Dr. J Returns
Part 10: Nightmares Revealed
By: Fantasim Soldier
Anime series: Gundam Wing
Romance/alternate universe/drama/suspense
Not a lemon or a lime
Yaoi: Heero and Duo
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of its characters. The only characters that are mine are the ones that don't belong to or in Gundam Wing.
Duo went to get the mail again, like he had that day, not too long ago, when everything in his and Heero's world went topsy turvy. Heero had mail. "Heero, ya got some mail." Duo said. "Let me see." Heero said, trying to take it, and once again Duo wouldn't let go. "You know, Duo, this obsession with my mail must stop. It could get you in trouble with the cops." Heero said, jokingly, yet lovingly. "No, way, man. From now on, I'm checking your mail, before it gets to you. If it doesn't have a return address, I'm ripping it up into small little pieces that no one could put together, even with a microscope, and this will all be done right above an incinerator." Duo said. "Oh?" Heero asked, as if he cared, but truly, he loved that idea. "Yup. And the first one that comes, we're movin'." Duo said, handing Heero his 'inspected' letter. "Now, I gave you your letter, you give me my reward." Duo said, smirking. Heero rolled his eyes. "Why don't you just come right out and say, "Kiss me you fool! Or something like that?" Heero asked. "That was lame, Hee-koi, but where would the fun in that be, anyway?" Duo asked. Heero shook his head, smiling. "Well, are you gonna kiss me or not?" Duo asked. Heero leaned down, before Duo even realized it and kissed Duo passionately.
Once the kiss was broken, Duo was the first one to speak. "Wow! What a kiss!" Heero chuckled. "You asked for it." Heero stated, sitting on the couch to read his mail.
"Duo, this is all junk mail. And when did you make a call to Arabia and talk for three hours? The one bill I get and it's the phone bill." Heero said, shaking his head. "Well, I wanted to talk to Quatre." Duo said. "Alright. I don't mind the money. Besides, if we can't come up with the money, they definitely wont get it from suing us, because we'd be flat broke." Heero said. "What makes you say, 'flat broke', we just might not have all the money?" Duo asked. "Because, with you're appetite and the phone bill, we'll either have to stop eating or stop using the phone." Heero smirked. Duo crossed his arms over his chest. "That was so not cool." Duo stated, in mock anger. Duo was happy that Heero was in such a good mood. Duo was usually the only person that got to see him like this.
Heero got up, for one last thing. He just couldn't resist. He bowed to Duo and said, "Yes, King Cool." Mockingly. Duo laughed. "Heero, your jokes may be lame, but they're still funny. Or maybe I just think that because I'm head over heals in love with you. Either way, I don't care." Duo said.
The rest of the day went on fine. Heero wasn't in as good of a mood, though. It was always like that. It seemed that the closer they got to going to sleep at night, the more Heero wanted to stall it. Duo was sick of this. His koi was hurting and he couldn't stand it.
Duo found Heero reading while sitting on the couch. "Heero, we need to talk." Duo said. He'd been meaning to do this for a long time. He wanted to know about the nightmares that had been plaguing Heero's sleep, even while he was in a coma. Duo never wanted to see Heero like that again and that was the worst nightmare Heero had, yet, to Duo's knowledge. "About what?" Heero asked, putting his book down on the coffee table. Duo sat next to him. "About your nightmares. Heero, I know you don't want to talk about it, but I think that if you talked it about them, they might go away. I hate seeing you in pain and you're in pain every minute you're having a nightmare and it hurts me as well as you." Duo said. He knew that if Heero didn't want to talk, he'd try his damnedest to keep from it. He could be stubborn, but if it was this important, Duo could be stubborn even more so than Heero.
"They aren't nightmares." Heero said. "Well, what do you call tossing and turning in you're sleep, sounding like you're in some form of pain and me not being able to wake you up most of the times it happens and scaring the Hell out of me?!" Duo asked, his voice rising. He wouldn't take lying. Not about this. He wasn't actually accusing Heero of lying in his mind, but he didn't know how it could be the truth, but if Heero said that, he'd be able to back it up. Duo knew he would. Duo had a lot of faith in Heero and knew that Heero would never intentionally hurt or lie to him in any way. That knowledge was only some of the reasons that Duo loved Heero, but there were far, far more reasons than that. Far more.
