Chibi Kilik: Shinigami no Kamikaze does not own Gundam Wing or a sense of morality.
SnK: *waves to everyone* Sorry to anyone out there following this fic. My weekend was busier than any of the previous weekdays, so I wasn't able to get this part out when I ment to. Even now I should be doing something else, but oh well!
Chibi Hwoarang: You're such a dedicated student..
SnK: It's the school's fault for having us go 'til the 22nd... hey, after the 22nd, I might actually have time to finish this fic up (if it isn't done by then.. I'm not sure myself how far this might stretch)
Chibi Hwoarang: You're appearently a dedicated writer, too.
SnK: Silence, you!!
Chibi Kilik: A friendly reminder, the fic contians shounen ai, some cussing, and angst. You also might want to watch out if you're a super-senstive Relena fan.
Here Then Gone part 3
by Shinigami no Kamikaze
Exactly two weeks had passed since the rest of the former gundam pilots had come to the hospital. Relena wasn't there since she was involved in negotiations she couldn't possibly weasel her way out of. Duo was happy for that small blessing. He was completely exhasted and stressed, and he doubted he could have kept himself from snapping and, at the best, screaming his lungs at her. At the worst...
He didn't exactly hate Relena. She was alright... until she started talking about Heero. She was clearly obsessed with him, but for all the wrong reasons. Relena spoke of them as if they were two halves of the same soul. If there was even a grain of truth to that, then why was it she actually knew jack shit about Heero? She did not understand him at all... she was just a spoiled brat who claimed anything bright and shiny in her path as 'hers'. ... Of course, "bright and shiny" probably wasn't a way most people would describe Heero... but that hardly mattered to Duo. Especially not at the moment.
The good news was Heero had made some improvement. Although it had given Duo a mini-heart attack at the time, Heero's body started to fight the respirator (which had made his body convulse, the reason for Duo's panic). Now he was breathing on his own, and was that much closer to waking up even though... even though there were still plenty of dangers.
Wufei looked in worriedly at Duo. None of the ex-gundam pilots had strayed far from hospital (mostly only to a hotel where they crashed)... but Duo rarely got up from his position by Heero's bed. Quatre had taken to bringing Duo things to eat, since the one time that Duo had gone in search of food, he only went to the closest vending machine (filled only with candy bars and chips). Then he hadn't bothered to eat what he'd bought. Duo was wearing himself out with his endless watch over Heero, and it was beginning to show. There were dark circles around his red eyes, his braid was falling apart, and his skin was pale.
"Why don't you get some sleep in a real bed?" Wufei kept his tone neutral, straining his anxeity over Duo's health out of his voice.
Duo looked up at him, and gave a small smile. Through it all, Duo was still pretty much himself... Wufei wasn't sure if he should be extremly grateful or increasingly worried about that. This whole situation was a strain on them all.... and Duo's optimisim could just be his way of coping, or it could be him hiding his feelings, which wasn't healthy at all. While Duo seemed naturally inclined to cheerfulness, Wufei didn't think he would be smiling with his best friend in a coma beside him. "Where's the fun in that? .. no thanks, Wu-man, I'll just stay right here."
Duo watched his friend sigh, and look at him somberly, then shift his gaze to Heero. "You're not doing him any good by allowing yourself to waste away by his side. Is seriously doubt Yuy would want you to."
"I don't think he would have wanted me to try to save him, either. Let's just say Heero ain't always right." There was a pause, then Wufei saw resolve enter Duo's eyes, as he looked up at him in complete earnestly. "I'm going to be here when he wakes up."
Wufei was taken surprize by Duo's deadly serious tone. He was caught off guard, and soon found himself mumbling, "Fine. Just don't neglect yourself to the point of harming yourself.." He hadn't ment to. He'd ment to lay down the law with Duo, and drag him forcibly from the room to rest, if necessary. Wufei sadly left the room, although he let none of his dismal mood leak into his posture or expression... Tomarrow. he'd come back and try again tomarrow.
As Wufei left, Duo's eyes inevitably returned to the comatose teen in the bed beside him. 'Damn you, Heero. Why did you do this to everyone? Why didn't you come to any one of us...? ... Why... why didn't you come to me.....?'
