JOURNAL OF A PADAWAN
Day 1, 3:45 am
I can't sleep at all. I finally have a master! His name is Qui-Gon Jinn. Thank goodness I was able to get a master before my thirteenth birthday, which is soon. But, I heard that his last padawan went to the dark side. Will the same thing happen to my if I am Qui-Gon's new padawan? I hope not......
Day 3, 7:43 pm
Sorry I didn't write yesterday. I couldn't. I was too tired from my training to write at any hour of the day. There probably will be more days that I can't write at all. But, at least I have a master.
Well, yesterday Qui-Gon taught me how to control my anger. Funny that I have to learn how to control my anger when my master still does not control his. All I did was ask him how his night was at the Temple and he yelled at me. Then he stomped out of the room. I swear he is worse than me! A few hours later, Qui-Gon started my real training, first teaching me how to control my anger. I didn't say anything to him about earlier. I just did as he said.
Today was a little better. At least Qui-Gon didn't get mad at me. I showed him my fighting skills. He challenged me to a spar. He won, of course. But, at least he smiled some.
Day 4, 12:23 pm
Lunch time. I am writing at the table, with Qui-Gon standing at the far edge of the room. I think he is looking for Master Yoda. I am not sure. I really don't care. Qui-Gon doesn't trust me at all. How can you have a padawan and not trust him or her? He is not a good master then, if he can not trust anyone. I think it is because of what happened to his last padawan. I won't let him down at all. I will be the best padawan that he will ever have.
3:48 pm
Things went more smoothly then they did the day I started my training. I managed to beat Qui-Gon at sparing, but just barely. I think, no, I know, that he was surprised at that. He told me that he was proud at my accomplishment and walked away. He is now outside the Temple, alone as usual. I wonder......
12:13 am
I believe that my master now trusts me. I went outside to see what was wrong with Qui-Gon. He had eyes closed, not moving. He knew I was there.
"Why do you want to be my padawan?" He had asked me, opening his eyes and looking straight at me.
"I don't know......I have no answer for that yet." I told him, being sincere. "Why do you want to be my master? There are other's who would want to train under you. Why me?"
" You cried out for help. No one answered you till it was almost too late." Qui-Gon informed me. "I came here, because I had to. I heard that cry, but I ignored it, having a feeling what would have happened to you. But, I couldn't take it any longer and chose you as my padawan."
"I am glad that you did, Master." I whispered, smiling softly.
"I am too. I see that you are much more loyal. You are strong in the force and I know you will use it for the Light Side. Not like my last padawan......" He mused, turning his head away from me once again. I knew at that time that he started to trust me, even though he still felt the pain from his last padawan.
Day 6, 11:31 pm
We are now leaving the temple. Today, Qui-Gon had my hair cut like a padawans, but I have a short braid on one side. As time goes on, my braid will get longer. Qui-Gon said that it shows how long I have been a padawan. He hopes my braid will be long when I become a Jedi. I hope so to.
We are headed for the planet of Hoth. There we will meet up with other Jedi's. Qui-Gon said that there is something hidden there. He believes that it was from the Sith, who died out many years ago. It might be a clue as to what they were hiding from the ancient Jedi's. I really do not know. When we get there, I will write more if I am not too busy helping my Master.
Day 8, 4:23 pm
Even though it is early in the afternoon, I am tired. I haven't gotten much sleep lately. No one has. Once we landed on Hoth, we met up with Masters Mace Windu and Ki-Adi-Mundi. My master said that Hoth was a cold planet, but I didn't know how cold until I stepped outside the ship. I wanted to run back inside and stay under the covers of my bed, but Qui-Gon wouldn't let me. The Jedi Masters talked while I walked behind them, cold as anything. We started for the Republic's base, but we had to turn around and board our ships. Now I can get under the covers and stay there!
Day 9, 7:00 am
It is early, I know. Qui-Gon wanted to start my training this early since we probably won't have time to do so later on. Well, I will write more later. Promise.
11:26 am
I have finished my training exercises for now. My master and the other Jedi's have gone searching for that Sith thing that they were talking about. Qui-Gon wanted me to stay behind and watch the ship. Master Mace Windu said something may happen. If something did happen, Qui-Gon could radio for me to help. I don't mind staying on the ship just as long as I don't have to go outside in the freezing cold.
Well, my training went great today. Qui-Gon taught me how to push things out of the way using the force. He showed me how by pushing the table past me. I tried it on a small box. I moved it slightly, but not far. It was a start, for now. I am going to practice a little while, then I am going to take a nap if the other Jedi's don't come back before I finish my practicing.
Day 11, 3:37 pm
Well, I have improved on my "pushing" skills. I now can nearly knock Qui-Gon over with the force, but can't do that yet. Besides my training, my master and I am leaving this planet. No one has found whatever they were looking for. I wanted to help, but Master Ki-Adi-Mundi said it was too early in my training. I didn't know what that meant. I didn't want to ask Qui-Gon about it, so I didn't say anything. I must go. My master needs my help with piloting this ship. I will write some more later.
8:49 pm
Now we are in space, which seems colder than Hoth! Qui-Gon wanted me to do some more training while we are on our way to some other planet. He set a laser ball in front of me. It bobbed in the air while it threw laser beams out at me. I hit about ten of them, must missed a few. Then, my master put a helmet over my head so I could not see.
"What is the purpose of this helmet?" I had asked him once he put it on my head.
"You have to learn how to use the force much better. You can not always rely on your senses." Qui-Gon replied. I found out how much harder it was not to use my eyes. It took me a few times before I finally hit a laser beam. I used the force in detecting them. I believe I have a better understanding of the force than I did when I started my training. I also have a better understanding of my master. I learned from Mace that Qui-Gon had a love. I asked the other Jedi Master about her, but he didn't say much more. I learned that she was a Jedi as well. He had loved her a lot. She died when she was on a mission to Tatooine. Qui-Gon was deeply hurt by this, but he recovered from it. At least, I think he did. I asked my master about it. He did not say anything to me at first. But, today, he did. He said that she was the most beautiful Jedi that he had met. She was kind and sweet. When he had learned of her death, Qui-Gon informed me, he didn't want to live anymore. My master did not eat or sleep for days at a time. Finally, he just got over it one day. I don't understand why he said he "got over it one day". Maybe it is just him. I don't know.
Day 12, 6:56 am
We are going to Endor. I wonder why. Neither Qui-Gon or me know how to speak the language of the Ewoks. I asked my master why that is so. All he said was that he wanted to train me in different places. He seems so different from the day I met him. Qui-Gon is more human like now that he trusts me more than he did when I first became his padawan. Yet, there has to be more to him than what I know now. One day I will find out more about my master. For now, I need to get more sleep. Qui-Gon is going to be training me hard in the next few weeks. Then, we are going back to the Temple.
Day 14, 7:12 pm
We arrived at Endor yesterday. Qui-Gon is mediating at this time. Thank goodness. When we arrived, he had me do more sabre techniques. It was hard, but I managed to get through it. Then, we worked on Force Pushing more. I believe I am getting better at that. Qui-Gon says that I am learning well for starting out. Well, I must go for now. Qui-Gon wants me to mediate as well.