Passions: Without You
*Note: Again, I do not own the song, it's sung my Dixie Chicks and you've probably heard it before. I didn't write the entire song down though, only the parts that I felt fit. :)
Ethan couldn't believe what his...father...no, not his father...was telling him. Ethan was enraged. He couldn't believe that everyone he held dear had lied to him. He felt like his whole life had been nothing but lies. He felt weird. He felt like from then on he would be Sam Bennett's son, but he always had been in the first place.
He also felt stupid. He saw Theresa leave. Ethan couldn't believe what he himself had said. He knew that Theresa was just trying to protect him but he just had to say things...he was confused.
Finally Ethan said, "Listen! I have all the facts and I know where everybody stands on this. How could you?! All of you! I just can't believe this...can't believe this..."
Then next thing Ethan knew Gwen was up against his side and she said, "I know Ethan. I can't believe it either. I had no idea."
Ethan just looked at her puzzled. Ethan thought that he had all the facts. He thought that somebody had [told] the tabloid that Ethan was Sam Bennett child. Julian or anyone else who knew did not tell Ethan or anyone else that the tabloid found out by e-mail.
Rebecca then came up to Ivy and said, "Ivy! How could you?"
Then Gwen looked at Ethan and said, "We have got to find out who sent that awful e-mail."
Ethan looked at her puzzled. "E-mail?"
"Yes, e-mail?" Julian repeated, "We never said anything about an e-mail."
That's when the reporter came forward and said, "Yes Gwen, how did you know that we got the information by e-mail?" Then the reported thought to himself, 'This story goes deeper than we thought. Why don't I just make it more dishy?!'
Gwen was cornered.
****
Later that evening, when Gwen, Rebecca, and all their guests where gone, Ethan alone in his room trying to sort out his feelings.
Sam Bennett left with his distraut wife. Ethan supposed that they would go home and talk things out. Ethan didn't know whether Sam was going to talk to him.
Ethan couldn't take waiting around. He had to talk to Sam.
Ethan knew it was late but he knew that Sam must not have been asleep.
It was beginning to rain as well. As Ethan came to the Bennett hom Sam was already outside on the front porch bench. Sam had his head in his hands as Ethan said timidly, "Cheif Bennett?"
Sam looked up with a face of ackwardness, "Uh-Ethan." There was a pause before Sam said, "We better talk things out."
They did. For about a half hour they spoke. Sam said that Grace was resting and that they had decided to talk more and tell the kids everything tomorrow.
So after Ethan left they shoke hands. Sam had said that he would come by the next day, hopful with Grace.
So Ethan walked in the pouring rain. He felt better after talking with Sam. He knew that they had a long way to go. Ethan didn't know what was to become of his mother after tomorrow. Sam made Julian allow her to stay in the Crane manison that night. That night.
Ethan checked his watch. It read: 3:23am.
Ethan still felt something missing. He knew what if was to. His own words rang in his ears, "I can't marry you."
Had he said those words? To Theresa?
Ethan now knew that Gwen and Rebecca had planned for him to dump Theresa. Ethan thought in the rain about Theresa.
As he looked down the road, he knew exactly what he had to do.
****
Theresa couldn't sleep. She almost laughed at the idea of her actually sleeping after what had happened. She almost laughed at the idea of moving after the hurt she felt for her and Ethan. She almost laughed at the idea of breathing in and out, day after day, without Ethan. Almost.
She was sitting on her window sill looking out the window at the rain pouring down. Tears streaked down her face, replacing dried ones.
A familar song rang out from the radio...
*I've sure enjoyed the rain
But I'm looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain
When you lose the love you gave someone*
Downstairs, the front door opened. Ethan walked through. He heard a song playing. It was coming from Theresa's room and as he walked to her room he could clearly make out the words. He peared in Theresa's room and watched her cry on the window sill looking at the rain while they both listened to the song. Ethan knew that Theresa was unaware of his presence.
*I thought by now the time
Would take away these lonely tears
I hope you're doing fine all alone
But where do I go from here, cause*
*Without you I'm not okay
Without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place
Without you*
Ethan hated seeing Theresa in such pain. Pain that he had caused.
Theresa looked out the rain-tinted window and wondered where Ethan was. Theresa imgined him with Gwen's arms around him and she blurst into more tears.
Ethan remembered what Theresa had said once, before Ethan proposed to her, '...Just when I think the pain is over something else happens...I can't take it any more." Ethan remembered that Rebecca had set Theresa up to find him in bed with Gwen
Ethan had almost lost her many times. Too many. Between the time when she said she couldn't take it anymore and the time he barely got her back after she had boarded that airplane, he wondered if she could ever forgive him.
*Well I never thought I'd be
Lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me
That they life you promised was a lie*
Theresa thought that Ethan meant every word he had ever said to her. She still thought that way.
"I'm so sorry Ethan..." She said to herself, "I just wish..." She trailed off because she knew that Ethan was probably in Gwen's arms and couldn't hear her now anyway.
*Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
That I'm better off
Wtihout you
'Cause baby I can't live*
Still Theresa said aloud, "I wish you could hear me Ethan."
Ethan heard her say this, "I love you...never wanted to hurt you..." Her words were muffled my tears, "I'm so sorry..."
*Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place
Without you
Without you*
"Theresa," Ethan said, making his presence known, "I'm sorry too."
