Realization
Part 3
Quatre woke up before Trowa and sat next to his bed and watched him sleep. He looked so at peace what could possibly have happened to make him want to hurt himself. After surviving that horrible war. Sure now he was a preventer but that hadn't been anything really horrible that Quatre had known about.
Trowa slowly opened his eyes to see his friend watching him. Quatre asked, "How do you feel?"
"I should be asking you that. After all you were the one who was shot."
"I didn't ask how I was feeling. How is your head?"
"Same old Quatre putting others before himself. It's a little sore but not as bad."
Quatre smiled at him. Trowa asked, "Why are smiling?"
"No reason. I just missed you."
Then it turned into a sad smile as he realized how much he missed Trowa. He knew he would have to leave and start a new life. He would never see Trowa again. He only had a month to prepare for the change and although he wanted the freedom. He was terrified of a life without Trowa.
"I missed you too." he smiled.
"Trowa I don't know why you tried to hurt yourself but, please don't do that whatever is troubling you just know I'm your friend and will help you. That is if you want it. Even if you don't I don't have long here in this villa."
"What do you mean?"
"In about a month I will be moving to a more secluded place. I will live out my days. Rashid is making arrangements."
"More secluded? Quatre as it stands this place is practically a deserted island."
"Actually that's what the place will be. No people or anything. I will be free at least."
"Quatre you need people. That doesn't sound like freedom to me it's more like isolation."
"Trowa I have a month left. Would you stay? Please?" he pleaded.
"Yes I will stay." Quatre smiled brightly. Maybe it will give me time enough to convince this isn't the right choice. I can't lose him again. Please not again.
Trowa knew Quatre and he would not survive by himself. What was he thinking living out the rest of his life? he's still young. Quatre was such a bright person. he was Trowa's sunshine in the darkness. With him gone would the sun never rise again.
Quatre can't be alone. I don't want him to be alone. He would be so miserable. I used to be alone but Quatre came along and gave me companionship that I didn't know I wanted. I love him and now I have a second chance to tell him I just kind seem to find the courage. I have a month to make him fall in love with me. Or risk him leaving forever.
Quatre was genuinely happy that Trowa was staying. At least he would have a month with him. Before he went into hiding. Was the price of freedom really worth all of this?
TBC?