No Life To Live
Part 1: Discovery
By: Fantasim Soldier
Anime series: Gundam Wing
Romance/drama
Not a lemon or a lime
Yaoi: Heero and Duo
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of it's characters. The only characters that are mine are the ones that do not belong to or in Gundam Wing.
Duo knocked on the door to Heero's house. No answer. His car was there and people had said that Heero hadn't come out of his house that day. Duo got scared, what if he was right and that 'goodbye' was meant to be final? Duo quickly tried to pick the lock, but for some reason it wouldn't work. Heero must have done something to that lock himself, but what, Duo didn't know. Finally he just started ramming it. Figuring that if Heero was in the house and able, he would open the door, rather than have it busted down. Duo got the door open on the third ram, by using all of his weight and strength. He'd ended up almost falling on his face, but he managed to not fall and ran around the house, yelling for Heero.
Duo came to a certain part of the house and when he ran by a door he'd heard something. It was running water. Duo opened the door and went inside the room. It was Heero's bedroom. He walked to the door he heard it from. He stepped close to the door, preparing to knock in case Heero'd been taking a shower or a bath or something and hadn't heard the sounds of the door being knocked on or rammed in, because the bedroom was at the end of the house and upstairs at that. Duo heard a sound when he stepped on the carpet next to the door. Sort of like a smack. Duo looked down and saw that the floor was completely drenched by the door and steadily increasing. "Shit!" Duo yelled, fearing the worst. He turned the knob. It was open. The light was on and the shower curtain drawn. Duo whipped it back, hoping that Heero had just been relaxing in the tub and hadn't noticed the water running over or anything like that. It might have been embarrassing for Duo and maybe Heero as well, but at least Heero would be alive to BE embarrassed! No such luck. Duo saw Heero laying down in the tub, the tub full of water. Heero was completely submersed in the water and wasn't moving. Heero's hair and shirt moved with the water, but nothing else. Duo didn't have time to take real close inspection of Heero. He jerked Heero up out of the water. Heero wasn't breathing.
"Shit! Please, don't leave me, now! I thought you said I was your friend?! How could you do this to me if I was such a good friend?!" Duo asked aloud, not really angry with Heero, just scared that he might have been too late. He checked Heero's pulse. A very, very faint pulse was there, but a pulse none the least. That was good. Duo knew how to take care of something like this without doctors or medical staff of any kind. He was trained in case it were necessary for him to revive someone and keep them healthy until he got whatever he wanted or they could fight again, assuming, that is, that they were Gundam pilots and needed to live. A drowning could occur at anytime and he had to know this.
Once Duo got Heero breathing again to where he was just 'sleeping', now. He was really still passed out, but Duo was confident that he got there in time, so Heero didn't go into a coma or something. He changed Heero out of the cold clothes.
"Sheeze, I gotta undress him now." Duo thought, blushing a little. He went to Heero's closet and looked around. He didn't find anything that would be suited for just sleep and he wasn't sure if Heero even had any pajamas. He looked in Heero's dresser drawers. He'd found what he wanted. A pair of socks, a pajama top and bottom that matched and went together, and some boxer shorts. He took off Heero's wet socks first and dried his feet off with a towel, being careful not to be too rough. He didn't know, really, how to do this to anyone, but himself. Dress them, anyway and dry them off. He didn't want to be too rough and hurt Heero. He might not wake him up, but he still didn't want to hurt Heero. He put the socks on his feet and took his pants off next, then his shirt. Duo readied the boxers so he could get them fast. He took Heero's wet ones off, trying not to look, but it was impossible, when he had to dry him off, otherwise the new clothes wouldn't be worth a damn, they'd just get wet. Duo decided that Heero wasn't awake to catch him staring, so he decided to look. He wouldn't be at peace until he did. He was beginning to think he really was a pervert. 'Well, at least I'm not touching it.' Duo thought to himself. He shook his head to get those naughty thoughts out of his head and slipped the new boxers onto Heero, then the pajama bottoms and top. Duo dried Heero's hair carefully and gently.