Duo had been doing alot of thinking while he was alone in the room. He knew he cared deeply for Heero, but wasn't sure in what kind of way. He'd come to no conclusions as of yet. He thought up many questions, and if he ever managed to answer one, the answer led to five more questions. All questions he could only answer if Heero woke up.. if Heero would come back to them... to him.
Quatre entered the room. While Duo by far spent the most time here, Quatre was second. This time he didn't bring anything to eat. Duo was grateful... he didn't think he could force anything down at the moment.
"Is it just me, or does he have more color to him?"
Duo blinked, and scruitinzed Heero, hope stirring within him. Quatre was right.. definately better color to him. There definately was color, as opposed to his looking as white as the sheets he was wrapped in. "Yes. Yes, he does."
Then they saw it-- an eyelid twitch. Duo jumped up immediately from his seat, and Quatre walked over to the bed. Heero's eyelids again moved, body stirring a bit, and Duo dashed up right beside him. Then Heero's eyes opened. Duo, for once, did not know what to say... Quatre appearently didn't either, and they sat in silence for a few moments.
"What happened?" Heero's question took both Quatre and Duo by surprize.. The doctors had warned them that Heero might have suffered brain damage. Was that the reason Heero didn't know what occured... what he did?
"Well, you just scared the living shit outta us!"
Heero looked over at the boy with the sparking violet eyes and long, braided shimmering chestnut colored hair... which was a complete mess... who'd just spoken. He noted the signs of exhaustion.. bags under bloodshot eyes, posture. No detail escaped him. Heero found himself a little anxious about the other's health, but there was no logical reason for it, considering...
"Quatre, who is this?"
Duo felt cold, as cold as they way Heero had said those four words. No way... there was no way this was happening, no way Heero was serious. He kept his 'cheerful' look up, for now. "That's all just joke, right...? I know how warped your sense of humor is, Heero."
Heero's glare met Duo's eyes, and he felt like those Prussian eyes were pierceing into his soul, examining it from the inside out. Heero had never looked at him like that.. not once. There was no feeling behind those eyes, nothing but emptiness. Was this the look that frightened everyone else away from Heero? He could understand why.. Duo was about ready to piss in his pants.
Something in Heero's mind told him, 'Don't get close to this guy... stay away from him... he's been the cause of pain.' He said, his voice icy, "I don't know what you are talking about. I don't know -you-. Quatre, can you remove him from my room and tell me what's going on?"
Now Duo's face became that of utter shock. It felt like something inside of him was ripped apart. Oh God, and did it hurt... A shiver went down his spine, and Quatre looked over at him, sympathy and sorrow in his eyes. "Duo... just for now.. it'd be best... please..."
Questions raced through Duo's mind, radically different from the one's he'd been thinking of earlier. Only him? Did Heero only forget him? Why was that, for what reason...? Why did he treat him so harshly...?
With all his self control, Duo forced another smile, "Don't think you can get rid of me so easily, Heero-man." The he removed himself carefully, one foot in front of the other, from the hospital room. Once he got out of the room, he started to run, tears threatening to fall down his cheeks. But he refused to let them.. he wouldn't let them. This could still be something only temporary... tears wouldn't help that. Tears wouldn't help with anything...
Well, they might help release some of the terrible pain inside him. But he was stronger than that. He needed to be strong... he hated to show weakness to anyone (almost anyone, at least). Anyway, Wufei'd probably think he was a weak onna for crying over something like this... he was already doing the cowardly thing of running.. and he didn't even know where he was running to....
~~~End
SnK: Sorry 'bout the shortness (and is it a kinda mean place to leave you guys..?) , but I wanted to get this part out. And I got to finish up a bunch of work that I've left undone.
Chibi Hwoarang: You're going to do it in Math and during lunch, aren't ya?
SnK: Isn't that what they're there for?
Chibi Hwoarang: Idiot, you just don't do it.
Chibi Kilik: *sighs and shakes his head at the two*
SnK: *ignores ChibiKilik* Anyway, I'm not sure when the next part will be out. Hopefully before the weekend. 'Cause Sat-Mon, I'm busy as hell. And a few days after Monday, I doubt I'll feel like doin' much.... but, please review! Please...?
