Slowly, Zelgadis was aware of his surroundings. there was a faint, clying smell of lavender in the air, and he could hear a clock ticking somewhere. He opened his eyes slowly, then shaded them from the bright light. The sun shone in a window, causing a poll of light directly on his bed.

Where am I...? He thought groggily. All I remember is going to the solstice festival and .... blood....

Zelgadis sat up in bed, looking around franticly. The room he was in contained his bed- white sheets covered his body- a bedstand to his right, with a bouquet or lavender flowers on it, and white walls. A... hospital...?

The door opened, and a nurse walked in the room. "Oh, I'm glad you're awake, Mr.Zelgadis!"

"Where-"

"This is O'Grady Hospital, in Valoon. Your friends will be coming to visit you soon. You have been unconcious for over 4 days now, Mr.Zelgadis!"

"4 days...?" He asked. "Valoon?"

"Yes. Now, please, get back into bed. I'll inform your friends that your awake." The nurse left the room. Zelgadis wondered at this hospital. They were really new, only fairly big cities had them. They were a place were the village doctor's saw their patients, and held them if they didn't have the homes to be properly taken care of in.

Zelgadis propper his pillow up against the back of the bed, so that he could see the room while still lying down. His body was so tired, even talking had made him exhasted. He wondered what had really happened to him, why he had done that ... that- terrible terrible thing... He squeezed his eyes shut.

"Zelgadis...?" A voice asked tentativly. He looked up. Lina's head was poked into the room, looking at him conceredly.

"Lina! I'm so glad to see you!" He said. "Um, may I ask what's going on?"

"You... you passed out. After the..- the incedent, you just went unconcious, and it's been 4 days since then. We transported you here, where they had a hospital. Gods, Zelgadis, I was so scared! I didn't know what was wrong with you!" Lina had come in the room, and sat down at the edge of his bed. Now she was grasping his hand, his fingernails digging into his rocky skin.

"I - I'm sorry, Lina.... I don't know what happened! It scares me too!" He put his other hand over hers. "It... it makes me feel so powerless...."

"I know...." Lina smiled weakly at him. "But," she said, brightening. "Now that your better, we'll stay here for a couple more days, and then we can keep travelling! That is, if you feel up to it..."

"Lina..." Zelgadis looked down. "Lina, I'm sorry... but I don't think I can travel with you guys any more..."

"But, Zel-!" She said, eyes wide.

"No. Lina, listen to me. I really care about you, and Amelia, and Gourry. Did you see what I did 4 days ago?! That could happen any time! I could really hurt you! I- I killed those men... those innocent men..!"

"But, Zel, it's over now! It only happened once, it's okay!" Lina pleaded with him, holding on to his hand tightly.

"Lina... it's happened before. It was a couple of months back. I almost lost control. It's like a rage, it seizes control of me...! And, this time, it did take control of me. It will happen again, I know it, and it will be worse...!" Lina shook her head in denial. "Listen to me!" Zelgadis grabbed her shoulders and shook her once. Her head fell forward and hair fell over her face. She was still shaking her head. "I have to leave now!"

"Zel..." A tear rolled down her cheek. They would find the cure.... they could find it!

"I..- I have to leave." Zelgadis threw the sheets aside and stated dressing, his clothes on a chair in the corner. "I'm sorry." When he was done, he strapped on his sword, and walked to the window. Throwing it open, he leapt out.

"Zel!" Lina cried, and rushed to the window. Two stories down, he had landed, and was walking away.

"Zel..."


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