Remember the Past, Don't Live It Part 2
*@----}----{----@* Mimi's House and P.O.V.
"Matt?" I asked in a soft, high pitch voice. I sat up and began to crawl off my bed. I unwillingly left my soft blanket's comfort and towards the cold, dark corner. I stood upright in my silky nightgown which was a little above my knees. I lit one of my scented candles and took it and began to walk over to the dark corner. When I got there, I lifted the candle a little higher. Tears well up as I saw the beautiful face smiling back down on me.
"It's been a while." Matt whispered softly. I put the candle on top of the drawer near us and covered my mouth with my hands as I began to sob softly.
"It IS you. Oh Matt, I've missed you so much. You have no idea." I managed to say between sobs. He reached out his hand to put on my shoulder, but then shrank back. I looked back up and stared into his eyes.
"I-I'm sorry Mimi. I-I just can't." He whispered softly as he looked away. "It's just that you and... Tai..." I gasped softly at the mention of Tai's name. Why did he have to bring him up?
"W-What about me and Tai?" I asked him. I could feel the shiver of pleasure I used to feel when I was with Matt. It was so long ago but I still remember that feeling so well. But something deep down inside my heart has changed. Like less of me is devoted to him now. But that's not possible, is it?
"Mimi, you don't have to lie to me. I know you have a crush on him. And I really don't want to put any pressure on you..." he whispered. There was pain in his voice and it stabbed me in the heart just hearing it. Me and Tai? Well, I do think that he's cute and all, but I really don't think that even if we had a relationship, it would never replace the important place that Matt holds in my heart.
I reached my hand out to cup his face. Much to my surprise, I could feel him. I held his face closer so our foreheads touched and I stared into his eyes. "Matt Ishida, I love you. And I will always love you." A faint smile appeared on her face and disappeared as quickly as it came.
He took my hands in his and released it as it fell to my side again. I stared at him, waiting for what he's about to say. "I'm just so sorry, but I still can't..." He whispered. "I just can't stand the thought that my best friend is my ex-girlfriend's love interest. Good bye, Mimi." Then, just as suddenly as he came, he disappeared. Hot tears ran down my stiff cold cheeks as I stood there. I staggered a little and held onto the top of my drawer for support. But still, I fell to the ground, crying hysterically. I could tell I've hurt Matt so much. The hurt in his eyes were like knives stabbing at my heart. The darkness which surrounded me made me feel more alone than I've ever felt in my life...
*@----}----{----@* A dark alley
"Well? How did it go with you and Mimi, Matt?" a feminine voice asked softly.
"Huh? I'm sorry? I just couldn't hear you, Sora." Matt said as he snapped back into reality.
"Stop spacing out, Ishida. This is important. They've betrayed us. Now they have to get their punishment." Sora scolded coldly. Her eyes glared at Matt as he sat there, thinking.
"Sora... do you think we're doing the right thing? I mean, we are dead and there's no reason why they shouldn't date other people. And plus, Mimi's eyes looked so sad." Matt whispered softly as a headache strike by his deep thoughts.
"What are you saying? Of course we're doing the right thing! I'm not saying they can't see other people, but each other? I don't think so! And in case you've forgotten, Mimi took acting lessons before. She knows exactly how to get to someone like you." She yelled.
"Yea..." Matt whispered. He said that just so that she'd leave him alone though. He wouldn't be able to stand anymore of her constant yelling. He needed time to think.
*@----}----{----@* Next day at school, Tai's P.O.V.
I saw Mimi walking drearily into the classroom and knew immediately that something was wrong. It was so obvious, especially if you knew her as well as I did. Her hair wasn't in place, she looked at the ground while she walked, and her clothes were a mess. I walked up to her at the end of class.
"It's something wrong, Mimi?" I asked with concern. Then suddenly, she looked up and our eyes locked. Something seemed so mysterious and sad hid in her eyes. Then, her whole expression seemed shocking.
"T-Tai!" she said loudly. Just then, she dropped all her books. We both bent down to pick them up and a blushed a little and looked over at her when our hands touched. It's now or never... I reached my hand out for hers but she quickly shrank back and looked down at her books again and quickly gathered them in her arms. Then, without saying anything, she turned quickly without saying goodbye. I just stood there, gazing after her. Something was definitely wrong and I was determined to find out.
*@----}----{----@* Mimi's P.O.V.
I ran through the busy halls of Odaiba High. I tried my best not to let my tears spill out, but a few drops fell out involuntarily. I shoved my way through the crowd as everyone crowded around their lockers, chatting with friends. I used to be able to do that with Sora, Matt, and Tai, but now they- they're gone.
The end of the day always has been the busiest time of the day. The last bell rang a few minutes ago when I was still with Tai. I finally reached my destination when I rushed into the girl's gym locker room. That's the only place I could get some privacy, especially after school. See, being the captain of the cheerleading team comes with a little office in the locker room where it's all to yourself.
I burst into my little room and dropped my books on top of the little nightstand type of thing. I threw myself onto the long, wooden bench and weeped openly. The pain that I felt was ripping at my heart, tearing it into pieces. I sat upright again and held one knee to my chest. I rested my forehead on the top of my knee as I could feel my shoulders go up with every heartbreaking sob. Tears ran down and dropped to my clothes as I faced down.
Why does everything have to be like this? It's not fair! My first true love comes back to tell me that he's brokenhearted with my new emotions for his best friend. The worst part is the fact that even though he's dead, he still looks over me carefully, which makes me feel so terribly guilty. Also, my best friend ever who's past away probably thinks that I'm going out with her boyfriend behind her back. She must feel so betrayed... So now I have to hide all my emotions until they all go away, but how long would that take?
