She felt the weight of the gun in her hands. The cold black metal ran shivers up her back. She put her finger on the trigger and shot the gun straight into the air, testing the gun's skill. The long shot resonated through the night air as the bullet whirred higher and higher. Relena sighed as she once again looked at the gun in her hands. It was time.
She had made sure that everything was as it should be. She had poured her emotions out and into that letter she had given Heero. She could almost picture his face as he read it. His eyebrow lifted, his eyes narrow. He probably tore the thing up and laughed. Finding humor and relief in the fact that she was going to kill herself. Well let him, she thought. She sighed and looked into the distance. She wondered if he would know where she was. Maybe he would, it was a simple place.
She was on the beach, the very beach she had first met Heero on. How odd she should decide to end her life where it had really begun. She was ready to die, but first, she wanted to walk if only for a few minutes. She needed to think about her motives and remember her life.
Each step in the soft sand brought different memories to her mind. She was Queen Relena, she was Relena Peacecraft of the Sinq Kingdom, she was Relena the ignorant girl of the past. Of all the people she had been, she missed being that girl the most. She missed being herself.
Pacifism had never been her own ideal. Oh how she had tried to make it her own ideal. No, it had been her father's. She had tried to make herself agree with it, she had enforced those ideals, in time it had began to work. But she had always known that such a pacifistic theory could not be achieved.
She thought about Zechs, her own brother. Kami she did love him. She only wished that she could have come to know him better. Maybe it would have helped her in her life. Now she would never know. However, she could have no regrets.
Suddenly, there were footsteps. Soft footsteps that increased as they neared her. Relena lifted an eyebrow. If it was a guard, he would shoot her on sight, and that would be fine. She turned around, her hair blowing behind her in a stream of dark blonde strands. A dark figure stood in front of her. She almost wanted to smile. She had no doubt about who was in front of her.
"Why did you come Heero?" Relena said. The figure moved forward and into the light.
"What are you doing Relena? What do you think you're trying to accomplish?" Relena sighed and looked down at the gun in her hand. She'd wait.
"I'm going to kill myself, it's that simple," Relena said, looking into Heero's eyes, illuminated by the moonlight.
"Simple? If it's so simple why haven't you done it yet?" Heero said, walking up to her until he was only a foot away.
"I had to think...I had to... Why should I tell you? I've made my decision, now leave me be!"
"Relena, don't do this," Heero whispered.
"And why not? Why shouldn't I? For what? No one needs me! No one!"
"I...I need you," Heero said. Relena's eyes widened. A single tear streamed down her cheek.
"You know, only yesterday, that would have been enough for me. Only yesterday, I would have done anything for you. You could have asked me to jump off a cliff and there I'd go. Now, now things are different. As much as I love you, as much as I've always loved you, that's not going to stop me."
"Why, don't you know that..that I love you Relena? Haven't you always KNOWN that? Why do you think that I could never kill you, I could never hurt you, even though I tried. God I tried. But I realized I couldn't." Relena smiled and stepped forward. She put one hand behind his neck and kissed him.
For a moment all time stood still, as the waves crashed on the shore and the wind blew throught their hair. There was only the two of them. Then Relena withdrew in a breathless gasp and smiled up at him.
"I'll always love you," she said. Heero's eyes were wide.
"Relena!"
"Goodbye Heero," she whispered. Heero's hand moved as fast as he could make it go. Relena had the gun to her head before he could get there. He lunged forward and tried to knock her down, but he was too late. The bullet smashed into her skull with a deadly crack. The sound was sickening. Heero's momentum couldn't allow him to slow down and he fell on Relena. He embraced her dead body as the blood poured from her skull. He held her to him with everything he had, and cried.
The tears started slowly and ran down his cheeks in small streams. Suddenly, he couldn't hold back anything and he let himself go. He cried for his love lost, for not being able to stop her, for seeing how she had really felt. He had never known she had been so sad, so in need of love, so lonely.
Now everything was lost, she was gone. The only reminder that she had been in this world was wrapped in his arms. The lifeless body of the beautiful Relena Peacecraft who had saved the world. The body of Relena, the girl he had loved. He'd never thought that anything so small as a simple goodbye could break his heart.
