*One Headlight*
AnimeCat: I got an offer for this to be on a TrowaxMidii site! *dances*
Now that my exams are over…here we go!
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~ She said it's cold, it feels like Independence Day, ~
AC 202
"I hate it here." She said quietly. Trowa, who had been absentmindedly studying a ladybug crawling from leaf to leaf, looked up at her from his sprawled out position on the grass. Midii sat upright, supporting herself up by her arms extended behind her. Her gaze was fixated n a collection of buildings a few miles from the hill they'd stopped at.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"It's false. The whole colony….it's…I just hate it." Midii faltered.
"Why don't you move to Earth, then?"
Midii smiled crudely. "Because it's the colony my beloved yet foolish little brother died for."
"So you're tied to the colony because Nareru died for it?" Trowa questioned, watching her. Her eyes flickered with emotions.
Anger…hatred…sadness…despair…
She turned to him, and the emerald colors flickered with new emotions.
Joy…love…happiness…hope…
~ And I can't break away from this parade ~
Trowa honestly didn't know what relationship he had with Midii. He knew how much Midii loved him, and he knew exactly how he felt about her.
The problem was not how he felt about her.
The problem was his confusion at his future with her.
And like she had been reading his mind, an ability he always amusedly wondered if she did possess considering she did this so often,
"Trowa…where do you see us going from here?" She asked softly.
He didn't meet her gaze. "I'm not really sure, Midii. I can't answer that"
She smiled faintly. "I understand…"
"I…" He tried tensely. She stood up, dusting dirt and grass from her skirt.
She looked down at him. "Do you think we should try and figure it out?"
"We should…but not now, okay, Midii?" Trowa choked out.
"Okay." She said smoothly, her voice seemingly flat.
She helped him up, and they walked silently back to the car, with Trowa's mind a torturing maze of pained confusion.
~ But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me ~
AC 202, 3 weeks later
Finally being able to be the driver rather than passenger, Trowa could only smile. Midii's crazy driving had made him almost loose his stomach on more than one occasion. Now she sat impatient in the passenger's seat, drumming her fingers on her knees.
He'd begun arranging a surprise from that day three weeks back. He'd told her an hour ago, and now they were traveling to the shuttle port, headed for Earth…
She turned her head to him, a strand of hair falling into her face only to be brushed back with annoyance. "I still can't believe you're doing this, Trowa." She said fondly, her eyes shining with adoration. Trowa kept his eyes on the road, still smiling.
"It's not that big of a deal, Midii…" He tried to sound passive but the tone failed in his throat. Damn, he thought, abashed, I'm starting to sound like her!!
"No, really…this means a lot more than you could possibly understand…" Midii continued, now staring out the window. They were catching a late flight, the earlier flight had been canceled. She watched the goings-on outside her window as they drove, city lights dancing on her face with a strange sense of beauty. For a moment she looked mystifying. Magical somehow. With shadows framing her face and the multicolored lights playing tag on her face and upper torso. Her eyes were soft, her lips half-smiling, a contented look…one too happy to truly express it.
She started humming that song she loved so much. The one that gave Trowa an uncomfortable sense of déjà vu…
"I see the exit we're getting off at," He commented rhetorically. She just continued humming, nodding in a strange way. Up once, down once, then returning to the casual position(1).
Trowa sighed inwardly. He had the strangest feeling. It hung over his head like the executioner's ax. A feeling that maybe this trip wouldn't go over as well as he wanted it to. He'd left Earth for the same reason Midii wanted to go. His dark past of death, destruction and lost innocence. His attempt at leaving it behind was to return to his colony…he was returning for her.
For Midii.
To make her happy…
"Because you love her!!" Every sense he had as a living, breathing creature told him this daily. His being, existence…his salvation depended on the emotions she was helping him rediscover.
The boy with no past and no future called Nanashi only lived day by day. There was no reason or desire to look toward a better future. He didn't feel anything, nothing for life, anything for battle. He didn't feel the lack of emotions because he felt nothing. He was empty. As Midii had told him.
