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The Ocean's Caress - Part Three
" Decided to come, I see.. " Duo monotoned to his partner.
Heero just shrugged a little; he didn't know how it would sound if he told Duo he just dazed out for a moment there.
They walked quietly for a little, before Duo broke the silence, " Why did you come out here? "
" .. To think. " Heero stated flatly.
" About? "
" .. Nothing important. "
" You can't be sure of that. Denying things like that could be a cry for help, you know. "
" Why did YOU come out here? Anything in particular to draw you out? "
" .. Oh, it was.. nothing important. " Duo stopped in his tracks breifly, thinking that one over rapidly, before walking again. Heero arched his eyebrows at Duo incrediously. " A cry of help? .. You shouldn't be depressed, or anything. It might endanger the mission. " Heero mentally slapped himself for letting that slip. His training was permanantly implanted in him.
Duo glared at Heero, and stopped walking. " The mission! God, Heero, don't you ever think of anything else?! .. Don't get depressed.. I HATE you when you say shit like that! How the hell could you POSSIBLY know what I can or can't feel? Like you can STOP depression! You all would be better off with out me, anyway! " Duo gave Heero -- who had turned around, and was facing Duo, staring stupidly at him -- a death glare, and ran the rest of the ways up to the mansion, leaving Heero standing there, staring after him.
Heero shook his head, yelling at himself on the inside, and slowly began the trudge back to the mansion.
**
Duo ran into the house, thankful that no one was around at the moment, and raced upstairs to his and Heero's room. He sat himself down upon the bed, and sighed.
Once he caught his breath, he slowly stood up, and swiftly, and silently walked over to his chest of drawers, pulling out the middle drawer. Inside there lay a black gun.
Picking it up, he caressed it softly, before gently placing it back into the drawer. " .. Too loud.. if anyone hears, and I should happen to miss, they might find me and try to save me.. "
He walked stiffly to the bathroom, and closed the door quietly behind him, not bothering to lock it. Opening a small cabinet in the corner, he pulled out a razor, and sat down gracefully beside the tub.
Though his eyes burned, and he had the horrible sensation to cry, his face remained emotionless, as he slowly drew the blade across his wrist. Had he not been so involved with such a thing, he would have laughed.. Funny how he didn't feel a thing.
Blood began to stream down his arm, to his elbow, before dripping off into the tub, staining the usually white ceramic with the dark reddish colour, which had began to pool underneath the boy's arm.
Staring so hard at his arm, that his vision slightly blurred, he ran the razor across the same wrist in another spot, applying more pressure than the last one. " Dammit.. That's all I'm worth to them.. the stupid mission.. "
His eyes watered, but the tears would not come, though his throat was tightened. More and more blood streamed down his arm, plummeting to the white and red below.
Duo was about to slice his other wrist, when the bathroom door burst open, and who else would stand there, but Mister High-And-Mighty himself.
Heero firmly grabbed Duo's arm, avoiding the cuts, and turned on the water, putting Duo's wrist underneath the cool water. Heero was glaring, and obviously pissed, as Duo finally gave in, and let the tears flow.
Heero, then proceeded to apply iodine, and wrap up Duo's wrist with gauze from the first-aid kit he had grabbed, before dragging Duo out of the bathroom, and seating him firmly on the bed, while looming over his partner, still glaring, though Duo noticed something else in Heero's eyes.. He couldn't make out what, through his tears, though.
" Just WHAT in the hell were you trying to pull?! " Heero nearly screamed at Duo, his colbalt blue eyes were burning with anger -- at himself, for not realizing this sooner, -- fear, and worry.
Duo didn't respond, instead, he looked down, the tears running down his face rapidly.
" Duo, WHY did you try to do something stupid like that? Why?! " Heero tried talking calmly, but his voice still had an edge to it.
" Because.. " Duo shrugged his shoulders limply, " Nobody cares about me. I'm worth shit. The only reason why you all still want me around, is because of the mission. I annoy EVERYBODY. "
" That isn't true, Duo! We ALL care about you! *I* care about you! " Heero shocked himself, letting that slip out, but paid it no heed.. Now was not the time to worry about slips of tongues.
" No you don't! You care about the mission! That's ALL you care about! Don't say you care about people, you can't! You can't feel shit, you're just a heartless bastard, that can't love, and all you can think about is the mission! All you feel is HATE! " Duo spit out the words, more tears flowing. He could actually HEAR his heart breaking... That wasn't supposed to happen..
" Screw the mission! Duo, HOW can you say those things?! It's all BULLSHIT! You don't know me as well as you THINK you do! " Heero had lost control of his tongue by now.
