Realization
Part 4
"Are we there yet?" asked Trowa. Quatre had his hands covering Trowa's eyes as he led him through the tree's. "Almost."
"Why can't you just let me see. What if I run into something?"
"Trust me I'll be your eyes. It's something special that I want to share with you."
"Allright ready?" Quatre lifted his hands from Trowa's eyes. Trowa looked at the crystal waters flowing from the waterfall he could see hints of a rainbow. "It's beautiful."
"I like to come here. It always reminds me of you." he smiled.
"it does?" asked Trowa.
"Yes. It's so beautiful."
"Yes very. Thank you for sharing it with me." he smiled. he thinks it's beautiful does that mean he thinks I'm beautiful? How very Quatre like. I think you're beautiful to little one. Trowa noticed Quatre was looking at him. "What?"
"I like it when you smile. You should do it more often. You do it so rare but when you do it always brightens my day." his smile became bigger.
Quatre and Trowa spent the day there. Just hanging around laughing and playing. It's good to hear Trowa laugh. What will happen to him when I'm gone. I wish I could stay. I wish he could come with me. I can't do that to him though. I can't take him to my soon to be prison. For the next few weeks Quatre took care of Trowa. Trowa did nice little things for Quatre. He gave him flowers and made him a candle lit dinner. Quatre thought nothing of it. He figured he was just showing him gradittude for saving him. Quatre only had a week left before he was to leave.
As Quatre was packing some boxes Trowa came in with an odd look on his face. Quatre hadn't seen him yet. Quatre's hands began to shake and tear were running down his face when he finally lost it. He picked up the box and threw it across the room. Then he fell to his knees and cried.
Trowa went to him and gathered him in his arms. He held him tightly not only for Quatre but for himself as well. He picked Quatre up and took him to his room. Quatre didn't say anything instead began to tremble. Trowa could sense that Quatre was afraid but what of he didn't know. He sat Quatre on the bed and sat on the floor on his knees looking up at Quatre.
They just sat there in silence. Quatre placed hid hand on Trowa's cheek. He felt so warm and his skin was smooth. Quatre continued to gaze into Trowa's beautiful eyes. Soon he would have to leave Trowa and it tore him apart. His heart ached he missed his friends but mostly he had missed Trowa.
Quatre took his hand away and went over to the window. He stared out at the sky. Trowa went over to him and turned Quatre so they were facing. "I know you love me Quatre."
"What? No you can't. You can't possibly know."
Quatre ran out of the room and into the darkness of night. He kept running and running through the tree's. "Quatre where are you?" yelled Trowa.
"Leave me alone." he cried.
"Quatre come back. It's dark you might get hurt."
"Leave me alone. I'll be fine. I know these woods like the back of my......Whoaaaaa." Quatre slipped off the edge of a cliff.
"QUATRE? are you all right." silence. "Quatre."
"Trowa help."
Trowa followed the voice. Trowa trailed through the woods trying to find him. It just all looked the same until he finally reached the edge of the cliff he looked down. He saw Quatre holding on the side. Quatre looked up and saw Trowa.
"Quatre give me your hand."
"No."
"What?"
"Trowa technically I am suppose to be dead. You're not."
"I don't understand."
"If I give you my hand you might fall to. You have a life to go back to I don't." Quatre started slipping.
"Quatre if you fall I will jump. You know I will. Now give me your hand. Please? I can't lose you not again."
Quatre looked up again and knew Trowa was series. He reluctantly reached out and Trowa began to pull him up. When he pulled Quatre to safety he held him tightly and began to cry. He cried very hard he could barely breathe. Quatre held him and began to stroke his hair. This time he picked Trowa up.
When they returned Quatre made some hot cocoa and gave it to Trowa. "Here drink this." Trowa took it but his hands were shaking. He looked up at Quatre with anger. "DON'T YOU EVER DO THAT AGAIN!!!!!"
"I'm sorry."
" I can't believe you sometimes Quatre. SORRY? GO TO HELL." Trowa stood up and went to his room. He slammed the door. He laid on his bed and cried himself to sleep.
Quatre went back to his room and started to think. Rashid was right I should have let him think I was dead. He hates me I guess I really messed up this time. Maybe I should just go now. I've become such a burden to him. Quatre began to pack his clothes. He came across an old photo of himself and Trowa. He sat on the bed and stared at it. "What happened to us Trowa?"
When Trowa woke up Quatre was gone. There was a note.
All I seem to do is cause you pain
I hope nothing but the best for you
Don't worry about me I'll be fine
I decided to leave without telling
anyone including Rashid
I'm going to find a place of my
own and maybe one day when you
don't hate anymore I'll see you again.
Before last not I was actually
thinking of asking you to come I guess
I've become selfish but, I couldn't take you
away from the others or your new found family
at the circus I know you were happy there with your sister.
tell the others I love them as I would brothers
they have been my family for so long.
I miss them greatly. You once asked me how I knew you were
going to kill yourself it's because I was following you that day.
I missed you so much I just wanted to see you once more.
Please don't worry about me even though I have a big family
I've always been on my own. I'll be allright
Love always Quatre.
PS. You were right I am in love with you. I hope you find someone to love you deserve it.
TBC still reading I hope.