He had been a soldier because he knew how to be. Not because of some inner lust for battle.
~ Through this maze of ugliness and greed ~
Becoming a Gundam pilot…the others and Catherine had helped him rediscover life and emotions as well. Friendship, family, caring, compassion, concern…happiness…the most important of all.
He glanced at Midii through the corner of his eyes. Her being with him….her loving him…it brought even more of the feelings he'd never even known he'd been missing. Defined better, different levels of happiness and love. Other ones he only shared with her.
He did know how much this trip meant to her. He knew exactly.
She was there with Trowa. He was taking her to the place that had held so much pain for him, and she would be there now should he feel that pain again. He was her light that kept her eyes shielded from her own painful past, as she would be his.
~ And I see the sign up ahead at the county line bridge ~
The colony was her hell, the earth was his.
She could never leave the colony. Her brother's death bound her there.
He could leave the earth…but his mind…his subconscious would always return there…
Bound to opposite places, drawn to the opposite, they met in the middle…the connection held, and together, traveling back to either place was nothing but a mere obstacle in their love…
~ Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead ~
AC 205
~ We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothing left ~
Turning his head slightly, he saw Yuuki and Risou standing close to the grave of their sister. Their eyes were bloodshot, their skin pale, and the younger Yuuki was almost to tears again. Trowa could hear his choking breath all the way from where he stood.
Risou turned around, and saw Trowa. His pale green eyes narrowed.
Even though he invited me, he doesn't seem so happy to see me, Trowa thought. Risou tapped Yuuki on the shoulder and gestured toward Trowa and Catherine who stood some feet from him, standing in idle silence watching the trees. Yuuki turned, and surprised Trowa immensely by smiling. It must have been Yuuki, then. He realized.
Yuuki took a step toward him, and Risou grabbed his arm and stopped Yuuki in his tracks. They exchanged a quiet word or two before Yuuki tugged away from Risou's grasp and walked to Trowa. The younger boy extended a trembling hand, which Trowa shook.
"I'm Yuuki…we never met…Midii talked about you a lot…showed me a lot of pictures." Yuuki said, trying to be friendly.
"Same…" Trowa answered, "I'm so sorry, Yuuki… What happened?"
Yuuki sighed, and his eyes drifted to the gravestone.
Midii Une
AC 180 - AC 205
Loved by many, always to be in their hearts.
"Doc says her heart just kind of gave out." He whispered. "I guess he's right…she worked harder than a grown woman when she was just a kid. She…she gave us everything… She never gave up…"
Trowa looked up into the sky. "And she got her wish…"
"Buried on Earth." Yuuki choked. "Last time I spoke to her she made me and Risou promise not to bury her on 'the Goddamn colony'."
Yuuki began to fish through his pockets. "She also talked about you a lot when she was in the hospital…I knew I should invite you…but Risou was kind of holding on to what she used to say when she first got back home a few years ago."
Trowa lowered his head. "Which was pretty foul, wasn't it?"
Yuuki laughed hoarsely. "There were more tears than words…" Yuuki locked eyes with him, "You meant a lot to her."
"Yuuki, you don't know how much I regret it--"
Yuuki shook his head. "You don't have to tell me. Look, she gave me this," He pulled out a small, flat white box from his pocket. "For you. That's how I convinced Risou to let you come…I wasn't about to send this through mail."
Trowa took the small box in his hands, far too scared to think about opening it. "Thanks…" Trowa breathed.
Yuuki's words hit him again. "Doc says her heart just kind of gave out…She never gave up…"
The pain is over, Midii… He thought harshly, studying the small box so tightly gripped in his hands, You held on for so long…everything is okay now…
~ She hit the end- it's just her window ledge ~
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AnimeCat: Okay, one more chapter will do it…*sniffle* Thanks to Neya, who REALLY helped me when I got stuck!!
Review!! Can I have 7?? The other chapters both got 7…can we keep that up? ^_~
1- This is how John Coffey nods, ya know, from The Green Mile? *scratches head* Well, I dun remember if he did in the movie but in the book he did.