Relena continued to run as fast as she could. As she ran she noticed the road was slippery from the ran last night. As she ran she began to slip and fell but put her hands infront of her for support. Once she hit the ground with her hands she could hear Heero's feet on the road. She jumped up and ran faster down the road near Jane's place. 'Just have to get away.' she thought. 'Relena, please stop. You could get hurt.' Heero thought.
Relena looked at Jane's house and stopped running. She breathed in and wiped her fore-head as she leaned down and breathed in heavily. Heero came up to her and put a hand on her shoulder. "What do you think you where doing?" he said in a cold tone. Relena's brain was running a mile a second and all this emotional mixing up made her so nauseated that she felt like she was going to barf.
Heero rubbed her back to soothe her then heard her choke and see she was throughing up. 'Emotional stress.' he presumed and patted her back for support. Once she finished she stood up straight and looked at Heero. "Im sorry, for...for being a bitch." she said as she looked down. "Let's go home" he said and they walked off back to the house.
As they came in Nikki was walking to the band room. She smiled slightly. "Relena, we're rehearsing for the concert tonight, so get in here." she said and closed the door behind her. Relena looked at Heero and noticed how soaked he was. She never noticed it was raining while they where out there. "Heero, your soaked, go change, I'll be in the band room." she said with regret fulness in her eyes. Heero looked at her he couldn't stand the regretful look in her eyes. "What are you regretful about?" he said in a cold tone. 'I didn't mean for it to come out like that.' he thought. "Everything...." she trailed off mumbling something and just walked off. "Im only changing if your changing." she heard him say. She only shook her head as a yes.
When Relena came down she saw Heero in jeans and that green muscle shirt. She shook her head. 'I think he will never stop wearing that.' she thought. Relena wore baggy black jencos and a black wife beater with the words 'Daddy's Lil' Gurl' on it with a girl with purple hair spray painting it on in purple. She wore no shoes and her hair was down like normal. She rushed into the band room to see the boys in the sound check room and the girls tuning their instruments. They looked up at her and smiled. "Lets get this shindig started!" hilde said smiling. Relena laughed and headed for the mic and note pad. "What song?" she said looking at the band. "Same 4 Walls." said Heero just as he came in the room. Relena looked at him and gave him an odd look. "Why that song in particular?" she and Hilde said together. "It's a nice song." was all he said as he walked into the sound room.
Relena nodded as the band prepared to play 'Same 4 Walls.' Relena looked
through the glass separating the sound room from the band room. She looked
into Heero's eyes and could see why he wanted the song. He was letting
his mind control his body and never his heart, he was sick of it. Relena
was willing to help him stop it. She smiled to herself and grabbed the
pole that holds the mic with her right hand and the mic with her left as
the music began.
Relena began to sing slowly letting the words soak into everyone's
mind.
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips say I hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question...
When will this ever end?
As she raises her voice slightly she can feel Heero's eyes piercing through her skin as her eyes are closed.
Not much to the life
I live Same 4 Walls
I have nothing left to give
Please take it all away....
Same 4 Walls
She lowered her voice back down and opened her eyes to meet with Heero's.
The thoughts from my mind
Feel the pain as rats claw at my flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Feels the joy as the needles hits my vein
The thoughts from my mind
Smells the stench as shit runs down my leg
The thoughts from my mind
ask for sanity Now for this I beg
Her voice is raised again yet she doesn't close her eyes she just peers into Heero's eyes like it was her life.
Not much to the life
I live Same 4 Walls
I have nothing left to give
Please take it all away....
Same 4 Walls
Same 4 Walls
As the music played she left her hand on the mic and took her right off of the pole. She looked down at the ground as she stepped back for a moment. She heard a door open and she looked to see Heero in the band room. She smirked and began to sing again.
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips say I hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question...
WHEN WILL I BE DEAD?
Relena raised her voice as she faced up holding the mic to her lips as she sang.
Not much to the life
I live Same 4 Walls
I have nothing left to give
Please take it all away....
Same 4 Walls
Same 4 Walls
Same 4 Walls
Same 4 Walls
*Gun Shot Sound*
She smirked as Duo hit the sound effect button to make that sound. Relena smiled and stood straight. Trowa and Duo walked out of the sound room clapping. Relena smiled as Nikki did a drum role. Relena turned around and smiled at Nikki. Nikki stopped once she looked at Relena and set the drum sticks down. Relena smiled as she looked at Cat and Hilde. The nodded. Relena walked out of the room and Heero followed. Relena turned around making her hair fly everywhere. She stared at into Heero's Prussian eyes as a wave of emotion flashed through them.