He didn't know why, but he just wanted to hold Heero. Heero had almost died and Duo didn't think that it was accidental that Heero ended up laying down in a bathtub full of water, with the tub overflowing and still fully clothed. He'd almost lost Heero back there. He sighed and took Heero into his arms and rocked him, while sitting on the bed, stroking his hair.
Heero started to stir, just as Duo got tired and was about to fall asleep. Duo snapped to attention. "Heero?" Duo asked. Heero looked at him confusedly. "I know you said you were Death, but I didn't think it were really true. At least.....I'm supposed to be dead." Heero said. "Why, Heero? Why do you wanna die? You're not dead, but why do you want to be?" Duo asked. "Because, my purpose is gone. I haven't a purpose now that I can't fight, I have no purpose and I'm not supposed to have emotions and I do. I just don't know what to do with them and they've already started aching. Dr. J was right. Emotions do hurt and they are bad." Heero said. "No, Heero. Emotions are good for you. Sure, they hurt sometimes, but the pain eventually goes away. It doesn't seem like it ever will at the time, but it does. Certain emotions just take longer." Duo said. "But, I don't know what these emotions are, because I'm not supposed to have them and if I'm not supposed to have them I didn't need to know them. No one ever talked to me about anything, it was just train, train, train, and then off to Operation Meteor. I'm a machine and that's all I'll ever be." Heero said. "You're wrong Heero. You're not a machine and you're supposed to have emotions, why else would you have the ability to feel them if you weren't supposed to have them?" Duo asked. "There is no answer to that." Heero said. "Yes, there is. You were wrong, Heero." Duo said. Heero brought his arms up to return Duo's embrace. "Heero, I know you're probably really confused right now, but you should try to get some rest. I promise I wont leave. I'll stay right here with you and take care of you until you're 100% better." Duo said, cheerfully.
Part 1: Discovery
By: Fantasim Soldier
Anime series: Gundam Wing
Romance/drama
Not a lemon or a lime
Yaoi: Heero and Duo
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of it's characters. The only characters that are mine are the ones that do not belong to or in Gundam Wing.
Duo knocked on the door to Heero's house. No answer. His car was there and people had said that Heero hadn't come out of his house that day. Duo got scared, what if he was right and that 'goodbye' was meant to be final? Duo quickly tried to pick the lock, but for some reason it wouldn't work. Heero must have done something to that lock himself, but what, Duo didn't know. Finally he just started ramming it. Figuring that if Heero was in the house and able, he would open the door, rather than have it busted down. Duo got the door open on the third ram, by using all of his weight and strength. He'd ended up almost falling on his face, but he managed to not fall and ran around the house, yelling for Heero.
Duo came to a certain part of the house and when he ran by a door he'd heard something. It was running water. Duo opened the door and went inside the room. It was Heero's bedroom. He walked to the door he heard it from. He stepped close to the door, preparing to knock in case Heero'd been taking a shower or a bath or something and hadn't heard the sounds of the door being knocked on or rammed in, because the bedroom was at the end of the house and upstairs at that. Duo heard a sound when he stepped on the carpet next to the door. Sort of like a smack. Duo looked down and saw that the floor was completely drenched by the door and steadily increasing. "Shit!" Duo yelled, fearing the worst. He turned the knob. It was open. The light was on and the shower curtain drawn. Duo whipped it back, hoping that Heero had just been relaxing in the tub and hadn't noticed the water running over or anything like that. It might have been embarrassing for Duo and maybe Heero as well, but at least Heero would be alive to BE embarrassed! No such luck. Duo saw Heero laying down in the tub, the tub full of water. Heero was completely submersed in the water and wasn't moving. Heero's hair and shirt moved with the water, but nothing else. Duo didn't have time to take real close inspection of Heero. He jerked Heero up out of the water. Heero wasn't breathing.
