(Authors note, sorry this took so long but my hard drive melted, maybe it knew that what I was writing was getting naughty? Anyway, nothing I tried was able to restore or retrieve what I had written, so I had to re-write everything on this new laptop. Side note, thoughts and prayers out to one of my best friends Michelle, her son is a Marine, and was just diagnosed with colon cancer and is currently being treated at a military hospital in Hawaii, I love you girl and I know he will make it through this, Semper fi,)

CHAPTER 47

I was laying on the bed with Jessica drinking my beer and laughing at the TV when a sudden bang on the door made me jump startled at the sound. After all we were 3 underage girls drinking beer in a rented hotel room and my father was the chief of police. But that didn't stop Lauren, "They're hear" she giggled and leapt up rushing to the door. She flung the door open without even checking to see who it was and in walked two guys who could only be James and Laurent. Lauren gave James a quick hug and then literally jumped up into Laurent's arms and gave him a kiss. Tyler who, I thought as I watched her suck face with him, I mean she was just complaining that poor Tyler didn't give her enough attention. They closed the door and James turned towards Jessica and I on the bed and I saw him lick his lips. I instantly felt a wave of uneasiness wash over me at the thought of these two guys coming over to a hotel room with just us girls. But the promise of more drugs overruled any misgivings I may have had. Jessica clearly didn't seem to think anything about them as she scooted off of the bed and dashed over towards them. "there's my party girl" James laughed and ran his hand over his hair. Ugh, his hair looked greasy, and that ponytail made him look so skeavy. Jessica didn't seem to mind as she hugged him, "did you bring some goodies for this party girl" she asked and stood back batting her lashes up at him. God, she even placed her hands behind her back and stuck her tits out at him. He smiled down at her obviously enjoying the sight Jessica was presenting him, "You know we never go anywhere without out our Scooby snacks" he laughed. But then his grin turned into a smirk as his eyes found me alone on the bed, "well, well, hello there little Swan" I was nervous so I could only manage a small wave. James turned back to Jessica, "you are partying with the police chief's daughter" he asked and before Jessica could answer I said "And"? He turned back to face me and took a step towards the bed bending slightly at the waist, "and I aint looking to spend the rest of my life in jail" he snarked. "Oh, she's cool James" Jessica brushed off his concern, but he didn't take his eyes off of me. "Yeah" he said pulling out a large bag of little white pills. I watched in rapt attention as he carefully pulled out a single pill and held it between his thumb and forefinger. "Just how cool are you little swan" he smiled down at me. Without another thought I rolled off the bed and snatched the pill from his hands, with a big show I placed it on my tongue and washed it down with the last of my beer. "Very cool" I smiled up at him and he laughed. "That will do little swan, that will do, but you know that shit aint free right" he said with another smirk. I grabbed another beer and slid back onto the bed and scooted up to the headboard. "Oh, the first one's always free right" I quipped back and batted my lashes at him just as Jessica had done. This time he laughed out loud and pulled out another pill to hand to Jessica who was pouting and tugging at his sleeve. I smiled back at them and then felt my phone vibrate in my pocket.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and my heart dropped. I felt crushing guilt as I saw it was Edward calling and debated on whether to answer. I watched Lauren detach herself from Laurent long enough to grab a pill from James as the phone continued to buzz in my hand. "Hello" I answered finally giving up the internal debate. His velvet voice rang out just as Jessica returned to the bed to look over my shoulder and see who it was and groaned. Why wouldn't he just realize I wasn't worth it, I thought as he pleaded with me to not go through with it. Lauren made a joke, calling him Eddie as she pulled Laurent into the bathroom. "Jesus Edward let her have some fun" Jessica Bellowed as she tried to pull her sweater over her head while falling backwards onto the bed. James laughed and I could hear the panic in Edwards voice, the heartbreak. Whatever I thought, he should have thought better before crushing my heart. "Edward, God, I am not doing anything" I growled into the phone. He left me because I was worthless, so I would show him how much it hurts to give yourself to someone so fully only to be cast away. Something banged in the bathroom, and it was followed by a loud moan of pleasure, to which Jessica started giggling. "I gotta go bye" I said ignoring his pleading voice and hung up. "Finally" Jessica said and leaned over my body to grab another beer. She had stripped down to just a tank top and no bra and made a big show of falling all over me laughing. James grabbed the chair in the corner and moved it over next to the bed and sat down. "That your boyfriend little swan" he asked grabbing a beer for himself. "He dumped her" she said and slid up next to me, "can you believe that shit, this hot piece of ass" she continued waving her hand up and down as if she was presenting me. "Knock it off Jess, you don't understand" I growled, hating that this discussion was ruining my night and my buzz. "Well, anyone dumb enough to let you go, must be crazy" James said in quiet voice that was almost sweet. I suddenly felt flushed and overheated, the X was starting to kick in, and if was hitting harder and faster than anything I had taken before.

