CHAPTER 49

I had truly thought it was over, I thought he was going to tell me that there was no way he could be with me anymore or in anyway. I had shut my eyes in a feeble attempt to hide from reality, afraid to look at the disgust in his eyes after I unloaded all the disgusting details of my betrayal. I begged him as a pathetic worthless whore, that he please not throw me away. My Edward, my perfectly damaged man, who had always put me before himself. I had no right, none at all to ask any more of him, but I did, I begged with everything that I had left. "Open your Goddamn eyes and look at me" the ferocity in his voice, the anger shocked me, my eyes flew open. I couldn't remember a time when he had sounded so angry, and I flinched at the sound. I had no fear that he would physically hurt me, but I knew he had been pushed far beyond his limits, beyond anyone's limits. And I was preparing myself for the barrage, could my heart survive when he cast me way like I deserved…but it didn't come. He was wounded, just like the crash, his body and soul had been beaten and broken, and somehow, someway he kept going. He shouted and raged at my stupidity, his mother, the panic attacks, and the murderous fury at those who had witnessed and taken what was rightfully his. And dear God, he, he had said that he was aroused at the thought of my getting fucked by those girls, but that was a common fantasy for men, wasn't it? I wasn't prepared for when his arms shot out and took my body. As if I was a ragdoll, he dragged my body across the car and slammed me down in his lap. I was shocked and ecstatic to be at his mercy, "You belong to me Isabella" his words ignited an inferno inside my heart. "Say it Isabella" God I was his to command, the instant he called me Isabella, and I screamed that I was his while I tried to claw a way into his heart. I couldn't get close enough to him and I nearly exploded when he pressed me down onto his massive erection. I begged him to take me, to make me his again as I rolled my hips dragging my throbbing core against him. I never wanted anything more than him, and only him. "Take us home"

I could have flown us there and I am pretty sure I had. I couldn't remember how we had gotten to his apartment. All I could remember was the feel of his fingers dancing along my thighs, gliding along my exposed neck, caressing my side. He was driving me insane, teasing me beyond sanity. Whispering sweet words of love and a desperate need for me. My entire being was shaking with a pent-up need for this man, I was coming apart at the seams as we pulled into his parking garage. I shut off the engine and turned to him, my nerves suddenly kicking in when I saw his handsome face staring back at me. That crooked smile that I loved was plastered firmly on his face. Today had been absolute insanity, and we had so much to work on. His injuries, my insecurities, our heartache. "Stop it right now Bella", "what I didn't", "You didn't have to" he said leaning over the console and his warm hand reached out to stroke my cheek. There was pure love in his eyes, "I won't let the self-doubt ruin this Bella, no second guessing anymore, "do you love me" he asked, and I responded instantly, "so much Edward, so much it hurts". He smiled, "I know exactly how you feel" he laughed. But then his eyes became serious, "we have waited almost six goddamn years Isabella" and I groaned loving the sound of his voice, and the way it wrapped around my name. It turned my insides into liquid fire and made my pulse pound. "I have spent so many nights dreaming of you, of finally being able to be with you again. Being this close to you, to my fantasy, it makes my heart feel like it is going to pound out of my chest with need. Tonight, there is no thoughts of tomorrow, no thoughts of the past. Just you and me, finally joined as one, how we were meant to be. How does he do that, take all my fears and doubts, and melt them all away with only his voice. "I want you Edward, I need you to make this all real, prove to me that I am not imagining this all-consuming need for you and only you. I feel like if you so much as breathe on me right now I might burst. His grin turned almost evil at my words, and I watched him move slowly towards me. I felt my body tremble, but I was frozen in his gaze. My hunter had me cornered as he moved slowly, deliberate, stalking until his lips were almost at my ear. "Then get your perfect ass inside right now Isabella…"

