Kilik:Shinigami no Kamikaze does not own Gundam Wing or a sense of morality
SnK: Come on, hurry it up, I've got to go welcome in a new year!
Hwoarang: Then why not just go now?
SnK: 'Cause I failed to write this ficcy 2 nights ago, when I ment to, so I gotta do it now... I promised to have something happen!
Hwoarang:That's never stopped you before.
SnK:Shut up!
Kilik:A friendly reminder, this fic contains shounen ai, angst, and cussing.
Hwoarang: Why cussing..?
SnK:I told you something was going to happen....
Hwoarang: Oh, yeah....
Here Then Gone part 5
by Shinigami no Kamikaze
It was their first unsupervised visit together. They were in Duo's hotel room, so they could have some privacy.
The others were all still staying at the same hotel, still worried about both Heero and Duo. Quatre took care of his business from his room, Trowa and Wufei both took leaves from their work. The three of them were very uneasy with the current situation..
Well... Wufei was not worried about Heero. The only reason he stayed was for Duo's sake. He was extremely worried since Duo had been keeping to himself so much. Usually Duo was so open.. After living together for awhile, he'd come to sharing his thoughs and feelings with Wufei now again (after he learned Wufei wouldn't scoff at them). But, this past week, Duo had been keeping his distance from everyone...
Wufei wanted so badly to hold Duo in his arms and comfort him. Although Duo was constantly acting as his cheerful self, Wufei could tell it was just an act.. he had learned to read Duo much better from wistfully watching his love during their time together back at their shared condo...This all had to be terribly stressing for his love... he couldn't stand to see things hidden behind those pure violet eyes.
His anger was starting to become focused on Heero Yuy. He could not blame him for losing him memory of Duo, no... but Wufei did not like the way he treated Duo during the visits between the two he'd been present for. He knew Heero was not prone to being very amicable with anyone, much less strangers, but never since after the war had he treated someone so insensitively! Whenever Duo tried to reach out to him, Heero would shove him away, usually with some scathing comment. He did not appear to actually try to recall anything about Duo.. he just said he didn't remember it and waited for the next question.
Wufei remained in his room as the other two boys met alone. He was on edge, he thought this was too soon, just a week after the first visitation between the two teens. He wouldn't leave this place in case Duo needed him... He would stay right here, where Duo could easily find him.. Then he sighed, and rummaged through the drawer in the nightstand where he'd stashed his precious silver picture frame.
There were two dragons intertwining around the frame, one with an amethyst eyes, the other with onyx. Duo had given it to him one day, saying he saw the dragons and thought of him, claiming it was nothing. Probably it was because Duo felt bad for waking Wufei up around 3 AM the past week since he'd been doing overtime... Wufei didn't want to accept it, especially since it was hardly something Duo had to feel sorry for, since Wufei himself often kept strange hours... but in the end Duo had convinced him to take it.
It had come to mean a lot to Wufei, and he had placed the picture he felt was the closest of his to actually capturing the essence of Duo Maxwell on film. He was laughing, after successfully pulling one prank or another, the combination of mischeif and happiness spraking in his eyes, not a single hair obscuring the brilliant orbs. As for his hair, the full shimmering braid had been caught mid-air, but by some miracle unblurred. Wufei ran his hand down across the glass that protected the breathtaking image of his love, as he had a million times before, fulled with a selfish desire to have the photograph's subject as his own.
Meanwhile, in the other room, Duo again felt as if Heero was trying his best to ignore him and pretend he wasn't even there. Over the long sessions, his false, cheery exterior had finally slipped away. Since yesterday, he'd been speaking to Heero without any guards on his emotions or feelings... and it still wasn't working.
"Heero... maybe we've... or I've... been going about this the wrong way..." Heero did not look at him, as he had not been looking at him for the past week. Sighing, Duo continued trying this time to speak from his heart, ".. you know, I still can't believe it? What else I can't believe... is how much it hurts..."
