Title: The Fine Line
Chapter: 2 - Warning
Author: Lady Kyra
Rating: PG for Language
Genre: Romance
Okay, here's chapter 2. I sometimes wonder why I put poor Michiru through
so much misery. She's my favorite character after all... Oh Well. Read,
Email, Live happily ever after. Okay, ttyl! Oh yeah! I don't own Sailor Moon
and I don't claim to, but I do own Kaze so don't use him! HE'S MINE!
~*~*~**~**~***~
I still can't go on...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
For weeks, I was devastated. I had lost Haruka. She died because of Me. I
was the cause of her death! Why didn't I die instead of her! I still think about
it, everytime I look into the mirror, look at my face, wrinkling early, with big,
purple, bags under my eyes. I met a really nice man, two months later,
and since then, we have moved into an old Irish castle in the country. I am
being haunted more than ever, it's like I just walked away, like I was trying
to forget her. I will never forget her, even if I try. I miss her so much. I hear
her voice as I try to go to sleep and I feel her warmth instead of Kaze's. I
just don't know what to do...
I love Kaze, I really do, but I can't go on. His name haunts me... Wind.
Haruka's power was over wind. Just thinking, I broke down into another fit
of tears. I was sitting on my bed, the starched white covers crinkling under
my weight. Tears fell and splashed off of the crisp sheets. I heard Kaze
enter, but I didn't look up.
"Michiru, is there something wrong?" He asked, his eyes wide with concern.
"My past is haunting me again." I replied, hoping that my tone revealed
that he would get no more out of me.
Apparently, it didn't, "Sometimes, talking about it helps..."
I wanted to stand up and scream, 'you friggin asshole! don't you know
anything! I've been trying to forget this for a whole year! talking about it
won't help anyting!' but I remained calm and answered, "I was thinking
about my lover, the one that died in a fight." I tried the tone again.
Again it didn't work, "Tell me about him, it might help you forget..."
Using all of my willpower to remain calm, I stood up and left the room
without saying a word. My long skirt brushed by him, and I didn't need to
look at him to see his hurt expression. But I didn't care. I just kept walking, all
the way to the library at the end of the hall. I went through the large room
to the back, where I kept the photo albums full of pictures of Haruka.
Setsuna and Hotaru were there too. I opened the album to the painting I
had done of her when we first met. A tear fell from my eye on to the
painting. It was time to move on. I stood up and began toward the library
fireplace, but just then, Haruka entered the room.
"Haruka" I whispered, almost afraid it would all be a dream.
"What?" Kaze's voice answered. Haruka faded and Kaze was in her place. I
started to weep. He put his arm around me and said, "I think you need a
refresher from your past. We're going on a trip to Tokyo." I looked up at him
in horror, but he continued, "I don't expect you to tell me, but maybe we
can find some of your old friends, and you can talk to them." He smiled at
me. I wanted to hug him. I could talk to Setsuna. Or Hotaru...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Our plane landed in Tokyo airport at 8:15 in the morning. First, I went to
Usagi's old house. I rang the doorbell, and Shingo, looking decidedly older,
answered the door.
"Hello?"
"Um.... Is Usagi-san in? I'm an old friend of hers," I said, not wanting to sound
rude.
"Didn't you know? She moved in with her boyfriend."
"Does he still live where he did when she was 14?"
"um.... yes, I think so"
"Thank you so much, Shingo-san"
I turned to leave, but he asked me one more question, "How did you know
my name?"
"I told you, I am an old friend of your sister's." I ran toward the apartment
building where Mamoru used to live.
********
I rang the doorbell, and Mamoru opened the door, looking exactly like I
remembered him, "Michiru-san..." He recongnized me, "I thought you left
town..."
"I did, I need to talk to Usagi-san" I replied. He turned and called to her. She
walked out, looking very beautiful.
Her face lit up when she saw me, "Michiru-san!" She ran over to me, "I've
missed you so much! Where have you been!"
"I don't really want to talk about it," I replied, trying not to betray the pain in
my heart.
Usagi noticed, then smiled, "Setsuna-san lives in the apartment at the end
of the hall on the right. Hotaru-chan still lives where she used to." Usagi
gave me a hug, "I know you don't really want to talk to me."
