Kilik:Shinigami no Kamikaze does not own Gundam Wing or a sense of mor-- what the hell is that?!?
SnK:*pets large dog-like spiney creature with glowing red eyes and pair huge sickle like claws that fuction septerately from its 4 other limbs* It's my new pet Zergling...
Zergling:KKkkkktttt!
ChibiHwoarang:*backs slowly away*
SnK:You don't have to worry! ... unless you annoy me, of course.
ChibiHwoarang:*starts to run far away*
Kilik:y-yea.... umm... A friendly reminder, this fic contains shounen ai, multilingual cussing, and angst.
SnK:This wasn't posted Sunday because of Starcraft and a project I'm helpin' out on.... sorry, minna... *sighs* I can never get anything out on time.... Anyway, the start of this fic is going a little bit back in time from the end of the last one... just a little heads up so I don't confuse you all entirely....
Here Then Gone part 9
by Shinigami no Kamikaze
"I can't believe you!", Sally said once the police at left them. She had had a hard time wrapping her head around to the report handed to her. This was not at all like Wufei. She simply could not believe it, but the evidence was there, so she could not deny it, either. "Why, Wufei? Attempted murder...? Why..?"
Wufei did not met Sally's eyes. He couldn't met anyone's eyes. He was far too ashamed of what he had done to let anyone see his face. "...long story.."
"We both have time. Explain."
Wufei sighed, the memories rushing through his head, replaying themselves yet again. "... I fell in love with Du--Maxwell...," the weight of that simple statement caused Wufei to pause. There was only one other person to whom he'd admitted that to... now he couldn't even call Duo by his first name. Any right to do that... to refer to him with such familiarity... he'd killed with that damnable knife. At least he knew he hadn't killed Duo; a patrol officer had come in and informed him that the braided boy was in stable condition.
Sally waited for him, not asking any questions. She was just about to prompt him to continue, when Wufei started to speak once more, "...you hear about Yuy's suicide attempt and coma...?" Sally nodded. ".. did you know he has amnesia...?" Sally shook her head. It was the first time she'd heard of that.
"Yea... he only forgot Duo.. knew the rest of us perfectly. Well, Duo was trying to get him to remember, rebuild their friendship... Heero treated.. well, Heero treated him like shit, never cooperating and only offering his insults rather than his feelings. 'Til.. 'til one day they met alone, to see if they could work something out.. when I saw Duo afterwards.. there was a large bruise ... that lok chat* had hit him! .. and yet Duo still cared about him! Cared about the lun-yeung** who'd hurt him... instead of me... so I got upset.. and I started drinking.... I wan't thinking clearly... I saw Yuy looking for Duo, and it made me so angry. I attacked him.. and... and Duo got in the way..." Wufei blurted it all out at once, so he wouldn't be interrupted. Sally sat quietly, taking it all in.
"Did you ever tell Duo how you felt..?" Sally murmered, finally breaking the absolute silence that had taken hold of the room.
Wufei shook his head mournfully, "Not until it was too late... I was cowardly.. I was afraid!"
Sally looked at Wufei, face bent over his lap, sublty shaking.. though Sally could not tell if he was crying or not. She felt for him, she truely did. She wished there was something she could do that would undo the past, and make things right for him. But she had no such power, what she did have, though, was a job to do.
"Wufei... I'm sure Duo will forgive you..., " and she was. She wasn't so sure what Heero would do, though.. "... I've come here to tell you that the Preventers agency is having you released with a full pardon."
Wufei looked up at her, eyes wide and sparking with unshed tears... so he hadn't been crying... "Why?!" He did not deserve to be freed.. he deserved to pay for his crime, at the very least!
"The Preventers are still young... news about a Preventers member serveing time for attempted murder and assult would be very damaging... the politicans might back out on us, and we'd lose our funding. Also, you're a very valuable member. We can't find someone of your skill and experience just anywhere... the punishment you shall recieve from us is the stripping of your rank." Sally saw the pain in his onyx eyes, "Knowing the type of person you are, Wufei, the punishment you will put yourself through is more than enough." Sally stood up, and Wufei was speechless. "You'll be released at one tomarrow. Within two weeks following you are to report to a Preventers branch nearest you." With that, Sally left him.
Soon, Wufei was taken back to his cell by a pair of guards
---
Heero sat up against the door leading to the section of the hospital where Duo supposedly was, somewhere.. being watched for signs of internal bleeding. Heero was thinking about what he was going to do.. about the future.
