Scott's World-Ch. 11
Scott ran out into the night with his head spinning. Why does everyone have to bring up those painful memories? The question that David asked, "What did the other guy look like?" If they only knew but they couldn't find out. This was the one demon that Scott had to try and face alone. Why couldn't he make his dad happy? He had spent his whole life trying to live up to his dad's expectations. It seems like the only real goal in his life was whether or not his dad approved of him. Even though Scott liked football, he actually played because that's what his dad wanted of him. Was football Scott's life or was it really Martin's? Martin held so much control over Scott's life that he didn't really know who he was outside of his dad. Scott hated the fact that he betrayed his dad when he slept with Elaine even when she forced him. No matter what he did, he always managed to hurt him. Maybe Shelby was right. I can't control myself and so I definitely don't deserve her. She deserves someone who isn't always hurting other people.
Scott's brooding and passive behavior took over his life. It had been several days since he made any attempt at interacting with others. Scott became so alone in his thoughts that he totally blocked out any help that the people at Horizon offered him.
Peter and Sophie became quite concerned regarding Scott's behavior. It wasn't as if he were acting up or being a trouble- maker. He simply didn't react to anything. He was just there. A walking zombie completely closed off to the outside world. This was not healthy and they didn't know what to do to get through to him. Depression was the main concern right now and they needed to get him to open up before he exploded. They held a lot of group sessions with the other cliffhangers and asked them to help Scott open up. Everyone was trying there best but with little affect.
Every night after lights out Scott usually snuck out and went behind the tool shed to be alone. He found it hard to sleep and the cool night air and bright shinning stars gave him some relief. This one night Natalie couldn't sleep and was looking out her dorm window when she saw Scott disappear behind the tool shed. She got dressed and quickly and quietly went over to the tool shed. She didn't go around back where she knew that Scott was but sat around the corner close to the edge. She intentionally made some noise so that he knew that someone was there. Scott peered around the corner at her when he heard the sound.
After jumping a little Natalie said, "you scared me."
"You wouldn't have been scared if you weren't out here."
"I wouldn't have been scared if YOU weren't out here."
"So what are you doing out here? I was here first."
"I came out here to be alone and to think. How about you?"
"Same thing, so what's your story?"
"Just thinking about the evil old stepmother."
"Yeah, I've got one of those also."
"Wow, we actually have something in common. So how evil was she?"
"I don't know you well enough to relive that hell."
"Sorry, didn't mean to pry. I was just wondering whose was worse."
"Well you could tell me your story and I'd let you know."
"Ok. My mom was killed in a car accident and my father and I became real close. We leaned on each other for support. I could only give him so much love. He is human and he needed a deeper kind of love that I of course couldn't give. So he started dating again. It didn't take him long to find her. Actually I think that she found him. I'm pretty sure that she married him for his money. She was real nice to me at first. My dad was real happy to see us get along. Once she got the ring on her finger and settled in our house, things started to change. She started making a lot of demands. It was like she had two different personalities. When my dad was around she was all smiles and when he wasn't she was just plain mean. She was always having parties because that was what she did best. I started consuming some liquor because it helped me get through the days and nights with her. She eventually started making up lies about me to tell my dad and so I started staying out later and later each night. Finally she convinced my dad that I was out of control and had a drinking problem. She forced him in to sending me away so she could have the run of the house herself. She just wanted me out of the way so I wouldn't notice how much of my dad's money she was sending."
"Sorry to burst your Cinderella bubble but my stepmother was worse."
"How can being forced to leave your own home be worse?"
"How about abuse?"
"Well she did verbally and psychologically abuse me."
"Well at least you weren't sexually abused." Scott didn't know why it came out so easily but it did. It even helped relieve some of his tension.
This whole time Natalie and Scott were still round the corner from each other as they spoke. After hearing Scott confess to her she came around the corner and came face to face with him so she could look into his eyes.
"I'm sorry. I didn't know. Ok you win the evil stepmother of the year award."
Trying to relieve some of the tension Scott added, "Yeah, so do I get a prize or something." smiling and cooking his head to one side.
This was the first time that Natalie had seen him smile since he came back to Horizon. What a beautiful smile it was.
"Yes, I have a present for you." She pulled out a piece of brownie from tonight's dinner from her pocket.
