Scott's World-CH. 9
Scott vacillated between aloof and vicious anger. He did not seem particularly stable. There was a lot of anger the first night. Peter had to ignore the words that were coming out of Scott's mouth. His words were like shrapnel, shredding the soul with their sharp edges, designed to damage and destroy. Scott's displays of behavior were not acceptable. He was hurting himself with his stubborn refusal to seek Peter's help.
There were times when Peter just wanted to give up. He was totally exhausted and was suffering from lack of sleep. He knew that Scott needed him to help him pull him through his hell. Peter now understood what he must have put his own father through. He had to be strong for Scott because his own father had given up on him.
He pretty much stayed at home for the first several days, taking his meals there and doing office work when Scott managed to get some shut eye. Sophie would come and check on them every once in awhile but Peter needed her to run Horizon as much as she could without him. Peter had asked once how the cliffhangers were excepting the situation and to his surprise, he found out that everyone was handling it fine except Shelby. Sophie really couldn't read her emotions and thought that she was in complete denial.
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The cliffhangers were gathered around the circle for the daily group session.
"Is there anything in particular that anyone wants to discuss?" Sophie started.
Everyone just sat at first with no one making a move to volunteer any comments. Daisy spoke first.
"Well Shelby aren't you going to ask?"
"Do I have my hand raised? What is it exactly, am I suppose to be asking?"
"I can't believe you. What are you numb. It's been four days and not once have you asked about Scott or even mentioned his name for that matter."
Shelby sat there with her arms folded across her chest and slumped in the chair.
"If you are so curious about him than you ask."
A lot of commotion began to stir up while everyone began making statements about Shelby's attitude. No one could understand how she could not be interested in knowing about Scott.
Natalie sat there and watched all the replies and slowly raised her hand.
"Alright, everyone quiet down for a minute. We don't get out of control during group and we take turns when speaking. Natalie you have your hand up, go ahead."
"I'd like to know how Scott is doing."
"What do you care, you don't even know him." Shelby blurted out.
"Why do I have to know him in order to ask about him. I don't have to personally know him to see that he is in pain and suffering. You don't seem to care."
"He wouldn't be suffering and in pain if he hadn't of screwed his life up again."
Sophie and the rest of the group were slightly taken back." Are you saying that you think it's all Scott's fault that this happened to him?"
"Who else's fault can it be. I'm sure no one forced him to go out and buy the drugs and then use them."
"Well how do you feel about that?"
"I thinks he's weak." With that said she bursts out of the room and runs out into the night.
"Let her go, I think she has some heavy issues to think about right now. What feelings do anyone else have regarding this?"
"Yo man, I think home boys hurting and he needs all the help he can get," Auggie explained. "I think we all should be there for him."
The rest of the group agreed with him. "I talked with Peter today and he seems Scott might try moving back into the boys dorm tomorrow. We'll have to take things slow with him until he starts to feel comfortable with the group again. Peter said that he hasn't opened up yet and that he is still holding a lot of pain and guilt inside. We can't rush or push him to fast or he might suffer some more emotional damage. Does everyone understand what I'm saying here?"
"Yeah, yeah, it means that Scott not only got the privilege of getting high but we have to bow down to him and treat him like a prince. Now we have a prince and a princess to cater to." David smirks at Jules.
"That is so cold. Scott could have died from an overdose and you've never had to bow down to me. I pull my own weight around here and if you ever did bow down to me, I'd just step on you."
"You go Jules. You tell him. And you can just step off man. You say or do anything to Scott when he comes back and I'll beat the . . ."
"That's enough Auggie. David you are on bathroom duty for your attitude. I never said that Scott would be getting special privileges. He'll have his own weight to pull around here but things might be at a slower pace for him. It's getting late and it's time to go back to your dorms. David, I'll meet you after breakfast in the morning and you can start with cabin #1 and work your way through."
"All the cabins? Boy, you tell the truth around here and you get punished. You do drugs and you get the special treatment. How about the next time I lie and get high so I can have the special treatment."
"How about you change the attitude or you'll be scrubbing with a toothbrush."
"I'm starting to feel some compassion for Scott as we speak."
"I'm glad to hear that. Daisy can you go and see if you can find Shelby. Don't pressure her any more tonight. Let her think about her feelings. Lights out in 30 minutes."
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Scott got up and began walking around. He was starting to get better control of his reflexes. He was famished and felt like he could eat a horse. He looked around at his surroundings and realized that he wasn't in the cliffhanger cabin. He forced his mind to engage and soon events of the last several days began to flood his memory. He remembered Peter and all that he had said and done to him. Scott wondered how he could ever face Peter again after all that's been said and done. He had his head in his hands rubbing his face when Peter walked in.
"I see that you're finally out of bed."
The two handsome guys just stared at each other with neither one saying a word.
"Scott, are you alright? What's on your mind right now""
"I'm . . . I'm" he didn't know whether to apologize or what to say and do. The only thing that he could think of was "I'm hungry."
