Not a World For a Child- part 2
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Big thanks to everybody who's reviewed the first part of this story!
This takes place from Lily's POV
Wen I was shaken awake the next morning my eyes felt scratchy and raw. It took me a minute to realize that it wasn't James shaking me. I looked up and there was Remus. His hair was mussed, he had at least a day worth of stubble on his face, and I noticed a tear in his muddy robes.
"Lily, c'mon get up, it's Remus. James got hurt, he's okay though. Sirius is bringing him back."
"James? What?" I wasn't very awake, and all I hear were the words James and hurt.
"He's okay. He broke his clavicle last night. We took him to a healer and he's fine. He just needs to rest, and we thought it would be better if Sirius brought him back the muggle way. They had me apparate ahead to warn you, so you wouldn't be surprised when James showed up in a sling."
Remus was probably rather disturbed when, after he had said his piece, I jumped from the bed and ran into the bathroom adjoining the bedroom. After finding out that James was okay I could no longer suppress the wave of nausea attacking me.
"Lily?" Remus knocked on the door, "Lily, are you okay?"
After I had rid myself of most of the last night's dinner I called out, "Yes," and stood to look in the mirror on the medicine cabinet. The mirror told me rather bluntly that I looked like death warmed over. It was right. My normally peaches and cream complexion had taken on a green tint that was highlighted by my green eyes, which at the moment were also red-rimmed and very raw looking.
I splashed cold water on my face, and thought again of the child inside me. 'This is why I'm scared,' I thought, 'I don't want you to ever have to worry that your daddy might not make it home.'
I wiped my face off and walked out to assure Remus that I was okay. As I opened the door I wondered if I should still tell James today like I had planned, after all, he was supposed to be resting.
"What happened Remus? How did James get hurt? And what time is it?"
"It's five a.m. Around midnight last night our team got ambushed by Death Eaters. They were inexperienced, we were lucky. We got them under control pretty easily. James got hurt when one of them tried to get away using bodily force after we took their wands. We got them all back to headquarters, and then took James to a healer. He really is okay, his right shoulder is just a little stiff, and he needs to rest. I've seen Sirius cause him worse damage." Back at the word ambushed my heart had caught in my throat, but I was almost okay by the time he finished.
After a few seconds Remus the look on Remus' face changed from reassuring to concerned. He started speaking again, "Are you okay? No offense, but I've looked better after a full moon."
I wanted to yell at him that no I wasn't okay. I was worried about my husband, scared for my baby, and being attacked by the flu, or morning sickness, or both, but I figured that I owed it to James to tell him first. Instead I said, "Yeah, I'm okay. Just a little stressed." He continued to look at me, not quite convinced, and still very concerned.
"You don't look okay Lily. Get back in bed, and I'll bring you some tea." Remus stood up from where he was sitting on the bed, and walked over to the side of it. He pulled the covers back, and I climbed in and sat against the headboard, then he walked out of the room.
I sat thinking of how I would tell James. I knew I had to tell him soon, we might be able to find a spell to keep the baby, and me, safer. I hadn't thought of it before, but Voldemort wouldn't want a child of James and mine to make it to birth. We were both wizards of such power that he wouldn't even want to contemplate our offspring, and I didn't know of any way to hurt an unborn baby that didn't also hurt the mother. Another worry to add to my fears.
I didn't know how to tell him. This event was too scary and unexpected to do something 'cute' like some women did, presenting their husbands with baby blankets, or diapers or a bottle. But on the other hand, I couldn't imagine just announcing that I was pregnant.
My reveries were broken by Remus bringing in a cup of tea. He handed it to me, and I smiled gratefully and started to drink. I started feeling drowsy after only a few sips, "You put a sleeping potion in this, didn't you Remus?"
He nodded guiltily, "I had to. You look like you need it badly, and I know you won't even try to rest if you're still up when James gets back. Sirius and I will take care of him, I promise. Rest." I gave a sigh, set the teacup on my night stand, and laid back. Remus tucked the covers in around me.
It was a sunny day out, bright and warm. I was walking near the pond in Gryffindor Park, pushing a baby girl in a pink carriage. A man in a black cloak walked toward me, and before I could think, he pulled out a wand. "Avada Ked-"
"No! My baby!" I screamed, throwing myself over the carriage. It fell over, the child dropped into my arms, and the man disapperated. It was too late though, the tiny body was limp in my arms, and the face looked up at me in horror. No one was around, and I sat on the sidewalk with tears streaming down my face, cradling my child in my arms, and murmuring, "My baby, my baby," over and over.
Someone shook me by my shoulders, and I opened my eyes. I was curled up in my bed. James sat next to me with his arm in a sling, Sirius was standing over me, and I saw Remus run in the door. I sat up, and James put his arm around me. "Lily, it's okay honey. You were talking in your sleep, but it was just a nightmare. Everything's okay."
"No it's not," I said, "James, I'm pregnant. I found out last night. That's what my nightmare was about. A Death Eater killed our baby." Once I started taking I couldn't stop, all my fears started spilling out and I started to cry. James just continued to hold me.
~~Just a note here- Contrary to both fics in this little series, I think Lily was a pretty tough, brave person. So lets just say that pregnancy was wrecking havoc on her hormones and that's why she's crying so much. Thanks for reading and please review.