"Please take it all away..." Heero said looking at Relena. His eyes begged her to get rid of the 4 walls around his heart. "How is it you make me feel this way? Wanting to get rid of my emotionless mask and feel human emotions?" he said. Relena placed her hand on his cheek. Heero moved his arm around her waist and pulled her right up against his body which caused Relena to let out a small yelp. Relena put her other hand on his cheek and pulled Heero's face down to hers. Relena reached up a bit as their lips lightly touch. Relena's hands move to around his neck.
"Ahem." Heero and Relena snapped out of their gaze and looked at Trowa. "Your Manager is on the phone Relena." he said and held a cordless phone. Relena moved her hands and took the phone with a pissed look. Relena walked off into her room with the phone as she talked.
"Did you really have to do that?" Heero said looking pissed as well. "Duo and the girls were too scared to break you two up. Mainly, Duo thought you would punch him over and over and the girls didn't wanna have a cranky Relena for the concert...so I was the only one left. Goes to show you how brave people really are..." Trowa said with a smirk. Heero chuckled at the thought of Duo scared of him.
---In Relena's Room--
Relena: The bus will be here at 5?
Rick (Manager): Yes, we have to get this done. It's the last show for this tour.
Relena: Ok, ok. I get it.
As Relena talks she doesn't notice that Heero has walked into her room. Relena continued to chat with Rick about the set and that stuff as Heero slid his arms around her waist from behind. Relena let out a small yelp.
"What's wrong?" Rick said on the phone with uneasiness. Heero rested
his head on Relena's shoulder and heard her sigh in relief noticing who
it was. "Oh, nothing just got startled that all." Relena replied and felt
Heero's breathe on her neck. It sent shivers down her spine as she held
the phone. "I'll tell the girls to get ready, see ya at 5 Rick." she said
and hanged up the phone. "Im nothing? You should be afraid of me.." Heero
said with a serious tone but Relena could tell he was playing. Relena turned
around and wrapped her arms around his neck letting the phone fall on the
floor like it was nothing. "Why should I be afraid of you?" she said smiling.
"I am the Perfect Soldier. I could kill you." he said with a slight smirk.
"You would have done that years ago.." she said and slipped out of Heero's
grasp. "Im going to tell the girls to get ready to go to the concert."
she said and walked out.
Relena and the band packed all the stuff in the bus and the boys went
with them like always for near shows. Relena was talking to Nikki while
Heero was somewhere. "I think Im ready to sing 'Wish you where here.'"
Relena said and Nikki starred wide eyed. "You sure? Last time you cried
out on stage..." nikki said with concern in her eyes. "Im sure, I shouldn't
always be so sad over his death..." Relena said trying to smile. Her adopted
father's death still had a way of bringing pain to her heart. She wrote
a song and when they performed it she broke into tears. She was breaking
boundaries today and she decided she would brake some more.
As the staff of the band set up the stage Relena was going over the
song. It wasn't really that long but it still took it's toll on her. As
the afternoon progressed into 5 past 11 she was performing. As she looked
out to the crowd she smiled. "Im going to do a song I haven't done in years...
It's called 'Wish you where here..'" she said and the music began. Relena
looked around the crowd and felt the tears stinging her eyes. She closed
them and continued knowing she had to let it out.
Relena:
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Hilde & Relena:
Do you think you can tell?
Relena:
Did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange a walk on
part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
As it went onto the Guitar solo she smiled as the tears streamed down her face. She could feel Heero's eyes on her. She would be questioned for this one she knew it.
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here...
She smiled as she finished singing but knew the song was still not
done. She turned to her left to the side stage to see Heero and the boys
their looking at her with curious eyes. She just turned back to the crowd.
"How about we play Outside?" she heard screams and smiled. She walked to
the right of the stage and grabbed an acoustic guitar and tuned it. "Ok,
I haven't played this song in forever so give me a break." she smiled as
the rest of the girls left to take a break. She sat down on a stool and
began to play.