*@----}----{----@* Mimi's House and P.O.V.
"Matt?" I asked in a soft, high pitch voice. I sat up and began to crawl off my bed. I unwillingly left my soft blanket's comfort and towards the cold, dark corner. I stood upright in my silky nightgown which was a little above my knees. I lit one of my scented candles and took it and began to walk over to the dark corner. When I got there, I lifted the candle a little higher. Tears well up as I saw the beautiful face smiling back down on me.
"It's been a while." Matt whispered softly. I put the candle on top of the drawer near us and covered my mouth with my hands as I began to sob softly.
"It IS you. Oh Matt, I've missed you so much. You have no idea." I managed to say between sobs. He reached out his hand to put on my shoulder, but then shrank back. I looked back up and stared into his eyes.
"I-I'm sorry Mimi. I-I just can't." He whispered softly as he looked away. "It's just that you and... Tai..." I gasped softly at the mention of Tai's name. Why did he have to bring him up?
"W-What about me and Tai?" I asked him. I could feel the shiver of pleasure I used to feel when I was with Matt. It was so long ago but I still remember that feeling so well. But something deep down inside my heart has changed. Like less of me is devoted to him now. But that's not possible, is it?
"Mimi, you don't have to lie to me. I know you have a crush on him. And I really don't want to put any pressure on you..." he whispered. There was pain in his voice and it stabbed me in the heart just hearing it. Me and Tai? Well, I do think that he's cute and all, but I really don't think that even if we had a relationship, it would never replace the important place that Matt holds in my heart.
I reached my hand out to cup his face. Much to my surprise, I could feel him. I held his face closer so our foreheads touched and I stared into his eyes. "Matt Ishida, I love you. And I will always love you." A faint smile appeared on her face and disappeared as quickly as it came.
He took my hands in his and released it as it fell to my side again. I stared at him, waiting for what he's about to say. "I'm just so sorry, but I still can't..." He whispered. "I just can't stand the thought that my best friend is my ex-girlfriend's love interest. Good bye, Mimi." Then, just as suddenly as he came, he disappeared. Hot tears ran down my stiff cold cheeks as I stood there. I staggered a little and held onto the top of my drawer for support. But still, I fell to the ground, crying hysterically. I could tell I've hurt Matt so much. The hurt in his eyes were like knives stabbing at my heart. The darkness which surrounded me made me feel more alone than I've ever felt in my life...
*@----}----{----@* A dark alley
"Well? How did it go with you and Mimi, Matt?" a feminine voice asked softly.
"Huh? I'm sorry? I just couldn't hear you, Sora." Matt said as he snapped back into reality.
"Stop spacing out, Ishida. This is important. They've betrayed us. Now they have to get their punishment." Sora scolded coldly. Her eyes glared at Matt as he sat there, thinking.
"Sora... do you think we're doing the right thing? I mean, we are dead and there's no reason why they shouldn't date other people. And plus, Mimi's eyes looked so sad." Matt whispered softly as a headache strike by his deep thoughts.
"What are you saying? Of course we're doing the right thing! I'm not saying they can't see other people, but each other? I don't think so! And in case you've forgotten, Mimi took acting lessons before. She knows exactly how to get to someone like you." She yelled.
"Yea..." Matt whispered. He said that just so that she'd leave him alone though. He wouldn't be able to stand anymore of her constant yelling. He needed time to think.
*@----}----{----@* Next day at school, Tai's P.O.V.
I saw Mimi walking drearily into the classroom and knew immediately that something was wrong. It was so obvious, especially if you knew her as well as I did. Her hair wasn't in place, she looked at the ground while she walked, and her clothes were a mess. I walked up to her at the end of class.
"It's something wrong, Mimi?" I asked with concern. Then suddenly, she looked up and our eyes locked. Something seemed so mysterious and sad hid in her eyes. Then, her whole expression seemed shocking.
"T-Tai!" she said loudly. Just then, she dropped all her books. We both bent down to pick them up and a blushed a little and looked over at her when our hands touched. It's now or never... I reached my hand out for hers but she quickly shrank back and looked down at her books again and quickly gathered them in her arms. Then, without saying anything, she turned quickly without saying goodbye. I just stood there, gazing after her. Something was definitely wrong and I was determined to find out.
*@----}----{----@* Mimi's P.O.V.
I ran through the busy halls of Odaiba High. I tried my best not to let my tears spill out, but a few drops fell out involuntarily. I shoved my way through the crowd as everyone crowded around their lockers, chatting with friends. I used to be able to do that with Sora, Matt, and Tai, but now they- they're gone.
The end of the day always has been the busiest time of the day. The last bell rang a few minutes ago when I was still with Tai. I finally reached my destination when I rushed into the girl's gym locker room. That's the only place I could get some privacy, especially after school. See, being the captain of the cheerleading team comes with a little office in the locker room where it's all to yourself.
I burst into my little room and dropped my books on top of the little nightstand type of thing. I threw myself onto the long, wooden bench and weeped openly. The pain that I felt was ripping at my heart, tearing it into pieces. I sat upright again and held one knee to my chest. I rested my forehead on the top of my knee as I could feel my shoulders go up with every heartbreaking sob. Tears ran down and dropped to my clothes as I faced down.
Why does everything have to be like this? It's not fair! My first true love comes back to tell me that he's brokenhearted with my new emotions for his best friend. The worst part is the fact that even though he's dead, he still looks over me carefully, which makes me feel so terribly guilty. Also, my best friend ever who's past away probably thinks that I'm going out with her boyfriend behind her back. She must feel so betrayed... So now I have to hide all my emotions until they all go away, but how long would that take?