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Broken Promise
Chapter 5: My Secret
Hi, my name is Kinomoto Sakura. I am 18 years old, and currently attending Tokyo University. But I also have a secret that I can't tell anyone, especially him. Huh? You want to know my secret? Can I really trust you? Hmm, okay I'll tell you, but you have to promise not to tell anyone.
Well, you see, when I was in fourth grade, I opened a mysterious book, and released 52 magical cards. The guardian of the book, Kero-chan, picked me to become the Card Captor. Through my quest, I met him. Li Syaoran.
When I first met Syaoran-kun, he scared me a lot with his cold, steady gaze. You see, Syaoran-kun is a descendent of Clow Reed and was sent to Japan to re-capture the cards. So Syaoran-kun and I competed against each other for the Clow cards. But the competition didn't stop with just Clow cards, but also for the love of dear Yukito-san. Yukito-san. How I remember loving him so much. I always felt _hanyaan_ when I was near him. But my heart broke when he told me that we couldn't be together.
However, Syaoran-kun was always there for me. When I told him about what happened, he held me in his arms, and told me that I would find someone that loves me as much as I love that person. I also told him that he will find that special someone too, but at the time, I didn't know that the special someone was me.
Syaoran-kun _loved_ me! Through everything that we had been through, the fights, the rivalry..., Syaoran-kun fell in love with me. When I first found out, I didn't know what to think. When I thought about it, my face would always get red with a blush. I was so confused about my feelings, but I didn't realize how much I loved him until he was going home, back to Hong Kong.
I remember the day as if it were yesterday. I had stayed up late the previous night, and had almost missed Syaoran-kun's bus. With the teddy bear that I had made in my arms, I called out to Syaoran-kun, hoping that I could see him again, and tell him about my feelings. After a few moments, Syaoran-kun appeared at the window. At first I didn't know what to say or do; I just looked up at him, and after a few moments smiled. I handed Syaoran-kun my teddy bear, and he asked me if he could name it Sakura. I said yes of course, sealing the promise that we would meet again someday. Syaoran-kun promised that he would come back as soon as he finishes whatever in Hong Kong. The bus began to pull away, and Syaoran-kun promised one last time that he will return soon.
A few days turned into weeks, weeks into months, months into years, and Syaoran-kun never came back. Sure we called each other, and wrote letters, but it just wasn't enough. I began to forget how it felt to have Syaoran-kun in my life. Later in high school, I met Aoki. Aoki and I were friends for a long time. We did everything together; just like Syaoran-kun and I used to.
After awhile, I began to fall in love with Aoki. I didn't want to admit it at first; I was suppose to love Syaoran-kun, you know, S+S forever! But I couldn't wait anymore. My heart felt so heavy when I finally called Syaoran to tell him that I couldn't keep my promise anymore.
But now, Syaoran's back. That day when he went to Megumi-chan's apartment, I felt him. I felt his presence in the building. But I thought to myself that it would be impossible, Syaoran was suppose to be in Hong Kong. But just in case, I went next door to Megumi-chan's, and yup, there he was. He was bowing politely before me. And when he looked up, and our eyes met in a gaze, I knew those eyes,...those clear honey colored eyes, belonged to Li Syaoran.
We went to the park together later that day, and sat beneath a cherry blossom tree. We sat quietly next to each other, not really knowing what to say. Soon, I found myself in Syaoran's arms, lips against his. I wanted to stay like that forever so bad, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. The guilt of my betrayal left a heavy burden on my heart. Here Syaoran-kun's kept his promise, and has finally returned to me, but what did I do during the years that passed? I found happiness with someone else. I broke my promise.
So, I tell Syaoran the truth. It hurt me so much to see Syaoran's eyes grimace, and his shoulders slump down in sadness at my words. But it was for the best. I don't deserve Syaoran-kun's love, he deserves to find true happiness and love with someone else. It has been two months since Syaoran-kun's return from Hong Kong. When I first saw him around at school, and at the apartment building, he always seemed sad, and he always tried to avoid my gaze. But lately he seems a little happier, thanks to Megumi-chan. Seeing Syaoran-kun smile again, even if it's only around Megumi-chan, makes me happy.
So, what's my deep, dark secret you ask? My secret is that I love Li Syaoran. I love him so much, that I want to stand on top of the highest mountain and shout it out for everyone to know. But I can't tell him now,...especially when he's finally happy.
I can trust you to keep my secret, right?
To be continued...
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Author's notes: Just like I promised, here it is. This came out a lot faster huh?? Well, I hope you all enjoyed the chapter. Like always, once I get ten reviews, I'll start writing the next chapter. So please if you want this to continue, R+R.
*By the way, because I notice that some of my readers don't get this chapter, Sakura is talking to you, the reader. That's why the story was written in this format. I hope this little note helps.
