~Disclaimer: I own none of them, I'm just playing with them, and I'll be returning them when I get through. I also stake no claim to any episodes that I use for the Flashbacks. They belong to the writers and FFC. I do however own Alex Wallace.~
I'd like to thank Kate for bringing the dream sequence to my attention. I'm sorry if that got confusing. From now on, I'm going to put (~) around dreams. Maybe that'll help.
~If you haven't found anything worth dying for, then you have never truly lived.~ Unknown
The trip started like any other. All of the group was too tired to start arguing with each other this early. Peter, Ezra and Scott took the lead. With Jessica and David coming up right behind them. They were talking about a movie they had both seen during they're summer break. This made they're tenth time talking about it. Shelby and Daisy set their own pace behind them. going fast enough to stay ahead of Sophie, but not too fast as to catch up with her sister and David. Behind the group, Juliet and Auggie walked with Sophie. They weren't talking about anything. Both Auggie and Sophie had been too busy making sure that Shelby was okay, to discuss anything in detail.
Shelby glanced back at Auggie and then over to Daisy. "They watch me any closer, and I think I'll have to kill someone." She still hadn't gotten used to the fact that she wasn't carrying a heavy pack. That was something that was going to take more than a few minutes to get over. She was also aware that Scott kept turning around every few minutes to look at her. Her mind recalled that mornings events. The nightmare, her waking to find him there with her. She knew that he was just pitying her. She didn't want his pity.
"You don't want him dead." Daisy stated so 'matter of factly.' In a way she knew that she was right. Daisy didn't have to be able to see Shelby's eyes to know what was going on inside her head. "You want yourself dead. You've tried it twice before." She wasn't going to give up on her friend. "I don't even think you want to kill yourself."
"I've done it before." Shelby knew it was a lame come back. She stepped over a tree limb and faced Daisy. "Why don't you think I want to kill myself?" The truth was written all over her face. She wasn't cutting to get attention. It was an outlet. The truth was that she nedded to stay strong for her sister so she just sliced the pain away.
"Killing yourself would be to take the easy way out.
"You would have done it already." Daisy turned away from her and sped up. Trying to catch up with David and Jess wasn't the idea she had in mind, but it was an idea. She hit David on the back of the head with her water bottle and he turned around, falling over the tree trunk that was just a step in front of him. "Smooth one Davey boy." The girls giggled.
David pulled himself up and looked back at Sophie. "Can we rest for a bit?" He asked her tentively.
They were at the part of the path the held the most rocks. Not the small pebbles, but the large rocks that people could sit on. Sophie looked around and shouted up to Peter. "I think we need a break back here."
The guys up front heard the call, and turned around. Walking over to Sophie, Peter threw a glance at Shelby. "You okay, kiddo?" He asked her thoughtfully.
That was the third time in twenty minutes that he had asked her this, and she was tired of it. "I'm fine." She spat back at him. "I was fine the first time you asked, and I'm fine now. If I wasn't, you would know it." She calmed down after a moment and wandered over to a rock. Sliding up onto it, she pulled her knees to her chest. Jessica climed up next to her sister and waited for a second. "Leave me alone Jess." Shelby said calmly.
Jessica looked over at Daisy, and didn't moved. "What's wrong?" She asked attentively. She knew that Shelby had to get it out of her system. "Shell?"
Something hard hit Shelby's foot and she looked down to see her journal. "If you can't say it." Daisy started her Peter impression. "Write it." SHe tossed Shelby a pen and sat down next to her. "Auggie and Scott are gonna hand out lunch." She smiled when Shelby didn't look up from her journal. "Or we could just sit here and watch you write?"
Shelby didn't even awknowledge that someone was next to her. The words on the page were much more important. It was a compliation of her life with Patty and Alex. Sophie's nickname reminded her that there were still some loose ends that needed to be tied. If Alex ever found out where she was... She didn't even want to think about it. Alex wasn't like one of the guys she had met on the street. He was the first guy she had told about Walt. They had a connection that didn't even compare to any other that Shelby had with anyone. Even Scott.
