A silent madness Ch 3
Summary and synposis: Okay for all those of you that you don't want to read the
other chapter or go back and find them. In I am writing this very short summary of the
other chapters in this story. So far Jubilee was captured by Sabretooth and dragged to the
Canadan woods, Wolverine followed. The usual fight between Sabretooth and
Wolverine insued, but for once there was a winner. Sabretooth, after that Jubilee cut
loose and paffed him into little tiny pieces. Jubilee doesn't get a chance to talk to wolvie
before he dies, and Sabretooth is dead. Enter the X-men, the professor shocked at
Jubilee's actions tells the X-men not to go after her when she runs into the woods.
Gambit disobeys and followes Jubilee to Wolverine's cabin in the woods. Jubilee takes
Gambit into a town and leaves him there. The X-men hold a memorial service for
Wolverine where Logan friends and Sean ask about Jubilee. Now we go back to
Jubilee's part of the story.
Jubilee made it back to the cabin just after nightfall. The glint of light peaking threw
the windows guided her out of the forest into the comfort of the cabin. She pushed open
the unlocked door and sagged into a chair. The day had been tiring physically and
emotionally. Jubilee rubbed her weary eyes. She hadn't ment to yell at Gambit but she
just couldn't take him right now or anyone for that matter. The hike into town today
seemed longer then it had ever been. She hadn't had a chance to totally recover all the
sleep she lost when Sabretooth had her. Jubilee pushed herself out of the chair and
cooked some canned soup she had bought. Heating soup being all she could manage with
her meager cooking abilities. She put the dishes in the sink to wash them later. Jubilee
turned off all the light except one dim bulb to serve as a night-light.
"God I miss you Wolvie," she cried to the heavens. Before she slipped into bed and
fell asleep as soon as the down pillow cushioned her head. Her rest did not go
undisturbed. Something jolted her out of sleep. She woke up sitting upright in the bed,
scanning the room for the source of the disturbance that caused her to wake up. Jubilee
swung her legs out of bed. Inhaling sharply as her feet hit the icy cold floor.
"Who's there? Come on out, or I'll paff you into next week."
As they got closer there bodies changed from a wispy unsubstantial look to solid
more tangible forms. Jubilee was afraid. But these apparitions looked familiar almost like
she knew them. They lowered the hoods that had obscured their faces and Jubilee bit
back her gasp. They just stared back at her. Waiting for her to start the conversation.
"Mom, Dad I haven't seen you in a while. They nodded in response. Why are you here
now? Are you going to help me? Am I dying and you have come to take me with you? I
am ready to go. My reason to stay here is gone. So tell me what you want."
Jubilee father spoke his voice lacked the strength it usually had but that strength was
replaced with a haunting quality. "You killed us Jubilation. We are the first blood on
your stained hands."
"I didn't kill you. You died in a car accident. Why are you saying this, Dad? Mom
make him stop. Its not true."
"But it is true Jubilation, she said. If we hadn't had you we could have moved away
from the danger. If you had tried to keep us home that night we would have lived. Our
blood is on your hands alone."
They walked in a circle around her chanting, blood on your hand, blood on your
hands.
She tried to grab them but her hands passed right through. "I didn't know. How
could I? I would have stopped you if I had known. Mom, Dad don't do this!"
They kept chanting as they faded into the darkness.
"No Mom and Dad! Don't leave me please! I am sorry I really am just come back
she sobbed."
As her parents faded another figure appeared, dressed like her parents in the long
flowing black robes, but death had not stolen everything from this figure. Cynjen came
out still radiating that SoCal attitude she possessed in life. Jubilee looked back in
disbelief. Not completely understanding why Cynjen was here.
"I know I had nothing to do with your death. I wasn't even there."
"That's just it Jubes. You weren't there. I got cornered in an alley with no backup.
