Dr. J Returns
Part 9: Hidden Fears
By: Fantasim Soldier
Anime series: Gundam Wing
Romance/drama/suspense/alternate universe
Not a lemon or a lime
Yaoi: Heero and Duo
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of its characters. The only characters that are mine are the ones that don't belong in Gundam Wing.
"Why did you think I'd be mad, Heero?" Duo asked. "I don't know. I just did." Heero answered. Duo knew there was something that Heero wasn't telling him. "Heero, if you can look me in the eyes and say that, then I'll accept it." Duo said. He said he'd accept it, not believe it, because he knew that Heero wasn't telling him something. Heero kept his gaze at the floor. "I can't." Heero said. "Uh, huh, that's what I thought. Why don't you just tell me what's wrong?" Duo asked, pulling Heero to a sitting position on the bed. "Because, then you WILL be mad at me." Heero said. "Ya know, I wish I could of given Dr. J the death I wanted him to have. A long, agonizing, painful one for what he did to you. This is just a wild stab in the dark, but is it that he had you rapped when you couldn't defend yourself? Is that the reason you think I'm going to be mad at you for everything you do?" Duo asked. Heero silently nodded. "Heero, that wasn't your fault. You were too weak to even defend yourself. I know I can't just tell you this and expect you to get over it right away, but I do want ya to know that I'm here for ya, not to yell at ya. I love ya and nothin's gonna change that, ever. And if I DO get mad at ya, it'll be over somethin' more important than you takin' care of me." Duo said.
Heero smiled. "I love you." Heero said, hugging Duo. "I love you, too. For forever and an eternity more." Duo answered. He felt something wet fall onto his shoulder where his shirt had stretched some and bared his shoulder. "Heero?" Duo asked. Heero sniffled. "Yeah?" Heero asked, his voice heavy from crying already. "What's wrong, koi?" Duo asked. "I'm trying to let it go. I want to get on with my life. One without Dr. J and what he's done to me and one filled with you." Heero sobbed. Duo knew, then, that if that's what Heero was doing, he needed to just cry. Just let it all out and Duo wasn't going to try to make him stop. Duo rubbed Heero's back soothingly and whispered how much he loved him. This seemed to make Heero cry harder, but Duo knew that, eventhough his koibito was in pain right now, it might all be over soon. Duo held him and tried to sooth him, making sure Heero knew that Duo was there for him and wasn't leaving him anytime soon, until Heero had cried himself to sleep. Duo shifted slowly laid Heero down on the bed and covered him up with the covers and went around to the other side, climbing in next to him, wrapping his arms around his koi and snuggling up close to him, happy that Heero just might have let go. Heero was able to do things like this faster, but only if Duo were with him. It was worse, before they told each other they loved each other. Heero wouldn't let go of anything and he'd just explode. Usually, with anger. Duo, though, had always seemed to be away when Heero did that or he was avoided. Usually, Heero had blown up when Wufei was yelling at Duo or something like that. He'd even hurt himself a few times, after he yelled at Duo. Once Duo had found Heero unconscious and bleeding from the head. He'd done something, but Heero claimed not to be able to remember what he had done. That was also the night that his laptop had mysteriously flown across the room and crashed into a wall, shattering it. Heero'd bought a new one, of course, but something had changed in Heero after that. A month later, Heero confessed his feelings for Duo. Ironically, Duo had planned to tell Heero that night as well. He had been afraid of rejection. He knew he couldn't survive a 'no'. Not from someone he loved like he loved Heero. Heero was his soul mate. He knew it and he knew now that Heero knew it. He knew, he supposed, all along. He was just afraid he might be wrong. He supposed it was stupid, but at the time, he figured he was being smart not saying anything, until the pain in his heart was too much to bear and he knew that anything would be better than that. Though, he knew exactly what he'd probably have done, if Heero hadn't shared his feelings. He couldn't live without Heero. It would be slow agonizing torture. He probably would have killed himself. Or he might not have. He didn't know and it didn't matter anymore. Heero was his and he was Heero's. He had all he needed in the world. His koi. That's all he wanted and needed. And that's the way it was going to stay.
