Not Enough- Part 2: Tai's POV
"God Matt I am such an idiot!" I exclaimed and started banging my head on the table. What was I thinking! I hoped she didn't get the wrong idea when I said that she was only her.
"Well what the freak did ya think she'd be thinking?" Matt asked me.
"I don't know! I don't know!" I yelled. God! I'm having a bloody mental breakdown!
"Man, you're screwed! Come on you got to tell her what you want! What is it that you want anyways?" Matt asked me.
Damn it was time to let someone know. "I want to go out with her but I'd probably screw things up and then that will screw up our friendship. I mean Sora's my best friend, I don't want to go out with her and then it'll screw everything up like Dawson's Creek," I said.
"Dawson's Creek?" Matt asked me.
"Yeah, third season Dawson-Joey-Pacey thing," I told him.
"Right…" Matt said. I guess I shouldn't have mentioned that I watched it. I guess it freaked him out.
"What'd be even worse would be that she'd get stolen away from me by my best friend," I said eyeing Matt.
"Whoa! Dude! No way! Sora's nice and all but I like Mimi," Matt said nervously.
"Like Joe and Izzy," I replied.
"Oh yeah them, grrrrr," Matt said. I thought I had problems, this boy is growling! "He he he he, sorry about that," Matt nervously chuckled.
"Whatever man, but what am I gonna tell her?" I asked him. I would have never thought that Matt would be very helpful in this situation but hell what do I know?
"You got to tell her what you just told me, it may hurt her but you have to. You're hurting her even more by making her wait," Matt said.
"You're right. Tomorrow I'm telling Sora exactly how I feel," I said.
"Great, now let's go!" Matt said.
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God! I've thought about how I'm going to tell Sora this all night and now I'm completely blank! Okay, breathe Tai, breathe! All right just go over it in your head and you can't go wrong right? Holy shit! What the hell am I thinking? Of course I'll screw up! Even if I say it over a million times I'll still screw up when I see her. Damn it here she comes! Ah crap! Be calm and Sora I'm sorry if this hurts you.
"Hi Tai," Sora said.
"Hey Sora," I managed to say.
"Look I need to talk to you," we both said. Hmmm I wonder what she's going to say.
"I'll go first," Sora insisted.
"All right," I said.
"Look Tai, for the past year I've kept this away from you. It's been really hard for me! I mean it's been hell! I see you practically everyday and I couldn't tell you. But now I had enough of that shit and I have to tell you, Tai I love you" Sora said.
Holy crap! Damn it this was what I was afraid of. Oh, God I'm sorry Sora but I have to tell you.
"Sora I care about you too but I think it'd be best if we stayed as friends. If we had a relationship and it ended our friendship would be ruined. I don't want to lose your friendship, it's the most important thing to me," I managed to say what I wanted. Now I just had to wait for her reply.
"Oh, no. Oh, no!" Sora said she started walking back.
"What is it?" I asked her.
"The whole 'it'd be best if we stayed as friends thing'. All it really means is that you don't return my feelings and you wish I never told you. Oh, God why the freak did I listen to Mimi," Sora said about near hysteria.
"Sora it's not like that! I really think it's best that we stay as friends," I told her. This is tearing me up inside!
"Friends? Friends? I don't want to be just friends with you Tai! I want you! Being friends isn't enough! It's just not enough!" Sora screamed.
"Sora I'm sorry," I managed to say. That was pathetic! "I'm sorry"? WTF???
"Whatever. I just wanna be alone right now Tai. Excuse me," Sora choked and ran off.
"Sora!" I called after her. It was pointless I know the last person she wants to see is me. Damn it!
I started banging my head on the locker. How stupid could I be!
End of Part 2