I got knifed by some guys in a gang and left to bleed to death in an alley behind a
Dumpster. As my partner and friend your should have been there bleeding right beside
me. I never had another partner after you. And you left me for your precious Wolvie and
his X-men. You could have saved me if you had been there. With the two of us and your
sparks we would have been able to scare them off or at least been able to run."
"I couldn't have saved you either Cynjen. We both just would have died there."
"That was what is supposed to happen with partners. You're never supposed to be
alone, like I was Jubes."
Cynjen faded while Jubilee pleaded with her not to go. "Please Cyn, wait I can
explain let me talk to you. I want to try make it up to you."
Cynjen was gone but Jubilee was not alone. Cyclops and a smaller hooded figure
emerged from the shadows. Jubilee didn't get a chance to recover from Cynjen's
accusations before Cyclops started in on her.
"You killed me too Jubilee, your former teammate."
"No, no way the nano bomb killed you. I didn't fire it. I didn't know about it. Talk
to someone else you got the wrong girl. I may be responsible for the other but not you.
And who is the midget beside you."
"But you did kill me Jubilee. When Wolverine smelt you in the desert he ran off.
He wasn't there to protect the team. You distracted him during the fighting because he
was worrying about, you wondering about what had happened to you."
The figure next to Cyclops removed its hood only to reveal a younger version of
Jubilee. "I am the piece of that you let Bastion take from you. The piece you watched
die on the floor of the cave while he stood over you. I am your innocent and your faith in
Wolverine that somehow he would always save you when you really needed it. Bastion
killed me and you didn't even fight back. You just let me go. You said that it was for the
good of the team, the good of the X-men. But that's not true why would these adults
expect you to sacrifice everything for them when they wouldn't do the same for you.
You should have just told Bastion what he want to hear anything to save me, to save
yourself. Instead you killed Cyke and me. You could have saved us both Jubilee." They
both faded away into the shadows.
The next figure's death was still as fresh as the day it happened. Jubilee never got to
grieve for this one like she had wanted to. After all, she was only his friend not his
girlfriend. Not like Monet, the team spent months babying her. They didn't even ask
how Jubilee felt. Ev, her first crush, the first boy she had kissed dead before he had a
chance to grow up. Not for some great cause like the fight for mutant rights, dead
because of Adrienne's plot and the other student's ignorance. He stood there in front of
Jubilee just like he looked before he died so full of life.
"Jubilee you killed me too. You may not have set the bombs but you might as well
have. It was you they wanted. That fire in your room was a warning for you to leave.
They knew you were a mutant. They saw you with your sparks one night. Why couldn't
you hide your powers better. They assumed I was a mutant because I hung out with you?
They didn't know for sure that I was a mutant. You were with the X-men for crying out
loud. When Sean told you about the bombs in the school you weren't calm and cool.
You panicked making you a liability to the team. You should have been helping to
diffuse those bombs. I am sure you learned that sort of stuff when you were an X-man.
If you just would have been a little more responsible. Why can't you ever be responsible?
Do you know how much anguish could have been prevented by that one simple thing?"
Jubilee couldn't take anymore. She fell to her knees as the figure faded away. She
rocked back and forth, on the cold floor. Sobbing out her words for anyone who was
listening to hear. " I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please forgive me, Please! Jubilee's words
became intelligible, as she sobbed with the face resting on her knees, tears soaking
through her jeans. She stayed like that for hours the sun rose and fell without her
noticing. She would cry, drift into sleep for an hour or two at most, and then start crying
again. Not just tears but heart wrenching sobs, tears that came from the blood of her soul,
tear to float away in a river of pain. So much time passed with Jubilee like that on the
floor even she had no idea how long. So when strong arms picked her up she was almost
insensible not caring whom those arms belong to. It was so comforting just to be held
she wanted to forget herself in that comforting, warm embrace. But her mind wouldn't
let her. The arms that held her were so familiar, but no one should be here. Her cheek
rested against a barrel chest, her head tucked comfortably under the person's chin, like
had happened so many times before. Jubilee wrenched an arm free to run her hands up
the set of arms that held her. Up to the shoulder, the neck, and then the face. Her fingers
traced a set of rough sideburns up to a point of hair on the head. Jubilee pushed away
from this person. It couldn't be, it should be but Jubilee no longer cared her one wish had
come true.
