Notice: I don't any of the character they belong to FFC. I don't own the song.
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It had been two weeks since they moved in to the cabin. They were not fighting no more but everyone was hurting.
Juliet didn't hide her pain but even though she told everybody how she felt it didn't make it go away. One day she even thought about making her self throw-up again. But then she thought Peter and Sophie wouldn't have wanted me too. But now all she wanted to do was take a knife and cut herself to make the pain go away. She hadn't done it yet but she knew if she didn't find answers soon she wouldn't be able to resist it anymore.
Daisy wasn't doing so well either. At night she'd have nightmeres of her mothers death replaying in her mind then it would change to Sophie and Peter and the way they died. Every night it was diffrent. She would see her mom and dad in the car driving and then it wouldn't be her mom and dad it would be Peter and Sophie and she would see the car crash with them in it or a plane blow up that they were riding. She would wake up crying until she finally fell back to sleep around two hours later.
It was the same way the Auggie. The nightmeres except his nightmeres were Peter and Sophie walking down the street and then they would be in an ally. The next thing he knew he would see a gang coming up and they would grab Peter and Sophie and start stabbing them with knives and when they were dead the leader of the gang would look up and it was his brother laughing. Every night he had the same dream. It replayed in his mind during the day and woke him up from his sleep during the night.
David and Ezra were both reflecting on their lives without Peter and Sophie. Everyday Ezra would go down a lake about two miles from the cabin and look at the sky and just think about his life. He would wonder what would of happened to him if he didn't have Peter and Sophie. It got worse because he kept on going back to his past and that hurt too. David was doing the exact same thing. Everyday he would go down to the pond to fish and that was where he would reflect on his life. What Ezra and David didn't know was everytime they thought about their past they were hurting themselves more and more.
Scott was the tough one. He had accepted Peter and Sophie being gone at least that was what he thought. He was mostly worried about Shelby. There were times when he would hate Peter and Sophie for leaving. Because it left him and the rest of the cliffhangers by theirselves. And there were also times he would cry because he missed them so much and he missed Shelby. But as the days progressed him and Shelby grew further and further apart.
Shelby had confinded in her journal to tell what she felt. She was building up a wall again and she knew it. There were days she wanted to have some drugs so bad just to get rid of the pain. But she never did them. Most of the time she would wake up early in the morning and go into the attic. No one knew about it which made it better. It was her place. She had gone through all the boxes and found a lot of Peter's things from when he was a child. She guessed he used to live here. She found pictures of him which she hung up on the attic walls. She found some stuffed animals that were Peter's and would hold them for comfort hoping beyond hope it would bring back another memory of him or better bring him back. She loved the attic she stayed up there all day until about seven at night. That was her place where she would cry and think about her past. Some how the attic made her feel safe. Like as long as she stayed up there she would never be hurt again.
The cliffhangers were growing futher and futher apart. Nobody knew Shelby anymore. Not even Scott and Daisy. All the cliffhangers knew things had to get better but who would be able to make them better.
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It was almost eleven o'clock at night. All the cliffhangers except Shelby were in the living room. Everybody was getting worried about her. They hadn't seen her all day.
Scott: Where could she be?
Juliet: Scott, clam down. I'm sure she's okay.
Daisy: How would you know.
Auggie: ( getting offesive) Don't get mad at her because of Shelby.
Ezra: Yeah Auggie's right.
Daisy: ( getting louder) Well she doesn't need to be lying to Scott. She doesn't know where Shelby. None of us do so she does not know if she's gonna be alright.
Scott: ( dryly) exactly.
By now Scott, Auggie, Daisy, Juliet and Ezra were all fussing. A few minutes later David couldn't handle it no more. He got up unnoticed and went into the girls dorm. He came back out and got in the middle of the living and held up the book.
David: ( practicly yelling) Everybody shut the fuck up.
Everybody looked at David.
David: ( now in a normal tone of voice) If we want to know where Shelby is then just look in her journal.
David looked through a few pages until he got to a page and stopped.
David: Here's yesterdays entry.
Daisy: What does it say.