"I call them, unwanted and painful memories of my past." Heero said, getting up and rushing to the bedroom, shutting the door. Duo knew Heero would never lock Duo out of their bedroom when Duo was just trying to help him, even if Heero were angry at him. But, Duo didn't want to push Heero and if he was doing that, then he'd stop. For now.
Duo knocked on the door, not wanting to invade Heero's privacy if that's what Heero needed right now. "Heero, I know it hurts, but please talk about it. If I'm pushing you, just tell me and I'll stop asking about it for a while, but please, Heero, don't shut me out. You know I wont come in, if you don't want me to, but don't shut me out." Duo pleaded with his hurting koi. He got no answer, but something tugged on Duo as he turned away, telling him that he should go in. He opened the door, listening to his heart and found Heero crying, again. At least he thought he was crying. He was laying face down on their bed, so it was a little hard to tell. Heero and Duo never hid their emotions from each other. Maybe from other people, but never from each other.
Duo rushed over and sat next to Heero, putting his hand on the small of Heero's back. "Heero, are you alright?" Duo asked. Heero sniffled. Yep, he'd been crying. The telltale shaking of his shoulders told the same story. "Come 'ere." Duo said, gathering Heero in another comforting embrace. Heero accepted and Duo let him cry, once again.
Heero started to speak softly, and it was obviously meant for Duo's ears only, because, eventhough he knew the saying about walls having ears, he doubted that the walls would have been able to hear it, if that saying were true. Heero'd been doing an awful lot of crying and Duo didn't like it. The only crying he ever wanted Heero to do was happy crying. This was definitely not happy crying. Heero's whole body was wracking with sobs and Duo could only hold him closer and listen to what Heero was saying, though he had to strain to make some of it out and rub Heero's back.
Heero was sobbing about his nightmares. The little girl with her puppy that he'd killed by a miscalculation, causing a mobile suit from a close base to fall on the apartment complex she lived in while she was still in it, Dr. J and what he'd done before this incident and even Odin Lowe Sr., which next came the only name that Heero could really lay real claim to, because that's the last name that he knew of to be traceable to him. Odin Lowe Jr. The things he'd done to him. Everything. All of his past. Duo was hurting along with his koi. A few stray tears made their way down his own cheeks, but he wanted to be strong for Heero right now. Heero couldn't be strong now, if he wanted to get rid of these nightmares, so Duo would be strong for him. Or try. If you looked at it one way, Heero was being strong, by going ahead and talking about it, even if he was crying, he was still talking about it. He knew Wufei would make fun of it, calling Heero weak because of it. Wufei wasn't really a jerk, but he could act like one and Duo swore that if Wufei ever caught Heero crying and Duo holding him, or just Heero crying, and Duo found out that Wufei had made fun of it in any way, no matter what he had meant by it, he'd belt him in the face for it. Duo hadn't a clue why he was thinking about what Wufei would say. He just did that from time to time. He would notice something and think about what one of the other pilots would say about it and this just happened to be what Wufei would say about this and what Duo'd do to him. He wouldn't take anyone doing anything that would even ALMOST hurt his koi and Duo knew it was the same with Heero. Heero wouldn't let anything happen to Duo.
Once Heero was finished with ever single thing there was to tell, it was almost time to sleep. They'd stayed up way passed what they usually did. Heero was so tired, that Duo didn't trust him alone in the shower. There wasn't anything to keep him from slipping there. Not on the tub floor or the bathroom floor. The bathroom floor was linoleum and didn't have one single rug or a carpet on it. Nothing to keep Heero from slipping if his feet were wet and nothing to grab onto if he fell. Duo was always wide awake until just before he fell asleep, so he would feel better if Heero would let him help.
He brushed some of Heero's bangs out of his eyes and looked into his cobalt blue eyes. "Koi, you're so tired. Let me help you in the shower, huh?" Duo asked, smiling at Heero lovingly. "Alright, hon." Heero said, sleep already starting to claim his voice he was so tired. Heero yawned and let his head rest on Duo's chest. Duo gave a small laugh. "Don't go to sleep yet, koi. Unless you want to go to bed without taking these clothes off. You'll wrinkle them." Duo warned. At that point he didn't really care. But, Heero had a suspicion that he would, eventually and went ahead and got up. He walked sleepily to the bathroom, followed closely by Duo.