I set my beer down and unzipped my hoodie feeling my limbs start to tingle. "Yeah, well he begged to get me back, and I said yes, I am just having a little trouble not being incredibly pissed off at him at the moment. "That's it girl, don't get mad, get even" Jessica laughed and clinked her beer bottle against mine. Just then we all heard, "Oh, shit yeah, right there, oh yes" from the bathroom. James snickered, "Damn he works fast". "Not as fast as Lauren" Jessica and I said at the same time and fell over each other laughing. "I heard that" Lauren shouted from behind the bathroom door, which caused us all to break out in laughter. "Oh, I forgot" Jessica suddenly shouted and sat up in the bed and started looking around. "Ah, ha" she yelped and snatched the remote from the nightstand, "you guys know the best thing about these hotel rooms" she asked. I just shook my head and felt the exaggerated movements of the drugs and the beer. "Free Spanktravision" she shouted and flipped the channels. "Isn't that what's going on in there" I said pointing to the bathroom door as Jess flipped the channel to hardcore porn. The room filled with the sounds of skin slapping against wet skin, as a huge titted strawberry blonde was being pounded from behind by a hunk of a man. "Score Jess said falling back against myself and the headboard. "OMG, Bella doesn't that look like Tanya Denali" she gasped. I couldn't help but think of Tanya and Edward, they were always hanging out together. She was always touching his arm or hugging on him. With her massive boobs, and perfect blue eyes, not to mention she was damn near a giant compared to me. "Yeah, she does", I said feeling my blood rush through my veins, powered by jealousy, and fueled by drugs and inadequacy. The fake Tanya moaned and tossed her hair. How the fuck could I compete with a girl that looked like a fucking pornstar. I felt fingers slide slowly up and down my jean clad thigh. Jessica had laid her head on my stomach and was slowly stroking up and down my leg. I smiled at the feeling and let my own fingers move into her hair. It was so soft I thought and couldn't stop the giggle that fell from my lips. Wow this X was strong I smiled. The girl on the Tv spun around falling to her knees and started sucking off the man, and we all laughed when the sound of slapping skin didn't stop but continued from the bathroom. "GO, Lauren" we both giggled.

I heard a grunt of laugher next to me and I turned to see James shake his head and then stare at us. "You girls sure look cozy there" he said and reached into his pocket pulling out the large bag of pills. I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face, as my fingers trailed down over Jessica's shoulder onto her arm. "She is so soft" I purred, even my words were soft and fuzzy. I watched as James pulled out two smaller clear plastic bags, "How would you two like to have some fun" he asked, and I couldn't take my eyes away from the pills on the nightstand. "Mmmh, I like were this is going" Jessica purred. "I will make you two a deal, a little game of Simon says, you both remember that game right". We both simply nodded our heads as he continued, "For each Simon says you complete, I will place a pill in a bag of your own" he said with a smile. Fuck yes, I thought, I never wanted this feeling end, I wanted it to last forever, soft, warm, and happy. "Jessica are you ready" he spoke, and she nodded giggling. James pulled out a pill and held it up, with a wide smile he said, "Simon says slip off your tank top". Jessica didn't even hesitate she sat up next to me on her knees and made a big show of slowly sliding the fabric up and over her large breasts. I couldn't look away as she tossed the fabric into the corner and then glided her hands up her torso to cup her flesh and moan, "everything feels so good" she whispered. "Good girl" James said and placed the pill into one of the empty bags. I peeled my eyes off Jessica's body to watch James pull out another pill. The whole room was echoing with the sounds of the TV and Lauren fucking in the bathroom adding to the heat I could feel pulsing through my body. "Are you ready little swan" he asked, and I nodded my eyes going back to Jessica's naked breasts above me. "Simon says touch Jessica's beautiful breasts". Jessica smiled and straddled my legs leaning down as my hands slowly came up. They were so much bigger than mine I thought as my fingers slid up her torso. "Feel their weight, how full they are, how pink her nipples are", he whispered, and Jessica gave a shudder as I did just that. "They are beautiful, and so soft" I breathed. Her skin really felt like warm silk and her rosy peaks became so hard under my fingertips. "Very good little swan, and a double treat for a job well done" he said and out of the corner of my eye I saw him place two pills in my baggie.

