The "pg" is only there for the cuss works... otherwise enjoy. And R&R is vewy welcomed!
~*~Heart's Desire~*~
-Prologue-
Tifa stared at the letter again. A letter…. The Letter.
Dear Tifa,
When you get this I'll be long gone and you'll probably be more pissed seeing as I kind of stood you up. 'Kind of?' Tifa shook her head at *that*. 'HE stood me up…royally'I'll be gone… long gone. I'm going to a little island that is called Paradise that's located a long way from here. I don't want to be found or followed but I can't leave without saying good bye and why I'm leaving.
Last week, I had a dream. Maybe it was real… maybe not… at first I chalked it up as a illusion or a dream but the more and more I thought about it I realized it had to be a prophecy… or an omen of some sort. Aeris appeared in my dream and told me of this place… this island, actually, of where she was living. She didn't say how, just that she loved… *loved* me and would wait for me and not to blame myself for her death. Tifa… the time we had together this past year and the time I went out with you was great. Hell… it was wonderful, fun, and most of all, I got to spend time with you after all these years. But I'd be lying to you it I told you I loved to romantically… and I'd be lying to myself and Aeris, which I could never do. 'So you could fool me? So you could play with my heart? Cloud… that's not fair… you could have just told me face to face… I would have understood, let you go…'
Tifa, please understand and remember that I love you… as a sister. I'm sorry if I caused any trouble and maybe one day we'll meet again. Hey… keep smiling! 'How? Cloud… I feel so… how would you feel? I wish you were here so I could sock you good!' Tifa wiped the tears that fell down her face. 'Why must you still be so inconsiderate of other people's feelings? At least last time you told me face to face…'
Love,
Cloud
Tifa glanced at the last words and closed her eyes. She felt her warm tears slid down her cheeks and cried silently. 'Why couldn't you just tell face to face? I would have let you go, wished you the best of luck… and that you would find your *true* love! Cloud… you don't know what love is… otherwise you wouldn't have just left me like this!'
"Tifa?" Barret called from the doorway. He stared at the young woman, her too bright eyes, and disheveled hair. "You okay?"
"I'm fine, Barret. I just want to be alone for a while."
"All right." 'She must have been reading that damn letter again. Cloud… when I get my hands on you…!' Barret sighed and closed the door softly behind him.
"How was she?" Barret gave a start at the voice.
"Christ… are you planning to scare me to death, you bastard?" Barret grumbled as he stared at the red hair man in front of him.
"Geez… are all you AVALANCHE members so tense?" the man replied, in an offhand manner. "No wonder why spiky boy left. He just couldn't take the pressure." Barret just growled.
"That has nothing to do with it! And you know it!"
"All right, all right already! Yeesh… can't you take a joke?"
"Reno… if we didn't have that 'no fighting treaty' going I would punch you out right now. This is *not* the time for jokes!"
"Okay! Okay! I got you the first time. So… how is she doing?" Reno asked, showing some real concern.
"I don't know. I guess pretty well since the man you love just ran out on you and didn't even say good-bye to chase some ghost of your dead rival. Yea, pretty well." Barret's scathing reply made Reno flinch.
"Okay… I guess I deserved that." Reno sighed, brushing his hand through his thick, spiky, red hair. "Do you think she'll come out okay though?"
"Can't tell."
"What? You worked, lived, and are friends with her! How can you not tell?"
"Tifa, she's something else. She's strong, emotionally and physically, but how would you feel if someone you loved left… without saying good-bye?"
"Still doesn't make sense. Are you saying she's strong in and out, but might not be able to get through this? What kind of crap is that?" Reno was beginning to look fustrated as well mad. Barret shrugged.
"He'll probably be able to understand Tifa's situation better. And might give you a better explanation, Turk." Reno flashed a smile at Barret as he used his "old name".
"Hey, Vincent!" Reno called, almost placing his arm around the ex-Turk's shoulders. But that would have meant a sore back for eternity or just one less arm.
"What?" Vincent's eyes narrowed.
"Nothing to get defensive about! I just want to talk! That's all!" Reno put his hands up in the gesture of peace. "Besides, what between Turks. Right?" Vincent just glared.