"Wolvie you're here your back. I knew you'd come. I am so happy to see you. I
have so much I want to tell you so much I need to say. But your back I have all the time
in the world. I told Storm and Kitty what you wanted me to. I talked to Amiko poor kid;
I made up something for her. I hope you aren't mad about that but Yuko couldn't get her
to stop crying. But now I can tell everyone what you wanted them to hear. Maybe you
can think of something better to say to Amiko. I did the best I could. Wolvie?"
He just stared back at her sorrow in his eyes.
"What's wrong, she was panicking? You can't talk can you? Jubilee stood up and
kicked a chair. Who does this? Who takes you away and doesn't let me say goodbye.
Then bring you back but won't let you talk to me? What cosmic force did I piss off?
Why does this stuff always happen to me? Why can't I be normal and maybe angst free
for more than a month. I am sorry, she screamed at the sky!"
"Wolvie please talk to me. Please, I miss you so much. I never got to hear what you
wanted to say to me. Just a couple of words. I'd even listen to you tell me about how
you dying was my fault, anything. You hate me; your biggest mistake was letting me tag
along. I don't care anything just your voice. Do this one thing for me Wolvie, please."
Wolverine did the one thing he could do. He walked over to her an hugged her again
because there was nothing else he could do. She could feel him beginning to fade. He
was becoming less solid, less real. Even after he faded his touch lingered. She could still
feel his warmth.
Another set of arms clamped around her like steel bands. These arms held none of
the comfort that Wolverine's had in fact those arms stole her warmth. The hot breath on
her neck raised Goosebumps making her shiver with fear. There was really only one
demon left. One person she still had to see. The snarling voice confirmed it, Sabretooth.
"Neva thought you had it in ya frail. The great Sabretooth, taken out by some punk
kid with a lucky shot. At least I took out the runt. He really musta ment something to ya,
to make you kill for him." Sabretooth traced a claw down her cheek and she could feel
the blood run down her face.
Jubilee's mind screamed *That's not right he can't do that. He is dead. But then
again I know I felt Wolvie when he held me so somehow Sabretooth can touch me too.
*
"Didn't think I could do that didja frail. Well you killed me, that gives me special
rights. I am as real as you make the runt, so to get rid of me you have to get rid of him.
Ha Ha I am gonna enjoy this frail. I can't torment you forever. You ain't never gonna
get rid of me kid." He let Jubilee go. "Go on run try something shoot of some of those
cute fireworks. I'll be back I promise. You can't run from something in yer head."
"No I won't listen to you your not real. None of this is real."
"Oh but it is frail this is as real as it gets."
"Fine, if you are real then eat hot plasma!" Jubilee filled the cabin with sparks
putting neat little holes in the walls and blowing the door open. The sparks passed right
threw Sabretooth. He didn't even flinch just laughed.
"Nice light show frail, have you ever though of a job as a firecracker. Next time do
more red sparks I really like those."
"I'll make you go. You can't talk to me if I'm dead." Jubilee charged her powers
and turned her hands in on herself. If she could just overload her ability to absorb her
paffs then maybe she be done with all of this. Then she fired and in the split second
between when her paffs left her hand and when she absorbed then she had one last
thought.
*I'm coming Wolvie. Wait for me.*
Jubilee fell to the floor in a boneless puddle. Limp, unconsciousness, but breathing
barely.
Author's end notes:
Like it don't like it? I need feedback to see where this story is going. But don't' worry I
am not leaving Jubilee alone with her demons for much longer. Currently Sean and
Heather Hudson are speeding they way to her. Anyway I'll try to get the next part out a
little sooner. See ya.