SnK: *waves to everyone* Sorry to anyone out there following this fic. My weekend was busier than any of the previous weekdays, so I wasn't able to get this part out when I ment to. Even now I should be doing something else, but oh well!
Chibi Hwoarang: You're such a dedicated student..
SnK: It's the school's fault for having us go 'til the 22nd... hey, after the 22nd, I might actually have time to finish this fic up (if it isn't done by then.. I'm not sure myself how far this might stretch)
Chibi Hwoarang: You're appearently a dedicated writer, too.
SnK: Silence, you!!
Chibi Kilik: A friendly reminder, the fic contians shounen ai, some cussing, and angst. You also might want to watch out if you're a super-senstive Relena fan.
Here Then Gone part 3
by Shinigami no Kamikaze
Exactly two weeks had passed since the rest of the former gundam pilots had come to the hospital. Relena wasn't there since she was involved in negotiations she couldn't possibly weasel her way out of. Duo was happy for that small blessing. He was completely exhasted and stressed, and he doubted he could have kept himself from snapping and, at the best, screaming his lungs at her. At the worst...
He didn't exactly hate Relena. She was alright... until she started talking about Heero. She was clearly obsessed with him, but for all the wrong reasons. Relena spoke of them as if they were two halves of the same soul. If there was even a grain of truth to that, then why was it she actually knew jack shit about Heero? She did not understand him at all... she was just a spoiled brat who claimed anything bright and shiny in her path as 'hers'. ... Of course, "bright and shiny" probably wasn't a way most people would describe Heero... but that hardly mattered to Duo. Especially not at the moment.
The good news was Heero had made some improvement. Although it had given Duo a mini-heart attack at the time, Heero's body started to fight the respirator (which had made his body convulse, the reason for Duo's panic). Now he was breathing on his own, and was that much closer to waking up even though... even though there were still plenty of dangers.
Wufei looked in worriedly at Duo. None of the ex-gundam pilots had strayed far from hospital (mostly only to a hotel where they crashed)... but Duo rarely got up from his position by Heero's bed. Quatre had taken to bringing Duo things to eat, since the one time that Duo had gone in search of food, he only went to the closest vending machine (filled only with candy bars and chips). Then he hadn't bothered to eat what he'd bought. Duo was wearing himself out with his endless watch over Heero, and it was beginning to show. There were dark circles around his red eyes, his braid was falling apart, and his skin was pale.
"Why don't you get some sleep in a real bed?" Wufei kept his tone neutral, straining his anxeity over Duo's health out of his voice.
Duo looked up at him, and gave a small smile. Through it all, Duo was still pretty much himself... Wufei wasn't sure if he should be extremly grateful or increasingly worried about that. This whole situation was a strain on them all.... and Duo's optimisim could just be his way of coping, or it could be him hiding his feelings, which wasn't healthy at all. While Duo seemed naturally inclined to cheerfulness, Wufei didn't think he would be smiling with his best friend in a coma beside him. "Where's the fun in that? .. no thanks, Wu-man, I'll just stay right here."
Duo watched his friend sigh, and look at him somberly, then shift his gaze to Heero. "You're not doing him any good by allowing yourself to waste away by his side. Is seriously doubt Yuy would want you to."
"I don't think he would have wanted me to try to save him, either. Let's just say Heero ain't always right." There was a pause, then Wufei saw resolve enter Duo's eyes, as he looked up at him in complete earnestly. "I'm going to be here when he wakes up."
Wufei was taken surprize by Duo's deadly serious tone. He was caught off guard, and soon found himself mumbling, "Fine. Just don't neglect yourself to the point of harming yourself.." He hadn't ment to. He'd ment to lay down the law with Duo, and drag him forcibly from the room to rest, if necessary. Wufei sadly left the room, although he let none of his dismal mood leak into his posture or expression... Tomarrow. he'd come back and try again tomarrow.
As Wufei left, Duo's eyes inevitably returned to the comatose teen in the bed beside him. 'Damn you, Heero. Why did you do this to everyone? Why didn't you come to any one of us...? ... Why... why didn't you come to me.....?'
