Trust Your Heart and Follow it's Guide: Part 3
I couldn't stand it anymore. I had to know! Either that or I'd go insane. I grabbed him on both arms with both of my hands and asked as tears began to swell in my eyes, "Why, Matt? Why was it over? I have to know!" I grabbed on to his shirt hard and began to shake him violently. When I realized what I was doing, I slowly let go of my grip and let my hand slide back to my sides.
"Mimi, I........I" he said as he held my hands. They were warm and reassuring. He closed his eyes and shook his head. Then I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. They just spilled out uncontrollably. I think that it hurts him to see me cry just like it hurts me to see his tears. For he looked away.
Then I became furious! "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? OVER THE PAST FEW DAYS, I WAS SO MISERABLE BECAUSE YOU DUMPED ME. NOW YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY YOU BROKE UP WITH ME?" As you can see, I completely lost self control.
"I-I wanted you to be happy Mimi." he replied softly. At least it seemed soft compared to my yelling.
I was completely puzzled. "Happy? You call crying to sleep for six nights straight happy? What kind of person are you?" I was a little softer now. My cries turned into sobs. I covered my face with my hands. I didn't want him to see my face. I didn't want to see his either.
Softly, he said, "Mimi, I-I know that you like Anthony. Scarlet told me everything. She.....she said that I was holding you back. She said that I was tearing you apart between me and Anthony. And the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you...." I could hear his voice break. When I looked up, I saw tears that were being held back.
"Anthony who? What was Scarlet talking about? The only one I'd ever loved was you. Can't you see that?" I said to him. I had tears in my eyes but I was really happy. That's because I realized that he really loved me. He'd rather sacrifice himself than hurt me.
"But why would Scarlet lie? And also she gave me this note that you wrote to Anthony." He said as he took out a piece of paper from his pocket and handed it to me.
My eyes widened as I read the note. "MATT! I DID write this note!" Right then, he looked really depressed. "But I....I addressed it to you. Someone changed your name to Anthony! Look, there's white out marks there!" When he looked at it, his eyes sparkled with happiness. Then I gasped as I realized something.
"What's wrong?" he asked, turning his gaze from the note to me.
"Scarlet has a crush on you! I remember how she used to tell me that I was so lucky."
"Mimi Tachikawa, would I have the honor to go out with you again?" He was on his knees. Isn't that soooo sweet? That's Matt for you.
He had his puppy look and I can't possibly refuse. He looked so funny I began to giggle. Finally I nodded with the largest grin on my face. Then he got up, lifted me up by the waist, and began twirling around in circles. The whole time, our eyes were locked together. Finally, we had to leave. We said our good-byes and headed different ways. He promised that he'd go to the show choir tryouts to boost my confidence. I was so glad that he was back.......
After I got home, I was way too excited to sleep. It was four in the morning and I had nothing to do. So I decided to call Sora. I know it's a little absurd, but I couldn't find anything to do. And plus, I got her a phone and a phone line for her birthday this year, so it won't wake her parents up.
As I dialed the number to her house, something struck me. What if I mess up tomorrow? What if I fell.....or.......or if my voice broke? Oh my God, what am I going to do? The phone was ringing and finally a sleepy Sora answered, "Hello? Who is it?"
"Hi, Sora? It's Mimi! Oh my gosh, you won't believe what happened!" I said excitedly.
"Whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. I mean, it's four o'clock in the morning." Sora murmured in her sleepy tone.
"MATT AND I ARE BACK TOGETHER!!!!" I almost yelled. I could tell now that she'd completely woke up and I guessed that she sat up because of the static.
"Oh My God! When did this happen?" she asked almost as excited as I was.
I told her the story and then told her my new problem. She thought about it for a while and said, "Mimi, a few months ago, someone wise told me to play for the love of the game." I knew she was indicating me. She continued, "Mimi, you are the best dancer and singer I've ever known. You know why? That's because you sang and danced from your heart. Mimi, just trust your heart and the path that it gives you. When have your heart ever betrayed you?" I thought about it and I realized that every time I listen to my heart, my soul, I always seemed to be right.