What Trowa had told him occupied most of his thoughts. How could he learn not to hurt Duo anymore? He needed help sorting out his feeling.. how was he supposed to know how to avoid trampling all over someone else's?
Another thing that worried him was Wufei. Not only what he would do... but if Duo loved him. Heero decided he'd have to try to entirely cut off his emotions.. try to go back to the way he'd been. He hated himself when he was like that, but it would be the only way he could stand it. Trowa had already pointed out how much pain it would cause Duo if he killed himself... and Heero would do anything to keep Duo from pain... he'd been the soruce of too much of it, anyway.
---
It was 12 hours since Wufei had been released from prison, 1 in the morning... Heero could not stand it anymore. He'd checked the hospital's computers and found out exactly where Duo was. Sneaking by hospital secrutiy was child's play. Since Duo was probably asleep, he'd never even have to know Heero was there... no one did. There shouldn't've been a problem with that.
The problem came when he he checked down the hallway and caught sight of an onyx queue. Heero stayed where he was, hidden around a corner, wondering what he'd do. Wufei had stabbed Duo.. but Wufei had been intended to stab him to protect Duo... but that was when Wufei was drunk... should he get Wufei away from Duo, or leave knowing he was being watched over by someone who cared...?
Considering Wufei's current record, and his own anger that still lingered from the attack, there was only one choice.
"Wufei." The Chinese boy whipped around at the sound of Heero's voice. He had been gazing through the window at Duo's pale form... seeing what he'd wrought. Wufei looked him straight in the eyes. He was still incredibly angry with Yuy...only slightly less than with himself... he spoke with the same calm and cold voice, "Yuy."
"You aren't supposed to be here."
"Neither are you."
Each waited for the other to make a move that they could interpret at even partially threatening so they could decend upon each other like rabid dogs.
Finally, Wufei spoke, "Why do you care about him, all of a sudden..?" Then, narrowing his eyes, he added icily "You did not seem to care for him much when you hit him, Yuy."
Heero's fists clenched, and he glared at Wufei, tone remaining cool, "I remember him now, and I do not feel comfortable with letting the person who put him here near him now when he's helpless."
Wufei snarled, not at all being reminded of his failure by Yuy of all people, "You have no idea what it's like to feel the way I do, you don't know anything... You would not have sat idly by as someone left their mark all on his face!"
"You're right, I would not have been idle. But I would not have nearly killed him!" Both Heero and Wufei were beginning to lose their composure as their tempers flared, and the volumes of their voices rose. Had they been debating over any other thing, they would have been able to control themselves perfectly... but now all their training and self disipline fled in the wake of their emotions.
"You know damn well that was an accident... "
"Yes, you'd rather have killed me. Why would I entrust Duo's saftey to a -murderer-?"
Wufei's eyes widened, "Poq Gai! ... I admit it was a mistake, but I am no murderer! You don't know what it's like!"
"I think I have a good idea..." Heero paused a moment, then met Wufei straight in the eyes, and said softer than the tone he'd been using eariler, "I love him." It was becoming easier to say those words... they felt right.
Wufei was taken aback, then he hissed, "You don't know the meaning of the word... You forgot him! You hit him! At least I did not attack him directly... no, that was you, lun tao! If anyone is going to kill him, it's you and your 'love'!"
"Kisama!"
"Sek si!"
Before they completely lost control, before they ran at each other ready to tear the head of the other, something stopped them dead in their tracks. It was the only thing that could. The load and steady tone of a flatline, coming from Duo's room.
Wufei immediately burst through the door, followed a second later by Heero, the two nearly tearing the thing from it's hinges, their adrenaline ran so high. Both were met by Duo's angry, tired eyes.
Both of them averted their gaze, as Duo tossed aside the heartmoniter equipment that had been attached to him. Duo had only been conscious for part of their coversation, and he'd known where it was heading. So he did the only thing he knew of to stop them in time... When were they going to learn?! Right now he was not concerned at all with which one he loved ... he was concerned with making the two most imporant people in his life stop trying to kill eachother! He was extremely pissed off.. it was the only way he'd been able to fight through the heavy drug haze he'd been put under so he'd be unable to stress himself to much... so he'd heal... lot of good it was doing.
"...l-look...at...me..." Duo had to force the words from his throat.. had to try to make them not so slurred they were nonsense, and loud enough to be heard over the heartmonitor's tone.. he was so tired... but he couldn't let these two kill eachother... especially over him. They both reluctantly obeyed. "...this...waits....'til...I...'m... out.. of... h-h-here." Just then the hospital staff came crashing in, and pushed Heero and Wufei out of the room.
