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short but it popped into my head and I just had to get it on paper. Hope
ya like it! 10 Things I hate About you I need her. Why the hell can't she see that! She never does. Mimi has never treated me like she does HIM. She's never looked at me like she does him. And It hurts. There are others I could go to, that I know. But I can't, I won't. None of them are like her. Everytime I'm with another I'll always be comparing them to Mimi. 'Her hair isn't as soft as Mimi's, or Her eyes just aren't as vibrant as Mimi's'. I have no one who understand, to tell this to. Everyone has their own affair to worry about. Even my own sibling, the one I've looked after since the day they were born has turned their back on me. They all say to turn away, to just walk away, that she was obviously meant for him. I can't do that. Why can't I ever win? I've always been the one to get the short end of the straw.He has everything! Why can't he just let me have her! Thats all I want! Just to have her look at me the way she does him. Mimi says its nothing. Those looks don't lie. Does she think I don't see the way her eyes will go to him when she thinks no one is looking? She thinks my back is turned but I've always watched. Eversince I say her. Her beautiful auburn hair hidden under her pink hat. Everytime him was with her I would try desperately to turn her towards me. Look at me! See me! Please! Sometimes I feel as if it wouldn't matter what I did. As I all this has always been about them, just them, and I'm just some sort of temporary distraction. Just a little postpone 'till the main event. Like everyone is on the edge of their seats waiting for them to become a couple, not even sparing a glance to the one who gets their heart broken. Just a little toy, the cracked egg to make and omlet or however that stupid expression goes. They think I have everything. That all the girls go for the rough tough persona. Heh, they think that they can be the ones to crack through the exterior to get to the treasure inside. I don't want them to. I just want her. I'm sick of being the rebound guy! If I'm such a hero then why can't I ever get the girl? Not just any fairytale girl, but the girl. Mimi. She's so perfect. Her flaws always embaress her but she just doesn't seem to get that, thats what everybody loves about her. I'm not stupid, I now there's been other competition, none I had to really worry about, just enough to put up a good fight. What am I to her? A friend? An annoyance? Just an aquaintence? The rebound boy? A brother? A lover? I want so much from her that I know, no matter of fighting could ever get. I'm getting desperate, even enough as to try to sabotosh his moves to get her. I just wish that I could have something to get her to stay! Does she know that everything I do has always had some sort of connection to her? Its true. I've gone to the gym to get more muscle to be the guy every girl, and hopefully her, dreams of. I'm swarmed by all but the one that I want. It doesn't seem to matter as she goes about her business and treats me the same as if nothings changed! I've even gotten so desperate as to wait at his apartment door for him to answer just so I can fall to his mercy and beg him not to take her from me. I could never do it though, I would always run away at the last minute. God I'm such a coward! Or am I just stubborn? Thinking that maybe I have more of a chance with her than I think. She stays for a while, but everytime she leaves I find my head collapsing on the back of the door. Tasting the tears run down my cheek and I don't know why. Maybe I am just the stunt double for the real star. I always shake the thought out of my head and say that its a lie. I have just as much a chance with her as he does! I will never beg him to not take her from me! He can't have her. I'll kill him first. I've suffered to much to have yet another loved one taken from me! Yes I am the one that suffers. I deserve her more than he ever could. I was born for her! Doesn't that mean anything!? I could make her happy. I know I could. We would be so happy together. She could erase all the hurt. My Mimi and I. She would make me happy. No thats an understatement, elated is more the word. Please choose me. Just let someone choose the outcast for once. Is that really so much to ask? To be chosen? To be loved? All my life it was always someone else, always. Please, let me be selfish just this once. I'll spend the rest of my afterlife in hell to repay my debt if god lets her choose me. Mimi. That name still runs shivers up my spine. Eversince I saw her at camp I had become obsessed with her. Faster than I would have thought, that obsession turned to love. Everyone was repulsed that I could have all these fantasies with her even at such a young age. I wasn't. She was an angel. A goddess. Why couldn't anybody see that damnit! My parents even sent me to a child phycologist once. They stopped when I refused to tell him anything. They then just shrugged it off as simple puppy love. No one understood. Do you have any idea how much it hurts to hold back your true feelings all your life? I know I would scare her off if I bared them to her now. Which is why I don't. I can wait, I'm very patient. I stand on the balcony of my apartment now. Just looking at the stars. They remind me of her. Beautiful and radient. So many words to describe what I feel for her. So many words. I could go on as long as it takes to count the stars in the sky. Is this what Romeo felt for Juliet? No wonder they ended up dieing. You can't last very long with that kind of forbidden love. Is this the fate of my Mimi and I? NO! Romeo and Juliet was a simple story. This is different. This is real. This is love. This is beautiful. Mimi. My beautiful Mimi. I love calling her my Mimi. It makes me feel as if she truely did belong to me. Yes, this was truely a fight to the death for her. I will fight HIM and if necessary kill HIM. Will that make her hate me? No, please god no.....Even heaven itself knows I can't...I can't. Damnit!! There's no way to possible explain what her hating me will do to me! You just have to feel it. All I can say is that I can't. I just can't have her hating me. Nor can I have her loving him. Yet which can't I live with more? I need her. All I need is you Mimi. Just you. Just love me. Be with me my Mimi. I love you. Oh my precious princess, why can't you see? I love the way she looks at me. It doesn't hold what I want it to but it still turns me to butter. She is mine. This is destiny. Not even he can defeat destiny. I won't let him. Yet I can't help but clench my eyes shut and grip the railing of the balcony untill my knuckles turn white with anger and doubt. The wind blows at my slightly longer spikey hair as I growl. "Don't take her from me Taichi. Please, Please don't take my Mimi from me." Yes I truely believed Mimi was my soulmate. But if that was true then.....why were my eyes wet? My eyes shoot open and I glare angrily at the black stary sky. "I love you Mimi." No, I will not give up on you. Not even Taichi will tear you from me. No one takes you, no one hurts you, no one touches you. Don't let me get behind you Taichi. This is war and honor doesn't matter to me. You can't have her. I will rip you heart from behind you if I get the opportunity. And I think you know that. Yes. You know. A smirk overtakes my features as my saphire catlike eyes stare at the moon. This is war. We want the same thing. Two go in and one comes out. And that person will be me. |
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