Heero stared straight at the carpet, and snorted from his seat on the bed. He did not look up, because he knew what he would see. He would see that face that his mind warned him about, that made him ache inside. Over and over again, he felt that knowing this person would just bring him pain, even kill him in one way or another.... and not looking made it easier... even though it still caused him pain to hear that damned voice so sorrowful. So he'd blocked that all away and did his best to make Duo go away, to discourage him, so he could be left alone in peace. Which is why, even though he understood perfectly what Duo was saying, he replied with, "I can't believe you were a Gundam pilot."
Finally, Duo started to become angry. He'd taken this for the past week... he'd tried so hard to reach out to Heero, to find the Heero he'd known before, to help his Heero at least get the rest of his memory back! This time he'd let himself become somewhat vulnrable, a thing he hated to do, in hopes it would coax a little bit of the Heero he knew out. And he was burned again. "What about you? Too scared to look me in the eyes?" It was out and said before Duo realized he was thinking it.
Heero decided to look up, to see if anything had changed... and to prove Duo wrong. When he did, he was shocked to find that Duo's face was a mere inch away from his own. He was caught staring straight into an endless amyethyst ocean of raw emotion... on the surface there was pain, anxeity, fear, curiousity, the anger he'd heard earlier in Duo's voice... beneath that there was so much more... but it was too veiled by the other feelings to tell what it was. His heart stopped.
Then Heero paniced, taken completely off guard by the proximity of the person whom that little part of him kept warning him about. So he did what came naturally to him. He attacked. His fist connected with Duo's left cheek and the boy was thrown off the chair and fell to the floor. If Duo made a sound during this time, Heero didn't know, as he was in partial shock.
Heero looked down at Duo, whose eyes were closed shut, hand covering where he'd just been hit, face twisted up in pain. The ache inside him increased tenfold... he immediately regretted his actions, never having ment to do anything like.. that. Then he realized he was shaking, and using the force of his willpower, he made himself stop, collecting himself just as Duo recovered.
"Shit! Heero, what the fuck was that for?!" Duo heard Heero get up off the bed, and his eyes snapped open... and he saw Heero heading toward the bathroom. He sat up, as he heard some noise coming from back there while he stared at the floor, and he rubbed his sore cheek... damn, Heero must've pulled that one at the last minute, because it hurt like hell but he didn't think the jaw was broken, which Heero could have easily done... "You know, you could have just -told- me I was doin' somethin' to piss you off!"
"Here." Duo looked up at the now-familiar cold sound of Heero's voice. He'd wrapped up a bunch of ice and thrown it into a wet towel for him. Duo took it, while mumbling, "Apology accepted..." He wasn't feeling very charitable toward Heero at the moment, which was unsterstandable, he thought... "but you do that again, Heero, and I'm hittin' you back."
Heero turned away from Duo.. he had to get out of there. He had to get out _now_. The longer he was here, the more it was straining his control over himself. He would not let this Duo guy get to him! He headed for the door, determined to get to his room so he could relax a little... being here was too much. He did want Duo to go away, but he did not what to hurt him again like that...
"Hey!" Heero paused at the sound of Duo's voice. "Where do you think you're going?"
"There isn't anything more to talk about today, I'm going to my room." And with that, Heero Yuy exited the room.
Duo sat there, what had happened starting to sink in.. and suddenly the soreness of his cheek did not compare with the pain he felt inside. He couldn't force himself to move to go after Heero... he simply whispered, letting his hand holding the icepack slip away from his face.. "....wait... you never even told me why...."
~~~end
SnK:2x1 and 1x2 fans, don't kill me! ..anyway... you.. you have to go through Hwoarang and Kilik, first, and they're Namco-fighter-guys!!!
Hwoarang&Kilik:What?I You're on your own, 'Kaze-chan! *they both run away*
SnK: Cowards!!!!!!! *sighs* Anyway, it still can go either way... although... I think I may finally decide on the prevailing relationship... and let you all know next chapter (...but keep in mind.. this isn't guaranteed). Anyway, Happy New Year everyone!!! (eer.... everyone who celebrates the New Year today, at least ^_^)
Oh yes, and please, please, please, review! It make me want to write faster, and it may be your last chance to influence me on who gets who!