"Never..." I muttered.
"Exactly. I mean, if your heart didn't lead you to the gym tonight, you would've had to go another night of crying yourself to sleep. Just do whatever your heart tells you to do. Trust it. Trust your heart and follow it's guide. That's my word for you. Think about it." Without waiting for my reply, she hung up.
The next day, I felt great. Everyone was congratulating Matt and I. We didn't really have to explain anything either. We didn't feel like embarrassing Scarlet.
Finally, it was try outs time afterschool. I felt relaxed for a second. Then, when I was almost up, I felt my heart beating faster every second. My breathing became heavy. And I think that I was starting to sweat. Matt winked at me from the audience, but still, that lump in my throat still wouldn't go down.
Right next to Matt was Tai, holding Sora's hand on the other side. Sora caught my stare. Then, she placed her hand over where her heart is. Then, I could hear her words over and over again..... Trust your heart and follow it's guide..........trust your heart and follow it's guide......... then I heard the instructor call my name.
"Next..... Mimi Tachikawa." she announced as I stepped onto the stage. I was still nervous but somehow, the words completely soothed the inside me. I could hear and see the other digidestined cheering for me. Even Izzy got off his computer and began shouting my name. They were so loud. I could hear Tai, Matt, and Sora the most. Then my instructor raised her hands for silence. There was silence, except Tai caught on a little too slow. He was still yelling my name until the instructor glared at him. You can hear him say "OOPS". A lot of people were giggling, but settled down really soon.
The music began and I closed my eyes. I pretended that I was there dancing and singing with Matt. Before I knew it, the music stopped and it was over. I opened my eyes to see and hear everyone applauding. Matt seemed mesmerized for a minute, but then he began cheering also.
"Mr. Kamiya, now you can cheer." the Ms. Kelly, the instructor said.
"I know, Ms. Kelly!" The whole room including myself burst into laughter. I know that I succeeded. It doesn't matter if I made it or not, because now I have Matt to comfort me and I know that I have all these good friends by my side............
I couldn't stand it anymore. I had to know! Either that or I'd go insane. I grabbed him on both arms with both of my hands and asked as tears began to swell in my eyes, "Why, Matt? Why was it over? I have to know!" I grabbed on to his shirt hard and began to shake him violently. When I realized what I was doing, I slowly let go of my grip and let my hand slide back to my sides.
"Mimi, I........I" he said as he held my hands. They were warm and reassuring. He closed his eyes and shook his head. Then I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. They just spilled out uncontrollably. I think that it hurts him to see me cry just like it hurts me to see his tears. For he looked away.
Then I became furious! "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? OVER THE PAST FEW DAYS, I WAS SO MISERABLE BECAUSE YOU DUMPED ME. NOW YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY YOU BROKE UP WITH ME?" As you can see, I completely lost self control.
"I-I wanted you to be happy Mimi." he replied softly. At least it seemed soft compared to my yelling.
I was completely puzzled. "Happy? You call crying to sleep for six nights straight happy? What kind of person are you?" I was a little softer now. My cries turned into sobs. I covered my face with my hands. I didn't want him to see my face. I didn't want to see his either.
Softly, he said, "Mimi, I-I know that you like Anthony. Scarlet told me everything. She.....she said that I was holding you back. She said that I was tearing you apart between me and Anthony. And the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you...." I could hear his voice break. When I looked up, I saw tears that were being held back.
"Anthony who? What was Scarlet talking about? The only one I'd ever loved was you. Can't you see that?" I said to him. I had tears in my eyes but I was really happy. That's because I realized that he really loved me. He'd rather sacrifice himself than hurt me.
"But why would Scarlet lie? And also she gave me this note that you wrote to Anthony." He said as he took out a piece of paper from his pocket and handed it to me.
My eyes widened as I read the note. "MATT! I DID write this note!" Right then, he looked really depressed. "But I....I addressed it to you. Someone changed your name to Anthony! Look, there's white out marks there!" When he looked at it, his eyes sparkled with happiness. Then I gasped as I realized something.