Here I move
you bring me too my knees
again
All this time
that I thought differently
All the time
that I felt insecure
Yeah
and lay covered on my bed
She looked out into the sea of people and just smiled as she continued to play her guitar and sing. She could still feel Heero's eyes on her, she always could tell. They burned through her flesh and saw her insides.
Im on the outside
Im looking' in
I can see through you
see what you cover
cause inside your ugly
you ugly like me
I can see through you
see what your really.
all the time
I felt like this wont end
weren't for you
and that tasted
what I could never have
it's from you
all those times
that i tried
my intentions
full of pride
all a waste
no time anymore
im on the outside
Im looking' in
I can see through you
see what you cover
cause inside your ugly
your ugly like me
cause i can see through you
see the real you
all the times
that i've cried
all this wasted
it's all inside
and i feel
all this pain
stuffed it down
it's back again
and i lie
hear in bed
alone
i can't make
my fear
tomorrow it will be ok
As Relena sang she continued to look around her surroundings and smiled. She was happy like this and she always would be. She had Heero now...no more tears... she was on the outside looking in. And she enjoyed it.
ooh
im on the outside
Im looking' in
I can see through you
see what you cover
cause inside your ugly
your ugly like me
cause i can see through you
see the real you
She smiled as the song ended. "Take care everyone! Thank you
for coming!" she screamed into the mic and walked off of the stage to the
left to prevent questioning looks from everyone els. She walked out the
the exiting door to sign autographs an saw someone formiliar. She continued
to walk through the crowd she could hear people yelling out her name for
her signature. As she came closer she went wide eyes as she saw Heero laughing
and pointing at something. She followed his finger and saw a grumbling
Duo with Soda all over him. She chuckled and that when Heero went silent.
She looked at him questioningly and he just smiled. Oh, how good he looked
like that. That smile could make her die. She heard and saw the note pads
and pens all around her. She smiled and began to sign autographs for the
people. She loved her fans they all said her music was moving and it made
them think alot about their life and change it to good. She loved this...it
was practically doing what she use to just loving it instead of having
a burden.
Once she was done it was about 2 a.m. and she was tired. She had been their for 3 hours. She never knew so many people where there. Then she remembered the place was sold out. Heero and the others disappeared after the Duo case. She shrugged it off and walked through the empty stadium. She looked around and smiled as the lights where still on. She singed with her arms spread wide opened and spinning around looking at the ceiling.
"She wears a coat of color
Loved by some,
feared by others
She's immortalized
in young men's eyes
Lust she breeds
in the eyes of brothers
Violent sons make
bitter mothers
So close your eyes,
here's your surprise"
She continued to sing to herself not noticing the noise of the instruments.
"Beautiful is empty
Beautiful is free
Beautiful loves no one
Beautiful stripped me
stripped me
stripped me
In your mind she's your companion
Vile instincts often candid
Your regret is all that's left
Beautiful is empty
Beautiful is free
Beautiful loves no one
Beautiful stripped me
stripped me
stripped me
stripped me
stripped me
She told me where I'm going
And it's far away from home
I think I'll go there on my own
I think I'll go there on my own
She told me where I'm going
And it's far away from home
I think I'll go there on my own
Beautiful is empty
Beautiful is free
Beautiful loves no one
Beautiful stripped me
stripped me
stripped me
stripped me
stripped me"
As she finished she realized that she wasn't the only one in there. She heard instruments moving as the curtain went up she saw Heero at her mic and the rest of the band plus a piano. Relena lifted an eyebrow and Heero put his finger to his lips. As she heard the music play. She knew this song and all of a sudden she heard a beautiful voice and it was coming from Heero. She smiled with dilate.
Relena jumped up and down screaming and hollering. She ran up to the stage as Heero was bending down to get off. Once heero hit the floor on his feet Relena had pounced on him holding him tight. He smiled At her and stroked her hair. Relena let go and blushed. "Sorry..about that..I-I-I" she was stuttering. She could use to do speeches all the time and now she stuters.'I am weak' she thought and looked down in shame. Heero put his knuckles under her chin and pulled her head up to look at him. He searched her eyes for answers to everything to the world and the reason she is how she is. It was a simple answer...she was an ANGEL. Heero wrapped his arms around her waist pulling Relena closely to him. Relena's arms wrapped around his neck and she pulled his head to hers. "I love you.." Heero said looking into Relena's lovely eyes. Relena's eyes looked so confused but filled with love. 'Do I love him still??' she thought. She felt Heero's grip around her waist loosen. She had to say something before he got the wrong idea. Relena now with fear in her eyes looked up to meet Heero's intense gaze it looked so hurt, the emotion of rejection showed clearly. 'Yes..with in every day I love him even more.' she thought and smiled as love returned in her eyes. "I love you, Heero Yuy the Perfect Soldier. My perfect soldier." she said and felt his grip around her waist tighten.