I thanked her and hurried off to see Setsuna. As Kaze and I were walking
down the hall, he commented, "You're really picky with who you talk to,
aren't you?"
I didn't answer his question, just spoke, "Setsuna-san is who I had in mind."
********
Setsuna answered her door with very tired eyes. She looked up and saw
me, then her eyes opened wide, a smile spread across her lips and she
hugged me so long and hard I could barely breathe. I started laughing
and Setsuna joined me.
"Let's go see Hotaru-chan, I think the three of us need to talk."
I smiled wider and quickly agreed. Kaze went into Setsuna's apartment to
have a chat with her husband. We started walking toward Hotaru's house.
********
Setsuna rang the doorbell and a significantly older-looking Hotaru
answered the door.
"Setsuna-mama?" She asked. Then she looked behind Setsuna to me,
"Michiru-Mama!!!" She ran out and hugged me. When she finally let me go,
she spoke in a more adult voice, "I've missed you."
"I've missed you too, Hotaru-chan" I replied.
She smiled for a little while longer, and then she realized what I was here
for, "You're seeing illusions of Haruka-papa too, aren't you"
My smile faded, "Yes. Kaze claims I've been calling him Haruka, and every
time I see Kaze, I see Haruka instead..."
I heard a noise in the hall. All three of our heads turned to see an illusion of
Haruka. It faded when my eyes lay on it. We turned to look back at each
other, "Did you see that?" Hotaru asked quickly.
"I saw it"
"So did I"
"What was that? I think... A ghost?" Hotaru asked
"No, I don't think it was a ghost," Setsuna replied
I coulding take their incessant banter anymore, "It wasn't an IT! It was
HARUKA!" I collapsed down into a fit of tears, watering the grass I was
kneeling on, when all of a sudden, I felt an icy hand on my shoulder. I
looked up, expecting to see Hotaru, her hands were always cold, but who
was there? HARUKA! My tears were suspended for a little while. The ghost
of Haruka helped me up. My tears started to flow again where it spoke, but
the voice was Hotaru's not Harukas. Haruka faded again, and Hotaru was
standing there, and I started to cry again. I curled up on the grass and
cried myself to sleep.
------------
When I woke up, I was laying in Hotaru's bed. Setsuna and Hotaru were
sitting next to me. Hotaru held my hand, and said, "Michiru-mama, Did
Haruka-papa say anything to you before she died?"
"Yes..." I let my voice fade away before continuing, "She told me to never
forget her..."
"Maybe she's angry because you're forgetting her."
A miniute ago, that would have made me lose my temper, but I extended
it, "Maybe she's mad because I fell in love with Kaze..."
"Maybe..."
I started to cry again, numb as I felt, and I fell asleep.
~*Begin Dream*~
I was in a dark room, I felt Haruka's presence with me. She suddenly came
out of the shadows into my veiw, "Michiru..." She said, in that voice I knew
all too well, "I miss you..."
"Haruka! I miss you too..."
"What do you think I am? Blind?" Seeing my shocked expression at her
sarcasm, she continiued, "I don't like to see you suffering."
"This is a dream, isn't it?"
"Yes. When I said I didn't want you to forget me, I didn't mean mourn over
me for two years. You've done your time in misery and it's time for you to
move on. However, that Kaze is bad news. Stay away from him! Michiru..."
Her voice started to fade out and she started to flicker, like a candle in the
wind. "I, Don't want, to see.... you.." Her voice faded out to the point where
it was really hard to hear her, "hurt....."
~*End Dream*~
I woke up screaming, not knowing what had happened. not knowing
where I was. A few seconds later, Hotaru and Setsuna came running in. I
was still in shock. Then I broke down crying. Setsuna sat on my bed and
gave me her shoulder to cry on, not asking any questions.
~*~*~**~*~*~**~~*
That ends Chapter 2!!!! PLEASE please PLEASE email me! I NEEEEEED email!
okay thanks!