"What do you want to know?"
"Well… Barret says you'll be able to answer or explain-" Reno frowned but went on, "this better. Barret says Tifa is strong. Emotionally and physically, but he can't be sure if she'll come out all right through this ordeal. I don't get this crap. Why the hell not?" Vincent studied the Turk in front of him. 'Something's going on around here.' Vincent thought amusedly.
"She would have done much better, already be getting over Cloud, if she had been told face to face. If she had been told good-bye, face to face. If she had watched his ship leaving the port. She loves him so much and would never want him to be unhappy, never would have kept him away from his dream. She knew that, and you and I knew that, but Cloud-Cloud didn't. He just *didn't* understand her feelings. And I doubt that he ever will." As Vincent finished his little speech he realized, with some irony, that is had been almost as much as half of all the words that he had ever spoken the group, AVALANCHE. 'It's just Tifa's case is so much like my own. I hope she makes the right choice.'
"So, you think she'll try something desperate, or something like that?"
"Tifa? No, she won't do anything stupid. It'll just take her longer now. She needs us, to be there for her." And with that, Vincent turned around and walked back down the stairs. Reno just stared.
"Please be okay." Reno whispered through closed door, but the inhabitant of the room would never hear the words, or their meaning. The young girl was exhausted from the emotions that ran through her and crying all day, she had fallen into a deep, dreamless sleep, but even that would not give her peace.
Erm… sappy (sorta) and Vincent is waaay OOC (okay… not that much … maybe… er… maybe not…) and I gave Barret a liiiittle more of a part then I intended but…. If I were you I wouldn't be expecting too much of him later… nope… and I need you ppl's help! I can't decide if I should put Reno and Tifa together or Cloud and Tifa together… I can do it both ways. *shrugs* just send me what you think via e-mail… not through R&R! it's Ashaitenshi@aol.com. Hee… but I still plan on having Reno go after… um.. never mind! Giving too much away!!!!!! P.S.... I am a very bad writer aren't I? R and R very much welcomed BTW!!!! And be a little nice, please?
~*~Heart's Desire~*~
-Prologue-
Tifa stared at the letter again. A letter…. The Letter.
Dear Tifa,
When you get this I'll be long gone and you'll probably be more pissed seeing as I kind of stood you up. 'Kind of?' Tifa shook her head at *that*. 'HE stood me up…royally'I'll be gone… long gone. I'm going to a little island that is called Paradise that's located a long way from here. I don't want to be found or followed but I can't leave without saying good bye and why I'm leaving.
Last week, I had a dream. Maybe it was real… maybe not… at first I chalked it up as a illusion or a dream but the more and more I thought about it I realized it had to be a prophecy… or an omen of some sort. Aeris appeared in my dream and told me of this place… this island, actually, of where she was living. She didn't say how, just that she loved… *loved* me and would wait for me and not to blame myself for her death. Tifa… the time we had together this past year and the time I went out with you was great. Hell… it was wonderful, fun, and most of all, I got to spend time with you after all these years. But I'd be lying to you it I told you I loved to romantically… and I'd be lying to myself and Aeris, which I could never do. 'So you could fool me? So you could play with my heart? Cloud… that's not fair… you could have just told me face to face… I would have understood, let you go…'
Tifa, please understand and remember that I love you… as a sister. I'm sorry if I caused any trouble and maybe one day we'll meet again. Hey… keep smiling! 'How? Cloud… I feel so… how would you feel? I wish you were here so I could sock you good!' Tifa wiped the tears that fell down her face. 'Why must you still be so inconsiderate of other people's feelings? At least last time you told me face to face…'
Love,
Cloud
Tifa glanced at the last words and closed her eyes. She felt her warm tears slid down her cheeks and cried silently. 'Why couldn't you just tell face to face? I would have let you go, wished you the best of luck… and that you would find your *true* love! Cloud… you don't know what love is… otherwise you wouldn't have just left me like this!'
"Tifa?" Barret called from the doorway. He stared at the young woman, her too bright eyes, and disheveled hair. "You okay?"
