Part 2: Present
A/N: Okay, if you've read the first part, you basically know all the characters. When it says Tom or He, that means "Voldie". That's probably all you need to know. Oh, and no flames, please.
It's horrible... can't think, can't eat or sleep or do anything except relive that crash over and over in my head. I ride my bicycle through the intersection, Jonathan and my beloved Lauralee following, and suddenly - screech, boom, clang. I turn around and...
See, that's the whole reason I'm writing again. I thought that maybe if I wrote it all down, I wouldn't be tortured night and day. Maybe, just maybe, I could get away from this terrible feeling of emptiness that, at the same time, I wish would stay. I don't want to forget them.
Because my life is shattered into a billion pieces. My husband and daughter are dead.
Our lives were peaceful and idyllic. I probably should have known it wouldn't last. Every morning I'd wake up slowly and happily, savoring fragments of beautiful dreams as they drifted away.
Now I wake up in a cold sweat from those horrific nightmares. When I manage to sleep at all.
Jonathan was a Muggle. Was...
I had turned away from the wizarding world. It brought me nothing but heartache. All my childhood friends... dead or exiled. I was scared and hurt and certainly not reasonable (a lot like I am now) and I wanted to get away from it all. So I ran to the Muggle world to hide and protect me shortly after Lily and James were killed.
But Jonathan was different. As soon as I met him, I knew I would gladly spend the rest of my life in his arms. Soon I found out the feeling was mutual.
Oh, and my dear little Lauralee. She is... was... my whole world.
I don't know how I'll ever live without them. Empty. Numb. God help me when it finally sinks in. They're dead, Trina, they're dead. No reaction. It's too big for me to grasp.
An owl has appeared at my window. I'm somehow not surprised, though I wonder how long it's been since my last owl post.
It's from Salazar! He's alive! He needs my help.
I have a goddaughter.
It's hard to believe it's been seven years since that horrible, awful morning when I got the owl telling me Lily and James were dead. Killed by Lord Voldemort. My one-time master.
And one year since I got the news that Amber and Salazar met the same demise.
Or, at least, so everyone thought.
Amber is still dead, I caution myself. Nothing and no one can bring her back.
But if Salazar is alive, then there's hope. He says that for some reason his father couldn't kill him.
I might as well give the sad tally. Lily, James, and Amber are dead. Sirius and Zippy are in Azkaban. Peter is supposedly dead, but I have a sneaking suspiscion that report isn't entirely accurate. Remus is in social exile. According to Salazar, Severus disappeared a few months ago, but I never really cared about him.
Now that I think about it, I may be the best off of them all. Fat lot of good THAT does me.
Well, if I look at it the right way, it's not that bad. I've got my life, I've got my mind, and I've got my magic. I mean, it's not like I snapped my wand in half or anything.
I also have my reputation as a Death Eater.
I joined Voldemort's ranks shortly after we graduated Hogwarts. Power was... is... the place for me. I have reason to suspect that Peter followed my lead, not joined of his own accord like Sirius thinks... thought... he's in Azkaban, Trina. Face it, he'll be insane if not dead by now.
I guess when I ran to the Muggles, I was running from reality. I suppose one can only be so analytical when dealing with the demise of childhood friend after childhood friend...
Look, I'm wandering from the subject again. The whole reason I discontinued this little spiritual journey in the first place. Maybe if I wander enough, I'll strike gold.
Anyway, the main reason Salazar owled me is because of my goddaughter.
James was godfather to Salazar's eldest, Sean, something that surprised some of us.
But no one could have expected that Sean would have a twin.
Her name is Stormy Jessica Riddle, and she is my goddaughter.
Stormy inherited every bit of her (ahem) grandfather's power, and then some. I hate to say it, but she may have inadvertantly caused her parents' downfall. He wanted her on his side, and He gets what he wants.
I suppose I should be the one to know.
My course of action is clear to me now. I've got to leave. Disappear. I'll come back when Stormy's old enough to understand.
I wonder if my parents will miss me?
As I write, I am back in their house, in my old room. I have a feeling the only reason they let me come back was to placate the neighbors, who would have raised an uproar if they found out. The room, as well as my parents' behavior, awakens childhood memories. Some are good, some bad.
It's well known that my parents refused to bestow their blessing on Jonathan's and my marriage. They don't like Muggles, which is ironic since neither are from pureblood families. The especially didn't approve of their daughter marrying a pure Muggle.
So they renounced me, told me I was no longer welcome at their house. In return I told them they were no longer my parents.
I don't regret that decision.
The thing I've got to do now is leave. I've got to find a way to disappear in the wizard world. Hopefully the Muggles will forget me. No. They will forget me. For their own protection.
He'll be looking for me, even in the state he's in. I made a lot of the things He did possible. Lord Voldemort doesn't just forget. I'll simply have to dodge him until Stormy's old enough to understand.
Salazar,
I can do what you ask, but not at this moment. The situation isn't right. I can still write you and tell you what's happening.
I guess at this point all we can do is bid our time. Don't give up hope.
I'll keep writing to you. Maybe we can make sense of it all.
Signed,
Your Old Friend Spots
P.S. I know how you feel, losing your family. I've been through it.
I guess it wouldn't be safe to write where I'm going here. But rest assured, it's very out of the way. I'll begin writing once more when I'm able to.
Maybe writing things down helps more than I thought.
A/N: R/R please. You've read, now review.
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