~~ Chapter Ten ~~

As they kissed hungrily for one another, Xander's hands moved to her waist. He gently pushed her away. "Cordy, what--?"

"I'm sorry Xander," she said stepping away from him and sitting on the couch. "I've just missed you so much...and seeing you again, well, it brought back a lot of memories...some of which I want to forget."

"I know, me too," he said. "Look, Cordy, I'm sorry...about everything."

"With Willow you mean?" she asked bitterly.

"Yes...no, you know what Cordelia? I'm glad I kissed Willow." he said staring into her eyes.

"Oh Xander, that's a girl's favorite pick-up line. You'll get far with that one." she said rolling her eyes.

He walked over to the couch and sat down beside her. "I'm glad I kissed Willow because it made me realize that I don't want her...I want you. I always have and--"

"Shut up Xander," she said, cutting him off. Her eyes were watering now. "You think you can just say that and make me feel better?"

"Come on Cordelia, that was, like five years ago." he said. "I was young and stupid--"

"Very stupid" she mumbled quietly.

"And kidnapped at the time. We didn't know what we were doing, we thought we did, but we were just scared. We both realized that it wasn't what either of us wanted. Please Cordy, you left me once and it took a long time for me to be Xander again...if you leave me again...I don't think I could survive it again." he stared into her eyes, tears blurring his vision.

Cordy was speechless. She didn't realize how much she had hurt him. Of course he had hurt her too, but she truly wanted to be with him. She wanted to feel his arms around her. She put her arms around his waist and as he held her, she knew that he would never hurt her again. "I'm sorry, Xander."

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Buffy pulled away from Spike. She was breathing heavily, trying to catch her breath and so was he. "Spike, you're...alive?"

"Yeah, and my head hurts like a bitch!" he said feeling the back of his head with his hand. His wound was small and had already started healing, even though it had bled a tremendous amount.

She laughed, "I can't believe it...how did it happen?"

"Well, my theory is, when I was nearly unconscious, you fed me your blood." he explained.

"But you've fed off of me tons of times, how come only now?" she asked. "Was there a checkpoint like: 'The one thousandth feeding gets a life back!'"

"But, you had Mohra's blood in your blood, therefore, it restored my life."

"So, what's your soul like?" she asked. "You seem the same when you were a vampire."

"I've had my soul ever since I realized that I loved you, which was about three years ago. I was pretty much the same when I was human...only being a vampire made me evil and murderous. When I got my soul, the hate inside of me just disappeared and I felt like a person again." he explained.

"Three years?" she asked. "But we only started seeing each other a year ago. And you didn't seem tortured like--"

"Angel was?" Spike finished. "Of course I felt bad, especially in the first few months, but I know that wasn't really me. I will always regret what I did as a vampire, but I feel slightly better knowing that some force of nature gave me my soul back so we could be together...and that it wasn't just a curse."

"Angel's curse was what kept us apart...it's why he left me in the first place." she said.

"You think he wanted to leave you? When Angel had his soul, he was Buffy-whipped. He would have done anything you asked him to...except stay here," he said. "Even when he was Angelus he obsessed over you. Now I can see why."

She smiled sadly. "I love you, Spike...or is it William now?"

"I'll stick with Spike for now. William the Bloody doesn't really suit me as a human, does it?" he said.

"Does anybody else know about your soul?" Buffy asked.

"No, they just thought I was a regular Scooby vampire, if there is such a thing." he replied smiling.

"Should we go tell them?" she said starting towards her door.

Spike took hold of her wrist and pulled her close. "Let's tell 'em in the morning." he said grinning slyly.

~~ Chapter Eleven ~~

Cordelia woke up and at first didn't remember where she was. She looked around and smiled. She was at Xander's. She had fallen asleep on the couch in his arms but he probably went to bed. She got up and stretched. A note was laying on the coffee table next to the couch. It read:

"Dear Cordy,
I've just gone to the store for some food. All that's left in the fridge is some orange juice so you can help yourself to that if you want. I'll be back in a jiffy. Love, Xander"

Cordelia smiled and went to the fridge. Before she opened the door she noticed a picture held by a small magnet. It was her and Xander at the beach. In the photo, she was trying to tan on her beach blanket and Xander was being, well, Xander, and was trying to kiss her on the cheek. Buffy had taken the picture right as Cordy was pushing Xander away, capturing the true essence of their relationship. She couldn't help but smile at the fact that Xander had kept the picture after all this time had gone by.

