sorry for the long wait. This is a little perception on the main characters' thoughts.

i don't own the characters and english is not my first language so be kind :)

Jack went back home, his mind filled with thoughts. He had been in love with Maya when they were together and he could not lie by saying he hadn't ever pictured having a family with her. But now the situation had changed; Maya was not with him anymore and -given his family situation- he had never even been sure whether he even wanted kids. His mind started to spiral thinking about becoming a dad and the only thing he was sure about was that he did not want to be distant. He needed to talk to someone, but he was doubtful since Maya wanted to keep it a secret.

His eyes were tired but his mind kept going so he turned the car towards Dean's house.

After his friend had had the baby he did not see him as often. The house was still the same but looked totally different; where once there were snacks now there were bottles and a warmer and the nice couch where he had watched many games on the tv was filled with baby laundry.

"Wasn't expecting you, man, didn't you just finished a 12 hours?" Dean asked.

Jack nodded "Yeah, I'm pretty tired. But I wanted to visit you… and Pru… it feels like haven't seen you in so long"

"I know, but hey I'm a dad now, it's not like I can spend my free time hanging out" as he said it the baby started crying "here she is, duty calls"

Jack sighted heavily and followed him, he smiled softly watching Dean holding a tinier version of him. He could see a little blond kid with his face, maybe with Maya's eyes. But then he thought about JJ and how she left because she could not handle it all.

Maya surely was not the most maternal person, she would have blamed him for putting a break to her career, her relationship with Carina and he could not deal with that too.

"Jack you okay??"

"Yeah sorry, just very tired. I was here to ask you something but… I'm not sure I can, or if I even want to anymore"

"Is something wrong?"

Jack shook his head "I don't know, it could be… Have a nice day, you and your little beautiful baby, I'll go sleep for a while"

In the meanwhile Andy got at Maya's with her car and they rushed to Grey Sloan Memorial.

"We could have gone to Seattle Press" Maya complained.

"Maya don't be stupid, this was closer and we know many people here. Now let's get you admitted"

After she was checked in the ER a nurse came close to them to check on her symptoms.

"So you are pregnant and experiencing pain in your uterus?"

Maya nodded "Yeah, like sharp pain and I'm dizzy and nauseous"

"Okay, you are accompanying her?" she asked Andy.

"Yes, I'll stay with her"

"Okay mrs Bishop, I'm paging an ob to give you a closer look"

Maya was scared that the ob was gonna be Carina, however her fear was relieved after the random ob showed up, checked her and got her into a room.

"Okay I took your ultrasound and I'll be back in a few minutes. Are you still in pain?"

"Just a little"

"It's gonna be okay" the ob calmly said as she opened the door.

"She was pretty calm…" Andy said.

"Good calm or bad calm?" Maya asked.

"Just calm, are you okay? Do you need anything?"

"No, stay here though."

And as Andy nodded and sat closer to her the door was shut opened by Carina.

"Are you okay? I was delivering a baby when I heard someone say Bishop"

Maya let go of a little smile "I'm okay, I'm feeling some weird sharp pain"

"I'll wash my hands and check you out" she was just leaving but came back to give Maya a closer look.

She looked beautiful also in bloody scrubs and with a mask and goggles covering her face.

It took her literally ten seconds to come back clean.

"Andy, could you hand me the ultrasound there?"

Maya giggled in her mind at her mispronunciation of both 'andy' and 'hand'. For a minute she didn't think about the pain and there it was back.

"Ouch" she complained.

Carina started touching and pressing on her lower stomach with a puzzled face, she passed the portable ultrasound and widened her eyes.

"What's wrong? You look scared"

"I need to check again" Carina said as she left.

That was the moment when it hit Maya, what was actually happening to her. In the last couple of weeks she had been feeling a little under the weather, the last few days a bit nauseous but that was the first time that little thing inside of her was affecting her life. As she was laying in that hospital bed with her friend by her side she started picturing what the following seven to eights months would have looked life, spent far from the station, far from any kind of promotion, far from her work-family. Then she thought about Carina, she was still by her side, but having a baby with another person would have surely affected their relationship. Carina couldn't even stand to see Jack, how could they be a family? Maya pictured birthday parties and holidays ruined by the two of them fighting. Then she believed her hormones kicked in because she teared up thinking about a little her with Jack's green eyes. She did not know what to do: having a baby and compromising her life as she knew it, which would have meant a sad situation for the baby to be raised in or deciding that that was not neither the moment or the way she wanted to build a family.

Her river of thoughts was stopped by Andy that started to softy caress her head.

"What are you thinking about?"

Maya chucked "I don't know what to do…"

"Let's get you better before"

in the next couple of days I will update, I swear. what do you think? what will maya do? mostly what is happening to her? will she be okay??

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