"Simon says kiss" he whispered. I heard the words, but I don't think they registered in my brain, I was breathing hard as Jessica's lips descended towards my own. What was I doing I thought, but when Jessica's lips touched my own, I felt my core throb and my mouth opened. Our tongues touched and caressed, dancing together in slow swirls. "Touch her Swan, yes that's good" he said. My hands teased and stroked her nipples as Jessica moaned into my mouth. I felt a rush of power at the sounds I was causing her to make, and I used that rush to flip her over on the bed pressing my body between her legs. "Oh Swan that's it", and James placed another pill into my bag and leaned back in the chair, "I like to watch, and you both are doing so good". Everything felt amazing to me, every touch, every caress had been amplified tenfold, and I was encouraged by the sounds Jessica was making and the words of encouragement that James was saying. I was torn away from my thoughts when Jessica's hand slipped down my center and unbuttoned my jeans. She nipped at my bottom lip, and I gasped when her fingers found there way into my panties and my head fell to her shoulder. I bit down as they began to slowly move through my soaked folds. "Very good Jessica, how does she feel, tell me". "She feels like she is on fire" she panted into my ear. "Take your clothes off" he said holding up two more pills. We stripped, too far gone to be self-conscious, Jessica pushed me down onto my back and then laid her silken body across mine. Her frame was so slight, and her body felt amazing against my own, so different from the delicious weight of Edwards large powerful body, this was so light and sweet with feather light touches that were driving me crazy. Our breasts pressed together, and my hands slid down to the swell of her ass massaging her soft cheeks. My fingers moved closer and closer to towards her opening as she latched onto my neck. "Do it little swan, you are so close, drag your fingers through her wet folds" he said. Jessica hummed into my neck as my fingers delved into her burning heat. She gasped rocking back into my hand, and then dipped down to latch onto my nipple and I bit down on my lip. Her hands moved down to force my legs open as her fingers found my clit "oh fuck", I groaned at the feeling. "Devour her Jessica" I heard, and she moved down my torso blazing a trail with her tongue. She pushed my legs open wide and I arched off the bed when she began lavishing my pussy. My hands shot into her hair pressing her face into my core. Stars flashed behind my eyelids as I writhed under her, jumping when the bathroom door burst open.

We both stopped turning to see Laurent carrying out a naked and sweating Lauren in his arms. He carried her towards the other side of the bed opposite of where James sat watching. He sent her on her feet and bent her over at the waist so that her head was directly over top of us. "Oh God that is sexy" she said and I watched as Laurent bent slightly lining himself up to her entrance and pressed into her. I looked up into her blue eyes as they widened in pleasure, and she started rocking back and forth as Laurent pulled her hips back into his. I had to bite back a scream when Jessica slipped two fingers inside of me and began sucking on my clit. Then I screamed when Lauren grabbed my breasts and latched onto my nipple. "Good girls, make her cum" I heard as my body couldn't take the overwhelming pleasure. I was overwhelmed and overstimulated and I came so fucking hard I saw stars. I couldn't take it anymore and had to push them off of me, rolling away into a ball convulsing. "Jessica, turn around and let Lauren taste you as she gets fucked' James commanded, and the bed shook as Jessica slid before Lauren and opened her legs wide. My body was vibrating along with the bed as Laurent punished her with his thrusts. I heard "Get back in the game Swan" and turned to see James holding another pill in one hand and himself in the other. So, I crawled over top of Jessica and moved Lauren's hair to the side as we both started licking and teasing Jessica's cunt. Our tongues swirled in her wetness as she thrashed beneath us, her fingers finding their way back into me. Laurent gave a growl as Lauren began convulsing as her orgasm overtook her. He pulled out of her and smacked her ass tossing her onto the bed. He was now before me stroking his slick cock and then reached out for me, but that one part of my brain that was still functioning screamed no. I had no desire for him or his cock, so I quickly sat up leaping off Jessica's body and scooted back up to the headboard. Laurent simply shrugged and grabbed Jessica's legs and yanked her to the edge of the bed and plunged into her waiting pussy. Her screams echoed in the tiny room as she orgasmed again. I looked around seeing the bodies around me, James grunts were becoming wild, Lauren was rubbing her pussy wildly and moaning. My eyes fell to the nightstand and my baggie was overflowing with pills. "I'm close", Laurent groaned. "Me too, get on your knees girls" James growled. Lauren and Jessica rolled to the floor wrapping their arms around each other and began kissing, while James and Laurent towered over them stroking their cock's. I remained frozen on the bed, the reality of the situation finally setting in. They groaned and grunted as Jessica and Lauren moaned and begged for their cum. I felt sick to my stomach as I watched both girls get drenched in cum. In an instant I leapt from the bed snatching the bag of pills and my clothes and dashed into the bathroom. I slammed the door and immediately threw up in the toilet. What had I done, the drugs were wearing off, but the shame and guilt was coming on strong. I wanted to flush the pills with the remnants of my dignity, but I couldn't. I knew that the shakes would come tomorrow. "Bella, we need to get in there" they pounded on the door. Oh God, I needed to get out of here, I needed to escape what I had done. I tore open the door and dashed out of the room, never making eye contact with anyone. I had sold my body for drugs; I was truly a whore now. There was no way Edward would want me now that I was completely worthless. How could anyone want me now I cried…

I was back in the car now, starring at a shocked and silent Edward. "And when you pulled up in my driveway the next day, all I wanted was forgiveness, for you to make it all go away. But how Edward, how could I possibly tell you what I had done. No one deserves to be betrayed that way, and to see the devastation in your eyes Edward. You knew I had done something already, but you didn't know the depths of my depravity. So, I forbade myself from reaching out to you, from falling to my knees before you and pleading with everything I had for your forgiveness. I didn't deserve you anymore, I didn't deserve anything anymore, so I let you go, because it was better than letting you know the truth. The truth that the girl that you loved was nothing more than a worthless whore.