Summary and synposis: Okay for all those of you that you don't want to read the
other chapter or go back and find them. In I am writing this very short summary of the
other chapters in this story. So far Jubilee was captured by Sabretooth and dragged to the
Canadan woods, Wolverine followed. The usual fight between Sabretooth and
Wolverine insued, but for once there was a winner. Sabretooth, after that Jubilee cut
loose and paffed him into little tiny pieces. Jubilee doesn't get a chance to talk to wolvie
before he dies, and Sabretooth is dead. Enter the X-men, the professor shocked at
Jubilee's actions tells the X-men not to go after her when she runs into the woods.
Gambit disobeys and followes Jubilee to Wolverine's cabin in the woods. Jubilee takes
Gambit into a town and leaves him there. The X-men hold a memorial service for
Wolverine where Logan friends and Sean ask about Jubilee. Now we go back to
Jubilee's part of the story.
Jubilee made it back to the cabin just after nightfall. The glint of light peaking threw
the windows guided her out of the forest into the comfort of the cabin. She pushed open
the unlocked door and sagged into a chair. The day had been tiring physically and
emotionally. Jubilee rubbed her weary eyes. She hadn't ment to yell at Gambit but she
just couldn't take him right now or anyone for that matter. The hike into town today
seemed longer then it had ever been. She hadn't had a chance to totally recover all the
sleep she lost when Sabretooth had her. Jubilee pushed herself out of the chair and
cooked some canned soup she had bought. Heating soup being all she could manage with
her meager cooking abilities. She put the dishes in the sink to wash them later. Jubilee
turned off all the light except one dim bulb to serve as a night-light.
"God I miss you Wolvie," she cried to the heavens. Before she slipped into bed and
fell asleep as soon as the down pillow cushioned her head. Her rest did not go
undisturbed. Something jolted her out of sleep. She woke up sitting upright in the bed,
scanning the room for the source of the disturbance that caused her to wake up. Jubilee
swung her legs out of bed. Inhaling sharply as her feet hit the icy cold floor.
"Who's there? Come on out, or I'll paff you into next week."
As they got closer there bodies changed from a wispy unsubstantial look to solid
more tangible forms. Jubilee was afraid. But these apparitions looked familiar almost like
she knew them. They lowered the hoods that had obscured their faces and Jubilee bit
back her gasp. They just stared back at her. Waiting for her to start the conversation.
"Mom, Dad I haven't seen you in a while. They nodded in response. Why are you here
now? Are you going to help me? Am I dying and you have come to take me with you? I
am ready to go. My reason to stay here is gone. So tell me what you want."
Jubilee father spoke his voice lacked the strength it usually had but that strength was
replaced with a haunting quality. "You killed us Jubilation. We are the first blood on
your stained hands."
"I didn't kill you. You died in a car accident. Why are you saying this, Dad? Mom
make him stop. Its not true."
"But it is true Jubilation, she said. If we hadn't had you we could have moved away
from the danger. If you had tried to keep us home that night we would have lived. Our
blood is on your hands alone."
They walked in a circle around her chanting, blood on your hand, blood on your
hands.
She tried to grab them but her hands passed right through. "I didn't know. How
could I? I would have stopped you if I had known. Mom, Dad don't do this!"
They kept chanting as they faded into the darkness.
"No Mom and Dad! Don't leave me please! I am sorry I really am just come back
she sobbed."
As her parents faded another figure appeared, dressed like her parents in the long
flowing black robes, but death had not stolen everything from this figure. Cynjen came
out still radiating that SoCal attitude she possessed in life. Jubilee looked back in
disbelief. Not completely understanding why Cynjen was here.
"I know I had nothing to do with your death. I wasn't even there."
"That's just it Jubes. You weren't there. I got cornered in an alley with no backup.