Duo had been doing alot of thinking while he was alone in the room. He knew he cared deeply for Heero, but wasn't sure in what kind of way. He'd come to no conclusions as of yet. He thought up many questions, and if he ever managed to answer one, the answer led to five more questions. All questions he could only answer if Heero woke up.. if Heero would come back to them... to him.
Quatre entered the room. While Duo by far spent the most time here, Quatre was second. This time he didn't bring anything to eat. Duo was grateful... he didn't think he could force anything down at the moment.
"Is it just me, or does he have more color to him?"
Duo blinked, and scruitinzed Heero, hope stirring within him. Quatre was right.. definately better color to him. There definately was color, as opposed to his looking as white as the sheets he was wrapped in. "Yes. Yes, he does."
Then they saw it-- an eyelid twitch. Duo jumped up immediately from his seat, and Quatre walked over to the bed. Heero's eyelids again moved, body stirring a bit, and Duo dashed up right beside him. Then Heero's eyes opened. Duo, for once, did not know what to say... Quatre appearently didn't either, and they sat in silence for a few moments.
"What happened?" Heero's question took both Quatre and Duo by surprize.. The doctors had warned them that Heero might have suffered brain damage. Was that the reason Heero didn't know what occured... what he did?
"Well, you just scared the living shit outta us!"
Heero looked over at the boy with the sparking violet eyes and long, braided shimmering chestnut colored hair... which was a complete mess... who'd just spoken. He noted the signs of exhaustion.. bags under bloodshot eyes, posture. No detail escaped him. Heero found himself a little anxious about the other's health, but there was no logical reason for it, considering...
"Quatre, who is this?"
Duo felt cold, as cold as they way Heero had said those four words. No way... there was no way this was happening, no way Heero was serious. He kept his 'cheerful' look up, for now. "That's all just joke, right...? I know how warped your sense of humor is, Heero."
Heero's glare met Duo's eyes, and he felt like those Prussian eyes were pierceing into his soul, examining it from the inside out. Heero had never looked at him like that.. not once. There was no feeling behind those eyes, nothing but emptiness. Was this the look that frightened everyone else away from Heero? He could understand why.. Duo was about ready to piss in his pants.
Something in Heero's mind told him, 'Don't get close to this guy... stay away from him... he's been the cause of pain.' He said, his voice icy, "I don't know what you are talking about. I don't know -you-. Quatre, can you remove him from my room and tell me what's going on?"
Now Duo's face became that of utter shock. It felt like something inside of him was ripped apart. Oh God, and did it hurt... A shiver went down his spine, and Quatre looked over at him, sympathy and sorrow in his eyes. "Duo... just for now.. it'd be best... please..."
Questions raced through Duo's mind, radically different from the one's he'd been thinking of earlier. Only him? Did Heero only forget him? Why was that, for what reason...? Why did he treat him so harshly...?
With all his self control, Duo forced another smile, "Don't think you can get rid of me so easily, Heero-man." The he removed himself carefully, one foot in front of the other, from the hospital room. Once he got out of the room, he started to run, tears threatening to fall down his cheeks. But he refused to let them.. he wouldn't let them. This could still be something only temporary... tears wouldn't help that. Tears wouldn't help with anything...
Well, they might help release some of the terrible pain inside him. But he was stronger than that. He needed to be strong... he hated to show weakness to anyone (almost anyone, at least). Anyway, Wufei'd probably think he was a weak onna for crying over something like this... he was already doing the cowardly thing of running.. and he didn't even know where he was running to....
~~~End
SnK: Sorry 'bout the shortness (and is it a kinda mean place to leave you guys..?) , but I wanted to get this part out. And I got to finish up a bunch of work that I've left undone.
Chibi Hwoarang: You're going to do it in Math and during lunch, aren't ya?
SnK: Isn't that what they're there for?
Chibi Hwoarang: Idiot, you just don't do it.
Chibi Kilik: *sighs and shakes his head at the two*
SnK: *ignores ChibiKilik* Anyway, I'm not sure when the next part will be out. Hopefully before the weekend. 'Cause Sat-Mon, I'm busy as hell. And a few days after Monday, I doubt I'll feel like doin' much.... but, please review! Please...?