Swear It Again
Chapter 6
**Shelby**
I sighed "How you doing Bob? Have a nice dinner?" He sat down next to me, we were good friends and our children played together. He was a decent 35 year old man, his wife Susan was nuts though. "Yeah it was nice. What brings you out here?" he asked me, I sighed, "Just thinking. What about you?" he chuckled "Susan is playing her yoga music through out the house. I don't really care for it so I came out for some peace and quiet. Nice night though, this neighborhood has sure gone somewhere." I chuckled "Yeah I guess."
He looked at me worried "Shelby you know how you're like a sister to me right? I've been you next door neighbor for 5 years now, you can tell me anything."
I chuckle a bit "I've just been thinking about my past a lot lately. You remember when I told you about a school I went to called Horizon?"
He nodded "Yeah I helped you while you frantically searched for all your stuff from it."
I smiled "I found it all cleaning out the basement."
"That's very good, I'm happy for you! But there's something else to it isn't there?"
I smile a bit "You've been hanging around me too long. I went through the stuff reading old letters and looking at pictures. Thinking of these people, and then out of the blue today someone called me. Inviting me to a reunion, it's like been 10 years since I've been back there. I am just trying to think of what I will say to them, what do I say to Stephanie? She asked about her father today."
"What did you tell her about her father?" he asked.
"I told her that mommy got scared of her father and ran away. That's the best way I could explain it, but how do I tell her about my past?" I laid my head in my hands crying a bit.
He patted my back "Shelby, you're doing the right thing. The best way to explain your past to Steph is when you go to the reunion tell her that you're going to your old school to see your old friends. How long haven't you talked to them?"
I sighed looking straight out into thin air "Besides the girl who called me today, I last talked to them 6 years ago, in letters. And I wrote a letter to my friend Daisy last night. I tried to write a letter to my ex-boyfriend but didn't know what to say." He sighed "I don't know what to tell you Shell, do you want to talk to your ex? How did it end with him?"
I chuckle "Well he was the love of my life. My rock, my everything." I chuckled at my own words.
"One time he just looked at me and said 'I swear that I will never leave you' the bad thing is I left him."
"That bites. Why did you leave him?" I chuckled at him ignoring the question changing the subject. "You're starting to sound like the kids!" we both laughed.
"I think you should maybe look him up, it wouldn't hurt would it?"
We started standing up to go home "I don't know he probably wouldn't be listed here."
Bob chuckled "Worth a try! What was his name again?"
I smiled "Always fiddling with the computer. His name's Scott…Scott Barringer."
Bob smiled shrugging "I'll see what I can do!" He then walked home.
I sighed walking inside and going up to bed.
**Flashback**
~October-2005~
It had been over a year since I had seen him not very happy about it. Throwing myself in my work at becoming a lawyer. I got up to leave the little donut shop I was at walking straight into someone. I back up a bit "I'm sorry." I heard him then.
"Don't be." I look up to see Scott I smile slightly. "Hey"
He sighed "Hey"
I sigh not knowing what to say, "Do you want to sit down and talk?" I asked him. I could tell he was contemplating whether or not too. He sighed "Sure why not."
We were sitting down, I sighed. "How are you?"
He chuckled "I'm doing alright I guess. What about you?"
"I'm fine, did you hear about the reunion coming up? It's like next year in May or something." I took a sip of my coffee then hearing his question.
"You going?"
I stir my coffee around a bit "I was sure planning on it, figured it would be fun to see everyone. You and Daisy are the only ones I talk to really."
"Yeah, well I have to get going Shell. I'll see you at the reunion." He said getting up. I got up minutes after he did and followed him home.
He wasn't far ahead of me I got to his apartment following him up to his apartment. Minutes after he closed the door I knocked on it. He opened it.
I walked in a bit "Scott, please don't run from me."
He opened the door a little more letting me in. He turned to look at me. "Who said I was running?"
"I thought we could be friends again, what we break up and it's goodbye forever? We're never supposed to be friends again?" I asked simply, trying not to let it get to me.
"I can't Shell! It might be easy for you but it's not for me. How am I supposed to look at you without missing what we had."
I walked closer to him "I can't do it either! It's killing me inside Scott every time I see you I miss you even more. No matter how hard I try to forget you I can't, I love you too much."
He looked down at me "Shell, I can't fight the way I feel for you. That's why I can't be around you, every time I look at you I see what we had, what we could still have." He leaned down kissing me I kissed him back. He then led me into the bedroom.
**End Of Flashback**
I had woken myself up early the next morning I looked at the clock 5:30. I sighed sitting down at my desk writing a letter.
Scott,
I'm sorry you haven't heard from me in awhile. I moved, in the move I thought I lost all my memories. Spring-cleaning paid off I guess when it turned out I didn't. I hope you're doing well. I have a little girl she's a beautiful, energetic 6 year old. Did you hear about the reunion? I'm definitely coming to this one bringing Stephanie with me that am what I named her, Steph for short.
I don't know how to say this Scott I know for well that our last confrontation was terrible also. I miss you I know that Stephanie was a shock to everyone including myself. I'm glad you understood though. Please don't hold it against me for not writing I had a good reason for it all. I love you always.
Shelby
I sat there looking at the letter I have no idea whether or not to send it. I sighed walking out into the kitchen, then upstairs to get dressed and start the day.
