How's it gonna be? part three
Disclaimer: Not mine, Marvel's. Song belongs to nine days.
Author's notes: This is about three months later. I know this took me forever to write,
and I'm sorry.

So your standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall.
So far down,
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping.
Now you could have it all,
If you learned a little patience!
For though I cannot fly,
I'm not content to crawl!...

Angelo pushed open the door to the bedroom.
"Chica? You ready?"
"Huh? oh, yeah, Angelo"
She stands up and pulls the old flanel shirt around her.
They were all leaving the Massachusets Academy. Monet was going home, the rest of them were staying with the x-men. Paige and Angelo because they wanted to, Jono didn't think he'd fit back into society very well, and Jubilee was staying because she didn't have anywhere to go. No family, no friends on the outside, just the band of freaks she was about to become one of. Again.
She hadn't wanted to go to graduation, hadn't even wanted to leave her room for the last two months. and she hadn't.

So give me a little credit,
Have in me a little faith!
I want to be with you forever,
If tommorow's not too late!...
But it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say!...
But you should never let the sun set on tommorow,
Before the sun rises today...

Angelo had stayed with her, practically moved into her room. Told them it probably was best not to leave her alone. He knew the deamons still pulled at her, trying to bring back the darkness he was fighting back so hard. He had fought the same in himself, had to many friends that gave into them.
He sat by her while she slept, wispering softly in her ear how much they needed her, how much he loved her. When she woke up from nightmares he would hold her, tell her everything would be okay.
Last night she looked at him when he sat on her bed, trying to talk her back to sleep.
"What makes you so sure it'll be okay?"

IF I AM!
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let you down...
IF I AM!
Only here to watch as you suffer,
I will let you down...

And he didn't know what to tell her. He'd never actualy thought about it. And now he did.
About all the things that could never be okay again.
How many people were dead, never coming back.
How much their lives had changed in the last months. So much had happened. To much.
None of their lives would ever be the same again, that he knew. But would they ever be okay?
He had no clue the answer to that. He didn't know what to tell her, and it scared him.
*How can I say something so much and not know why?*
He answered her as honestly as he could, but he knew it was the wrong answer.
"I don't know, but they always are."
She looked away from him. He wanted so badly to tell her something, anything, that would help. But there wasn't any proof that things would be okay, none that he belived, anyway, and he didn't like it.
He slept next to her that night, she curled up in a ball against him.
He woke up early and went down to have a quick breakfast, not wanting her to wake up alone.
*****

So your walking on the edge,
And you wait your turn to fall.
But you're so far gone,
That you don't see the hands upheld to catch you.
And you could find the fault,
In the heart that you've been handed!
For though you cannot fly,
You're not content to crawl!...

Angelo pushed open the door to the room and stepped inside.

A sob wracked her small body. He set down the bowls and walked over to where she sat, facing away from him, on the far side of the bed.
In one hand she held a picture taken the summer before, the summer when there lives were still almost normal. The summer before Ev died and Jubilee tried to.
In the other hand she held a razor blade, her hand shaking so badly she could barely hold onto it.

But it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say!...
But you should never let the sun set on tommorow,
Before the sun rises today...
IF I AM!
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let you down...
IF I AM!
Only here to as watch you suffer,
I will let you down...
So you're standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall...
IF I AM!
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let you down...
IF I AM!
Only here to as watch you suffer,
I will let you down...

Jubilee, please...
It hurts so bad. I just want to make it go away. Make all the pain go away.
This won't help. It won't make things away. Please, give me the blade.
No, I-I have to do this.
Tears rolled down her cheek as she moved the blade closer to her arm.

The answers we find,
Are never what we had in mind.
So we make it up as we go along...
I won't mention tommorow.
And we won't make those promises that we can't keep...

This isn't the thing you can do to make it better. this will only make it worse. We need you. I need you.
She stopped and the blade slid from her fingers to the floor. Angelo wrapped his arms around her in a tight hug, and she collapsed against him.
Ange, I-I don't want that. I...I don't want it to end like that. She sobbed into his shoulder.
He stood there for a long time after that, just holding her as she cried.

I will never leave you!
I will never let you down!
I will never leave you!
I will never let you down!