I'd like to thank Kate for bringing the dream sequence to my attention. I'm sorry if that got confusing. From now on, I'm going to put (~) around dreams. Maybe that'll help.
~If you haven't found anything worth dying for, then you have never truly lived.~ Unknown
The trip started like any other. All of the group was too tired to start arguing with each other this early. Peter, Ezra and Scott took the lead. With Jessica and David coming up right behind them. They were talking about a movie they had both seen during they're summer break. This made they're tenth time talking about it. Shelby and Daisy set their own pace behind them. going fast enough to stay ahead of Sophie, but not too fast as to catch up with her sister and David. Behind the group, Juliet and Auggie walked with Sophie. They weren't talking about anything. Both Auggie and Sophie had been too busy making sure that Shelby was okay, to discuss anything in detail.
Shelby glanced back at Auggie and then over to Daisy. "They watch me any closer, and I think I'll have to kill someone." She still hadn't gotten used to the fact that she wasn't carrying a heavy pack. That was something that was going to take more than a few minutes to get over. She was also aware that Scott kept turning around every few minutes to look at her. Her mind recalled that mornings events. The nightmare, her waking to find him there with her. She knew that he was just pitying her. She didn't want his pity.
"You don't want him dead." Daisy stated so 'matter of factly.' In a way she knew that she was right. Daisy didn't have to be able to see Shelby's eyes to know what was going on inside her head. "You want yourself dead. You've tried it twice before." She wasn't going to give up on her friend. "I don't even think you want to kill yourself."
"I've done it before." Shelby knew it was a lame come back. She stepped over a tree limb and faced Daisy. "Why don't you think I want to kill myself?" The truth was written all over her face. She wasn't cutting to get attention. It was an outlet. The truth was that she nedded to stay strong for her sister so she just sliced the pain away.
"Killing yourself would be to take the easy way out.
"You would have done it already." Daisy turned away from her and sped up. Trying to catch up with David and Jess wasn't the idea she had in mind, but it was an idea. She hit David on the back of the head with her water bottle and he turned around, falling over the tree trunk that was just a step in front of him. "Smooth one Davey boy." The girls giggled.
David pulled himself up and looked back at Sophie. "Can we rest for a bit?" He asked her tentively.
They were at the part of the path the held the most rocks. Not the small pebbles, but the large rocks that people could sit on. Sophie looked around and shouted up to Peter. "I think we need a break back here."
The guys up front heard the call, and turned around. Walking over to Sophie, Peter threw a glance at Shelby. "You okay, kiddo?" He asked her thoughtfully.
That was the third time in twenty minutes that he had asked her this, and she was tired of it. "I'm fine." She spat back at him. "I was fine the first time you asked, and I'm fine now. If I wasn't, you would know it." She calmed down after a moment and wandered over to a rock. Sliding up onto it, she pulled her knees to her chest. Jessica climed up next to her sister and waited for a second. "Leave me alone Jess." Shelby said calmly.
Jessica looked over at Daisy, and didn't moved. "What's wrong?" She asked attentively. She knew that Shelby had to get it out of her system. "Shell?"
Something hard hit Shelby's foot and she looked down to see her journal. "If you can't say it." Daisy started her Peter impression. "Write it." SHe tossed Shelby a pen and sat down next to her. "Auggie and Scott are gonna hand out lunch." She smiled when Shelby didn't look up from her journal. "Or we could just sit here and watch you write?"
Shelby didn't even awknowledge that someone was next to her. The words on the page were much more important. It was a compliation of her life with Patty and Alex. Sophie's nickname reminded her that there were still some loose ends that needed to be tied. If Alex ever found out where she was... She didn't even want to think about it. Alex wasn't like one of the guys she had met on the street. He was the first guy she had told about Walt. They had a connection that didn't even compare to any other that Shelby had with anyone. Even Scott.