"You stole from the kitchen?"
"There is one advantage of kitchen duty." she smiled and gave him the brownie and watched intently as he began to eat it.
Scott was so enjoying his treat because they just don't serve enough deserts at dinner. He looked up and noticed how Natalie just smiled and stared at him.
"So why are you staring at me like that? You expect me to share it? No way I won it fair and square." he said grinning.
Natalie was embarrassed because she didn't realize that she was staring so much. She started thinking.
"I just think that you have the sexist eyes." She threw her hand up to her mouth; "Did that just come out of my mouth?"
"Wow, I'm on a roll right now. First a brownie and now a compliment. What did I do to deserve this stroke of luck?"
Natalie became a little serious. "Everyone deserves good luck now and then. You seem to have had your share of bad lately."
Scott becomes timid and stares off into space reliving some painful memories.
"I didn't mean to bring up painful memories."
"They kind of keep resurfacing on their own." Scott exclaimed.
"It helps to talk about them. I'm a real good listener if you ever feel the need to dump some of your garbage. I heard that you and Shelby were close and could talk about anything. Why is she not here for you when you need someone?"
"I think that she just can't handle my garbage anymore. I don't blame her."
"Not to be judgmental or anything but, I think that you don't need her. If you were my boyfriend, I would have taken you in my arms and held on tight. When you came back to group, I could see the hurt in your eyes because you needed her support but it wasn't there."
"Shelby's had it rough also and she puts up a front to hide what she really feels."
"What about your feelings? Should they be pushed aside in order to figure her out? Who is the one who is hurting more here? You or her?"
"I don't know."
"How can you say that. No one knows what you've recently been through but it obviously wasn't good. It's you that is hurting the most. It's you that needs comfort, support, help and understanding. She is putting her needs before yours. You need to heal yourself before you can figure her out."
"Have you always been this wise?"
"Only to the people I care about."
"You care about me?"
"I'd like to if you'd let me."
Scott sat there with an uncertain look about him.
"What's wrong Scott?"
"I just wish that Shelby would feel the same way that you do."
"Only she can control her feelings. If she'd care enough than she could make those feelings happen."
"I think that you just explained it."
"What?"
" You said if you cared enough. I guess I have to face the fact that she doesn't care enough."
"It hurts but you'll survive right?"
"I think I can if you help me."
"I'd like nothing better than for you to let me help you."
"I think I can handle that."
They stared at each other intensely, neither one knowing what to say or do. Finally they slowly leaned forward until they gently brushed their lips together. Scott pulled back not knowing if it was alright with her. She gently opened her eyes and smiled an invitation for him to continue. He reached his arms around her waist to draw her closer and she cupped his gorgeous face to guide his beautiful mouth to her lips again. The kissing became intense as she parted her lips to let his tongue go in to explore her tongue. It felt like an eternity and that she was in heaven. His tongue was so warm and his mouth tasted like chocolate brownie. Slowly they pulled apart and both were breathing heavy.
"Wow, where'd you learn how to kiss like that?" She asked in shallow breaths.
""Don't ask. Just enjoy it."
"Well don't be so greedy and give me another one."
She held the back of his head as he planted another irresistible kiss on her mouth. Suddenly they were hit in the face by a bright light.
Roger went out for a nightly patrol of the area when he had heard some voices behind the tool shed. He had turned his flashlight on and caught them red handed.
"Alright both of you up."
Scott and Natalie both slowly stood up a little shocked at being caught.
"Well, we'll have something to talk to Peter about in the morning won't we?" He grabbed Scott by the arm and started walking them back to the dorms. He went to the girl's dorm first to drop Natalie off.
In all the commotion of opening the door and telling Natalie that she'll be talking to Peter in the morning, Shelby woke up. She heard Roger talking to someone about meeting Peter in the morning and not leaving the dorm any more that night.
Someone was caught outside and so she looked around to see who just walked in. Natalie. This wasn't like her. She was one that seemed to be having no problem obeying the rules of Horizon. Then she heard Roger say, "Come on Scott let's go. I can't believe you have been so withdrawn for the last week and when you finally open up I find you out behind the tool shed making out. We've go to find another outlet for you."
Did he just say Scott was making out behind the tool shed?