Just then she heard keys in the door and ran to help Xander with the groceries. She swung the door open and greeted him. "Hi Xand--Anya. What a surprise!" she said, putting on a fake smile.

"I came to talk to Xander. Is he here?" she asked barging into the apartment and looking around. "I want to un-breakup with him."

She stared at Cordelia until she became uncomfortable and had to answer. "Well, Xander and I are, um, sort of...back together." she said as Anya walked towards the living room.

She stopped in her tracks. "You what? But he's supposed to be lost without me and take me back when I come back for him and tell him it was a mistake like it was in that movie we watched." she said glumly.

Cordelia smiled gently. "Anya, life isn't what it's like in the movies...that's why they're movies. They're written to be sappy and romantic."

"Well, I guess it worked out for you right?" Anya said, her voice trembling. She placed the key to Xander's apartment in Cordelia's hand. "I guess you'll be needing this. Don't tell him I was here okay?" she said between tears.

She stood up and left Cordy sitting on the couch as she closed the door behind her. *Poor Anya,* she thought. *I'm lucky I got another chance.*

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Everybody was gathered in the magic shop that afternoon aside from Cass who was out with her friends, and Oz who was at a practice session with the band. Anya wasn't there either, since she had the day off.

"I don't know what I'll tell Dennis." Cordelia said sighing. "He'll be heartbroken that I'll be moving out."

"Who's Dennis?" Giles asked.

"My roommate," Cordelia replied casually. When she saw Xander's face she added, "Oh don't worry Xander, it's not like that...Dennis is a ghost."

"Oh," he replied. "Why did you move in with him?"

"Well, I didn't know at first, but I can tell you the whole story in the car, and he can help us pack...so where's Buffy and why did she call us all here?" she asked impatiently. "We need to go back to LA and get my stuff...and I want to get there before dark."

"Hi everybody, I'm here. Sorry I'm late, but Spike wouldn't stop staring at himself in the mirror." Buffy said walking into the shop holding hands with Spike. Everybody gasped when they saw Spike standing in the light streaming through the windows.

"Spike, what are you doing out in the sunlight? I thought Angel smashed the Ring of Amarra." Willow asked.

"Oh, this? I'm human now," he said casually, trying to hide a huge grin.

Nobody spoke for a few minutes. Finally, Gunn spoke up. "Were you infected with Mohra's blood too?"

"Sort of," Buffy answered. "He lost a lot of blood during the fight so I made him feed off of me, forgetting that I had Mohra's blood in mine."

"That's a good thing, right?" Cordelia asked.

"It's excellent!" Spike replied hugging Buffy. "Now we can be together whenever we want, day or night."

"Sorry to kill the mood," Gunn said, standing up. "But we'd better get going," "Or by the time we get to LA, it'll be dinner time for the vamps."

"You're leaving Cordy?" Buffy asked.

"No, I'm going to move in with Xander, but we need to get my stuff from my old apartment." she said smiling. "I know it's short notice, but we're ready for it. I can't leave him again."

"How will you get back?" Spike asked.

"Oh, we agreed that she should keep Angel's car since I have a motorcycle back home." Gunn answered.

"What about Wesley?" Giles asked. "Will he keep having visions?"

"We're not sure yet, but for the time being he's going back to England to work for the Watcher's Council." Cordelia said.

"Well tell him to stop by here first so we can say goodbye." Buffy said.

A few minutes later, Gunn, Cordelia, and Xander left for LA.

"So, Spike, you're human?" Giles asked.

"Yup, I've got a heartbeat and everything," he said. "It feels good to breathe again. Hey, I've got an idea...who wants pizza? It's my treat. Besides, I've never tried it before and I've heard it's the greatest thing since sliced bread."

"Well then you've gotta try pepperoni and mushroom." Buffy said.

"But, no garlic." Spike said. "I don't think I'm ready for that just yet."

Giles and Buffy just laughed.

~~ Epilogue ~~

It was a Friday evening and Buffy and Spike, or William as she now called him, were waiting for their guests to arrive. Xander and Cordelia entered the living room, led by the butler, and walked over to the happy couple sitting on the couch. "Wow, Buffy!" exclaimed Cordelia. "I still can't believe you're going to be a mother." Spike and Buffy had gotten married two years after he became human and they moved into the mansion. Now, three and a half years after their wedding, she was pregnant.