SnK: Come on, hurry it up, I've got to go welcome in a new year!
Hwoarang: Then why not just go now?
SnK: 'Cause I failed to write this ficcy 2 nights ago, when I ment to, so I gotta do it now... I promised to have something happen!
Hwoarang:That's never stopped you before.
SnK:Shut up!
Kilik:A friendly reminder, this fic contains shounen ai, angst, and cussing.
Hwoarang: Why cussing..?
SnK:I told you something was going to happen....
Hwoarang: Oh, yeah....
Here Then Gone part 5
by Shinigami no Kamikaze
It was their first unsupervised visit together. They were in Duo's hotel room, so they could have some privacy.
The others were all still staying at the same hotel, still worried about both Heero and Duo. Quatre took care of his business from his room, Trowa and Wufei both took leaves from their work. The three of them were very uneasy with the current situation..
Well... Wufei was not worried about Heero. The only reason he stayed was for Duo's sake. He was extremely worried since Duo had been keeping to himself so much. Usually Duo was so open.. After living together for awhile, he'd come to sharing his thoughs and feelings with Wufei now again (after he learned Wufei wouldn't scoff at them). But, this past week, Duo had been keeping his distance from everyone...
Wufei wanted so badly to hold Duo in his arms and comfort him. Although Duo was constantly acting as his cheerful self, Wufei could tell it was just an act.. he had learned to read Duo much better from wistfully watching his love during their time together back at their shared condo...This all had to be terribly stressing for his love... he couldn't stand to see things hidden behind those pure violet eyes.
His anger was starting to become focused on Heero Yuy. He could not blame him for losing him memory of Duo, no... but Wufei did not like the way he treated Duo during the visits between the two he'd been present for. He knew Heero was not prone to being very amicable with anyone, much less strangers, but never since after the war had he treated someone so insensitively! Whenever Duo tried to reach out to him, Heero would shove him away, usually with some scathing comment. He did not appear to actually try to recall anything about Duo.. he just said he didn't remember it and waited for the next question.
Wufei remained in his room as the other two boys met alone. He was on edge, he thought this was too soon, just a week after the first visitation between the two teens. He wouldn't leave this place in case Duo needed him... He would stay right here, where Duo could easily find him.. Then he sighed, and rummaged through the drawer in the nightstand where he'd stashed his precious silver picture frame.
There were two dragons intertwining around the frame, one with an amethyst eyes, the other with onyx. Duo had given it to him one day, saying he saw the dragons and thought of him, claiming it was nothing. Probably it was because Duo felt bad for waking Wufei up around 3 AM the past week since he'd been doing overtime... Wufei didn't want to accept it, especially since it was hardly something Duo had to feel sorry for, since Wufei himself often kept strange hours... but in the end Duo had convinced him to take it.
It had come to mean a lot to Wufei, and he had placed the picture he felt was the closest of his to actually capturing the essence of Duo Maxwell on film. He was laughing, after successfully pulling one prank or another, the combination of mischeif and happiness spraking in his eyes, not a single hair obscuring the brilliant orbs. As for his hair, the full shimmering braid had been caught mid-air, but by some miracle unblurred. Wufei ran his hand down across the glass that protected the breathtaking image of his love, as he had a million times before, fulled with a selfish desire to have the photograph's subject as his own.
Meanwhile, in the other room, Duo again felt as if Heero was trying his best to ignore him and pretend he wasn't even there. Over the long sessions, his false, cheery exterior had finally slipped away. Since yesterday, he'd been speaking to Heero without any guards on his emotions or feelings... and it still wasn't working.
"Heero... maybe we've... or I've... been going about this the wrong way..." Heero did not look at him, as he had not been looking at him for the past week. Sighing, Duo continued trying this time to speak from his heart, ".. you know, I still can't believe it? What else I can't believe... is how much it hurts..."