The door burst open slamming into the wall as two bodies stumbled inside wrapped around one another, panting, licking, biting. I felt like a wild animal as I tore at what was left of Edwards shirt. I was desperate to remove the tattered remains to get at his muscled chest. While his hands pressed me to the wall, and he kicked the door closed. Ragged breaths filled the empty darkened apartment. "Take it off" I moaned as he latched onto my neck just below my ear making my legs threaten to give out. He stood back and I felt a cold emptiness where his body had been. In one quick movement he grasped his shirt and ripped it from his chest. "Fuck" I groaned as buttons bounced off the walls around me. The muscles of his chest strained, and I moaned watching his abs and forearms flexed while he removed his belt and jeans. I reached down unbuttoning my own jeans and peeled them off and then whipped my shirt off. "Jesus Christ" he said, his eyes roamed my body setting it on fire. "My favorite color" he groaned, and I couldn't stop my smile as I stood bare in only a tiny set of light blue lace bra and panties. I had picked them just for him remembering how he had loved me in blue. He stepped into me and claimed my mouth, his burning fingers reached behind me snapping my bra off in one quick move and then he hooked is thumbs into my panties and dragged them slowly down my legs placing kisses the whole way down. "I can smell your lust Isabella, I hunger for it, I want your taste on my tongue". I grabbed him by the hair and yanked him back up. "Take me to the bed right fucking now Edward, before I burst" I pleaded. His massive arms snaked around me, and I was lifted from the ground. His skin felt like it was on fire against my own. Lust was clouding my brain and I was barely hanging onto my sanity.

I was desperately trying to keep the animal inside of me locked in its cage, but I was losing the battle. Once inside the bedroom, with her naked body in my arms, It hit me that this was really about to happen. I set her down at the edge of the bed and pulled back to just look at her. The sight before me was the stuff of my greatest fantasies. Her naked body in the soft light of the waterfront was mesmerizing and maddening. Years of pent-up sexual frustration was threatening to burst through the walls I had put up. I spun her around and encircled her in my arms. My hands roamed over her torso, gliding up her stomach, over the swell of her breasts to her jaw which I turned and captured her lips. She met my kisses with a fervor and ground her perfect ass into my aching cock. My other hand slipped down to her soaking core. "Mmh, so wet Isabella" I whispered into her ear. "Only for you, always for you" God she knew just what to say to make me insane. "Bella please, please" I begged her, for what I didn't know, for her to be real, for this to be truly happening, for it all, I begged. She spun in my arms grasping my face in her hands and pulled us down onto the bed. Her legs fell open to me, and as I settled between them, I felt her heat and it threatened to burn me alive. "Please what baby" she panted up to me as her fingers danced down my chest. I pushed myself up on my elbows to look into her eyes. It was there that I found what I was begging for. In her eyes there was no pain, no self-doubt, no past, just her, the woman I loved. "I…I can't explain it Bella, my love for you" I said and reached up to stroke her cheek. "I can barely control this fire, this need and want for you, it threatens to consume me. You are the most precious thing in the world to me and I feel crazed, mad with my want for you" I said as a dragged my fingers down her neck over her collar bone and down to her breast and heart. She moaned and her hips rocked spreading her wetness along my length. "Edward, please I know that feeling, I'm barely holding it together, I need you so badly I can't take it anymore" I leaned down claiming her soft lips with my own as I reached down to slowly aligned myself with her entrance. "I love you" I whispered as I gently pressed into her. I broke the kiss placing my hands beside her head rising, so I could see the pleasure on her face as her wet burning walls stretched and fluttered around my length. Dear God in heaven, the feeling was so intense I didn't know if I would last another second as the most beautiful sight, I had ever seen lay beneath me. Her head rocked forward, her eyes wide, and her mouth fell open in a silent scream of pleasure as I slid further and further into her. Her hands dragged down my chest and slipped to my hips digging into my flesh as her legs locked around me, driving me all the way in until my hips met hers.