"Yeah, me neither." she sighed happily. "Only eight months to go!"

"Cordy, that's quite the rock. Isn't your wrist sore from lugging it around?" Spike joked.

She laughed lightly as she looked at her engagement ring. "I'm the luckiest girl alive to be marrying Xander." She smiled sweetly at her fiancé and he smiled back.

"Who are all these people?" Buffy asked her husband, scanning the crowd.

"I don't really know," he replied. "I only invited, like, five of these people...but I think some of them work on the same floor that I do." he looked around. "Oh, there's Dan, he owes me ten bucks. Excuse me for a moment." he said, stepping away from them. Spike had become a professional writer and had sold many bestseller books...about vampires of course. Most of the novels were based on his unlife and included Drusilla, Angelus, Darla, and of course, Buffy and the 'Scoobies'. Some of the details and all of the names were changed but the novels continued the saga that was their lives. Each one a sequel to the last...that is why they sold so well.

Buffy looked over at Spike as he talked with the man and laughed. She turned back to Xander and Cordy. "William seems so happy to be human...we are both thankful for this...but now he will age and die, and sometimes I wonder if he was happier as a vampire."

"Never," she heard a voice behind her and she spun around. Spike was looking into her eyes and smiling. "If it hadn't happened, we probably wouldn't be married and we for sure wouldn't have any children of our own."

Cordelia gave Xander a look and he nodded. "Well, excuse us, but we're going to get something to drink." she said smiling. "Uh, which way to the kitchen?" Xander asked. Spike pointed him in the proper direction. "See you two lovebirds later." he added, winking and grinning at the couple.

"I wish Willow and Oz could be here," Buffy said, looking down and placing her hands on her stomach. Oz's band had gone on a tour across Canada and Willow had gone with him.

"They'll only be gone for another month." Spike said, trying his best to console his wife. He cupped her chin and brought her face up to look into her eyes. "I know you miss them, but you still have Xander, Cordy, and Cass here."

"But most importantly, I still have you." she whispered.

"And you will always have me. That goes without saying." he said softly. He gave her a quick kiss as more people came over to talk to them.

After the party was over and the caterers were finished clearing the tables. Buffy, Spike, Xander and Cordy sat on the couches in the living room.

"The food was great, what company did you hire?" Cordelia asked. "We should use them for our wedding."

"Uh-oh," Spike whispered to Xander. "They're talking about the wedding plans. Trust me, you don't want to get in the way of the wedding planning unless she asks your opinion. Maybe we should go have a game of pool." he suggested.

Xander looked at his watch, smiling. "Well, we should be going. It's almost twelve thirty."

After the couple left, Buffy and Spike went upstairs to their room. As Buffy was removing her earrings and necklace she asked Spike a question. "Now that you've finished the novel of when Angel lost his soul, what's next?"

"I think I'll take a break for a couple weeks...maybe we can go on vacation somewhere." he brandished two plane tickets and waved them in front of her. "England maybe?"

Buffy looked at Spike with a huge grin on her face. "Really?" she asked.

"Yeah, I figured we could stop by and visit 'ol' Ripper. And you'd better say yes because he's already expecting us." he said laughing.

"Oh, William, I love you." she said between kisses. She let go of him and walked into the closet. Spike sat down on the bed and removed his shirt and tie. A few minutes later Buffy came out in a sexy silk nightgown.

Spike's eyes inspected her slim body. "Oh, ducks, you look ravishing in that. And it's red, my favorite colour!" he said standing up. She walked over to him and put her hands on his bare chest. She felt his heartbeat under her right hand.

"You know, it's been over five years and I still can't believe you're human. I don't think I ever will. It's like a dream that I never want to wake up from."

"If it was a dream, would Angel still be alive?" he asked before he could stop himself.

She just smiled. "No, Spike," she said, using his old nickname. "You are my angel." she said before she kissed him softly.

"When you call me 'Spike', I feel young again." he said picking her up and carrying her over to their bed. He laid her down and kissed her gently.

"Spike, you are young." Buffy said smiling. "So why don't you prove it to me?"

"Yes ma'am," he said, caressing her softly as he followed through with his order.

~~ The End ~~