Each stripped until they wore nothing and got into the shower, which had been let run for a while, while they did so. Heero got in first and Duo followed soon after. Duo helped Heero wash and had to catch him once or twice, before his head hit the tile wall next to the shower, when Heero almost fell a few times. Heero was really tired. Duo's mind was on those nightmares. He hoped that Heero wouldn't have them again. Tonight would be a test. Heero could barely stand right now, he was so tired, so Duo, deciding this was as good a time as any, decided to take his own shower, since he was 'dressed' for it, anyway and already there, while very carefully watching Heero, not wanting him to fall down and hurt himself.
When they were finished, Duo helped Heero out and dried them both off. He knew Heero wanted to sleep and he would sleep in the tub if Duo'd given him the chance. Duo even had to switch the water a little colder, just to keep Heero awake a little. Heero hadn't particularly loved that idea, but his speech was slurred from drowsiness and didn't really seem to care all that much. He got Heero into some clean boxers and himself into some as well. He managed to guide Heero to the bed and Heero, feeling the softness of the bed on his bare knees, deciding it was, in fact, a bed, literally fell onto it, asleep before he even hit the pillow.
Duo got into bed and pulled the covers up further for them both, wrapping his arms around Heero and whispering into his ear, "I love you, koi. Sweet dreams." He didn't know if Heero had subconsciously heard him or not and he probably would never know, but he didn't care. He still wanted to say it and he meant it. Now, he could sleep as well.
Duo had set his mental alarm clock. The one he acquired a long time ago. He woke up three hours after falling asleep and watched Heero sleep, making sure Heero didn't have another nightmare. After three hours of this he went back to sleep and didn't set the 'mental clock' again. He just hoped that Heero wouldn't have anymore, but he knew that if he did Duo would wake up. Especially, if Heero started thrashing around. He'd have to wait until morning and then ask Heero how his sleep went and observe his mood and how he was doing things. That way he would know for sure. Duo knew him too well.
Author's note: Will Heero have another nightmare?? Or will all be well?? This fic is drawing to a close!!! Not too long now!!! Well, e-mail me and tell me what you thought!!!! It'll pick up again later, you'll see, but probably not what you're thinking.*giggles* I hope you liked this!!! E-mail me with any comments, questions or even flames, at traci1985babe@hotmail.com
Part 10: Nightmares Revealed
By: Fantasim Soldier
Anime series: Gundam Wing
Romance/alternate universe/drama/suspense
Not a lemon or a lime
Yaoi: Heero and Duo
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of its characters. The only characters that are mine are the ones that don't belong to or in Gundam Wing.
Duo went to get the mail again, like he had that day, not too long ago, when everything in his and Heero's world went topsy turvy. Heero had mail. "Heero, ya got some mail." Duo said. "Let me see." Heero said, trying to take it, and once again Duo wouldn't let go. "You know, Duo, this obsession with my mail must stop. It could get you in trouble with the cops." Heero said, jokingly, yet lovingly. "No, way, man. From now on, I'm checking your mail, before it gets to you. If it doesn't have a return address, I'm ripping it up into small little pieces that no one could put together, even with a microscope, and this will all be done right above an incinerator." Duo said. "Oh?" Heero asked, as if he cared, but truly, he loved that idea. "Yup. And the first one that comes, we're movin'." Duo said, handing Heero his 'inspected' letter. "Now, I gave you your letter, you give me my reward." Duo said, smirking. Heero rolled his eyes. "Why don't you just come right out and say, "Kiss me you fool! Or something like that?" Heero asked. "That was lame, Hee-koi, but where would the fun in that be, anyway?" Duo asked. Heero shook his head, smiling. "Well, are you gonna kiss me or not?" Duo asked. Heero leaned down, before Duo even realized it and kissed Duo passionately.
Once the kiss was broken, Duo was the first one to speak. "Wow! What a kiss!" Heero chuckled. "You asked for it." Heero stated, sitting on the couch to read his mail.
"Duo, this is all junk mail. And when did you make a call to Arabia and talk for three hours? The one bill I get and it's the phone bill." Heero said, shaking his head. "Well, I wanted to talk to Quatre." Duo said. "Alright. I don't mind the money. Besides, if we can't come up with the money, they definitely wont get it from suing us, because we'd be flat broke." Heero said. "What makes you say, 'flat broke', we just might not have all the money?" Duo asked. "Because, with you're appetite and the phone bill, we'll either have to stop eating or stop using the phone." Heero smirked. Duo crossed his arms over his chest. "That was so not cool." Duo stated, in mock anger. Duo was happy that Heero was in such a good mood. Duo was usually the only person that got to see him like this.