" I can say them QUITE easily! Because it's true and you know it! You CAN'T love! AND EVEN IF YOU COULD, YOU WOULDN'T! "
" How do you know that?! Duo, are you REALLY so blind?! "
" Blind about WHAT? "
" Duo, I LOVE you! " Heero froze; this wasn't supposed to be said yet! He wasn't ready to say that! Oh, God, he screwed up.. He sat down in a chair, and put his head in his hands, keeping his gaze down.
Duo sat in shock on the bed, biting his lip, " .. H-Heero..? "
" I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that.. It just slipped out. " Heero winced inwardly, and prepared himself to get yelled at, but instead, he looked up to see Duo nearly fall onto him, wrapping his arms around him tightly. " Duo..? "
" .. Thank you.. You have no idea.. how much that meant to me.. I .. I love you too, Heero. I've loved you ever since.. well, since I shot you, let's say. " Duo rested his head on Heero's shoulder.. Even if Heero didn't mean it, he needed a hug, anyway..
" Duo, I'm sorry. I should have been there for you.. but I didn't know what to do.. you were so distant, I thought you were avoiding me, or something. "
" Iie! Never! .. I don't know.. I guess.. I thought my love was unrequited, so.. I didn't find a purpose of living.. Nobody wanted to care.. And then my problems suddenly came crashing down. I'm almost dead on the inside. " Duo stated, the last line was so drained of emotion, it scared Heero.
" .. Iie, you can't die. Inside or out. You're too magnificent. Beautiful inside AND out. " Heero ran his fingers through Duo's silky chestnut hair slowly, in a comforting way.
Duo leaned back, a little, with a quizzical look adorning his features. Heero leaned forward, and gently brushed his lips against Duo's.
Duo gasped, and brought two slender digits to his lips, running his fingers over the soft flesh. He then flung his arms around Heero's neck, and hugged him.
" .. Duo.. I have something, I've been meaning to give to you.. It's not much, but it's from last Christmas.. I forgot to give it to you, because you were on a mission.. "
Duo sat up again, and blinked curiously at Heero.
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^^; aiight, well, that's all for the moment. :o I needed to cut it off there, so I could have another chapter, probably the last.. -shrug- WHO KNOWS? ^^ Well, tell me if you liked it so far. JAA!
Juri-Beru
The Ocean's Caress - Part Three
" Decided to come, I see.. " Duo monotoned to his partner.
Heero just shrugged a little; he didn't know how it would sound if he told Duo he just dazed out for a moment there.
They walked quietly for a little, before Duo broke the silence, " Why did you come out here? "
" .. To think. " Heero stated flatly.
" About? "
" .. Nothing important. "
" You can't be sure of that. Denying things like that could be a cry for help, you know. "
" Why did YOU come out here? Anything in particular to draw you out? "
" .. Oh, it was.. nothing important. " Duo stopped in his tracks breifly, thinking that one over rapidly, before walking again. Heero arched his eyebrows at Duo incrediously. " A cry of help? .. You shouldn't be depressed, or anything. It might endanger the mission. " Heero mentally slapped himself for letting that slip. His training was permanantly implanted in him.
Duo glared at Heero, and stopped walking. " The mission! God, Heero, don't you ever think of anything else?! .. Don't get depressed.. I HATE you when you say shit like that! How the hell could you POSSIBLY know what I can or can't feel? Like you can STOP depression! You all would be better off with out me, anyway! " Duo gave Heero -- who had turned around, and was facing Duo, staring stupidly at him -- a death glare, and ran the rest of the ways up to the mansion, leaving Heero standing there, staring after him.
Heero shook his head, yelling at himself on the inside, and slowly began the trudge back to the mansion.
**
Duo ran into the house, thankful that no one was around at the moment, and raced upstairs to his and Heero's room. He sat himself down upon the bed, and sighed.
Once he caught his breath, he slowly stood up, and swiftly, and silently walked over to his chest of drawers, pulling out the middle drawer. Inside there lay a black gun.
Picking it up, he caressed it softly, before gently placing it back into the drawer. " .. Too loud.. if anyone hears, and I should happen to miss, they might find me and try to save me.. "
He walked stiffly to the bathroom, and closed the door quietly behind him, not bothering to lock it. Opening a small cabinet in the corner, he pulled out a razor, and sat down gracefully beside the tub.
Though his eyes burned, and he had the horrible sensation to cry, his face remained emotionless, as he slowly drew the blade across his wrist. Had he not been so involved with such a thing, he would have laughed.. Funny how he didn't feel a thing.