Once they figured out that there was no medical emergency, the nurses left to attend other duties, while the doctor in charge of Duo's treatment came out to have a talk with the two bewildered boys.
"What the hell do you think you're doing!?! Are you -trying- to kill him?! You're not supposed to be back here for a reason! I just had to put him under again... another incident like this and I'll have to put him in restraints.. I don't think he wants that. Do you? ... He'll never get better this way!" The doctor screamed at the both of them. He had had more than enough close calls with this particular patient's life... and now these adolesents continued to complicate matters!
Both Heero and Wufei had nothing to say to that, and both were frozen in place. After a few more moments of silence the doctor growled, "Are you going to get out, or do I have to get security?"
The two teens both started away, defeated and ashamed. They both realized how much they were acting like children, and how close they came to ripping out their friend's heart. Neither would say anything to the other... both were too occupied with their thoughts.. with what Duo had said. They were both resolved to do as he wished, both because of how they'd each helped place him in this situation...
It was going to be a long wait.
~~~end
SnK:meh srry it's short... but I think the next part may be the last... finally! And I'm not even going to give an estimate as to when it'll be out... mostly, because whenever I do, it's always late.
Zergling:Kkkktttccckkkkttt!!
SnK:Yea.. I know... what to do... ? This sucks, the situation I've put myself into. I should have just killed him... things would have been so much simpler. I love them both, 1x2 and 5x2... damn it all! oh, well.... I guess I should tell you about all those things Wufei was saying in Cantonese (spelled more or less phonetically..)
* lok chat = dick
** leung-yun = dickface
Poq Gai = go die in the street (can be used like 'you Bastard!' or 'shit!')
lun tao = dickhead
sek si = eat shit
Courtesy of Scritch's Multilingual Swear list (http://members.home.net/scritch/swear.html). So, I dunno if those are even right.. but I didn't even get to use my favorite Cantonese ones I saw there.. things like Dieu lay lo mo hum ga chan, chan lay lo mo sheung tian pang, pang lay lo mo lok guy wan, wan lay lo mo bo lin chan and hum kah chan....
Now that I'm done boring you with Chinese insults I couldn't use, please review! As always, it affects how fast I work... I tend to put it off easier if there aren't that many reviews... please? or else the Zergling may get you!
Zergling:*opens mouth, drooling at the thought of food* Kkkkkkttt! *clicks claws together*
SnK:*pets large dog-like spiney creature with glowing red eyes and pair huge sickle like claws that fuction septerately from its 4 other limbs* It's my new pet Zergling...
Zergling:KKkkkktttt!
ChibiHwoarang:*backs slowly away*
SnK:You don't have to worry! ... unless you annoy me, of course.
ChibiHwoarang:*starts to run far away*
Kilik:y-yea.... umm... A friendly reminder, this fic contains shounen ai, multilingual cussing, and angst.
SnK:This wasn't posted Sunday because of Starcraft and a project I'm helpin' out on.... sorry, minna... *sighs* I can never get anything out on time.... Anyway, the start of this fic is going a little bit back in time from the end of the last one... just a little heads up so I don't confuse you all entirely....
Here Then Gone part 9
by Shinigami no Kamikaze
"I can't believe you!", Sally said once the police at left them. She had had a hard time wrapping her head around to the report handed to her. This was not at all like Wufei. She simply could not believe it, but the evidence was there, so she could not deny it, either. "Why, Wufei? Attempted murder...? Why..?"
Wufei did not met Sally's eyes. He couldn't met anyone's eyes. He was far too ashamed of what he had done to let anyone see his face. "...long story.."
"We both have time. Explain."
Wufei sighed, the memories rushing through his head, replaying themselves yet again. "... I fell in love with Du--Maxwell...," the weight of that simple statement caused Wufei to pause. There was only one other person to whom he'd admitted that to... now he couldn't even call Duo by his first name. Any right to do that... to refer to him with such familiarity... he'd killed with that damnable knife. At least he knew he hadn't killed Duo; a patrol officer had come in and informed him that the braided boy was in stable condition.
Sally waited for him, not asking any questions. She was just about to prompt him to continue, when Wufei started to speak once more, "...you hear about Yuy's suicide attempt and coma...?" Sally nodded. ".. did you know he has amnesia...?" Sally shook her head. It was the first time she'd heard of that.