To be continued
Scott ran out into the night with his head spinning. Why does everyone have to bring up those painful memories? The question that David asked, "What did the other guy look like?" If they only knew but they couldn't find out. This was the one demon that Scott had to try and face alone. Why couldn't he make his dad happy? He had spent his whole life trying to live up to his dad's expectations. It seems like the only real goal in his life was whether or not his dad approved of him. Even though Scott liked football, he actually played because that's what his dad wanted of him. Was football Scott's life or was it really Martin's? Martin held so much control over Scott's life that he didn't really know who he was outside of his dad. Scott hated the fact that he betrayed his dad when he slept with Elaine even when she forced him. No matter what he did, he always managed to hurt him. Maybe Shelby was right. I can't control myself and so I definitely don't deserve her. She deserves someone who isn't always hurting other people.
Scott's brooding and passive behavior took over his life. It had been several days since he made any attempt at interacting with others. Scott became so alone in his thoughts that he totally blocked out any help that the people at Horizon offered him.
Peter and Sophie became quite concerned regarding Scott's behavior. It wasn't as if he were acting up or being a trouble- maker. He simply didn't react to anything. He was just there. A walking zombie completely closed off to the outside world. This was not healthy and they didn't know what to do to get through to him. Depression was the main concern right now and they needed to get him to open up before he exploded. They held a lot of group sessions with the other cliffhangers and asked them to help Scott open up. Everyone was trying there best but with little affect.
Every night after lights out Scott usually snuck out and went behind the tool shed to be alone. He found it hard to sleep and the cool night air and bright shinning stars gave him some relief. This one night Natalie couldn't sleep and was looking out her dorm window when she saw Scott disappear behind the tool shed. She got dressed and quickly and quietly went over to the tool shed. She didn't go around back where she knew that Scott was but sat around the corner close to the edge. She intentionally made some noise so that he knew that someone was there. Scott peered around the corner at her when he heard the sound.
After jumping a little Natalie said, "you scared me."
"You wouldn't have been scared if you weren't out here."
"I wouldn't have been scared if YOU weren't out here."
"So what are you doing out here? I was here first."
"I came out here to be alone and to think. How about you?"
"Same thing, so what's your story?"
"Just thinking about the evil old stepmother."
"Yeah, I've got one of those also."
"Wow, we actually have something in common. So how evil was she?"
"I don't know you well enough to relive that hell."
"Sorry, didn't mean to pry. I was just wondering whose was worse."
"Well you could tell me your story and I'd let you know."
"Ok. My mom was killed in a car accident and my father and I became real close. We leaned on each other for support. I could only give him so much love. He is human and he needed a deeper kind of love that I of course couldn't give. So he started dating again. It didn't take him long to find her. Actually I think that she found him. I'm pretty sure that she married him for his money. She was real nice to me at first. My dad was real happy to see us get along. Once she got the ring on her finger and settled in our house, things started to change. She started making a lot of demands. It was like she had two different personalities. When my dad was around she was all smiles and when he wasn't she was just plain mean. She was always having parties because that was what she did best. I started consuming some liquor because it helped me get through the days and nights with her. She eventually started making up lies about me to tell my dad and so I started staying out later and later each night. Finally she convinced my dad that I was out of control and had a drinking problem. She forced him in to sending me away so she could have the run of the house herself. She just wanted me out of the way so I wouldn't notice how much of my dad's money she was sending."
"Sorry to burst your Cinderella bubble but my stepmother was worse."
"How can being forced to leave your own home be worse?"
"How about abuse?"
"Well she did verbally and psychologically abuse me."
"Well at least you weren't sexually abused." Scott didn't know why it came out so easily but it did. It even helped relieve some of his tension.
This whole time Natalie and Scott were still round the corner from each other as they spoke. After hearing Scott confess to her she came around the corner and came face to face with him so she could look into his eyes.
"I'm sorry. I didn't know. Ok you win the evil stepmother of the year award."
Trying to relieve some of the tension Scott added, "Yeah, so do I get a prize or something." smiling and cooking his head to one side.
This was the first time that Natalie had seen him smile since he came back to Horizon. What a beautiful smile it was.
"Yes, I have a present for you." She pulled out a piece of brownie from tonight's dinner from her pocket.
