preg11

Pregnant at 15
Part 11
By Izzy
Rated PG-13

All standard disclaimers apply. Here it is! Oh yeah, my page was updated: http://heerorel_cjo.tripod.com/HRD Go check it out! I am VERY proud. hehe.

~All in all, it's just another brick in the wall.
(AN: Uh huh. More like ten bricks, but whose counting?)

Got a question for you all: do any of you like the little quotes I leave at the top?

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Relena was sitting alone in a room with her children and Heero. *This is a total disaster. How in hell am I going to get through this?!?* She glanced over at Heero, little sparks of emotion going off in her stomach. *How the fuck can I fall in love with someone who RAPED me?!?*

Heero cleared his throat. "Well, Relena ..." he edged on. He was still a little pale, but recovering nicely.

"Well, what Heero?" Relena sneered. She was on fire; the only way she could calm herself down was riling herself up.

Clenching his jaw, Heero responded, "Why did you tell me? I could have helped you and you wouldn't have had to resign!"

Relena snorted. "Look. I've been taking care of these kids for fifteen years on my own. Do you think I needed your help? And besides, if my kids were conceived NORMALLY maybe I would've told you!" She glanced over at Haziel and Elena who looked a bit scared. They had never seen their mother like this before.

"You know I'm ..." Heero started but trailed off.

"You're what, Heero? SORRY?!? You can't even say that!"

Heero's look softened. "I'm sorry, Relena. I wish I could turn back time and stop myself. I hate myself for doing that to you, and I can understand if you never forgive me," Heero ended, barely above a whisper.

Relena let out a little whimper, ran one hand through her hair and closed her eyes. "You know what Heero? I already have." Drawing in a shaky breath, Relena continued. "I never hated you, Heero. From the beginning. It's just that-when I tried to tell you, you shoved a gun in my face. What was I supposed to do?"

"You didn't-don't hate me?" Heero was astonished.

Relena shook her head. "If you had listened to me that day ... I wouldn't have run away. And if you wanted .. I would've considered raising them with you."

Heero stared at her, dumbfounded. He looked over at his children. He was a father! *Not that they'll ever want me ...* Heero's mood crashed and burned. *But still ... they're beautiful. Haziel DOES look a lot like me, but I've noticed he acts a lot like Relena. Sort of. A book worm type.* Heero smiled a little. *The exact OPPOSITE of me. And Elena-she looks exactly like Relena. I could swear I'm looking at her if it wasn't for her eyes. They're mine ...* Turning back to Relena, he looked like a little lost puppy. "Thank you," he whispered. "Thank you."

Relena smiled, got up and placed a hand on his shoulder. "Heero, I never even DISLIKED you. Well ... maybe for a little." She kneeled down in front of him and took one of his hands. "You gave me something that changed my life. My SOUL." She stood and turned towards her children. "I'm going to leave you here with Heero for a while. Don't give him any lip or I'll be on your butts. You don't know him. Give him a chance." And with that Relena left the room.

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Elena watched her mother walk out of the room and when the door closed, she turned towards the man she was supposed to call "Father." *What am I supposed to do? I don't know him.*

Haziel was having similar thoughts. *What does Mom expect us to be doing? Hitting it off?* He turned his expressionless face towards Heero.

Heero smirked. *I wonder where he got *that* from.* "Well ..."

Elena frowned. "I don't really know why Mom wants us to talk to you. If I were her, I would just blow you off," Elena ended quite coldly.

Heero tried to hide a flinch. "I made a mistake and I'm sorry for that. Your mother's forgiven me, what reason do you have to hate me?"

Elena narrowed her eyes. "I'm fifteen years old. The incident happened fifteen years ago, and as I've heard, you're one of the best pilots-probably THE best. Why didn't you find us? Didn't you want us?"

Heero looked down. "I didn't know about you-another stupid mistake. I was different back then. You have no idea. And if I had known that you were coming, I would _never_ have let your mother leave." Then he added in a whisper, "I didn't want her to leave."

Haziel, unlike his sister, tried to analyze the situation. "So you loved her?"

Heero turned to his son. "I still do."

"How can you do something like what you did to her to someone you love? It's unthinkable," he remarked, shaking his head.

"I know ..." Heero said, his voice dripping with sadness. "It's just .. the alcohol. I was out of control. You don't know how many times I replay the situation over in my head and instead, the guys stop me-stop me from hurting your mother." Heero cradled his head with his hands. "I hate myself now. What more do you want?" Haziel and Elena actually pitied him a bit. "There have been so many times when I actually think about committing suicide, then stop myself with the hope that your mother would come back one day and that I might apoligize to her. She keeps me going ... all the time."

Elena was no longer glaring at the man before her. He actually looked like a little boy with no mother. *He really is truly sorry. Maybe he's not like I thought he was. Maybe he really does love Mom.*

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Izzy-chan