. A bird chipped in the woods. Pulling my jacket tighter around me, I kept walking.
I knew I was running away from Li now. I could have stayed and told him the truth. If my feelings for him are real, why was I running from them? Why was I fleeing like this? No answers returned.
"Why? Why am I running? Why can't I just face my feelings?" I cried out to the starry sky. Another bird chirped in return.
"I was hoping you could answer that."
I quickly turned on my heel, only to come face to face with Li. He was standing a few feet away from me, his hands in the pockets of his jeans.
[A/N -
There, another chapter done. This one wasn't as progressing as the others, but I hope you still liked it. I appreciate all reviews, so keep them coming! I love hearing from you guys! That' what I live for. (Well, not really, but you get my point. =^_^= )
~Angel~