Everybody belongs to Ms. Rowling. Please R/R, thanks!
Big thanks to everybody who's reviewed the first part of this story!
This takes place from Lily's POV
Wen I was shaken awake the next morning my eyes felt scratchy and raw. It took me a minute to realize that it wasn't James shaking me. I looked up and there was Remus. His hair was mussed, he had at least a day worth of stubble on his face, and I noticed a tear in his muddy robes.
"Lily, c'mon get up, it's Remus. James got hurt, he's okay though. Sirius is bringing him back."
"James? What?" I wasn't very awake, and all I hear were the words James and hurt.
"He's okay. He broke his clavicle last night. We took him to a healer and he's fine. He just needs to rest, and we thought it would be better if Sirius brought him back the muggle way. They had me apparate ahead to warn you, so you wouldn't be surprised when James showed up in a sling."
Remus was probably rather disturbed when, after he had said his piece, I jumped from the bed and ran into the bathroom adjoining the bedroom. After finding out that James was okay I could no longer suppress the wave of nausea attacking me.
"Lily?" Remus knocked on the door, "Lily, are you okay?"
After I had rid myself of most of the last night's dinner I called out, "Yes," and stood to look in the mirror on the medicine cabinet. The mirror told me rather bluntly that I looked like death warmed over. It was right. My normally peaches and cream complexion had taken on a green tint that was highlighted by my green eyes, which at the moment were also red-rimmed and very raw looking.
I splashed cold water on my face, and thought again of the child inside me. 'This is why I'm scared,' I thought, 'I don't want you to ever have to worry that your daddy might not make it home.'
I wiped my face off and walked out to assure Remus that I was okay. As I opened the door I wondered if I should still tell James today like I had planned, after all, he was supposed to be resting.
"What happened Remus? How did James get hurt? And what time is it?"
"It's five a.m. Around midnight last night our team got ambushed by Death Eaters. They were inexperienced, we were lucky. We got them under control pretty easily. James got hurt when one of them tried to get away using bodily force after we took their wands. We got them all back to headquarters, and then took James to a healer. He really is okay, his right shoulder is just a little stiff, and he needs to rest. I've seen Sirius cause him worse damage." Back at the word ambushed my heart had caught in my throat, but I was almost okay by the time he finished.
After a few seconds Remus the look on Remus' face changed from reassuring to concerned. He started speaking again, "Are you okay? No offense, but I've looked better after a full moon."
I wanted to yell at him that no I wasn't okay. I was worried about my husband, scared for my baby, and being attacked by the flu, or morning sickness, or both, but I figured that I owed it to James to tell him first. Instead I said, "Yeah, I'm okay. Just a little stressed." He continued to look at me, not quite convinced, and still very concerned.
"You don't look okay Lily. Get back in bed, and I'll bring you some tea." Remus stood up from where he was sitting on the bed, and walked over to the side of it. He pulled the covers back, and I climbed in and sat against the headboard, then he walked out of the room.
I sat thinking of how I would tell James. I knew I had to tell him soon, we might be able to find a spell to keep the baby, and me, safer. I hadn't thought of it before, but Voldemort wouldn't want a child of James and mine to make it to birth. We were both wizards of such power that he wouldn't even want to contemplate our offspring, and I didn't know of any way to hurt an unborn baby that didn't also hurt the mother. Another worry to add to my fears.
I didn't know how to tell him. This event was too scary and unexpected to do something 'cute' like some women did, presenting their husbands with baby blankets, or diapers or a bottle. But on the other hand, I couldn't imagine just announcing that I was pregnant.
My reveries were broken by Remus bringing in a cup of tea. He handed it to me, and I smiled gratefully and started to drink. I started feeling drowsy after only a few sips, "You put a sleeping potion in this, didn't you Remus?"
He nodded guiltily, "I had to. You look like you need it badly, and I know you won't even try to rest if you're still up when James gets back. Sirius and I will take care of him, I promise. Rest." I gave a sigh, set the teacup on my night stand, and laid back. Remus tucked the covers in around me.
It was a sunny day out, bright and warm. I was walking near the pond in Gryffindor Park, pushing a baby girl in a pink carriage. A man in a black cloak walked toward me, and before I could think, he pulled out a wand. "Avada Ked-"
"No! My baby!" I screamed, throwing myself over the carriage. It fell over, the child dropped into my arms, and the man disapperated. It was too late though, the tiny body was limp in my arms, and the face looked up at me in horror. No one was around, and I sat on the sidewalk with tears streaming down my face, cradling my child in my arms, and murmuring, "My baby, my baby," over and over.
Someone shook me by my shoulders, and I opened my eyes. I was curled up in my bed. James sat next to me with his arm in a sling, Sirius was standing over me, and I saw Remus run in the door. I sat up, and James put his arm around me. "Lily, it's okay honey. You were talking in your sleep, but it was just a nightmare. Everything's okay."
"No it's not," I said, "James, I'm pregnant. I found out last night. That's what my nightmare was about. A Death Eater killed our baby." Once I started taking I couldn't stop, all my fears started spilling out and I started to cry. James just continued to hold me.
~~Just a note here- Contrary to both fics in this little series, I think Lily was a pretty tough, brave person. So lets just say that pregnancy was wrecking havoc on her hormones and that's why she's crying so much. Thanks for reading and please review.