"I'm fine, Barret. I just want to be alone for a while."
"All right." 'She must have been reading that damn letter again. Cloud… when I get my hands on you…!' Barret sighed and closed the door softly behind him.
"How was she?" Barret gave a start at the voice.
"Christ… are you planning to scare me to death, you bastard?" Barret grumbled as he stared at the red hair man in front of him.
"Geez… are all you AVALANCHE members so tense?" the man replied, in an offhand manner. "No wonder why spiky boy left. He just couldn't take the pressure." Barret just growled.
"That has nothing to do with it! And you know it!"
"All right, all right already! Yeesh… can't you take a joke?"
"Reno… if we didn't have that 'no fighting treaty' going I would punch you out right now. This is *not* the time for jokes!"
"Okay! Okay! I got you the first time. So… how is she doing?" Reno asked, showing some real concern.
"I don't know. I guess pretty well since the man you love just ran out on you and didn't even say good-bye to chase some ghost of your dead rival. Yea, pretty well." Barret's scathing reply made Reno flinch.
"Okay… I guess I deserved that." Reno sighed, brushing his hand through his thick, spiky, red hair. "Do you think she'll come out okay though?"
"Can't tell."
"What? You worked, lived, and are friends with her! How can you not tell?"
"Tifa, she's something else. She's strong, emotionally and physically, but how would you feel if someone you loved left… without saying good-bye?"
"Still doesn't make sense. Are you saying she's strong in and out, but might not be able to get through this? What kind of crap is that?" Reno was beginning to look fustrated as well mad. Barret shrugged.
"He'll probably be able to understand Tifa's situation better. And might give you a better explanation, Turk." Reno flashed a smile at Barret as he used his "old name".
"Hey, Vincent!" Reno called, almost placing his arm around the ex-Turk's shoulders. But that would have meant a sore back for eternity or just one less arm.
"What?" Vincent's eyes narrowed.
"Nothing to get defensive about! I just want to talk! That's all!" Reno put his hands up in the gesture of peace. "Besides, what between Turks. Right?" Vincent just glared.
"What do you want to know?"
"Well… Barret says you'll be able to answer or explain-" Reno frowned but went on, "this better. Barret says Tifa is strong. Emotionally and physically, but he can't be sure if she'll come out all right through this ordeal. I don't get this crap. Why the hell not?" Vincent studied the Turk in front of him. 'Something's going on around here.' Vincent thought amusedly.
"She would have done much better, already be getting over Cloud, if she had been told face to face. If she had been told good-bye, face to face. If she had watched his ship leaving the port. She loves him so much and would never want him to be unhappy, never would have kept him away from his dream. She knew that, and you and I knew that, but Cloud-Cloud didn't. He just *didn't* understand her feelings. And I doubt that he ever will." As Vincent finished his little speech he realized, with some irony, that is had been almost as much as half of all the words that he had ever spoken the group, AVALANCHE. 'It's just Tifa's case is so much like my own. I hope she makes the right choice.'
"So, you think she'll try something desperate, or something like that?"
"Tifa? No, she won't do anything stupid. It'll just take her longer now. She needs us, to be there for her." And with that, Vincent turned around and walked back down the stairs. Reno just stared.
"Please be okay." Reno whispered through closed door, but the inhabitant of the room would never hear the words, or their meaning. The young girl was exhausted from the emotions that ran through her and crying all day, she had fallen into a deep, dreamless sleep, but even that would not give her peace.
Erm… sappy (sorta) and Vincent is waaay OOC (okay… not that much … maybe… er… maybe not…) and I gave Barret a liiiittle more of a part then I intended but…. If I were you I wouldn't be expecting too much of him later… nope… and I need you ppl's help! I can't decide if I should put Reno and Tifa together or Cloud and Tifa together… I can do it both ways. *shrugs* just send me what you think via e-mail… not through R&R! it's Ashaitenshi@aol.com. Hee… but I still plan on having Reno go after… um.. never mind! Giving too much away!!!!!! P.S.... I am a very bad writer aren't I? R and R very much welcomed BTW!!!! And be a little nice, please?