I got knifed by some guys in a gang and left to bleed to death in an alley behind a
Dumpster. As my partner and friend your should have been there bleeding right beside
me. I never had another partner after you. And you left me for your precious Wolvie and
his X-men. You could have saved me if you had been there. With the two of us and your
sparks we would have been able to scare them off or at least been able to run."
"I couldn't have saved you either Cynjen. We both just would have died there."
"That was what is supposed to happen with partners. You're never supposed to be
alone, like I was Jubes."
Cynjen faded while Jubilee pleaded with her not to go. "Please Cyn, wait I can
explain let me talk to you. I want to try make it up to you."
Cynjen was gone but Jubilee was not alone. Cyclops and a smaller hooded figure
emerged from the shadows. Jubilee didn't get a chance to recover from Cynjen's
accusations before Cyclops started in on her.
"You killed me too Jubilee, your former teammate."
"No, no way the nano bomb killed you. I didn't fire it. I didn't know about it. Talk
to someone else you got the wrong girl. I may be responsible for the other but not you.
And who is the midget beside you."
"But you did kill me Jubilee. When Wolverine smelt you in the desert he ran off.
He wasn't there to protect the team. You distracted him during the fighting because he
was worrying about, you wondering about what had happened to you."
The figure next to Cyclops removed its hood only to reveal a younger version of
Jubilee. "I am the piece of that you let Bastion take from you. The piece you watched
die on the floor of the cave while he stood over you. I am your innocent and your faith in
Wolverine that somehow he would always save you when you really needed it. Bastion
killed me and you didn't even fight back. You just let me go. You said that it was for the
good of the team, the good of the X-men. But that's not true why would these adults
expect you to sacrifice everything for them when they wouldn't do the same for you.
You should have just told Bastion what he want to hear anything to save me, to save
yourself. Instead you killed Cyke and me. You could have saved us both Jubilee." They
both faded away into the shadows.
The next figure's death was still as fresh as the day it happened. Jubilee never got to
grieve for this one like she had wanted to. After all, she was only his friend not his
girlfriend. Not like Monet, the team spent months babying her. They didn't even ask
how Jubilee felt. Ev, her first crush, the first boy she had kissed dead before he had a
chance to grow up. Not for some great cause like the fight for mutant rights, dead
because of Adrienne's plot and the other student's ignorance. He stood there in front of
Jubilee just like he looked before he died so full of life.
"Jubilee you killed me too. You may not have set the bombs but you might as well
have. It was you they wanted. That fire in your room was a warning for you to leave.
They knew you were a mutant. They saw you with your sparks one night. Why couldn't
you hide your powers better. They assumed I was a mutant because I hung out with you?
They didn't know for sure that I was a mutant. You were with the X-men for crying out
loud. When Sean told you about the bombs in the school you weren't calm and cool.
You panicked making you a liability to the team. You should have been helping to
diffuse those bombs. I am sure you learned that sort of stuff when you were an X-man.
If you just would have been a little more responsible. Why can't you ever be responsible?
Do you know how much anguish could have been prevented by that one simple thing?"
Jubilee couldn't take anymore. She fell to her knees as the figure faded away. She
rocked back and forth, on the cold floor. Sobbing out her words for anyone who was
listening to hear. " I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please forgive me, Please! Jubilee's words
became intelligible, as she sobbed with the face resting on her knees, tears soaking
through her jeans. She stayed like that for hours the sun rose and fell without her
noticing. She would cry, drift into sleep for an hour or two at most, and then start crying
again. Not just tears but heart wrenching sobs, tears that came from the blood of her soul,
tear to float away in a river of pain. So much time passed with Jubilee like that on the
floor even she had no idea how long. So when strong arms picked her up she was almost
insensible not caring whom those arms belong to. It was so comforting just to be held
she wanted to forget herself in that comforting, warm embrace. But her mind wouldn't
let her. The arms that held her were so familiar, but no one should be here. Her cheek
rested against a barrel chest, her head tucked comfortably under the person's chin, like
had happened so many times before. Jubilee wrenched an arm free to run her hands up
the set of arms that held her. Up to the shoulder, the neck, and then the face. Her fingers
traced a set of rough sideburns up to a point of hair on the head. Jubilee pushed away
from this person. It couldn't be, it should be but Jubilee no longer cared her one wish had
come true.
