FROM REGRET TO JOY-5

Hello everyone. It's Saturday and time for a new update. I'm hoping that this chapter will be full of love and good feelings and with a pleasant surprise, which will not be a total surprise. Now I really confused everyone ;-) Shortly speaking- hope that you will like this chapter.

Extramarital bliss and it's consequences

Ever since their first night together, Elsie and Charles were living in their own happy bubble, refusing to deal with reality. Their feelings, hidden and restrained for such a long time, could now finally blossom with a double force.

Even though they were very private and prudent people, they seemed to forgot about it and they were focused only on each other.

Since their first lovemaking, they spent every night together, risking, that they will be caught, sneaking to each other's bedrooms. It would be impossible to explain themselves, once someone would notice that. But their never ending need of being together was so strong, that they were ready for such risk. The new founded passion was difficult to distinguish and usually, immediately after closing the door, they tore of each other's clothes and made love with enormous lust.

To their own surprise, the initial inhabitations vanished completely and they were fully enjoying their bodies and all the things they did together.

Elsie was sometimes a little embarrassed in the morning, when she was looking at Charles and speaking to him in front of others, when she remembered what they were doing last night.

Charles was more bold and he often caught himself having some really dirty thoughts, in the middle of the day, when she was near. Even in the daylight and encircled with other people, he sometimes couldn't chase away the smutty deliberations from his mind.

What was even much more risky, they didn't limit theirselves to nights only. Recently during the day, they made some bold moves, like Elsie, when she saw Charles walking through the servants hall alone and dragging him into her sitting room, closing the door and showering him with lustful kisses.

Charles decided not to stay behind and he often surprised Elsie, standing behind her quietly, when she was writing something on her desk and kissing the side of her neck, because he knew how much she adored it.

When they were dining together with other servants, Elsie often caught Charles by surprise, touching his leg with her foot, or what was even braver, touching his thigh with her hand...When she did it for the very first time, he was terrified, but later he learnt to appreciate it and it brought warm smile to his face every time.

For now, all those little eruptions of passion between the two heads of the household were unnoticed. Maybe except Charles's smiles during the meals, but if anyone saw that, he or she associated this rather with the satisfaction with Mrs Patmore's kitchen, than the hidden signs of passion from Elsie.

What was even more beautiful and more significant, was that it wasn't only about the passion. They loved each other tremendously and they didn't hesitate to show it to one another.

Charles was taking care of Elsie in a way that he never done it before, making sure that there was always fire in her sitting room, so she wouldn't be cold, or bringing her sweater, if he noticed, that she shivered, sitting by the desk and troubling herself with domestic invoices.

Elsie looked after Charles in a way that melted his heart. She , that he has to have his tea at the same hour, that he was happy if she brought him a plate full of biscuits in the middle of the day.

Their mutual tenderness was mixing with passion and neither of them has ever felt happier in their life.

No matter how tired they were, after everyday duties, they were waiting impatiently for the evenings, but still continued their evenings with Sherry ritual, so it wouldn't be suspicious to others, why they suddenly stopped. However even the Sherry ritual was different now. Earlier, they were sitting apart from each other and talking about the days events and now, they sat together on the sofa, closed the door every time and kissed or touched each other, risking to be caught by their colleagues.

The nights were the most awaited part of their routine. Tonight, when they lied in their arms, Elsie had a soppy smile on her face, when she watched, as Charles was playing with her hair and nibbling her earlobe. He was purring quietly and his lips transferred from her earlobe to her neck, moving slowly on it, making her eyes close and causing the feeling of delight in her...

"Mmmmm Charlie...I love when you do that..."

"Do what Elsie?"

"You know what...When you are kissing my neck...I think that my skin is extra sensitive there.."

"So you love it? What else do you love Elsie?...Tell me and show me and I will kiss any part of you, that you want me to kiss..."

Elsie looked at her man with adoration...He was so sweet and so indefatiguable, in giving her pleasure.. Grand and magnificent Charles Carson, became an adorable teddy bear in bed, focusing on pleasuring his beloved woman, in every way she wanted to be pleasured...

"I love everything Charles...No matter where you touch me, it's so wonderful...I love everything that we do together...All of it...Does it feel the same for you? Do you like when I'm touching you?..."

"Yes Elsie...It's exactly the same for me...I adore your hands and your lips on my body...Oh Elsie...You are so beautiful, so special...What we have..."

"I know Charles...I know exactly what you mean sweetie..."

Charles sighed deeply...They both felt the same, but in all this never ending delight, he felt pangs of conscience..Because even though everything what they did together was sacred and beautiful, it was wrong and unfair, especially to Elsie...If anyone would find about it, she would be the one to be blamed and Charles realized that fully. As much as he adored making love to her every night, he knew, that it couldn't stay that way forever...