"Well that's a good sign. You haven't had much to eat lately or you were barfing it up."
"Is that why my stomach aches so much. Now I know how Jules feels have the time."
"Sorry it's not the same thing. Let's go out in the kitchen and I'll get you some food."
Peter managed to scrounge up a nice meal for Scott while he sat paitently waiting. Peter put the plate down in front of Scott and sat across from him. He wanted so much for Scott to open up to him. Scott ate like a condemned man eating his last meal. He stared off into space with a vacant look in his eyes. Peter knew he was still hurting.
"You want to talk about it?"
"Didn't your mother ever teach you to never talk with your mouth full?"
"Why yes she did, thank you very much but some how it never sank in. I've seen you in the cafeteria and I can honestly say that it didn't sink in with you either. Since we are talking manners here, then I'll have the common courtesy to wait until your done."
"Don't bother because I have nothing to say."
"Come on Scott, you can't live with these negatives feelings inside you."
Scott pushed his chair back and walked out of the room. Peter thought damn; this is going to be harder than I thought.
"Scott I don't want to pressure you. I'm willing to wait until you are ready to open up. What can I do for you now?"
Scott was pacing the floor getting a little anxious. "I don't know. How long have I been in here? I need some air."
"You were brought here four days ago. We can go for a walk so you can get some air. Just remember that your joints and muscles are sore so lets take it easy. I'm going to go with you just in case you get dizzy or loose your balance. It's past lights out so I'll be dark out there. Let me go and get a flashlight."
Peter went to retrieve his flashlight and when he came back Scott was already gone. It didn't take long for Peter to catch up to him because he was moving quit slowly.
"Scott, now that you are back at Horizon you need to follow directions. Next time I tell you to wait you wait."
"Whatever," Scott said only half listening and proceeded to walk towards the dorms.
"Any place in particular you going?"
Scott didn't answer and continued to walk towards the cliffhanger girl's dorm.
"Scott, I know where you're headed and that's not going to happen tonight."
"Why not," he finally spoke.
"Because it's already lights out and everyone should be asleep. I'll make a deal with you. If you can make it through the night without any disaters, than I'll let you join group tomorrow and move back into the cliffhanger dorm. Alright?"
"Whatever"
Peter would have liked more enthusiasm out of Scott but at least he got a response. He steered Scott back towards his cabin and proceeded on. Scott looked over his shoulder at the girl's dorm one last time and saw someone looking out the window at him.
To be continued.
Scott vacillated between aloof and vicious anger. He did not seem particularly stable. There was a lot of anger the first night. Peter had to ignore the words that were coming out of Scott's mouth. His words were like shrapnel, shredding the soul with their sharp edges, designed to damage and destroy. Scott's displays of behavior were not acceptable. He was hurting himself with his stubborn refusal to seek Peter's help.
There were times when Peter just wanted to give up. He was totally exhausted and was suffering from lack of sleep. He knew that Scott needed him to help him pull him through his hell. Peter now understood what he must have put his own father through. He had to be strong for Scott because his own father had given up on him.
He pretty much stayed at home for the first several days, taking his meals there and doing office work when Scott managed to get some shut eye. Sophie would come and check on them every once in awhile but Peter needed her to run Horizon as much as she could without him. Peter had asked once how the cliffhangers were excepting the situation and to his surprise, he found out that everyone was handling it fine except Shelby. Sophie really couldn't read her emotions and thought that she was in complete denial.
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The cliffhangers were gathered around the circle for the daily group session.
"Is there anything in particular that anyone wants to discuss?" Sophie started.
Everyone just sat at first with no one making a move to volunteer any comments. Daisy spoke first.
"Well Shelby aren't you going to ask?"
"Do I have my hand raised? What is it exactly, am I suppose to be asking?"
"I can't believe you. What are you numb. It's been four days and not once have you asked about Scott or even mentioned his name for that matter."
Shelby sat there with her arms folded across her chest and slumped in the chair.
"If you are so curious about him than you ask."
A lot of commotion began to stir up while everyone began making statements about Shelby's attitude. No one could understand how she could not be interested in knowing about Scott.
Natalie sat there and watched all the replies and slowly raised her hand.
"Alright, everyone quiet down for a minute. We don't get out of control during group and we take turns when speaking. Natalie you have your hand up, go ahead."
"I'd like to know how Scott is doing."
"What do you care, you don't even know him." Shelby blurted out.
"Why do I have to know him in order to ask about him. I don't have to personally know him to see that he is in pain and suffering. You don't seem to care."
"He wouldn't be suffering and in pain if he hadn't of screwed his life up again."
Sophie and the rest of the group were slightly taken back." Are you saying that you think it's all Scott's fault that this happened to him?"
"Who else's fault can it be. I'm sure no one forced him to go out and buy the drugs and then use them."
"Well how do you feel about that?"
"I thinks he's weak." With that said she bursts out of the room and runs out into the night.