"Wolvie you're here your back. I knew you'd come. I am so happy to see you. I
have so much I want to tell you so much I need to say. But your back I have all the time
in the world. I told Storm and Kitty what you wanted me to. I talked to Amiko poor kid;
I made up something for her. I hope you aren't mad about that but Yuko couldn't get her
to stop crying. But now I can tell everyone what you wanted them to hear. Maybe you
can think of something better to say to Amiko. I did the best I could. Wolvie?"
He just stared back at her sorrow in his eyes.
"What's wrong, she was panicking? You can't talk can you? Jubilee stood up and
kicked a chair. Who does this? Who takes you away and doesn't let me say goodbye.
Then bring you back but won't let you talk to me? What cosmic force did I piss off?
Why does this stuff always happen to me? Why can't I be normal and maybe angst free
for more than a month. I am sorry, she screamed at the sky!"
"Wolvie please talk to me. Please, I miss you so much. I never got to hear what you
wanted to say to me. Just a couple of words. I'd even listen to you tell me about how
you dying was my fault, anything. You hate me; your biggest mistake was letting me tag
along. I don't care anything just your voice. Do this one thing for me Wolvie, please."
Wolverine did the one thing he could do. He walked over to her an hugged her again
because there was nothing else he could do. She could feel him beginning to fade. He
was becoming less solid, less real. Even after he faded his touch lingered. She could still
feel his warmth.
Another set of arms clamped around her like steel bands. These arms held none of
the comfort that Wolverine's had in fact those arms stole her warmth. The hot breath on
her neck raised Goosebumps making her shiver with fear. There was really only one
demon left. One person she still had to see. The snarling voice confirmed it, Sabretooth.
"Neva thought you had it in ya frail. The great Sabretooth, taken out by some punk
kid with a lucky shot. At least I took out the runt. He really musta ment something to ya,
to make you kill for him." Sabretooth traced a claw down her cheek and she could feel
the blood run down her face.
Jubilee's mind screamed *That's not right he can't do that. He is dead. But then
again I know I felt Wolvie when he held me so somehow Sabretooth can touch me too.
*
"Didn't think I could do that didja frail. Well you killed me, that gives me special
rights. I am as real as you make the runt, so to get rid of me you have to get rid of him.
Ha Ha I am gonna enjoy this frail. I can't torment you forever. You ain't never gonna
get rid of me kid." He let Jubilee go. "Go on run try something shoot of some of those
cute fireworks. I'll be back I promise. You can't run from something in yer head."
"No I won't listen to you your not real. None of this is real."
"Oh but it is frail this is as real as it gets."
"Fine, if you are real then eat hot plasma!" Jubilee filled the cabin with sparks
putting neat little holes in the walls and blowing the door open. The sparks passed right
threw Sabretooth. He didn't even flinch just laughed.
"Nice light show frail, have you ever though of a job as a firecracker. Next time do
more red sparks I really like those."
"I'll make you go. You can't talk to me if I'm dead." Jubilee charged her powers
and turned her hands in on herself. If she could just overload her ability to absorb her
paffs then maybe she be done with all of this. Then she fired and in the split second
between when her paffs left her hand and when she absorbed then she had one last
thought.
*I'm coming Wolvie. Wait for me.*
Jubilee fell to the floor in a boneless puddle. Limp, unconsciousness, but breathing
barely.
Author's end notes:
Like it don't like it? I need feedback to see where this story is going. But don't' worry I
am not leaving Jubilee alone with her demons for much longer. Currently Sean and
Heather Hudson are speeding they way to her. Anyway I'll try to get the next part out a
little sooner. See ya.