"GO GET HER HEERO!" Duo screamed from the stage. Relena busted out laughing as Heero gave Duo one of his best death glares. Heero began to walk taking Relena with him. Her made it to the side of the stage so they couldn't see. Heero leaned up against the stage and pulled Relena to him causing her head to jerk and one it came near his head he took her lips to his. Relena smiled in the kiss and could feel Heero pressing her lips to open. She did so and Heero's tongue felt almost every spot her could reach. Relena's tongue began to play with Heero's as they could hear the instruments moving. Heero looked to see them packing everything up. Relena saw as well and began to pull away. Heero pulled back so she couldn't get away. Relena began to squirm. Heero was happy just were he was and wasn't planning on moving. Relena gave up and began to play with the hairs on the back of his neck. Heero's hands moved up inside her shirt roaming around her back memorizing every bump. Relena gave out a slight gasp while looking up. Heero's head moved to her neck as he began to suck and lightly bite down on her neck. Relena moaned out with joy as Heero continued to give her pleasure. Relena's hands left his neck and went under his shirt going up and roaming his chest. Heero shivered at her touch. It was so pure so soft...everything he wasn't, but she didn't seem to care she just excepted him for who he was. He loved that about her, the one thing out of a million he loves about her. Relena's hands moved to his back as she found her place she set her around rapped around him as he continued to suck. "I think we need more than a crow bar to pull these two apart." Duo said as he stood their laughing. Heero's arms moved from where they were and He looked up at glare at Duo.
Relena moved her hands quickly and blushed 50 different shades of red. Heero smirked seeing this. "Come on lets go home..and no naughty naughty on the bus, that's for me and Hilde." Duo said smiling like an Idiot. He walked off and left Relena and Heero to get ready and go the the bus.
Once they got their the driver looked impatient and pissed. Heero didn't care but Relena said sorry for taking long to him. Relena sat looking out the window watching all the lights from outside as Heero sits down in the boof laying his head in his hands. 'What's missing?' Relena thought. She pulled out her note book and began to write away.
When they got home Relena ran into her room and sleeped for hours... or days to her. Once she woke up it was bright outside. She grumbled and sat up. She looked around and put on a long black baggy shirt. She stifled a yawn and walked out of the room.
Relena turned to the stairs and looked down. They seemed so far down. She sighed and headed down stairs. She noticed it was silent and looked at the microwave clock. '3.00 am' she blinked a few times. She had been asleep for a hole day? She wondered to the study and saw Heero typing on his laptop. 'Im not ever in the sanq kingdom yet he still does that.' she rolled her eyes and walked over to the table where coffee was kept warm at all hours. 'You would think it would be in the Kitchen but on, heero had to have it here.' she thought and got a cup of coffee. She heard the typing stop and a chair move. 'He is coming over here...most likely to put me to bed..' she thought. "Relena...." her name came out of his mouth like a prayer. Relena turned around and Prussian Blue eyes starred into aquamarine. Heero put his hand on her shoulder. "What are you doing up?" he said. Relena looked at him and gave a weary smile. "Just woke up. Was I really asleep for two days?" she looked at Heero and he nodded. "Due to stress said the doctor they had come in." he said.
Relena too a sip of her coffee and almost choked on it. "Too strong." she managed to get out through all of the coughing. She looked up at Heero and saw a smirk on his face. "What's so funny?" she asked puzzled. He just shook his head. "You need to get back to bed, the doctor will come later to see if you are all right." he said. Relena lifted an eyebrow. "What makes you think I'll go back to bed. Maybe I want to stay in here with you..." she said. Heero's hand moved to her cheek and stayed their for a moment. "I say so." he said flatly and walked back to the desk. Relena's eyebrows unlighted in frustration. 'So stubborn!' she thought. Heero turned around just as she turned letting her hair fly around her making it seem she had wings or something of the type. The computer light shimmered on his face as she opened the door and turned to look at him. "Don't stay up too late. It's bad for your health." she said with a slight smirk and shut the door behind her. Heero put his hand on his fore-head and moved his bangs out from his back. He looked at the door and headed for it.
