By, Ash C.
ash1107@hotmail.com
Hitomi leaned on her dresser, closed her eyes and let the tears pour down her cheeks onto the hard wood floor. Suddenly a bright light illuminated the room next to her and then ceased. A soft sound of feet pattered into the her room and she felt a hand lightly press on her shoulder.
"Hitomi?" the voice said.
She stopped crying for a moment and looked up into his face. Not that
she really needed to, his presence was enough to tell her who it was. He
was down on one knee and looked anxiously into her face, searching for
some resemblance of the girl he once knew. She lurched forward into his
arms and hugged in tightly, leaving him speechless for a moment.
"Gomen Van..." she whispered in between sobs. He tightly wrapped his
arms around her and hugged with the same intensity.
Time then ceased to pass and he let her cry on his shoulder till she was done. Finally her eyes felt dry, her voice rasped when she spoke and she went to her bathroom to wash her face off. Van followed closely behind. Opening up her medicine cabinet/mirror reached in and grabbed her medicine bottle and took out a pill, leaving only one left.
"What's that?" Van asked suspicious of what she was doing.
"It's my medication, it makes me feel better and not quite so stressed" Hitomi said softly.
Van's eyes widened for a moment as something passed through his head then his face became impassive. Hitomi then swallowed the pill. They walked into her living room and sat on opposite ends of her couch facing each other. Finally Hitomi spoke up.
"Would you like some tea?" Van's head nodded. She walked into her kitchen and started fixing the tea.
"Hitomi... what happened?" Van's voice asked, unsure. Hitomi stopped what she was doing for a moment.
"N..Nothing" she said softly but loud enough for him to hear.
"That's crap" he said bluntly "If nothing happened then why would you
be needing to take drugs for an artificial happiness? What happened to
the beautiful girl I once felt so strongly for? You're nothing but a dry
and empty husk of your teen years...no joy...no spirit...nothing but drug
induced smiles!"
Hitomi turned around to find him standing in the doorway to kitchen.
'This isn't the way i wanted it to be!!" she thought to herself ' why can't
he understand?' Then she looked up,
"You want to know why? …You're the reason I'm this way Van!" she yelled.
"What are you talking about?" he asked completely taken back by the comment. Hitomi walked past him out of the kitchen and into the living room then sits down on the couch.
"Ever since I left Gaea I still had visions…"
"And that's supposed to come as a big surprise to me?" Van retorted sarcastically
Hitomi glared at Van
"Van… shut up…" she said quietly. Walked over to the couch and sat down next to her.
"and?" he prompted
"and the visions were exactly the same. They were horrible and there was nothing I could do about them. The visions would happen whenever they wanted to…while I was eating, during school, in conversations with other people. You can imagine what people thought of me when I was right in the middle of a sentence, my eyes would get glazed and I would stop talking."
"what were they about" Van asked.
"I… I can't tell you" Hitomi said simply.
"Why not?" Van asked indignantly
"Because… it's too personal…because it's about you." Hitomi said, her eyes getting distant.
" what? Am I in some sort of danger?" he asked in a rising tone. Hitomi softly laughed.
"No, none of that…more like your future…" Hitomi said quietly looking down onto the floor.
" My future?" he paused "It wasn't with you in it, was it?" Hitomi didn't say anything. Van looked at her and his eyes grew unreadable.
"Tell me…did I love her?" Van asked softly. Hitomi looked up and stared into Van's eyes…trying to possibly convey a message 'Please don't ask me these questions'. Van then slid closer to Hitomi, put an arm around her and held her close to him.
"Don't worry. We'll figure this out together" he whispered