Remember the Past, Don't Live it Part 3
*@----}----{----@* Mimi's P.O.V. (her room)
It's been months now since I've started ignoring Tai. Matt and I talk once in a while, that is, whenever he can. He always tells me that I don't have to do it if I don't want to, but I just feel so guilty towards Matt and Sora. I've been waiting everyday now. Hoping that one day when I wake up to a bright morning, the first thing on my mind would be wishing that I could be with Matt, not Tai. No one knows that something's wrong. Even though I don't hang out with Tai anymore and I rarely laugh, no one really notice. But for some reason, now I'm much more popular. It's funny, when you run away and wish to be left alone, everyone comes running at you.
Well, one thing is for certain, my teachers sure love me more. For one, I pay more attention and I have much more time to study now that I don't hang out with people much, I'm practically a straight-a student, pretty rare for me. Cheerleading is going along pretty well. I'm still the captain of the team and I have much more time to think of new cheers. So right now, we're the national champion. Oh joy¼
Well, there is one bad thing about being the captain of the cheerleading team- everyone thinks that I should go out with Tai, the captain of the soccer team. Everyday I hear it. It doesn't exactly help my situation. Everyone thinks that my life is perfect and people actually wish they could be me, wrong choice. It's just like Britney Spears' song, Lucky. So in other words, I'm a pretty messed up teenage girl.
There's only one thing I look forward to everyday. That is to see Matt and be able to talk to him every night like we used to. It's the only thing that reminds me of the times when my life really was perfect. He's like the big brother I never had, nothing more though. I used to remember everything so clearly, the times we spent together, all the emotions I felt when we're together. But now, all I have are bits and shattered pieces of memory. Even though I try my best to grasp onto everything, I just can't.
I looked at my clock again. Ten-thirty. He's going to be here soon. Right then, a gust of wind that sent chills up my spine rushed into the room. Quickly, I ran over out usual meeting place. The only place we could be alone with no interruptions what-so-ever. Believe it or not, my closet is practically as big as my room. That's what you get when you have parents whom go all over the world buying clothes for you instead of being there for you.
"Matt?" I whispered out, my voice quivering.
"Mimi¼" a soft voice said from behind and I quickly turned around. There he was, looking the same as he did for the last couple of months. He began to walk over to where I was standing and I sat down on a chest near by. He came over and took my hand as he sat down. He stared at me for a while until he finally broke the silence. "Mimi, have you been crying again?" He touched my cheek gently as he traced my tearstains. I shook my head slightly, hoping he won't notice. But, as always, he saw right through me. He hugged me and I leaned my head against his shoulder, sobbing. "Do you want to tell me what's wrong?" I couldn't speak, I just sat there and cried, pouring all my sorrow out if it's possible. He seemed a little hesitant and stiff the whole time. And after a while I pulled away.
I wiped my tears with the back of my hands and he just stared at me. For the first time in a year, he kissed me. The bad part? I didn't feel a thing. It's over, and we both know it. "Wait, I have something for you." I said as I got up and went to the other side of the closet. After rummaging through a pile of clothes for a while, I finally found what I was looking for.
I went back and sat down and placed the guitar on my lap. I put my fingers in the correct places and he watched me with confusion. That look almost made me laugh. I remember when he tried to teach me guitar and finally gave up since I was doing so horribly. "I wrote this song recently¼ for you."
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
I opened my eyes and we stared at each other. I could feel fresh, hot tears running down my face as we stared at each other. Then, he held out his hands and pulled my head close to him and hugged me. He placed his chin on the top of my head as I rested my head on his chest. He gently patted my back and the back of my I haven't felt this comforted, together, and safe in a while. We stayed like that for a long time¼
*@----}----{----@* Tai's P.O.V. (Tai's room)
How do I feel right now? Horrible. Mimi's been giving me the silent treatment for months! It's worse than any torture we've faced in the digital world. But even worst, I know she's hurting and I know that I can't save her from all this pain¼ I can't...
"So, Tai, my dear. Have I proven my point? Now do you believe that I can make your life miserable as hell?" A devious voice came from the dark corner which sent chills up my back. I saw her face again and right then and there I wanted to hurt her.
"What do you want from me, Sora?" I yelled. I just can't take it anymore. I'll go insane, out of my mind if I don't find out what she wants.
She walked over towards me and circled me for a few minutes, looking me up and down. Then, she hissed in my face, "You know what I want, Tai."
"Look, if I knew, then I wouldn't be standing here asking you, would I?" I replied, getting a little paranoid. Her eyes immediately turned angry.
"Don't you dare talk to me like that!" She snapped as she stared straight into my eyes. She's... not Sora anymore, I realized. Not the girl that I used to adore and love, the girl whom I wished to spend every breathing moment with, the girl who's eyes shone with emotion and generosity. But this girl is a complete stranger. Her eyes are empty and emotionless.
"Just what the hell do you want?" I whispered, worn out. I sat on my bed and rested my head a little on my palm.
"I want you to stay away from Tachikawa!" She snapped quickly. It hit me like a slap across the face.
"What? Now you've gone too far. I- I can't stay away from her. She needs me now." I replied sadly. I didn't add this but, secretly, I needed her too.
"She doesn't need YOU, Kamiya! Who the hell do you think you are? Mr. Fix-it? What Mimi needs is her boyfriend, Matt, not her best friend's boyfriend! Face it, Tai. She doesn't need you AND she doesn't want you." Sora yelled.