Lady Kyra
Michichankaioh@aol.com
michirutoharuka.terrashare.com
Would you like a cherry squishy? ^.~
Chapter: 2 - Warning
Author: Lady Kyra
Rating: PG for Language
Genre: Romance
Okay, here's chapter 2. I sometimes wonder why I put poor Michiru through
so much misery. She's my favorite character after all... Oh Well. Read,
Email, Live happily ever after. Okay, ttyl! Oh yeah! I don't own Sailor Moon
and I don't claim to, but I do own Kaze so don't use him! HE'S MINE!
~*~*~**~**~***~
I still can't go on...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
For weeks, I was devastated. I had lost Haruka. She died because of Me. I
was the cause of her death! Why didn't I die instead of her! I still think about
it, everytime I look into the mirror, look at my face, wrinkling early, with big,
purple, bags under my eyes. I met a really nice man, two months later,
and since then, we have moved into an old Irish castle in the country. I am
being haunted more than ever, it's like I just walked away, like I was trying
to forget her. I will never forget her, even if I try. I miss her so much. I hear
her voice as I try to go to sleep and I feel her warmth instead of Kaze's. I
just don't know what to do...
I love Kaze, I really do, but I can't go on. His name haunts me... Wind.
Haruka's power was over wind. Just thinking, I broke down into another fit
of tears. I was sitting on my bed, the starched white covers crinkling under
my weight. Tears fell and splashed off of the crisp sheets. I heard Kaze
enter, but I didn't look up.
"Michiru, is there something wrong?" He asked, his eyes wide with concern.
"My past is haunting me again." I replied, hoping that my tone revealed
that he would get no more out of me.
Apparently, it didn't, "Sometimes, talking about it helps..."
I wanted to stand up and scream, 'you friggin asshole! don't you know
anything! I've been trying to forget this for a whole year! talking about it
won't help anyting!' but I remained calm and answered, "I was thinking
about my lover, the one that died in a fight." I tried the tone again.
Again it didn't work, "Tell me about him, it might help you forget..."
Using all of my willpower to remain calm, I stood up and left the room
without saying a word. My long skirt brushed by him, and I didn't need to
look at him to see his hurt expression. But I didn't care. I just kept walking, all
the way to the library at the end of the hall. I went through the large room
to the back, where I kept the photo albums full of pictures of Haruka.
Setsuna and Hotaru were there too. I opened the album to the painting I
had done of her when we first met. A tear fell from my eye on to the
painting. It was time to move on. I stood up and began toward the library
fireplace, but just then, Haruka entered the room.
"Haruka" I whispered, almost afraid it would all be a dream.
"What?" Kaze's voice answered. Haruka faded and Kaze was in her place. I
started to weep. He put his arm around me and said, "I think you need a
refresher from your past. We're going on a trip to Tokyo." I looked up at him
in horror, but he continued, "I don't expect you to tell me, but maybe we
can find some of your old friends, and you can talk to them." He smiled at
me. I wanted to hug him. I could talk to Setsuna. Or Hotaru...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Our plane landed in Tokyo airport at 8:15 in the morning. First, I went to
Usagi's old house. I rang the doorbell, and Shingo, looking decidedly older,
answered the door.
"Hello?"
"Um.... Is Usagi-san in? I'm an old friend of hers," I said, not wanting to sound
rude.
"Didn't you know? She moved in with her boyfriend."
"Does he still live where he did when she was 14?"
"um.... yes, I think so"
"Thank you so much, Shingo-san"
I turned to leave, but he asked me one more question, "How did you know
my name?"
"I told you, I am an old friend of your sister's." I ran toward the apartment
building where Mamoru used to live.
********
I rang the doorbell, and Mamoru opened the door, looking exactly like I
remembered him, "Michiru-san..." He recongnized me, "I thought you left
town..."
"I did, I need to talk to Usagi-san" I replied. He turned and called to her. She
walked out, looking very beautiful.
Her face lit up when she saw me, "Michiru-san!" She ran over to me, "I've
missed you so much! Where have you been!"
"I don't really want to talk about it," I replied, trying not to betray the pain in
my heart.
Usagi noticed, then smiled, "Setsuna-san lives in the apartment at the end
of the hall on the right. Hotaru-chan still lives where she used to." Usagi
gave me a hug, "I know you don't really want to talk to me."