Heero got up, for one last thing. He just couldn't resist. He bowed to Duo and said, "Yes, King Cool." Mockingly. Duo laughed. "Heero, your jokes may be lame, but they're still funny. Or maybe I just think that because I'm head over heals in love with you. Either way, I don't care." Duo said.
The rest of the day went on fine. Heero wasn't in as good of a mood, though. It was always like that. It seemed that the closer they got to going to sleep at night, the more Heero wanted to stall it. Duo was sick of this. His koi was hurting and he couldn't stand it.
Duo found Heero reading while sitting on the couch. "Heero, we need to talk." Duo said. He'd been meaning to do this for a long time. He wanted to know about the nightmares that had been plaguing Heero's sleep, even while he was in a coma. Duo never wanted to see Heero like that again and that was the worst nightmare Heero had, yet, to Duo's knowledge. "About what?" Heero asked, putting his book down on the coffee table. Duo sat next to him. "About your nightmares. Heero, I know you don't want to talk about it, but I think that if you talked it about them, they might go away. I hate seeing you in pain and you're in pain every minute you're having a nightmare and it hurts me as well as you." Duo said. He knew that if Heero didn't want to talk, he'd try his damnedest to keep from it. He could be stubborn, but if it was this important, Duo could be stubborn even more so than Heero.
"They aren't nightmares." Heero said. "Well, what do you call tossing and turning in you're sleep, sounding like you're in some form of pain and me not being able to wake you up most of the times it happens and scaring the Hell out of me?!" Duo asked, his voice rising. He wouldn't take lying. Not about this. He wasn't actually accusing Heero of lying in his mind, but he didn't know how it could be the truth, but if Heero said that, he'd be able to back it up. Duo knew he would. Duo had a lot of faith in Heero and knew that Heero would never intentionally hurt or lie to him in any way. That knowledge was only some of the reasons that Duo loved Heero, but there were far, far more reasons than that. Far more.
"I call them, unwanted and painful memories of my past." Heero said, getting up and rushing to the bedroom, shutting the door. Duo knew Heero would never lock Duo out of their bedroom when Duo was just trying to help him, even if Heero were angry at him. But, Duo didn't want to push Heero and if he was doing that, then he'd stop. For now.
Duo knocked on the door, not wanting to invade Heero's privacy if that's what Heero needed right now. "Heero, I know it hurts, but please talk about it. If I'm pushing you, just tell me and I'll stop asking about it for a while, but please, Heero, don't shut me out. You know I wont come in, if you don't want me to, but don't shut me out." Duo pleaded with his hurting koi. He got no answer, but something tugged on Duo as he turned away, telling him that he should go in. He opened the door, listening to his heart and found Heero crying, again. At least he thought he was crying. He was laying face down on their bed, so it was a little hard to tell. Heero and Duo never hid their emotions from each other. Maybe from other people, but never from each other.
Duo rushed over and sat next to Heero, putting his hand on the small of Heero's back. "Heero, are you alright?" Duo asked. Heero sniffled. Yep, he'd been crying. The telltale shaking of his shoulders told the same story. "Come 'ere." Duo said, gathering Heero in another comforting embrace. Heero accepted and Duo let him cry, once again.
Heero started to speak softly, and it was obviously meant for Duo's ears only, because, eventhough he knew the saying about walls having ears, he doubted that the walls would have been able to hear it, if that saying were true. Heero'd been doing an awful lot of crying and Duo didn't like it. The only crying he ever wanted Heero to do was happy crying. This was definitely not happy crying. Heero's whole body was wracking with sobs and Duo could only hold him closer and listen to what Heero was saying, though he had to strain to make some of it out and rub Heero's back.