"What's wrong?" he asked, turning his gaze from the note to me.
"Scarlet has a crush on you! I remember how she used to tell me that I was so lucky."
"Mimi Tachikawa, would I have the honor to go out with you again?" He was on his knees. Isn't that soooo sweet? That's Matt for you.
He had his puppy look and I can't possibly refuse. He looked so funny I began to giggle. Finally I nodded with the largest grin on my face. Then he got up, lifted me up by the waist, and began twirling around in circles. The whole time, our eyes were locked together. Finally, we had to leave. We said our good-byes and headed different ways. He promised that he'd go to the show choir tryouts to boost my confidence. I was so glad that he was back.......
After I got home, I was way too excited to sleep. It was four in the morning and I had nothing to do. So I decided to call Sora. I know it's a little absurd, but I couldn't find anything to do. And plus, I got her a phone and a phone line for her birthday this year, so it won't wake her parents up.
As I dialed the number to her house, something struck me. What if I mess up tomorrow? What if I fell.....or.......or if my voice broke? Oh my God, what am I going to do? The phone was ringing and finally a sleepy Sora answered, "Hello? Who is it?"
"Hi, Sora? It's Mimi! Oh my gosh, you won't believe what happened!" I said excitedly.
"Whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. I mean, it's four o'clock in the morning." Sora murmured in her sleepy tone.
"MATT AND I ARE BACK TOGETHER!!!!" I almost yelled. I could tell now that she'd completely woke up and I guessed that she sat up because of the static.
"Oh My God! When did this happen?" she asked almost as excited as I was.
I told her the story and then told her my new problem. She thought about it for a while and said, "Mimi, a few months ago, someone wise told me to play for the love of the game." I knew she was indicating me. She continued, "Mimi, you are the best dancer and singer I've ever known. You know why? That's because you sang and danced from your heart. Mimi, just trust your heart and the path that it gives you. When have your heart ever betrayed you?" I thought about it and I realized that every time I listen to my heart, my soul, I always seemed to be right.
"Never..." I muttered.
"Exactly. I mean, if your heart didn't lead you to the gym tonight, you would've had to go another night of crying yourself to sleep. Just do whatever your heart tells you to do. Trust it. Trust your heart and follow it's guide. That's my word for you. Think about it." Without waiting for my reply, she hung up.
The next day, I felt great. Everyone was congratulating Matt and I. We didn't really have to explain anything either. We didn't feel like embarrassing Scarlet.
Finally, it was try outs time afterschool. I felt relaxed for a second. Then, when I was almost up, I felt my heart beating faster every second. My breathing became heavy. And I think that I was starting to sweat. Matt winked at me from the audience, but still, that lump in my throat still wouldn't go down.
Right next to Matt was Tai, holding Sora's hand on the other side. Sora caught my stare. Then, she placed her hand over where her heart is. Then, I could hear her words over and over again..... Trust your heart and follow it's guide..........trust your heart and follow it's guide......... then I heard the instructor call my name.
"Next..... Mimi Tachikawa." she announced as I stepped onto the stage. I was still nervous but somehow, the words completely soothed the inside me. I could hear and see the other digidestined cheering for me. Even Izzy got off his computer and began shouting my name. They were so loud. I could hear Tai, Matt, and Sora the most. Then my instructor raised her hands for silence. There was silence, except Tai caught on a little too slow. He was still yelling my name until the instructor glared at him. You can hear him say "OOPS". A lot of people were giggling, but settled down really soon.
The music began and I closed my eyes. I pretended that I was there dancing and singing with Matt. Before I knew it, the music stopped and it was over. I opened my eyes to see and hear everyone applauding. Matt seemed mesmerized for a minute, but then he began cheering also.
"Mr. Kamiya, now you can cheer." the Ms. Kelly, the instructor said.
"I know, Ms. Kelly!" The whole room including myself burst into laughter. I know that I succeeded. It doesn't matter if I made it or not, because now I have Matt to comfort me and I know that I have all these good friends by my side............