"Shit! Please, don't leave me, now! I thought you said I was your friend?! How could you do this to me if I was such a good friend?!" Duo asked aloud, not really angry with Heero, just scared that he might have been too late. He checked Heero's pulse. A very, very faint pulse was there, but a pulse none the least. That was good. Duo knew how to take care of something like this without doctors or medical staff of any kind. He was trained in case it were necessary for him to revive someone and keep them healthy until he got whatever he wanted or they could fight again, assuming, that is, that they were Gundam pilots and needed to live. A drowning could occur at anytime and he had to know this.
Once Duo got Heero breathing again to where he was just 'sleeping', now. He was really still passed out, but Duo was confident that he got there in time, so Heero didn't go into a coma or something. He changed Heero out of the cold clothes.
"Sheeze, I gotta undress him now." Duo thought, blushing a little. He went to Heero's closet and looked around. He didn't find anything that would be suited for just sleep and he wasn't sure if Heero even had any pajamas. He looked in Heero's dresser drawers. He'd found what he wanted. A pair of socks, a pajama top and bottom that matched and went together, and some boxer shorts. He took off Heero's wet socks first and dried his feet off with a towel, being careful not to be too rough. He didn't know, really, how to do this to anyone, but himself. Dress them, anyway and dry them off. He didn't want to be too rough and hurt Heero. He might not wake him up, but he still didn't want to hurt Heero. He put the socks on his feet and took his pants off next, then his shirt. Duo readied the boxers so he could get them fast. He took Heero's wet ones off, trying not to look, but it was impossible, when he had to dry him off, otherwise the new clothes wouldn't be worth a damn, they'd just get wet. Duo decided that Heero wasn't awake to catch him staring, so he decided to look. He wouldn't be at peace until he did. He was beginning to think he really was a pervert. 'Well, at least I'm not touching it.' Duo thought to himself. He shook his head to get those naughty thoughts out of his head and slipped the new boxers onto Heero, then the pajama bottoms and top. Duo dried Heero's hair carefully and gently.
He didn't know why, but he just wanted to hold Heero. Heero had almost died and Duo didn't think that it was accidental that Heero ended up laying down in a bathtub full of water, with the tub overflowing and still fully clothed. He'd almost lost Heero back there. He sighed and took Heero into his arms and rocked him, while sitting on the bed, stroking his hair.
Heero started to stir, just as Duo got tired and was about to fall asleep. Duo snapped to attention. "Heero?" Duo asked. Heero looked at him confusedly. "I know you said you were Death, but I didn't think it were really true. At least.....I'm supposed to be dead." Heero said. "Why, Heero? Why do you wanna die? You're not dead, but why do you want to be?" Duo asked. "Because, my purpose is gone. I haven't a purpose now that I can't fight, I have no purpose and I'm not supposed to have emotions and I do. I just don't know what to do with them and they've already started aching. Dr. J was right. Emotions do hurt and they are bad." Heero said. "No, Heero. Emotions are good for you. Sure, they hurt sometimes, but the pain eventually goes away. It doesn't seem like it ever will at the time, but it does. Certain emotions just take longer." Duo said. "But, I don't know what these emotions are, because I'm not supposed to have them and if I'm not supposed to have them I didn't need to know them. No one ever talked to me about anything, it was just train, train, train, and then off to Operation Meteor. I'm a machine and that's all I'll ever be." Heero said. "You're wrong Heero. You're not a machine and you're supposed to have emotions, why else would you have the ability to feel them if you weren't supposed to have them?" Duo asked. "There is no answer to that." Heero said. "Yes, there is. You were wrong, Heero." Duo said. Heero brought his arms up to return Duo's embrace. "Heero, I know you're probably really confused right now, but you should try to get some rest. I promise I wont leave. I'll stay right here with you and take care of you until you're 100% better." Duo said, cheerfully.