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Things Change
Chapter 3
"When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful. Every hour spent
together, lives within my heart,
and when he was sad, I was there to dry his tears. And when he was happy, so
was I. When he loved me.
Through the summer and the fall, we had each other that was all. Just he and I
together, like it was meant to be.
And when he was lonely, I was there to comfort him and I knew that he loved me.
" - Sarah McLachlan
(I changed it to he instead of she)
August 25, 1999
Dear Diary,
My
how the months have passed. Darien and I are the best of friends. I graduated
from high school
and I was worried that Darien and my friendship was going to suffer, but during
the summer we remained best
friends. But, things did change in some respects.
The end of summer is here and I am getting ready for college and Darien is getting ready for high school again. It was tonight for the first time that we started to notice the differences in our ages. While he is going to band camp and starting school I am still working.
We talk, but not as much anymore.
It all came down to tonight as I am going to move into college.
I
said to him, "You do know that tomorrow is the one year anniversary of
when they became friends, don't you?"
You see, even though I am going to
college, I had chosen a college that was in town and not very far from him.
"Yeah, I can't believe it's already been a year. It seems weird at school without you being there."
"Believe me, I know. So, are you going to come and see my dorm room on Sunday?"
"Yeah, if I can."
October 19, 1999
I moved into college, and started my year off. I became really good friends with my roommate and still talked to Darien. One weekend we went together to another college to visit some of our friends. We were visiting Greg and Melvin. We spent the day together like we had done before. We still know what each other is thinking, even though things are different. I still love him, but I just can't bring myself to tell him. On the way home from our visit I told him that I really missed him in my everyday life, and he just sat in silence. This was the first time he hadn't returned my sentiments. I just brushed it off thinking that it was my imagination.
November 24, 1999
I miss every one. I am sure that Darien is busy practicing for state but I wish that Darien would make some time for me. He was "talking" to Beryl Tsukino and it really upsets me. I am almost sure that Darien doesn't care anymore. He has disappointed me time and time again and I hate it. He hurt me so much. I just wish that God would let me not care about anyone and I would be much better off that way. But, that isn't the way I am. I am dreading this weekend, but it is state for them, so I felt obligated to go. Darien is too busy talking to Beryl to talk to me tonight, just like he has been for the last few weeks. It is funny how one week can change everything.
November 25, 1999
It is Friday. I went to my old school to drop something off. There I saw Darien and Beryl sitting together. I thought that I would go over and say hi, but then decided against it. You know, he always told me that he couldn't talk to me at times when he was talking to someone else because he never saw them but he saw me everyday. He certainly hasn't talked to me at all this week, but he has her, but she is more important.
I told him a week ago, "If you get a girlfriend, then it will be the end of our friendship because you will never talk to me again."
He told me, "Whatever, I will so talk to you again. Don't be stupid about this Serena."
When I went to the football game tonight Darien and Andrew came down and talked to me.
He asked, "Are you mad at me?"
I said, "You haven't talked to me all week, I was extremely upset about it."
We made up, so it's all okay.
December 2, 1999
I invited Darien to a football game that my dad had tickets to. We haven't hung out in awhile. We talked about all the gossip in the band and things like that. It was wonderful. So, for three hours we got to hang out. We went to my house afterwards before a party that we were supposed to go to.
At the party, Darien and Andrew and I wrestled like old times. Then we went down to the campfire and talked and did some other stuff.
While I was talking to Andrew, who walked in but Beryl. Talk about trying to ruin my perfect day. Darien spent all his time with her, but I was spending that time with Andrew, so it wasn't that bad. Finally, Beryl was leaving but Andrew and I had already gone to watch TV.
I was sitting on the couch next to Andrew and Darien came in and sat on the other side of me. So we sat there - all three of us together and made fun of the movie that was on. It was great.
December 3, 1999
Last night, I just found out, was the night that Darien asked Beryl to go out with him. I got a phone call from Andrew, because he knew it would break my heart. He was right.
He asked me "So, are you okay?"
I smiled on the phone, "Yeah, I am fine. Don't worry about me Andrew. Hey, I have to go, but thanks for being a good friend to me. "
When I hung up the phone I sank down to the floor and cried, and that is where my roommate found me, hours later balling my eyes out with not saying a word.