Relena walked slowly to her room looking around noticing how slow life
can be at times. She continued to walk intill she heard a door opened and
close. She turned and saw Heero. His face was emotionless like always but
now with that little spark of love. Relena stood their. Her world froze.
Everytime he was near her world froze lingering on this one moment. Wishing
for it to never end. She feared to wake up alone and cry again. She felt
Heero's arms around her waist and pull her up against his body. That's
when her shields fell down again. He always knew how to make her shields
from the world fall down. Relena just rested against his chest as the silent
tears ran down her cheeks. She puts her arms under his and held to his
shoulders. Heero's hands moved to her thigh and pulled her up so he could
carry her to bed. Relena gasped and heero just smirked. He walked into
her room and laid her down. He shut the door and sat down next to the bed.
"When you go to sleep I'll leave." he said. I sat up and got out of the
bed. Heero grunted and pushed me back down. I rolled over to the other
side and stood up. I went to my closet and pulled out my guitar. "Im not
sleepy so Im going to practice..." I said and sat down on the bed pulling
out my note book from under the bed. I could feel him watching me I just
began to play as I read the lyrics in my head and said them.
"I spent a day by the river
It was quiet and the wind stood still
I spent some time with nature
To remind me of all that's real
It's funny how silence speaks sometimes when you're alone
And remember that you feel
Again I stand against the Faceless Man
Now I saw a face on the water
It looked humble but willing to fight
I saw the will of a warrior
His yoke is easy and His burden is light
He looked me right in the eyes
Direct and concise to remind me
To always do what's right
Again I stand against the Faceless Man
'Cause if the face inside can't see the light
I know I'll have to walk alone
And if I walk alone to the other side
I know I might not make it home
Again I stand against the Faceless Man
Next time I see this face
I'll say I choose to live for always
So won't you come inside And never go away"
I finished and heard clapping. I looked up to see Heero clapping and a smile crossed my face. I turned some pages. I put the guitar up. I remembered the tune to this song and began to sang.
" I will never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than you
I will never
find another lover more precious than you, more precious than you
Boy You are
Close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me
you're like my father,
Close to me
you're like my sister,
Close to me
you're like my brother
You are the
only one my everything and for you this song I sing
As I sang I could feel his eyes upon me. He was listening with intents.
(CHORUS)
All my life
I pray for someone like you
I thank God
that I, that I finally found you
All my life
I pray for someone like you
I hope that
you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray
that you do, love me too
Said I promised
to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm
thinking of I praise the Lord above,
For sending
me your love, I cherish every hug,
I REALLY LOVE
YOU!!!
(Oh so much,..
baby baby!)
All my life,
I pray for someone like you,
I thank God
(thank god I found you)that I, that I finally found you
(Oh!) All my
life(life!) I pray for someone like you
I hope that
you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray
that you do, love me
You're all that
I've ever known, your smile on your face, all I see is a glow,
You turned my
life around, You picked me up when I was down,
You're all that
I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,
You picked me
up when I was down
You're all that
I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,
You picked me
up when I was down & I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that
you do love me too
He smirked. His smile was a smirk. That's what lights up everything. His smirk or smile.
All my life,
I pray for someone like you,
I thank God
that I, that I finally found you
All my life
I pray for someone like you
I hope that
you feel the same way too "
Heero had moved to the bed and was sitting next to Relena. She looked into his eyes and smiled. She turned the page even though this was a sad song she was going to sing it.
"Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.
Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
I cheat, but for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.
Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free
Chorus
Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO!
So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight
Chorus
Part of me...
Oh... "
Relena finished and Heero looked at her puzzled. "What made you wanna
write that?" He said. "My life, when I was in the Sanq Kingdom, I
felt like a freak on a leash." Relena said as she closed the note book.
Heero looked at her just as Relena looked up at him. Heero smiled. "Please,
no more sadness." he said with pleading eyes. Relena looked into his eyes
and searched for a moment. Relena leaned to Heero as he did the same. Their
lips met and instantly went into a passion frenzy. They searched each others
body that night or morning and they did it every night since then because
loving someone makes you feel the need to be with them every waking and
sleeping second.
A/N: Well I finished it! ^_^