"Well, we'll see about that, won't we?"
*@----}----{----@* Mimi's P.O.V. (her room)
It's been months now since I've started ignoring Tai. Matt and I talk once in a while, that is, whenever he can. He always tells me that I don't have to do it if I don't want to, but I just feel so guilty towards Matt and Sora. I've been waiting everyday now. Hoping that one day when I wake up to a bright morning, the first thing on my mind would be wishing that I could be with Matt, not Tai. No one knows that something's wrong. Even though I don't hang out with Tai anymore and I rarely laugh, no one really notice. But for some reason, now I'm much more popular. It's funny, when you run away and wish to be left alone, everyone comes running at you.
Well, one thing is for certain, my teachers sure love me more. For one, I pay more attention and I have much more time to study now that I don't hang out with people much, I'm practically a straight-a student, pretty rare for me. Cheerleading is going along pretty well. I'm still the captain of the team and I have much more time to think of new cheers. So right now, we're the national champion. Oh joy¼
Well, there is one bad thing about being the captain of the cheerleading team- everyone thinks that I should go out with Tai, the captain of the soccer team. Everyday I hear it. It doesn't exactly help my situation. Everyone thinks that my life is perfect and people actually wish they could be me, wrong choice. It's just like Britney Spears' song, Lucky. So in other words, I'm a pretty messed up teenage girl.
There's only one thing I look forward to everyday. That is to see Matt and be able to talk to him every night like we used to. It's the only thing that reminds me of the times when my life really was perfect. He's like the big brother I never had, nothing more though. I used to remember everything so clearly, the times we spent together, all the emotions I felt when we're together. But now, all I have are bits and shattered pieces of memory. Even though I try my best to grasp onto everything, I just can't.
I looked at my clock again. Ten-thirty. He's going to be here soon. Right then, a gust of wind that sent chills up my spine rushed into the room. Quickly, I ran over out usual meeting place. The only place we could be alone with no interruptions what-so-ever. Believe it or not, my closet is practically as big as my room. That's what you get when you have parents whom go all over the world buying clothes for you instead of being there for you.
"Matt?" I whispered out, my voice quivering.
"Mimi¼" a soft voice said from behind and I quickly turned around. There he was, looking the same as he did for the last couple of months. He began to walk over to where I was standing and I sat down on a chest near by. He came over and took my hand as he sat down. He stared at me for a while until he finally broke the silence. "Mimi, have you been crying again?" He touched my cheek gently as he traced my tearstains. I shook my head slightly, hoping he won't notice. But, as always, he saw right through me. He hugged me and I leaned my head against his shoulder, sobbing. "Do you want to tell me what's wrong?" I couldn't speak, I just sat there and cried, pouring all my sorrow out if it's possible. He seemed a little hesitant and stiff the whole time. And after a while I pulled away.
I wiped my tears with the back of my hands and he just stared at me. For the first time in a year, he kissed me. The bad part? I didn't feel a thing. It's over, and we both know it. "Wait, I have something for you." I said as I got up and went to the other side of the closet. After rummaging through a pile of clothes for a while, I finally found what I was looking for.
I went back and sat down and placed the guitar on my lap. I put my fingers in the correct places and he watched me with confusion. That look almost made me laugh. I remember when he tried to teach me guitar and finally gave up since I was doing so horribly. "I wrote this song recently¼ for you."
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
I opened my eyes and we stared at each other. I could feel fresh, hot tears running down my face as we stared at each other. Then, he held out his hands and pulled my head close to him and hugged me. He placed his chin on the top of my head as I rested my head on his chest. He gently patted my back and the back of my I haven't felt this comforted, together, and safe in a while. We stayed like that for a long time¼
*@----}----{----@* Tai's P.O.V. (Tai's room)
How do I feel right now? Horrible. Mimi's been giving me the silent treatment for months! It's worse than any torture we've faced in the digital world. But even worst, I know she's hurting and I know that I can't save her from all this pain¼ I can't...
"So, Tai, my dear. Have I proven my point? Now do you believe that I can make your life miserable as hell?" A devious voice came from the dark corner which sent chills up my back. I saw her face again and right then and there I wanted to hurt her.
"What do you want from me, Sora?" I yelled. I just can't take it anymore. I'll go insane, out of my mind if I don't find out what she wants.
She walked over towards me and circled me for a few minutes, looking me up and down. Then, she hissed in my face, "You know what I want, Tai."
"Look, if I knew, then I wouldn't be standing here asking you, would I?" I replied, getting a little paranoid. Her eyes immediately turned angry.
"Don't you dare talk to me like that!" She snapped as she stared straight into my eyes. She's... not Sora anymore, I realized. Not the girl that I used to adore and love, the girl whom I wished to spend every breathing moment with, the girl who's eyes shone with emotion and generosity. But this girl is a complete stranger. Her eyes are empty and emotionless.
"Just what the hell do you want?" I whispered, worn out. I sat on my bed and rested my head a little on my palm.
"I want you to stay away from Tachikawa!" She snapped quickly. It hit me like a slap across the face.
"What? Now you've gone too far. I- I can't stay away from her. She needs me now." I replied sadly. I didn't add this but, secretly, I needed her too.
"She doesn't need YOU, Kamiya! Who the hell do you think you are? Mr. Fix-it? What Mimi needs is her boyfriend, Matt, not her best friend's boyfriend! Face it, Tai. She doesn't need you AND she doesn't want you." Sora yelled.
"Well, we'll see about that, won't we?"