Ok, here's the next part. This part is kinda different from my real what happen thingy. (did that make sense?)
Nevermind forget that line, just engoy reading the story!!!!!

the last liine:
It all re-started when I.......
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It all restarted when I was walking out from class. Scott and my locker were just a few or 2 lockers away,
but the scene I witness was something I knew I had lost.

Scott was so cute. He had on his blue varsity jersey and jean.
Everytime he scratch his hair and smile, my heart just melt. He was popular and
different from most jocks. He was nice and didn't took appearance as a dating rules.
I know that might not be true, but I could see it in his eyes.

We spent alot of time together. Partner for projects and staying late after school to help teachers with stuff.
I only do that to be near him.

See diary, the problem is that... I'm not preppy or a chearleader figure. I'm just another face in high school.

The day was going just fine. In class I notice that scott was staring at me but I couldn't just look up.
I don't know...maYBE I'm just be paranoid. My heart thump everytime I think of him. At night,
he''ll be in my dreams and when it's daylight, he will be in my world.

when 2 person are love, how can you tell the other person loves you? For a while,
I though we had something. Something that I had never have. MaYBE i'm just attractive to his looks.

I don't know what to say... i'm lost here, diary. no one knows how i felt when --- oh I just can't say it.

It was the end of class, I notice that Juliette (the so call chearleader) with her
pom-pom came up to Scott. She was all over him. I was getting mad and angry, but I didn't show it.
I didn't know what they were talking about, but when I slam my locker, Scott look back and glance at me.
I saw it and stare back at him with a smile and then turn around. He turn around, too.
He seem to be confused or something. I could tell because his face made a puppy pleading look
that I was just so CUTE! I thought it was a sign that he like me because...because... WHY WOULN"T HE!!!!

At lunch, Daisy sat by me. I ask her what was that all about. she seem to not care
what that meant because all she said was "oh, Scott and Juliette are going out." I was shock.
Unspeakable... just wishing it was all a rumor--- a fable. But...but it wasn't. Somehow, I didn't trust her,
all I knew was that I must find the truth for myself. I knew i had to ask him, truthfully.

After time and time of getting him for myself. I finally said it out.

Me: So um...Scott. Are you and Juliette going out. (I didn't look him in the eyes)

Scott: yeah (he smile and look at me with this unsecure look.)

That was it. that was the last line I ever said to him. I think he know by the tone I ask him that I was jealous.
My feelings for him was over and the hatred I felt for the both of them were rising.

I don't even know how to explain it to you. It felt as if the person I was supposed to spend all my
life just betray me. I felt as if I will never love again. Not anyone with that strong love i felt for him.

In bed at night, the memories of him and I were flashing back. I remember the time when we use to
play basketball, soccor and jock around with each other. I had a great time and a great experience.
He always made me laugh when time gets hard. I guess, he still think i'm just his friend.
His warm embrace with he put his arm around me when we play soccor and his warm words
and laughter when we laugh.

I kept on avoiding him from that day on. He kept talking to me, but I try hard to
kept the tears from falling. I was hurt and the only person to fix that was me.

nights after nights, I kept telling myself that being friend is much better than being in a
relationship, but I knew it was all a lie.

That was it... I change and he change. Ever since that day, I hate him--- and her.
For everything. For every ounce of pain in my heart that's not leaking out.

But I'm a strong person until last night when I cry. I cry my heart out. And it felt lighter and safer.

I never again stay after school and help the teacher. Only Scott did. Once he ask me why I
didn't stay after school anymore. I just said, "I'm busy." I sounded cold and unfriendly. I know he's confused.
But I didn't have the strength to talk to him ever again. And from there, I never again saw him after school
helping the teacher.

He's nice to me and always trying to start a conversation with me but I always ended them fast and cold.

I miss talkin' to him about stuff. We seem to understand each other so much. But what he
did to me was somethin' I'm never going to forget.


But after time past and my strength regain (smile) and Scott.....(giggling)...well let say....
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TBC......

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