Heero was sobbing about his nightmares. The little girl with her puppy that he'd killed by a miscalculation, causing a mobile suit from a close base to fall on the apartment complex she lived in while she was still in it, Dr. J and what he'd done before this incident and even Odin Lowe Sr., which next came the only name that Heero could really lay real claim to, because that's the last name that he knew of to be traceable to him. Odin Lowe Jr. The things he'd done to him. Everything. All of his past. Duo was hurting along with his koi. A few stray tears made their way down his own cheeks, but he wanted to be strong for Heero right now. Heero couldn't be strong now, if he wanted to get rid of these nightmares, so Duo would be strong for him. Or try. If you looked at it one way, Heero was being strong, by going ahead and talking about it, even if he was crying, he was still talking about it. He knew Wufei would make fun of it, calling Heero weak because of it. Wufei wasn't really a jerk, but he could act like one and Duo swore that if Wufei ever caught Heero crying and Duo holding him, or just Heero crying, and Duo found out that Wufei had made fun of it in any way, no matter what he had meant by it, he'd belt him in the face for it. Duo hadn't a clue why he was thinking about what Wufei would say. He just did that from time to time. He would notice something and think about what one of the other pilots would say about it and this just happened to be what Wufei would say about this and what Duo'd do to him. He wouldn't take anyone doing anything that would even ALMOST hurt his koi and Duo knew it was the same with Heero. Heero wouldn't let anything happen to Duo.
Once Heero was finished with ever single thing there was to tell, it was almost time to sleep. They'd stayed up way passed what they usually did. Heero was so tired, that Duo didn't trust him alone in the shower. There wasn't anything to keep him from slipping there. Not on the tub floor or the bathroom floor. The bathroom floor was linoleum and didn't have one single rug or a carpet on it. Nothing to keep Heero from slipping if his feet were wet and nothing to grab onto if he fell. Duo was always wide awake until just before he fell asleep, so he would feel better if Heero would let him help.
He brushed some of Heero's bangs out of his eyes and looked into his cobalt blue eyes. "Koi, you're so tired. Let me help you in the shower, huh?" Duo asked, smiling at Heero lovingly. "Alright, hon." Heero said, sleep already starting to claim his voice he was so tired. Heero yawned and let his head rest on Duo's chest. Duo gave a small laugh. "Don't go to sleep yet, koi. Unless you want to go to bed without taking these clothes off. You'll wrinkle them." Duo warned. At that point he didn't really care. But, Heero had a suspicion that he would, eventually and went ahead and got up. He walked sleepily to the bathroom, followed closely by Duo.
Each stripped until they wore nothing and got into the shower, which had been let run for a while, while they did so. Heero got in first and Duo followed soon after. Duo helped Heero wash and had to catch him once or twice, before his head hit the tile wall next to the shower, when Heero almost fell a few times. Heero was really tired. Duo's mind was on those nightmares. He hoped that Heero wouldn't have them again. Tonight would be a test. Heero could barely stand right now, he was so tired, so Duo, deciding this was as good a time as any, decided to take his own shower, since he was 'dressed' for it, anyway and already there, while very carefully watching Heero, not wanting him to fall down and hurt himself.
When they were finished, Duo helped Heero out and dried them both off. He knew Heero wanted to sleep and he would sleep in the tub if Duo'd given him the chance. Duo even had to switch the water a little colder, just to keep Heero awake a little. Heero hadn't particularly loved that idea, but his speech was slurred from drowsiness and didn't really seem to care all that much. He got Heero into some clean boxers and himself into some as well. He managed to guide Heero to the bed and Heero, feeling the softness of the bed on his bare knees, deciding it was, in fact, a bed, literally fell onto it, asleep before he even hit the pillow.
Duo got into bed and pulled the covers up further for them both, wrapping his arms around Heero and whispering into his ear, "I love you, koi. Sweet dreams." He didn't know if Heero had subconsciously heard him or not and he probably would never know, but he didn't care. He still wanted to say it and he meant it. Now, he could sleep as well.
Duo had set his mental alarm clock. The one he acquired a long time ago. He woke up three hours after falling asleep and watched Heero sleep, making sure Heero didn't have another nightmare. After three hours of this he went back to sleep and didn't set the 'mental clock' again. He just hoped that Heero wouldn't have anymore, but he knew that if he did Duo would wake up. Especially, if Heero started thrashing around. He'd have to wait until morning and then ask Heero how his sleep went and observe his mood and how he was doing things. That way he would know for sure. Duo knew him too well.
Author's note: Will Heero have another nightmare?? Or will all be well?? This fic is drawing to a close!!! Not too long now!!! Well, e-mail me and tell me what you thought!!!! It'll pick up again later, you'll see, but probably not what you're thinking.*giggles* I hope you liked this!!! E-mail me with any comments, questions or even flames, at traci1985babe@hotmail.com