Author's note: Yo!!! Nope, not the end. Don't fret, there's more. I hope you liked this!!!! Tell me!!!! Just mail me at, traci1985babe@hotmail.com
Part 9: Hidden Fears
By: Fantasim Soldier
Anime series: Gundam Wing
Romance/drama/suspense/alternate universe
Not a lemon or a lime
Yaoi: Heero and Duo
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of its characters. The only characters that are mine are the ones that don't belong in Gundam Wing.
"Why did you think I'd be mad, Heero?" Duo asked. "I don't know. I just did." Heero answered. Duo knew there was something that Heero wasn't telling him. "Heero, if you can look me in the eyes and say that, then I'll accept it." Duo said. He said he'd accept it, not believe it, because he knew that Heero wasn't telling him something. Heero kept his gaze at the floor. "I can't." Heero said. "Uh, huh, that's what I thought. Why don't you just tell me what's wrong?" Duo asked, pulling Heero to a sitting position on the bed. "Because, then you WILL be mad at me." Heero said. "Ya know, I wish I could of given Dr. J the death I wanted him to have. A long, agonizing, painful one for what he did to you. This is just a wild stab in the dark, but is it that he had you rapped when you couldn't defend yourself? Is that the reason you think I'm going to be mad at you for everything you do?" Duo asked. Heero silently nodded. "Heero, that wasn't your fault. You were too weak to even defend yourself. I know I can't just tell you this and expect you to get over it right away, but I do want ya to know that I'm here for ya, not to yell at ya. I love ya and nothin's gonna change that, ever. And if I DO get mad at ya, it'll be over somethin' more important than you takin' care of me." Duo said.
Heero smiled. "I love you." Heero said, hugging Duo. "I love you, too. For forever and an eternity more." Duo answered. He felt something wet fall onto his shoulder where his shirt had stretched some and bared his shoulder. "Heero?" Duo asked. Heero sniffled. "Yeah?" Heero asked, his voice heavy from crying already. "What's wrong, koi?" Duo asked. "I'm trying to let it go. I want to get on with my life. One without Dr. J and what he's done to me and one filled with you." Heero sobbed. Duo knew, then, that if that's what Heero was doing, he needed to just cry. Just let it all out and Duo wasn't going to try to make him stop. Duo rubbed Heero's back soothingly and whispered how much he loved him. This seemed to make Heero cry harder, but Duo knew that, eventhough his koibito was in pain right now, it might all be over soon. Duo held him and tried to sooth him, making sure Heero knew that Duo was there for him and wasn't leaving him anytime soon, until Heero had cried himself to sleep. Duo shifted slowly laid Heero down on the bed and covered him up with the covers and went around to the other side, climbing in next to him, wrapping his arms around his koi and snuggling up close to him, happy that Heero just might have let go. Heero was able to do things like this faster, but only if Duo were with him. It was worse, before they told each other they loved each other. Heero wouldn't let go of anything and he'd just explode. Usually, with anger. Duo, though, had always seemed to be away when Heero did that or he was avoided. Usually, Heero had blown up when Wufei was yelling at Duo or something like that. He'd even hurt himself a few times, after he yelled at Duo. Once Duo had found Heero unconscious and bleeding from the head. He'd done something, but Heero claimed not to be able to remember what he had done. That was also the night that his laptop had mysteriously flown across the room and crashed into a wall, shattering it. Heero'd bought a new one, of course, but something had changed in Heero after that. A month later, Heero confessed his feelings for Duo. Ironically, Duo had planned to tell Heero that night as well. He had been afraid of rejection. He knew he couldn't survive a 'no'. Not from someone he loved like he loved Heero. Heero was his soul mate. He knew it and he knew now that Heero knew it. He knew, he supposed, all along. He was just afraid he might be wrong. He supposed it was stupid, but at the time, he figured he was being smart not saying anything, until the pain in his heart was too much to bear and he knew that anything would be better than that. Though, he knew exactly what he'd probably have done, if Heero hadn't shared his feelings. He couldn't live without Heero. It would be slow agonizing torture. He probably would have killed himself. Or he might not have. He didn't know and it didn't matter anymore. Heero was his and he was Heero's. He had all he needed in the world. His koi. That's all he wanted and needed. And that's the way it was going to stay.
Author's note: Yo!!! Nope, not the end. Don't fret, there's more. I hope you liked this!!!! Tell me!!!! Just mail me at, traci1985babe@hotmail.com