::SIGH:: Sorry everyone, I guess I'm just not good at happy endings.
~JZero
She had made sure that everything was as it should be. She had poured her emotions out and into that letter she had given Heero. She could almost picture his face as he read it. His eyebrow lifted, his eyes narrow. He probably tore the thing up and laughed. Finding humor and relief in the fact that she was going to kill herself. Well let him, she thought. She sighed and looked into the distance. She wondered if he would know where she was. Maybe he would, it was a simple place.
She was on the beach, the very beach she had first met Heero on. How odd she should decide to end her life where it had really begun. She was ready to die, but first, she wanted to walk if only for a few minutes. She needed to think about her motives and remember her life.
Each step in the soft sand brought different memories to her mind. She was Queen Relena, she was Relena Peacecraft of the Sinq Kingdom, she was Relena the ignorant girl of the past. Of all the people she had been, she missed being that girl the most. She missed being herself.
Pacifism had never been her own ideal. Oh how she had tried to make it her own ideal. No, it had been her father's. She had tried to make herself agree with it, she had enforced those ideals, in time it had began to work. But she had always known that such a pacifistic theory could not be achieved.
She thought about Zechs, her own brother. Kami she did love him. She only wished that she could have come to know him better. Maybe it would have helped her in her life. Now she would never know. However, she could have no regrets.
Suddenly, there were footsteps. Soft footsteps that increased as they neared her. Relena lifted an eyebrow. If it was a guard, he would shoot her on sight, and that would be fine. She turned around, her hair blowing behind her in a stream of dark blonde strands. A dark figure stood in front of her. She almost wanted to smile. She had no doubt about who was in front of her.
"Why did you come Heero?" Relena said. The figure moved forward and into the light.
"What are you doing Relena? What do you think you're trying to accomplish?" Relena sighed and looked down at the gun in her hand. She'd wait.
"I'm going to kill myself, it's that simple," Relena said, looking into Heero's eyes, illuminated by the moonlight.
"Simple? If it's so simple why haven't you done it yet?" Heero said, walking up to her until he was only a foot away.
"I had to think...I had to... Why should I tell you? I've made my decision, now leave me be!"
"Relena, don't do this," Heero whispered.
"And why not? Why shouldn't I? For what? No one needs me! No one!"
"I...I need you," Heero said. Relena's eyes widened. A single tear streamed down her cheek.
"You know, only yesterday, that would have been enough for me. Only yesterday, I would have done anything for you. You could have asked me to jump off a cliff and there I'd go. Now, now things are different. As much as I love you, as much as I've always loved you, that's not going to stop me."
"Why, don't you know that..that I love you Relena? Haven't you always KNOWN that? Why do you think that I could never kill you, I could never hurt you, even though I tried. God I tried. But I realized I couldn't." Relena smiled and stepped forward. She put one hand behind his neck and kissed him.
For a moment all time stood still, as the waves crashed on the shore and the wind blew throught their hair. There was only the two of them. Then Relena withdrew in a breathless gasp and smiled up at him.
"I'll always love you," she said. Heero's eyes were wide.
"Relena!"
"Goodbye Heero," she whispered. Heero's hand moved as fast as he could make it go. Relena had the gun to her head before he could get there. He lunged forward and tried to knock her down, but he was too late. The bullet smashed into her skull with a deadly crack. The sound was sickening. Heero's momentum couldn't allow him to slow down and he fell on Relena. He embraced her dead body as the blood poured from her skull. He held her to him with everything he had, and cried.
The tears started slowly and ran down his cheeks in small streams. Suddenly, he couldn't hold back anything and he let himself go. He cried for his love lost, for not being able to stop her, for seeing how she had really felt. He had never known she had been so sad, so in need of love, so lonely.
Now everything was lost, she was gone. The only reminder that she had been in this world was wrapped in his arms. The lifeless body of the beautiful Relena Peacecraft who had saved the world. The body of Relena, the girl he had loved. He'd never thought that anything so small as a simple goodbye could break his heart.
::SIGH:: Sorry everyone, I guess I'm just not good at happy endings.
~JZero