I thanked her and hurried off to see Setsuna. As Kaze and I were walking
down the hall, he commented, "You're really picky with who you talk to,
aren't you?"
I didn't answer his question, just spoke, "Setsuna-san is who I had in mind."
********
Setsuna answered her door with very tired eyes. She looked up and saw
me, then her eyes opened wide, a smile spread across her lips and she
hugged me so long and hard I could barely breathe. I started laughing
and Setsuna joined me.
"Let's go see Hotaru-chan, I think the three of us need to talk."
I smiled wider and quickly agreed. Kaze went into Setsuna's apartment to
have a chat with her husband. We started walking toward Hotaru's house.
********
Setsuna rang the doorbell and a significantly older-looking Hotaru
answered the door.
"Setsuna-mama?" She asked. Then she looked behind Setsuna to me,
"Michiru-Mama!!!" She ran out and hugged me. When she finally let me go,
she spoke in a more adult voice, "I've missed you."
"I've missed you too, Hotaru-chan" I replied.
She smiled for a little while longer, and then she realized what I was here
for, "You're seeing illusions of Haruka-papa too, aren't you"
My smile faded, "Yes. Kaze claims I've been calling him Haruka, and every
time I see Kaze, I see Haruka instead..."
I heard a noise in the hall. All three of our heads turned to see an illusion of
Haruka. It faded when my eyes lay on it. We turned to look back at each
other, "Did you see that?" Hotaru asked quickly.
"I saw it"
"So did I"
"What was that? I think... A ghost?" Hotaru asked
"No, I don't think it was a ghost," Setsuna replied
I coulding take their incessant banter anymore, "It wasn't an IT! It was
HARUKA!" I collapsed down into a fit of tears, watering the grass I was
kneeling on, when all of a sudden, I felt an icy hand on my shoulder. I
looked up, expecting to see Hotaru, her hands were always cold, but who
was there? HARUKA! My tears were suspended for a little while. The ghost
of Haruka helped me up. My tears started to flow again where it spoke, but
the voice was Hotaru's not Harukas. Haruka faded again, and Hotaru was
standing there, and I started to cry again. I curled up on the grass and
cried myself to sleep.
------------
When I woke up, I was laying in Hotaru's bed. Setsuna and Hotaru were
sitting next to me. Hotaru held my hand, and said, "Michiru-mama, Did
Haruka-papa say anything to you before she died?"
"Yes..." I let my voice fade away before continuing, "She told me to never
forget her..."
"Maybe she's angry because you're forgetting her."
A miniute ago, that would have made me lose my temper, but I extended
it, "Maybe she's mad because I fell in love with Kaze..."
"Maybe..."
I started to cry again, numb as I felt, and I fell asleep.
~*Begin Dream*~
I was in a dark room, I felt Haruka's presence with me. She suddenly came
out of the shadows into my veiw, "Michiru..." She said, in that voice I knew
all too well, "I miss you..."
"Haruka! I miss you too..."
"What do you think I am? Blind?" Seeing my shocked expression at her
sarcasm, she continiued, "I don't like to see you suffering."
"This is a dream, isn't it?"
"Yes. When I said I didn't want you to forget me, I didn't mean mourn over
me for two years. You've done your time in misery and it's time for you to
move on. However, that Kaze is bad news. Stay away from him! Michiru..."
Her voice started to fade out and she started to flicker, like a candle in the
wind. "I, Don't want, to see.... you.." Her voice faded out to the point where
it was really hard to hear her, "hurt....."
~*End Dream*~
I woke up screaming, not knowing what had happened. not knowing
where I was. A few seconds later, Hotaru and Setsuna came running in. I
was still in shock. Then I broke down crying. Setsuna sat on my bed and
gave me her shoulder to cry on, not asking any questions.
~*~*~**~*~*~**~~*
That ends Chapter 2!!!! PLEASE please PLEASE email me! I NEEEEEED email!
okay thanks!
Lady Kyra
Michichankaioh@aol.com
michirutoharuka.terrashare.com
Would you like a cherry squishy? ^.~