Swear It Again
Chapter 2
**Scott**
I sat at my desk writing checks, I hated bills. I grabbed for an envelope when I felt nothing, looking around realizing I was out of envelopes. I leaned over to the bottom drawer of the desk looking for some I pull out a whole bunch of papers going through them. "Wow, didn't realize I was such a pig!" I chuckled to myself. I found some envelopes setting some on the desk and the rest of the papers back in the drawer spotting something before closing the drawer. I picked up the picture looking at it, at her. She always was beautiful I wonder where she was now? Last thing I knew she had a baby girl and that was six years ago, was she married? Was she happy? I sighed laying my head back tired, I rubbed my eyes, throwing the picture back in the drawer. I took one of the envelopes not noticing the writing on the front I take the old letter out of it looking at it.
November 2005
Scott,
There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I'm busy at this point in my life, I have a career and a baby inside of me to worry about please don't make this harder for me then it already is. I miss you dearly and I will always love you please know that. I love you forever.
Shelby
A single tear dropped out of my eye, I sighed leaning my head back rubbing my eyes. I stood up walking outside barefoot, looking around the neighborhood watching the kids play. I had just moved here a month ago, glad I chose a good place. I sighed walking inside throwing my shoes on, I then left the house walking down the street. A ball flew over at me I grabbed it throwing it back at one of the little girls in the yard. She smiled at me waving I chuckled. I walked to the park that was half way down the block. I crossed the street walking to the park the rest of the way. I found an empty swing sitting down on it I sat and thought.
**Flashback**
~A Week After The Big Question Was Popped~
I knocked on her door she opened it letting me in. I sighed turning around looking at her "I'm sorry I over reacted."
Shelby sighed walking towards me "I'm sorry too."
"I just want to know one thing Shell. Why can't you being with me?" I asked, she walked towards me but didn't answer.
I spoke up again "Why?"
She started crying more, which was killing me inside she, looked up at me "I don't know Scott, I don't know. I just know that I can't right now."
"Why not! We've been together for three years! We've put up with each other's problems, been there for eachother, we loved eachother…" I sat down putting my head in my hands.
"Unless that's all we were, each other's rock." I stood up walking to her looking her in the eye. "Do you love me Shelby? Have you ever?"
Shelby nodded "Yes I love you Scott, I always have. I don't know what's wrong with me I just can't marry you. I'm sorry."
I didn't know what to do, this woman said she loved me but yet she didn't want to be with me.
I turned walking out of her apartment.
**End Of Flashback**
I came out of my phase to a little girl tugging on my shirt I turn to smile at her. She giggled "Can I please use the swing?" I chuckled standing up "By all means little lady" I smiled watching her swing walking out of the park. I continued my walk around not going home quite yet.
Chapter 2
**Scott**
I sat at my desk writing checks, I hated bills. I grabbed for an envelope when I felt nothing, looking around realizing I was out of envelopes. I leaned over to the bottom drawer of the desk looking for some I pull out a whole bunch of papers going through them. "Wow, didn't realize I was such a pig!" I chuckled to myself. I found some envelopes setting some on the desk and the rest of the papers back in the drawer spotting something before closing the drawer. I picked up the picture looking at it, at her. She always was beautiful I wonder where she was now? Last thing I knew she had a baby girl and that was six years ago, was she married? Was she happy? I sighed laying my head back tired, I rubbed my eyes, throwing the picture back in the drawer. I took one of the envelopes not noticing the writing on the front I take the old letter out of it looking at it.
November 2005
Scott,
There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I'm busy at this point in my life, I have a career and a baby inside of me to worry about please don't make this harder for me then it already is. I miss you dearly and I will always love you please know that. I love you forever.
Shelby
A single tear dropped out of my eye, I sighed leaning my head back rubbing my eyes. I stood up walking outside barefoot, looking around the neighborhood watching the kids play. I had just moved here a month ago, glad I chose a good place. I sighed walking inside throwing my shoes on, I then left the house walking down the street. A ball flew over at me I grabbed it throwing it back at one of the little girls in the yard. She smiled at me waving I chuckled. I walked to the park that was half way down the block. I crossed the street walking to the park the rest of the way. I found an empty swing sitting down on it I sat and thought.
**Flashback**
~A Week After The Big Question Was Popped~
I knocked on her door she opened it letting me in. I sighed turning around looking at her "I'm sorry I over reacted."
Shelby sighed walking towards me "I'm sorry too."
"I just want to know one thing Shell. Why can't you being with me?" I asked, she walked towards me but didn't answer.
I spoke up again "Why?"
She started crying more, which was killing me inside she, looked up at me "I don't know Scott, I don't know. I just know that I can't right now."
"Why not! We've been together for three years! We've put up with each other's problems, been there for eachother, we loved eachother…" I sat down putting my head in my hands.
"Unless that's all we were, each other's rock." I stood up walking to her looking her in the eye. "Do you love me Shelby? Have you ever?"
Shelby nodded "Yes I love you Scott, I always have. I don't know what's wrong with me I just can't marry you. I'm sorry."
I didn't know what to do, this woman said she loved me but yet she didn't want to be with me.
I turned walking out of her apartment.
**End Of Flashback**
I came out of my phase to a little girl tugging on my shirt I turn to smile at her. She giggled "Can I please use the swing?" I chuckled standing up "By all means little lady" I smiled watching her swing walking out of the park. I continued my walk around not going home quite yet.