*Note: Again, I do not own the song, it's sung my Dixie Chicks and you've probably heard it before. I didn't write the entire song down though, only the parts that I felt fit. :)
Ethan couldn't believe what his...father...no, not his father...was telling him. Ethan was enraged. He couldn't believe that everyone he held dear had lied to him. He felt like his whole life had been nothing but lies. He felt weird. He felt like from then on he would be Sam Bennett's son, but he always had been in the first place.
He also felt stupid. He saw Theresa leave. Ethan couldn't believe what he himself had said. He knew that Theresa was just trying to protect him but he just had to say things...he was confused.
Finally Ethan said, "Listen! I have all the facts and I know where everybody stands on this. How could you?! All of you! I just can't believe this...can't believe this..."
Then next thing Ethan knew Gwen was up against his side and she said, "I know Ethan. I can't believe it either. I had no idea."
Ethan just looked at her puzzled. Ethan thought that he had all the facts. He thought that somebody had [told] the tabloid that Ethan was Sam Bennett child. Julian or anyone else who knew did not tell Ethan or anyone else that the tabloid found out by e-mail.
Rebecca then came up to Ivy and said, "Ivy! How could you?"
Then Gwen looked at Ethan and said, "We have got to find out who sent that awful e-mail."
Ethan looked at her puzzled. "E-mail?"
"Yes, e-mail?" Julian repeated, "We never said anything about an e-mail."
That's when the reporter came forward and said, "Yes Gwen, how did you know that we got the information by e-mail?" Then the reported thought to himself, 'This story goes deeper than we thought. Why don't I just make it more dishy?!'
Gwen was cornered.
****
Later that evening, when Gwen, Rebecca, and all their guests where gone, Ethan alone in his room trying to sort out his feelings.
Sam Bennett left with his distraut wife. Ethan supposed that they would go home and talk things out. Ethan didn't know whether Sam was going to talk to him.
Ethan couldn't take waiting around. He had to talk to Sam.
Ethan knew it was late but he knew that Sam must not have been asleep.
It was beginning to rain as well. As Ethan came to the Bennett hom Sam was already outside on the front porch bench. Sam had his head in his hands as Ethan said timidly, "Cheif Bennett?"
Sam looked up with a face of ackwardness, "Uh-Ethan." There was a pause before Sam said, "We better talk things out."
They did. For about a half hour they spoke. Sam said that Grace was resting and that they had decided to talk more and tell the kids everything tomorrow.
So after Ethan left they shoke hands. Sam had said that he would come by the next day, hopful with Grace.
So Ethan walked in the pouring rain. He felt better after talking with Sam. He knew that they had a long way to go. Ethan didn't know what was to become of his mother after tomorrow. Sam made Julian allow her to stay in the Crane manison that night. That night.
Ethan checked his watch. It read: 3:23am.
Ethan still felt something missing. He knew what if was to. His own words rang in his ears, "I can't marry you."
Had he said those words? To Theresa?
Ethan now knew that Gwen and Rebecca had planned for him to dump Theresa. Ethan thought in the rain about Theresa.
As he looked down the road, he knew exactly what he had to do.
****
Theresa couldn't sleep. She almost laughed at the idea of her actually sleeping after what had happened. She almost laughed at the idea of moving after the hurt she felt for her and Ethan. She almost laughed at the idea of breathing in and out, day after day, without Ethan. Almost.
She was sitting on her window sill looking out the window at the rain pouring down. Tears streaked down her face, replacing dried ones.
A familar song rang out from the radio...
*I've sure enjoyed the rain
But I'm looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain
When you lose the love you gave someone*
Downstairs, the front door opened. Ethan walked through. He heard a song playing. It was coming from Theresa's room and as he walked to her room he could clearly make out the words. He peared in Theresa's room and watched her cry on the window sill looking at the rain while they both listened to the song. Ethan knew that Theresa was unaware of his presence.
*I thought by now the time
Would take away these lonely tears
I hope you're doing fine all alone
But where do I go from here, cause*
*Without you I'm not okay
Without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place
Without you*
Ethan hated seeing Theresa in such pain. Pain that he had caused.
Theresa looked out the rain-tinted window and wondered where Ethan was. Theresa imgined him with Gwen's arms around him and she blurst into more tears.
Ethan remembered what Theresa had said once, before Ethan proposed to her, '...Just when I think the pain is over something else happens...I can't take it any more." Ethan remembered that Rebecca had set Theresa up to find him in bed with Gwen
Ethan had almost lost her many times. Too many. Between the time when she said she couldn't take it anymore and the time he barely got her back after she had boarded that airplane, he wondered if she could ever forgive him.
*Well I never thought I'd be
Lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me
That they life you promised was a lie*
Theresa thought that Ethan meant every word he had ever said to her. She still thought that way.
"I'm so sorry Ethan..." She said to herself, "I just wish..." She trailed off because she knew that Ethan was probably in Gwen's arms and couldn't hear her now anyway.
*Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
That I'm better off
Wtihout you
'Cause baby I can't live*
Still Theresa said aloud, "I wish you could hear me Ethan."
Ethan heard her say this, "I love you...never wanted to hurt you..." Her words were muffled my tears, "I'm so sorry..."
*Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place
Without you
Without you*
"Theresa," Ethan said, making his presence known, "I'm sorry too."