Chapter 6
**Shelby**
I sighed "How you doing Bob? Have a nice dinner?" He sat down next to me, we were good friends and our children played together. He was a decent 35 year old man, his wife Susan was nuts though. "Yeah it was nice. What brings you out here?" he asked me, I sighed, "Just thinking. What about you?" he chuckled "Susan is playing her yoga music through out the house. I don't really care for it so I came out for some peace and quiet. Nice night though, this neighborhood has sure gone somewhere." I chuckled "Yeah I guess."
He looked at me worried "Shelby you know how you're like a sister to me right? I've been you next door neighbor for 5 years now, you can tell me anything."
I chuckle a bit "I've just been thinking about my past a lot lately. You remember when I told you about a school I went to called Horizon?"
He nodded "Yeah I helped you while you frantically searched for all your stuff from it."
I smiled "I found it all cleaning out the basement."
"That's very good, I'm happy for you! But there's something else to it isn't there?"
I smile a bit "You've been hanging around me too long. I went through the stuff reading old letters and looking at pictures. Thinking of these people, and then out of the blue today someone called me. Inviting me to a reunion, it's like been 10 years since I've been back there. I am just trying to think of what I will say to them, what do I say to Stephanie? She asked about her father today."
"What did you tell her about her father?" he asked.
"I told her that mommy got scared of her father and ran away. That's the best way I could explain it, but how do I tell her about my past?" I laid my head in my hands crying a bit.
He patted my back "Shelby, you're doing the right thing. The best way to explain your past to Steph is when you go to the reunion tell her that you're going to your old school to see your old friends. How long haven't you talked to them?"
I sighed looking straight out into thin air "Besides the girl who called me today, I last talked to them 6 years ago, in letters. And I wrote a letter to my friend Daisy last night. I tried to write a letter to my ex-boyfriend but didn't know what to say." He sighed "I don't know what to tell you Shell, do you want to talk to your ex? How did it end with him?"
I chuckle "Well he was the love of my life. My rock, my everything." I chuckled at my own words.
"One time he just looked at me and said 'I swear that I will never leave you' the bad thing is I left him."
"That bites. Why did you leave him?" I chuckled at him ignoring the question changing the subject. "You're starting to sound like the kids!" we both laughed.
"I think you should maybe look him up, it wouldn't hurt would it?"
We started standing up to go home "I don't know he probably wouldn't be listed here."
Bob chuckled "Worth a try! What was his name again?"
I smiled "Always fiddling with the computer. His name's Scott…Scott Barringer."
Bob smiled shrugging "I'll see what I can do!" He then walked home.
I sighed walking inside and going up to bed.
**Flashback**
~October-2005~
It had been over a year since I had seen him not very happy about it. Throwing myself in my work at becoming a lawyer. I got up to leave the little donut shop I was at walking straight into someone. I back up a bit "I'm sorry." I heard him then.
"Don't be." I look up to see Scott I smile slightly. "Hey"
He sighed "Hey"
I sigh not knowing what to say, "Do you want to sit down and talk?" I asked him. I could tell he was contemplating whether or not too. He sighed "Sure why not."
We were sitting down, I sighed. "How are you?"
He chuckled "I'm doing alright I guess. What about you?"
"I'm fine, did you hear about the reunion coming up? It's like next year in May or something." I took a sip of my coffee then hearing his question.
"You going?"
I stir my coffee around a bit "I was sure planning on it, figured it would be fun to see everyone. You and Daisy are the only ones I talk to really."
"Yeah, well I have to get going Shell. I'll see you at the reunion." He said getting up. I got up minutes after he did and followed him home.
He wasn't far ahead of me I got to his apartment following him up to his apartment. Minutes after he closed the door I knocked on it. He opened it.
I walked in a bit "Scott, please don't run from me."
He opened the door a little more letting me in. He turned to look at me. "Who said I was running?"
"I thought we could be friends again, what we break up and it's goodbye forever? We're never supposed to be friends again?" I asked simply, trying not to let it get to me.
"I can't Shell! It might be easy for you but it's not for me. How am I supposed to look at you without missing what we had."
I walked closer to him "I can't do it either! It's killing me inside Scott every time I see you I miss you even more. No matter how hard I try to forget you I can't, I love you too much."
He looked down at me "Shell, I can't fight the way I feel for you. That's why I can't be around you, every time I look at you I see what we had, what we could still have." He leaned down kissing me I kissed him back. He then led me into the bedroom.
**End Of Flashback**
I had woken myself up early the next morning I looked at the clock 5:30. I sighed sitting down at my desk writing a letter.
Scott,
I'm sorry you haven't heard from me in awhile. I moved, in the move I thought I lost all my memories. Spring-cleaning paid off I guess when it turned out I didn't. I hope you're doing well. I have a little girl she's a beautiful, energetic 6 year old. Did you hear about the reunion? I'm definitely coming to this one bringing Stephanie with me that am what I named her, Steph for short.
I don't know how to say this Scott I know for well that our last confrontation was terrible also. I miss you I know that Stephanie was a shock to everyone including myself. I'm glad you understood though. Please don't hold it against me for not writing I had a good reason for it all. I love you always.
Shelby
I sat there looking at the letter I have no idea whether or not to send it. I sighed walking out into the kitchen, then upstairs to get dressed and start the day.