Blood began to stream down his arm, to his elbow, before dripping off into the tub, staining the usually white ceramic with the dark reddish colour, which had began to pool underneath the boy's arm.
Staring so hard at his arm, that his vision slightly blurred, he ran the razor across the same wrist in another spot, applying more pressure than the last one. " Dammit.. That's all I'm worth to them.. the stupid mission.. "
His eyes watered, but the tears would not come, though his throat was tightened. More and more blood streamed down his arm, plummeting to the white and red below.
Duo was about to slice his other wrist, when the bathroom door burst open, and who else would stand there, but Mister High-And-Mighty himself.
Heero firmly grabbed Duo's arm, avoiding the cuts, and turned on the water, putting Duo's wrist underneath the cool water. Heero was glaring, and obviously pissed, as Duo finally gave in, and let the tears flow.
Heero, then proceeded to apply iodine, and wrap up Duo's wrist with gauze from the first-aid kit he had grabbed, before dragging Duo out of the bathroom, and seating him firmly on the bed, while looming over his partner, still glaring, though Duo noticed something else in Heero's eyes.. He couldn't make out what, through his tears, though.
" Just WHAT in the hell were you trying to pull?! " Heero nearly screamed at Duo, his colbalt blue eyes were burning with anger -- at himself, for not realizing this sooner, -- fear, and worry.
Duo didn't respond, instead, he looked down, the tears running down his face rapidly.
" Duo, WHY did you try to do something stupid like that? Why?! " Heero tried talking calmly, but his voice still had an edge to it.
" Because.. " Duo shrugged his shoulders limply, " Nobody cares about me. I'm worth shit. The only reason why you all still want me around, is because of the mission. I annoy EVERYBODY. "
" That isn't true, Duo! We ALL care about you! *I* care about you! " Heero shocked himself, letting that slip out, but paid it no heed.. Now was not the time to worry about slips of tongues.
" No you don't! You care about the mission! That's ALL you care about! Don't say you care about people, you can't! You can't feel shit, you're just a heartless bastard, that can't love, and all you can think about is the mission! All you feel is HATE! " Duo spit out the words, more tears flowing. He could actually HEAR his heart breaking... That wasn't supposed to happen..
" Screw the mission! Duo, HOW can you say those things?! It's all BULLSHIT! You don't know me as well as you THINK you do! " Heero had lost control of his tongue by now.
" I can say them QUITE easily! Because it's true and you know it! You CAN'T love! AND EVEN IF YOU COULD, YOU WOULDN'T! "
" How do you know that?! Duo, are you REALLY so blind?! "
" Blind about WHAT? "
" Duo, I LOVE you! " Heero froze; this wasn't supposed to be said yet! He wasn't ready to say that! Oh, God, he screwed up.. He sat down in a chair, and put his head in his hands, keeping his gaze down.
Duo sat in shock on the bed, biting his lip, " .. H-Heero..? "
" I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that.. It just slipped out. " Heero winced inwardly, and prepared himself to get yelled at, but instead, he looked up to see Duo nearly fall onto him, wrapping his arms around him tightly. " Duo..? "
" .. Thank you.. You have no idea.. how much that meant to me.. I .. I love you too, Heero. I've loved you ever since.. well, since I shot you, let's say. " Duo rested his head on Heero's shoulder.. Even if Heero didn't mean it, he needed a hug, anyway..
" Duo, I'm sorry. I should have been there for you.. but I didn't know what to do.. you were so distant, I thought you were avoiding me, or something. "
" Iie! Never! .. I don't know.. I guess.. I thought my love was unrequited, so.. I didn't find a purpose of living.. Nobody wanted to care.. And then my problems suddenly came crashing down. I'm almost dead on the inside. " Duo stated, the last line was so drained of emotion, it scared Heero.
" .. Iie, you can't die. Inside or out. You're too magnificent. Beautiful inside AND out. " Heero ran his fingers through Duo's silky chestnut hair slowly, in a comforting way.
Duo leaned back, a little, with a quizzical look adorning his features. Heero leaned forward, and gently brushed his lips against Duo's.
Duo gasped, and brought two slender digits to his lips, running his fingers over the soft flesh. He then flung his arms around Heero's neck, and hugged him.
" .. Duo.. I have something, I've been meaning to give to you.. It's not much, but it's from last Christmas.. I forgot to give it to you, because you were on a mission.. "
Duo sat up again, and blinked curiously at Heero.
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^^; aiight, well, that's all for the moment. :o I needed to cut it off there, so I could have another chapter, probably the last.. -shrug- WHO KNOWS? ^^ Well, tell me if you liked it so far. JAA!
Juri-Beru