Living a Lie - Yamato
By: Lord Archive
Digimon belongs to Toei Animation Co., Fox Kids, Saban Entertainment, Bandai, and so on... and is used without consent. I'm only borrowing them I'll return them as soon as they release uncut episodes with original Japanese language and subtitles.
Daisuke: What?! They'll never do that!
Archive: It's not my fault they won't cater to their market.
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I'm such a jerk. I've used my friends in a way that is unimaginable. Using them to cover something I'm ashamed of. Something that would disgrace my family if they ever found out.
Here I am married to a girl who at one time was in love with my best friend. I know she still cares a lot about him and she would be better off with him. But she had to fall in love with me. Someone who is undeserving of her love.
Someone who doesn't even really want her love.
I don't want her love, I want the love of a man. If anyone found out about that, I'd be in serious trouble. My recording contracts would disappear, my family would disown me, and my friends would reject me.
Sure, I enjoyed having sex with my wife. It is pleasurable after all. It's just that I'd rather be with a guy. When she gets so hot and bothered, sometimes it takes all my will power just to perform for her. To keep up my act of being a nice healthy heterosexual husband like she wants me to be. She certainly isn't happy about my 'fetish' for anal sex, but she still lets me do that some times.
My wife was someone I respected, a friend from a time when we had to fight to survive, a comrade in arms in a war we hadn't asked to be in, someone who loves me. I hope she never figures out that I'm a homosexual. That she never finds out how much I betrayed the love she gave me.
And why did I marry her? To keep my shame a secret. To hide what I am to everyone. If I didn't marry her, people would wonder why I never accepted any of the groupies that follow my band. They'd question why I never show interests in girls. With my wife, no one has to ask anything. I'm just being loyal to her.
But, I don't know how much longer I can keep the charade up anymore. I just found out I'm going to be a father. I'm not ready to raise a kid. My music career takes up too much time for me to help raise him.
And just how good of a father can a lying fag like me be to a kid? How can I tell him lying is wrong when he is a result of a lie? If I had been true to myself all along, he would've never been born.
I don't deserve to have any friends.
By: Lord Archive
Digimon belongs to Toei Animation Co., Fox Kids, Saban Entertainment, Bandai, and so on... and is used without consent. I'm only borrowing them I'll return them as soon as they release uncut episodes with original Japanese language and subtitles.
Daisuke: What?! They'll never do that!
Archive: It's not my fault they won't cater to their market.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm such a jerk. I've used my friends in a way that is unimaginable. Using them to cover something I'm ashamed of. Something that would disgrace my family if they ever found out.
Here I am married to a girl who at one time was in love with my best friend. I know she still cares a lot about him and she would be better off with him. But she had to fall in love with me. Someone who is undeserving of her love.
Someone who doesn't even really want her love.
I don't want her love, I want the love of a man. If anyone found out about that, I'd be in serious trouble. My recording contracts would disappear, my family would disown me, and my friends would reject me.
Sure, I enjoyed having sex with my wife. It is pleasurable after all. It's just that I'd rather be with a guy. When she gets so hot and bothered, sometimes it takes all my will power just to perform for her. To keep up my act of being a nice healthy heterosexual husband like she wants me to be. She certainly isn't happy about my 'fetish' for anal sex, but she still lets me do that some times.
My wife was someone I respected, a friend from a time when we had to fight to survive, a comrade in arms in a war we hadn't asked to be in, someone who loves me. I hope she never figures out that I'm a homosexual. That she never finds out how much I betrayed the love she gave me.
And why did I marry her? To keep my shame a secret. To hide what I am to everyone. If I didn't marry her, people would wonder why I never accepted any of the groupies that follow my band. They'd question why I never show interests in girls. With my wife, no one has to ask anything. I'm just being loyal to her.
But, I don't know how much longer I can keep the charade up anymore. I just found out I'm going to be a father. I'm not ready to raise a kid. My music career takes up too much time for me to help raise him.
And just how good of a father can a lying fag like me be to a kid? How can I tell him lying is wrong when he is a result of a lie? If I had been true to myself all along, he would've never been born.
I don't deserve to have any friends.