David: ( reading out loud)
** My first lesson in losing a love was you
Learning to love with your memory was lesson number two
And I can't lie, baby
I still cry sometimes
But I've some a long way
towards gettin' you out of my mind**
Dearest journal,
You are my best friend right now. Your like Peter the one person or thing I can confide into. We are no longer the cliffhangers. We have all grown apart. David and Ezra spend their time at the lake and pond. They think no one knows what their doing there but I do because I do it everyday. They reflect on their past. Wondering where they would be if they didn't have Sophie and Peter. Well I'm not sure where they would be but I know where I would. I would be in my room scared to the death of the night watching the door waiting for it open. Waiting for him. Or I would be on the streets probley doing my so called job back then. Doing drugs to get away from the pain. That's where I would be right now. But I can't think about that because I know if I do then I would be failing Peter and Sophie because thinking what if is worse then drugs because it's killing slowly. And it's killing them slowly. Daisy and Auggie wake up every night from a nightmere. I know because I hear them. I hear Daisy crying and I hear Auggie going to the bathroom.They're probly having nightmeres of how Sophie and Peter died. I don't think they know this but I think we all have them. But we have to overcome them I know that. Because the dreams haunt us during the day and night. If we don't over come them then we'll never be able to live together. Everybody thinks I don't care that I was just using Peter and Sophie but I wasn't. I couldn't stay at Horizan, thier memory would be too much for me to handle. Juliet wonders why I don't cry. It's not because I don't miss them. Because I miss them more then my own family. I do cry just not in front of them. Crying is a sign of weakness and I can't be weak. I wasn't on the streets, with Walt and I won't be now. No matter how much I just want to cry and tell everyone how much I miss the way things were. You know Juliet used to cut. She had said it made the pain go away. But it doesn't because as soon as the outside of the cut stops hurting the pain inside comes back and so you cut yourself again and again but each time the pain inside comes back until you're dead. Tears can't express or tell how you feel so I don't cry and cutting just kills you. So what do I do. I can't run because soon drugs will run out and it's just like cutting the pain comes back. The one place I can cry is in the attic. It's my place it'll always be my place. I feel as if I've lost my family and no matter what I do the pain comes back each time. The cliffhangers were my family and now we're just growing a part. What will happen.... To us? To me? To Horizan? To the cliffhangers? and to Peter and Sophie?
Yours forever
Shelby
**I'm still under the weather
But I'm over the storm
I still miss the shelter
Of your loving arms
But what I thought would kill me
Has just made me strong
I'm still under the weather
But I'm over the storm**
Everybody was quiet for a few more minutes.
Juliet: ( crying) She's right.
Auggie: ( confused) What are you talking about?
Juliet: She's right we're not the cliffhangers no more we're strangers. And the only way we'll be a family again is to face our fears.
Scott: ( crying) Yeah you're right and so is she.
Ezra: ( out of no where) We have an attic?
Daisy: Yeah that's where she said she was.
David: Well lets go find her so we can be a family together.
**Sometimes your memory still gets the best of me
But that lonely ache in my heart
Ain't as bad as it used to be
And sometimes the way that I'm feelin'
Inside doesn't show
But I know
I'll get over you, I've just got a long way to go**
Everybody go up and started looking around the house trying to find a way up to the attic. Daisy finally found a small stair set in a closet in the living room. You really couldn't notice it. They all went up to the attic where they found Shelby asleep holding a teddybear.
Auggie: Wow. Look at this place.
Juliet: Yeah this is like a Peter memorial.
**I'm still under the weather
But I'm over the storm
I still miss the shelter
Of your loving arms
But what I thought would kill me
Has just made me strong
I'm still under the weather
But I'm over the storm**
Daisy walked over to Shelby and laid down beside her. Scott went and laid down behind Shelby putting his hand around her waist. Juliet and Auggie got beside Daisy and laid down. Ezra and David got beside Scott and laid down. As the all fell asleep. Like a family.
**I'm still under the weather
But I'm over the storm**
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Sorry it's so short but I've been really busy. Don't forget to review and the more reviews I have the longer it'll be.
bye
sam