Heero stared straight at the carpet, and snorted from his seat on the bed. He did not look up, because he knew what he would see. He would see that face that his mind warned him about, that made him ache inside. Over and over again, he felt that knowing this person would just bring him pain, even kill him in one way or another.... and not looking made it easier... even though it still caused him pain to hear that damned voice so sorrowful. So he'd blocked that all away and did his best to make Duo go away, to discourage him, so he could be left alone in peace. Which is why, even though he understood perfectly what Duo was saying, he replied with, "I can't believe you were a Gundam pilot."
Finally, Duo started to become angry. He'd taken this for the past week... he'd tried so hard to reach out to Heero, to find the Heero he'd known before, to help his Heero at least get the rest of his memory back! This time he'd let himself become somewhat vulnrable, a thing he hated to do, in hopes it would coax a little bit of the Heero he knew out. And he was burned again. "What about you? Too scared to look me in the eyes?" It was out and said before Duo realized he was thinking it.
Heero decided to look up, to see if anything had changed... and to prove Duo wrong. When he did, he was shocked to find that Duo's face was a mere inch away from his own. He was caught staring straight into an endless amyethyst ocean of raw emotion... on the surface there was pain, anxeity, fear, curiousity, the anger he'd heard earlier in Duo's voice... beneath that there was so much more... but it was too veiled by the other feelings to tell what it was. His heart stopped.
Then Heero paniced, taken completely off guard by the proximity of the person whom that little part of him kept warning him about. So he did what came naturally to him. He attacked. His fist connected with Duo's left cheek and the boy was thrown off the chair and fell to the floor. If Duo made a sound during this time, Heero didn't know, as he was in partial shock.
Heero looked down at Duo, whose eyes were closed shut, hand covering where he'd just been hit, face twisted up in pain. The ache inside him increased tenfold... he immediately regretted his actions, never having ment to do anything like.. that. Then he realized he was shaking, and using the force of his willpower, he made himself stop, collecting himself just as Duo recovered.
"Shit! Heero, what the fuck was that for?!" Duo heard Heero get up off the bed, and his eyes snapped open... and he saw Heero heading toward the bathroom. He sat up, as he heard some noise coming from back there while he stared at the floor, and he rubbed his sore cheek... damn, Heero must've pulled that one at the last minute, because it hurt like hell but he didn't think the jaw was broken, which Heero could have easily done... "You know, you could have just -told- me I was doin' somethin' to piss you off!"
"Here." Duo looked up at the now-familiar cold sound of Heero's voice. He'd wrapped up a bunch of ice and thrown it into a wet towel for him. Duo took it, while mumbling, "Apology accepted..." He wasn't feeling very charitable toward Heero at the moment, which was unsterstandable, he thought... "but you do that again, Heero, and I'm hittin' you back."
Heero turned away from Duo.. he had to get out of there. He had to get out _now_. The longer he was here, the more it was straining his control over himself. He would not let this Duo guy get to him! He headed for the door, determined to get to his room so he could relax a little... being here was too much. He did want Duo to go away, but he did not what to hurt him again like that...
"Hey!" Heero paused at the sound of Duo's voice. "Where do you think you're going?"
"There isn't anything more to talk about today, I'm going to my room." And with that, Heero Yuy exited the room.
Duo sat there, what had happened starting to sink in.. and suddenly the soreness of his cheek did not compare with the pain he felt inside. He couldn't force himself to move to go after Heero... he simply whispered, letting his hand holding the icepack slip away from his face.. "....wait... you never even told me why...."
~~~end
SnK:2x1 and 1x2 fans, don't kill me! ..anyway... you.. you have to go through Hwoarang and Kilik, first, and they're Namco-fighter-guys!!!
Hwoarang&Kilik:What?I You're on your own, 'Kaze-chan! *they both run away*
SnK: Cowards!!!!!!! *sighs* Anyway, it still can go either way... although... I think I may finally decide on the prevailing relationship... and let you all know next chapter (...but keep in mind.. this isn't guaranteed). Anyway, Happy New Year everyone!!! (eer.... everyone who celebrates the New Year today, at least ^_^)
Oh yes, and please, please, please, review! It make me want to write faster, and it may be your last chance to influence me on who gets who!