I growled and bit down on my lip as she forced my body to remain fully seated inside of her. Her walls fluttered and spasmed around me forcing me to fight off the urge to spill inside of her right there and then. I had to move, I needed more, but as I tried to pull back to drive into her again her whole body reacted. Her fingers latched onto my ass as her legs strangled my torso, locking me into place as her eyes went wide and she jerked her neck straining. Her whole being began to shake, and for an instant I thought she might be in pain as her lips parted but then she erupted below me and a deep guttural "Fuuuuuuuck!" bellowed from her lungs. Her whole body bucked against me, shaking uncontrollably, as her inner walls clenched around me. I pressed my weight down against her as she ground her hips against me her orgasm ripping through her body. I kissed her open mouth swallowing down her cries of pleasure. I rolled my hips needing to move, needing to extend the pleasure I saw before me. "Oh God, oh God, she panted against my lips, and I couldn't help my smile. I tried to move, to slide back when she squeezed me tight, "No, no, no, not yet, please don't move" she begged and my heart soared in happiness, knowing that I was responsible for her pleasure. It made me feel whole, a feeling of pure joy at the feeling of being complete once again. I reached up and stroked her cheek, whipping her hair away from her flushed face, "I know baby, I know" I whispered.

Her eyes began to shimmer as she looked up at me, "I know baby, I feel it, it's like finally being complete, you were meant for me, and I for you" I said. "You, you" she stumbled over the words, "might not survive" she finished, and I laughed shaking us both. Her death grip finally loosened, and I slowly rocked back and slid slowly painfully back into her. I watched her eyes flutter at the sensation, "but what a way to go" I smiled, and her laughter fell away and her head fell back as I increased my rhythm. "Jesus, Bella, so fucking tight so wet" I groaned picking up my pace. "For you Edward, only for you" she moaned. I raised up desperate to fully see my fantasy beneath me. Her hands came to my chest, and her legs fell further open, and I growled at the increased depth of my thrusts. "You are so fucking beautiful baby it hurts how much I need you". "I'm yours" she pleaded, "Feel me Edward, brand me, my body remembers you, only you" she cried, and I could feel her body clamping down around me again. "I can feel you baby, I need to see that gorgeous face cum for me again. I sat back on my heels, pulling her hips up to meet my thrusts, my hand falling to where we were joined. I began to circle her clit with each plunge of my aching cock. Her face contorted and her body spasmed in pleasure. "Oh, fuck, Edward oh God" she wailed. "Show me Isabella, I have to see it" I demanded. Her hands slapped the bed as her body arched into mine and I couldn't hold back. I began thrusting wildly, slamming into her body, and making vicious circles on her sensitive bundle of nerves. She thrashed beneath me, flailing wildly, and gasping for air between her screams of pleasure. "That's it Isabella, I can feel you gripping my cock with your pussy as you cum" I growled fending off my own orgasm. I was so close, but I never wanted this feeling to end, I could watch her come apart for forever. "I am so close baby, look at me" I panted. Her eyes popped open as I fell forward pressing her legs open wide and laying my weight upon her body. I grasped her hips my fingers digging into her ass, and she gasped in pleasure. "Please Edward, fill my body, fill me" and her legs wrapped around me again. I couldn't hold off anymore as my orgasm was coming on fast. "You're mine baby, forever" I pleaded thrusting wildly. Our hips met over and over as I clung on for dear life. Memorizing her perfect face, her wild eyes, mouth open body flushed and straining in glorious rapture. Until I was falling over the edge, slamming into her body, to far gone to stop of be gentle. Until I plunged in as deep as her body would allow, I roared as she screamed, as I released deep inside of her. My body strained as I let go, every muscle, every piece of my soul exploded as I branded her from the inside. The pleasure so explosive, so sublime I feared for a moment that I no longer existed. Until I collapsed down next to her, both of us a sweating panting mess. Delirious, I scooped up her shaking slick body and crushed her to my side. "Never again Bella, you'll never leave my side again" I promised. "Forever and always" she cried gasping for breath. With a shaking hand I tilted her chin up so I could look into her eyes. Her smile was blinding, and I couldn't stop my own goofy grin. "Well, we survived" I said, and we both burst out in laugher…