"Yea... he only forgot Duo.. knew the rest of us perfectly. Well, Duo was trying to get him to remember, rebuild their friendship... Heero treated.. well, Heero treated him like shit, never cooperating and only offering his insults rather than his feelings. 'Til.. 'til one day they met alone, to see if they could work something out.. when I saw Duo afterwards.. there was a large bruise ... that lok chat* had hit him! .. and yet Duo still cared about him! Cared about the lun-yeung** who'd hurt him... instead of me... so I got upset.. and I started drinking.... I wan't thinking clearly... I saw Yuy looking for Duo, and it made me so angry. I attacked him.. and... and Duo got in the way..." Wufei blurted it all out at once, so he wouldn't be interrupted. Sally sat quietly, taking it all in.
"Did you ever tell Duo how you felt..?" Sally murmered, finally breaking the absolute silence that had taken hold of the room.
Wufei shook his head mournfully, "Not until it was too late... I was cowardly.. I was afraid!"
Sally looked at Wufei, face bent over his lap, sublty shaking.. though Sally could not tell if he was crying or not. She felt for him, she truely did. She wished there was something she could do that would undo the past, and make things right for him. But she had no such power, what she did have, though, was a job to do.
"Wufei... I'm sure Duo will forgive you..., " and she was. She wasn't so sure what Heero would do, though.. "... I've come here to tell you that the Preventers agency is having you released with a full pardon."
Wufei looked up at her, eyes wide and sparking with unshed tears... so he hadn't been crying... "Why?!" He did not deserve to be freed.. he deserved to pay for his crime, at the very least!
"The Preventers are still young... news about a Preventers member serveing time for attempted murder and assult would be very damaging... the politicans might back out on us, and we'd lose our funding. Also, you're a very valuable member. We can't find someone of your skill and experience just anywhere... the punishment you shall recieve from us is the stripping of your rank." Sally saw the pain in his onyx eyes, "Knowing the type of person you are, Wufei, the punishment you will put yourself through is more than enough." Sally stood up, and Wufei was speechless. "You'll be released at one tomarrow. Within two weeks following you are to report to a Preventers branch nearest you." With that, Sally left him.
Soon, Wufei was taken back to his cell by a pair of guards
---
Heero sat up against the door leading to the section of the hospital where Duo supposedly was, somewhere.. being watched for signs of internal bleeding. Heero was thinking about what he was going to do.. about the future.
What Trowa had told him occupied most of his thoughts. How could he learn not to hurt Duo anymore? He needed help sorting out his feeling.. how was he supposed to know how to avoid trampling all over someone else's?
Another thing that worried him was Wufei. Not only what he would do... but if Duo loved him. Heero decided he'd have to try to entirely cut off his emotions.. try to go back to the way he'd been. He hated himself when he was like that, but it would be the only way he could stand it. Trowa had already pointed out how much pain it would cause Duo if he killed himself... and Heero would do anything to keep Duo from pain... he'd been the soruce of too much of it, anyway.
---
It was 12 hours since Wufei had been released from prison, 1 in the morning... Heero could not stand it anymore. He'd checked the hospital's computers and found out exactly where Duo was. Sneaking by hospital secrutiy was child's play. Since Duo was probably asleep, he'd never even have to know Heero was there... no one did. There shouldn't've been a problem with that.
The problem came when he he checked down the hallway and caught sight of an onyx queue. Heero stayed where he was, hidden around a corner, wondering what he'd do. Wufei had stabbed Duo.. but Wufei had been intended to stab him to protect Duo... but that was when Wufei was drunk... should he get Wufei away from Duo, or leave knowing he was being watched over by someone who cared...?
Considering Wufei's current record, and his own anger that still lingered from the attack, there was only one choice.
"Wufei." The Chinese boy whipped around at the sound of Heero's voice. He had been gazing through the window at Duo's pale form... seeing what he'd wrought. Wufei looked him straight in the eyes. He was still incredibly angry with Yuy...only slightly less than with himself... he spoke with the same calm and cold voice, "Yuy."
"You aren't supposed to be here."
"Neither are you."
Each waited for the other to make a move that they could interpret at even partially threatening so they could decend upon each other like rabid dogs.
Finally, Wufei spoke, "Why do you care about him, all of a sudden..?" Then, narrowing his eyes, he added icily "You did not seem to care for him much when you hit him, Yuy."
Heero's fists clenched, and he glared at Wufei, tone remaining cool, "I remember him now, and I do not feel comfortable with letting the person who put him here near him now when he's helpless."
Wufei snarled, not at all being reminded of his failure by Yuy of all people, "You have no idea what it's like to feel the way I do, you don't know anything... You would not have sat idly by as someone left their mark all on his face!"