"Elsie...I was thinking...That even though our love is one of the kind, don't you think that we should make it official, to announce, that we want to get married to the family and our colleagues?"

"Do we want to get married Charles?"

"I do, don't you?"

"I suppose so, but can we just enjoy the moment? To live freely for a while and simply be with each other, like we are now?"

"Elsie...You know that I love that, but what if we get caught? You know what that may mean? To both of us? We can be sacked without references..."

"I doubt that His Lordship would be so strict, he is not a cruel man..."

"You are right, but for the sake of his good name, we would have to leave this house.."

"So what if we would Charlie? The world does not end on Downton Abbey, although I know that you may have a different opinion about that..."

"I love this house, wouldn't want to leave it..Although if I had to choose between the house and you, the choice would be obvious..."

"Meaning you would chose the house?"-Elsie asked innocently, laughing and teasing Charles...

"Ha, ha! Very funny Elsie...You know that you are my number one...Always..."

"I know...I hope that I always will be...And you are worrying too much my love...It's been over a month and we were not caught...We just need to be extra careful, like we were till now..."

"But Elsie, even if we are going to be very careful, there is still one more thing..."

"What is it Charlie, what else you are worrying about?"

"Well, we are, you know, we are making love and you can get pregnant, we didn't consider it, but it's possible..."

"Charlie, you love to invent problems...I'm almost forty...I'm too old for that, it will not happen... Do you have any other problems to think about?"

"I guess that's all for now..."

"Finally, so we can skip further conversation and get to action..."

"What action do you mean Mrs Hughes? You need to be more specific..."

Elsie smiled wickedly and she led his hand under her night gown and placed it centrally between her thigs, while she placed her hand on the bulge of his pajama trousers...A series of quiet moans, was just an introduction to another portion of their delicious lovemaking...

One month later...

Elsie's head was spinning round, as she was kneeling down the toilet, vomitting for the third time this morning...She was pale, exhausted and frightened...This all started few days ago and lasted ever since. In the beginning she thought, that Mrs Patmore's lamb stew, that they were having for dinner last night, made her feel that way, but nobody else had any stomach problems, she was the only one..

This was fourth day in a row, where she was having morning sickness and she was so tired, that she wasn't able to keep up with her daily duties.

She flushed the toilet, brushed her teeth and straightend her hairdo, trying to look normal, but the woman that was looking at her in the reflection of the mirror, was not normal...Pale, exhausted, with dark rings under her eyes...Elsie sighed and went downstairs, hiding in her sitting room. She didn't want to see anybody..

However there was one person who wasn't going to leave her alone...It was Charles...As soon as he heard her footsteps, he rushed into her sitting room, to find her sitting in the sofa, pale and without energy.

"Elsie did it happen again? Are you still sick?"

"I'm afraid so...I was vomitting...I don't know why is it always in the morning..."

"Els, sweetheart you need to visit dr Clarkson, as soon as possible...I can make arrangment for you..."

"No Charlie, it would be too dangerous...I need to go there by myself..."

"Are you sure? Will you manage?"

"I will...Don't worry Charlie...I will be all right...Everything is going to be fine..."

She touched his cheek, wanting to calm him down, although she wasn't feeling to sure herself... Charles believed her and he just made sure, that she would go to the doctor...

As Elsie was walking through the village, her mind started to play tricks on her, or at least that was what she thought, as one possibility, that she was downplaying before, couldn't leave her in peace. Was it possible that she got pregnant? At her age? With such decreased level of chances for that to happen? What if she was? How will that affect her life? How will Charles take it? Will they have to change their whole life now? Thousand thoughts have entered her mind at once and she really couldn't focus on anything.

At the moment of entering the doctor's office, she felt badly shaken and unable to focus. When she left half an hour later, she already knew. It wasn't 100% sure yet, but close to that...

Elsie was coming back home, in the darkness, as her visit was scheduled for late afternoon and tears were flowing freely...She wasn't quite sure, if those were the tears of happiness or the tears of sadness, but she couldn't stop...

Of course she was thinking and dreaming about it, but not in such circumstances...She wanted to be a mother, she wanted to have Charles's baby, but she couldn't let herself be happy, until the moment, when she will know how Charles feels about it...As she entered the door of his pantry, her emotions were so high, that she even forgot what was her name...

That's all for today folks...So it looks like our love birds have stir up the hornet's nest ;-) Poor Elsie has a difficult task, to break the news to Charles. How he will react? You will know that, reading the next chapter. Thank you for all your reviews and support. If you liked it, please let me know. Have an amazing weekend!