~CherryBlossom
Broken Promise
Chapter 5: My Secret
Hi, my name is Kinomoto Sakura. I am 18 years old, and currently attending Tokyo University. But I also have a secret that I can't tell anyone, especially him. Huh? You want to know my secret? Can I really trust you? Hmm, okay I'll tell you, but you have to promise not to tell anyone.
Well, you see, when I was in fourth grade, I opened a mysterious book, and released 52 magical cards. The guardian of the book, Kero-chan, picked me to become the Card Captor. Through my quest, I met him. Li Syaoran.
When I first met Syaoran-kun, he scared me a lot with his cold, steady gaze. You see, Syaoran-kun is a descendent of Clow Reed and was sent to Japan to re-capture the cards. So Syaoran-kun and I competed against each other for the Clow cards. But the competition didn't stop with just Clow cards, but also for the love of dear Yukito-san. Yukito-san. How I remember loving him so much. I always felt _hanyaan_ when I was near him. But my heart broke when he told me that we couldn't be together.
However, Syaoran-kun was always there for me. When I told him about what happened, he held me in his arms, and told me that I would find someone that loves me as much as I love that person. I also told him that he will find that special someone too, but at the time, I didn't know that the special someone was me.
Syaoran-kun _loved_ me! Through everything that we had been through, the fights, the rivalry..., Syaoran-kun fell in love with me. When I first found out, I didn't know what to think. When I thought about it, my face would always get red with a blush. I was so confused about my feelings, but I didn't realize how much I loved him until he was going home, back to Hong Kong.
I remember the day as if it were yesterday. I had stayed up late the previous night, and had almost missed Syaoran-kun's bus. With the teddy bear that I had made in my arms, I called out to Syaoran-kun, hoping that I could see him again, and tell him about my feelings. After a few moments, Syaoran-kun appeared at the window. At first I didn't know what to say or do; I just looked up at him, and after a few moments smiled. I handed Syaoran-kun my teddy bear, and he asked me if he could name it Sakura. I said yes of course, sealing the promise that we would meet again someday. Syaoran-kun promised that he would come back as soon as he finishes whatever in Hong Kong. The bus began to pull away, and Syaoran-kun promised one last time that he will return soon.
A few days turned into weeks, weeks into months, months into years, and Syaoran-kun never came back. Sure we called each other, and wrote letters, but it just wasn't enough. I began to forget how it felt to have Syaoran-kun in my life. Later in high school, I met Aoki. Aoki and I were friends for a long time. We did everything together; just like Syaoran-kun and I used to.
After awhile, I began to fall in love with Aoki. I didn't want to admit it at first; I was suppose to love Syaoran-kun, you know, S+S forever! But I couldn't wait anymore. My heart felt so heavy when I finally called Syaoran to tell him that I couldn't keep my promise anymore.
But now, Syaoran's back. That day when he went to Megumi-chan's apartment, I felt him. I felt his presence in the building. But I thought to myself that it would be impossible, Syaoran was suppose to be in Hong Kong. But just in case, I went next door to Megumi-chan's, and yup, there he was. He was bowing politely before me. And when he looked up, and our eyes met in a gaze, I knew those eyes,...those clear honey colored eyes, belonged to Li Syaoran.
We went to the park together later that day, and sat beneath a cherry blossom tree. We sat quietly next to each other, not really knowing what to say. Soon, I found myself in Syaoran's arms, lips against his. I wanted to stay like that forever so bad, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. The guilt of my betrayal left a heavy burden on my heart. Here Syaoran-kun's kept his promise, and has finally returned to me, but what did I do during the years that passed? I found happiness with someone else. I broke my promise.
So, I tell Syaoran the truth. It hurt me so much to see Syaoran's eyes grimace, and his shoulders slump down in sadness at my words. But it was for the best. I don't deserve Syaoran-kun's love, he deserves to find true happiness and love with someone else. It has been two months since Syaoran-kun's return from Hong Kong. When I first saw him around at school, and at the apartment building, he always seemed sad, and he always tried to avoid my gaze. But lately he seems a little happier, thanks to Megumi-chan. Seeing Syaoran-kun smile again, even if it's only around Megumi-chan, makes me happy.
So, what's my deep, dark secret you ask? My secret is that I love Li Syaoran. I love him so much, that I want to stand on top of the highest mountain and shout it out for everyone to know. But I can't tell him now,...especially when he's finally happy.
I can trust you to keep my secret, right?
To be continued...
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Author's notes: Just like I promised, here it is. This came out a lot faster huh?? Well, I hope you all enjoyed the chapter. Like always, once I get ten reviews, I'll start writing the next chapter. So please if you want this to continue, R+R.
*By the way, because I notice that some of my readers don't get this chapter, Sakura is talking to you, the reader. That's why the story was written in this format. I hope this little note helps.
~CherryBlossom