"You're right, I would not have been idle. But I would not have nearly killed him!" Both Heero and Wufei were beginning to lose their composure as their tempers flared, and the volumes of their voices rose. Had they been debating over any other thing, they would have been able to control themselves perfectly... but now all their training and self disipline fled in the wake of their emotions.
"You know damn well that was an accident... "
"Yes, you'd rather have killed me. Why would I entrust Duo's saftey to a -murderer-?"
Wufei's eyes widened, "Poq Gai! ... I admit it was a mistake, but I am no murderer! You don't know what it's like!"
"I think I have a good idea..." Heero paused a moment, then met Wufei straight in the eyes, and said softer than the tone he'd been using eariler, "I love him." It was becoming easier to say those words... they felt right.
Wufei was taken aback, then he hissed, "You don't know the meaning of the word... You forgot him! You hit him! At least I did not attack him directly... no, that was you, lun tao! If anyone is going to kill him, it's you and your 'love'!"
"Kisama!"
"Sek si!"
Before they completely lost control, before they ran at each other ready to tear the head of the other, something stopped them dead in their tracks. It was the only thing that could. The load and steady tone of a flatline, coming from Duo's room.
Wufei immediately burst through the door, followed a second later by Heero, the two nearly tearing the thing from it's hinges, their adrenaline ran so high. Both were met by Duo's angry, tired eyes.
Both of them averted their gaze, as Duo tossed aside the heartmoniter equipment that had been attached to him. Duo had only been conscious for part of their coversation, and he'd known where it was heading. So he did the only thing he knew of to stop them in time... When were they going to learn?! Right now he was not concerned at all with which one he loved ... he was concerned with making the two most imporant people in his life stop trying to kill eachother! He was extremely pissed off.. it was the only way he'd been able to fight through the heavy drug haze he'd been put under so he'd be unable to stress himself to much... so he'd heal... lot of good it was doing.
"...l-look...at...me..." Duo had to force the words from his throat.. had to try to make them not so slurred they were nonsense, and loud enough to be heard over the heartmonitor's tone.. he was so tired... but he couldn't let these two kill eachother... especially over him. They both reluctantly obeyed. "...this...waits....'til...I...'m... out.. of... h-h-here." Just then the hospital staff came crashing in, and pushed Heero and Wufei out of the room.
Once they figured out that there was no medical emergency, the nurses left to attend other duties, while the doctor in charge of Duo's treatment came out to have a talk with the two bewildered boys.
"What the hell do you think you're doing!?! Are you -trying- to kill him?! You're not supposed to be back here for a reason! I just had to put him under again... another incident like this and I'll have to put him in restraints.. I don't think he wants that. Do you? ... He'll never get better this way!" The doctor screamed at the both of them. He had had more than enough close calls with this particular patient's life... and now these adolesents continued to complicate matters!
Both Heero and Wufei had nothing to say to that, and both were frozen in place. After a few more moments of silence the doctor growled, "Are you going to get out, or do I have to get security?"
The two teens both started away, defeated and ashamed. They both realized how much they were acting like children, and how close they came to ripping out their friend's heart. Neither would say anything to the other... both were too occupied with their thoughts.. with what Duo had said. They were both resolved to do as he wished, both because of how they'd each helped place him in this situation...
It was going to be a long wait.
~~~end
SnK:meh srry it's short... but I think the next part may be the last... finally! And I'm not even going to give an estimate as to when it'll be out... mostly, because whenever I do, it's always late.
Zergling:Kkkktttccckkkkttt!!
SnK:Yea.. I know... what to do... ? This sucks, the situation I've put myself into. I should have just killed him... things would have been so much simpler. I love them both, 1x2 and 5x2... damn it all! oh, well.... I guess I should tell you about all those things Wufei was saying in Cantonese (spelled more or less phonetically..)
* lok chat = dick
** leung-yun = dickface
Poq Gai = go die in the street (can be used like 'you Bastard!' or 'shit!')
lun tao = dickhead
sek si = eat shit
Courtesy of Scritch's Multilingual Swear list (http://members.home.net/scritch/swear.html). So, I dunno if those are even right.. but I didn't even get to use my favorite Cantonese ones I saw there.. things like Dieu lay lo mo hum ga chan, chan lay lo mo sheung tian pang, pang lay lo mo lok guy wan, wan lay lo mo bo lin chan and hum kah chan....
Now that I'm done boring you with Chinese insults I couldn't use, please review! As always, it affects how fast I work... I tend to put it off easier if there aren't that many reviews... please? or else the Zergling may get you!
Zergling:*opens mouth, drooling at the thought of food* Kkkkkkttt! *clicks claws together*