"Let her go, I think she has some heavy issues to think about right now. What feelings do anyone else have regarding this?"
"Yo man, I think home boys hurting and he needs all the help he can get," Auggie explained. "I think we all should be there for him."
The rest of the group agreed with him. "I talked with Peter today and he seems Scott might try moving back into the boys dorm tomorrow. We'll have to take things slow with him until he starts to feel comfortable with the group again. Peter said that he hasn't opened up yet and that he is still holding a lot of pain and guilt inside. We can't rush or push him to fast or he might suffer some more emotional damage. Does everyone understand what I'm saying here?"
"Yeah, yeah, it means that Scott not only got the privilege of getting high but we have to bow down to him and treat him like a prince. Now we have a prince and a princess to cater to." David smirks at Jules.
"That is so cold. Scott could have died from an overdose and you've never had to bow down to me. I pull my own weight around here and if you ever did bow down to me, I'd just step on you."
"You go Jules. You tell him. And you can just step off man. You say or do anything to Scott when he comes back and I'll beat the . . ."
"That's enough Auggie. David you are on bathroom duty for your attitude. I never said that Scott would be getting special privileges. He'll have his own weight to pull around here but things might be at a slower pace for him. It's getting late and it's time to go back to your dorms. David, I'll meet you after breakfast in the morning and you can start with cabin #1 and work your way through."
"All the cabins? Boy, you tell the truth around here and you get punished. You do drugs and you get the special treatment. How about the next time I lie and get high so I can have the special treatment."
"How about you change the attitude or you'll be scrubbing with a toothbrush."
"I'm starting to feel some compassion for Scott as we speak."
"I'm glad to hear that. Daisy can you go and see if you can find Shelby. Don't pressure her any more tonight. Let her think about her feelings. Lights out in 30 minutes."
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Scott got up and began walking around. He was starting to get better control of his reflexes. He was famished and felt like he could eat a horse. He looked around at his surroundings and realized that he wasn't in the cliffhanger cabin. He forced his mind to engage and soon events of the last several days began to flood his memory. He remembered Peter and all that he had said and done to him. Scott wondered how he could ever face Peter again after all that's been said and done. He had his head in his hands rubbing his face when Peter walked in.
"I see that you're finally out of bed."
The two handsome guys just stared at each other with neither one saying a word.
"Scott, are you alright? What's on your mind right now""
"I'm . . . I'm" he didn't know whether to apologize or what to say and do. The only thing that he could think of was "I'm hungry."
"Well that's a good sign. You haven't had much to eat lately or you were barfing it up."
"Is that why my stomach aches so much. Now I know how Jules feels have the time."
"Sorry it's not the same thing. Let's go out in the kitchen and I'll get you some food."
Peter managed to scrounge up a nice meal for Scott while he sat paitently waiting. Peter put the plate down in front of Scott and sat across from him. He wanted so much for Scott to open up to him. Scott ate like a condemned man eating his last meal. He stared off into space with a vacant look in his eyes. Peter knew he was still hurting.
"You want to talk about it?"
"Didn't your mother ever teach you to never talk with your mouth full?"
"Why yes she did, thank you very much but some how it never sank in. I've seen you in the cafeteria and I can honestly say that it didn't sink in with you either. Since we are talking manners here, then I'll have the common courtesy to wait until your done."
"Don't bother because I have nothing to say."
"Come on Scott, you can't live with these negatives feelings inside you."
Scott pushed his chair back and walked out of the room. Peter thought damn; this is going to be harder than I thought.
"Scott I don't want to pressure you. I'm willing to wait until you are ready to open up. What can I do for you now?"
Scott was pacing the floor getting a little anxious. "I don't know. How long have I been in here? I need some air."
"You were brought here four days ago. We can go for a walk so you can get some air. Just remember that your joints and muscles are sore so lets take it easy. I'm going to go with you just in case you get dizzy or loose your balance. It's past lights out so I'll be dark out there. Let me go and get a flashlight."
Peter went to retrieve his flashlight and when he came back Scott was already gone. It didn't take long for Peter to catch up to him because he was moving quit slowly.
"Scott, now that you are back at Horizon you need to follow directions. Next time I tell you to wait you wait."
"Whatever," Scott said only half listening and proceeded to walk towards the dorms.
"Any place in particular you going?"
Scott didn't answer and continued to walk towards the cliffhanger girl's dorm.
"Scott, I know where you're headed and that's not going to happen tonight."
"Why not," he finally spoke.
"Because it's already lights out and everyone should be asleep. I'll make a deal with you. If you can make it through the night without any disaters, than I'll let you join group tomorrow and move back into the cliffhanger dorm. Alright?"
"Whatever"
Peter would have liked more enthusiasm out of Scott but at least he got a response. He steered Scott back towards his cabin and proceeded on. Scott looked over his shoulder at the girl's dorm one last time and saw someone looking out the window at him.
To be continued.