"You stole from the kitchen?"
"There is one advantage of kitchen duty." she smiled and gave him the brownie and watched intently as he began to eat it.
Scott was so enjoying his treat because they just don't serve enough deserts at dinner. He looked up and noticed how Natalie just smiled and stared at him.
"So why are you staring at me like that? You expect me to share it? No way I won it fair and square." he said grinning.
Natalie was embarrassed because she didn't realize that she was staring so much. She started thinking.
"I just think that you have the sexist eyes." She threw her hand up to her mouth; "Did that just come out of my mouth?"
"Wow, I'm on a roll right now. First a brownie and now a compliment. What did I do to deserve this stroke of luck?"
Natalie became a little serious. "Everyone deserves good luck now and then. You seem to have had your share of bad lately."
Scott becomes timid and stares off into space reliving some painful memories.
"I didn't mean to bring up painful memories."
"They kind of keep resurfacing on their own." Scott exclaimed.
"It helps to talk about them. I'm a real good listener if you ever feel the need to dump some of your garbage. I heard that you and Shelby were close and could talk about anything. Why is she not here for you when you need someone?"
"I think that she just can't handle my garbage anymore. I don't blame her."
"Not to be judgmental or anything but, I think that you don't need her. If you were my boyfriend, I would have taken you in my arms and held on tight. When you came back to group, I could see the hurt in your eyes because you needed her support but it wasn't there."
"Shelby's had it rough also and she puts up a front to hide what she really feels."
"What about your feelings? Should they be pushed aside in order to figure her out? Who is the one who is hurting more here? You or her?"
"I don't know."
"How can you say that. No one knows what you've recently been through but it obviously wasn't good. It's you that is hurting the most. It's you that needs comfort, support, help and understanding. She is putting her needs before yours. You need to heal yourself before you can figure her out."
"Have you always been this wise?"
"Only to the people I care about."
"You care about me?"
"I'd like to if you'd let me."
Scott sat there with an uncertain look about him.
"What's wrong Scott?"
"I just wish that Shelby would feel the same way that you do."
"Only she can control her feelings. If she'd care enough than she could make those feelings happen."
"I think that you just explained it."
"What?"
" You said if you cared enough. I guess I have to face the fact that she doesn't care enough."
"It hurts but you'll survive right?"
"I think I can if you help me."
"I'd like nothing better than for you to let me help you."
"I think I can handle that."
They stared at each other intensely, neither one knowing what to say or do. Finally they slowly leaned forward until they gently brushed their lips together. Scott pulled back not knowing if it was alright with her. She gently opened her eyes and smiled an invitation for him to continue. He reached his arms around her waist to draw her closer and she cupped his gorgeous face to guide his beautiful mouth to her lips again. The kissing became intense as she parted her lips to let his tongue go in to explore her tongue. It felt like an eternity and that she was in heaven. His tongue was so warm and his mouth tasted like chocolate brownie. Slowly they pulled apart and both were breathing heavy.
"Wow, where'd you learn how to kiss like that?" She asked in shallow breaths.
""Don't ask. Just enjoy it."
"Well don't be so greedy and give me another one."
She held the back of his head as he planted another irresistible kiss on her mouth. Suddenly they were hit in the face by a bright light.
Roger went out for a nightly patrol of the area when he had heard some voices behind the tool shed. He had turned his flashlight on and caught them red handed.
"Alright both of you up."
Scott and Natalie both slowly stood up a little shocked at being caught.
"Well, we'll have something to talk to Peter about in the morning won't we?" He grabbed Scott by the arm and started walking them back to the dorms. He went to the girl's dorm first to drop Natalie off.
In all the commotion of opening the door and telling Natalie that she'll be talking to Peter in the morning, Shelby woke up. She heard Roger talking to someone about meeting Peter in the morning and not leaving the dorm any more that night.
Someone was caught outside and so she looked around to see who just walked in. Natalie. This wasn't like her. She was one that seemed to be having no problem obeying the rules of Horizon. Then she heard Roger say, "Come on Scott let's go. I can't believe you have been so withdrawn for the last week and when you finally open up I find you out behind the tool shed making out. We've go to find another outlet for you."
Did he just say Scott was making out behind the tool shed?
To be continued